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Ambiguous Amends

Sakura's POV

I ran straight home, away from Eriol….Li-san. Straight home, once again Okaasan wasn't home. I was glad. I didn't want her to see me in this state.

Crying tearless tears into my pillow. I found myself hugging Spinel, for comfort.

What am I doing? Pitying myself?

I sat back up onto my bed, still holding onto Spinel. What exactly just happened?

Everything was going so well, I worked so hard. Or at least I felt I did. I feel like had made the greatest sand castle next to the sea only to have it swept away.

So, all this time Li-san was lying, maybe not lying. But he lied. Everything had started because of that lie.

I feel betrayed, I believed in him. If betrayal feels this bad, how would Tomoyo feel? I don't even want to imagine. All this time, I tried so hard to stay away from this Li Syaoran, individual that Tomoyo mentioned. But all this time, he was the only person I was associating with. I seriously, can't believe myself.

How can I do this to Tomoyo? Especially when I just promised her, I'll stay away from him. Yes, maybe I didn't know.

But, what now?

Maybe, I should apologize to Tomoyo. I really didn't mean to, I tried so hard…but….

She'll probably be so mad, heck; I'm mad at myself. How stupid, can one be?

There really is no limit to my stupidity. How can I tell Tomoyo? I was hoping we could be like old times, friends. Especially, now that we live under the same roof.

And if Tomoyo were to find out or by me telling her, results in her being mad at me. Which I can't really blame her. She had warned me, I agreed; and yet I….

I'm so stupid. My stupidity this time might result with me and Tomoyo having a misunderstanding between us. She'll be upset and okaasan. I'm such an idiot. Causing trouble everywhere I go. I just just….wish….

That I never met Li-san, Li-san never approached me??….no.

I don't wish that at all. I enjoyed those times that we shared together. I wish it could continue. He was my only friend that I could talk to, ever since I arrived here.

I really am selfish. So, selfish. I should be wishing that we've never met, that way everyone would be better off. But instead….

Tomoyo would be so upset, what kind of person am I? How could I…

And then there's Li-san. I admit, telling him that he was a thorn bush calling itself a rose, was harsh. But…

Why did he have to corner me into a corner?

A rose by any name would smell just as sweet.

True.

Maybe you could call me a hypocrite. I sure feel like one, especially after what happened and what Li-san said. I said, A rose by any name would smell just as sweet.

It can swing in both ways.

Li-san's. It doesn't matter that at first he told me his name was Eriol, when in reality his name is Li Syaoran. It wasn't like his attitude/ personality was a fake.

Like mine.

Hence, the name wouldn't matter.

My way. He was Li Syaoran. No matter what his name was, if I were to know he was Li Syaoran, I would have stayed away. Even if he was referred to as something else, I would have stayed away. Because he was Li Syaoran.

In other words, Li Syaoran by any other name was a "danger" zone.

If only I knew…

Did I over reacted, I don't know. Maybe. Especially, since it happened right after we agreed to be officially friends.

I just lost a friend. I just realized….

How ironic. But I asked for it. My sole purpose, of changing my appearance was so that no one would approach me. And here, I was making friends with Li-san.

Maybe, I am supposed to spend the rest of my life alone.

I lost my mother, father, brother; my family. My friends, are gone. Although it was my decision, they're gone.

And as a punishment for my wishful thinking of becoming friends with Li-san, lead me to this.

If I had stuck to my plan the first place, it would have probably made it easier for everyone.

So, I should, apologize to Li-san, if that is even his name. I shouldn't have referred him to as a thorn bush. It just came out.

I was never good with words, I should think before I talk.

Now, Tomoyo. What should I do? I'm scared. What can I do?

Act as if nothing had happened. And if she was to ask, deny it?

God, I'm not even capable of doing that.

Which then leaves me the last option, my option. It's the right thing to do.

If I were to pretend that nothing had happened, and that I had done nothing wrong. I wouldn't just be lying to myself, but Tomoyo as well.

I have to be honest.

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Syaoran's POV

Me, a thorn bush? I know I get intimidating at times, but a thorn bush. It couldn't be that.

She had compared me to a thorn bush. The thorn bush in comparison to a rose.

Thorn bushes are known to be dangerous, which then makes me dangerous.

Is she afraid of the fan girls at school?

True, they can get scary but as soon as they realize/see that it is was my choice, they'll back down. They respect my wishes. The never will do anything overly drastic.

Maybe she was scared she'll ruin my reputation.

But if she was afraid of that, she wouldn't have agreed in the first place to us being friends.

Why am I even making up excuses for her?

She was the one who poured water all over me. After she had left, people around me were all staring. Some even had the guts to mouth the word "rejected" to me, as I exited the café. Fine, it was only one guy. But that didn't stop me, from punching him. He deserved it, he should had minded his own business. That's what you get, for being nosy. Especially, if you're a guy.

She was the one who had lied. She had agreed that a rose by any name would smell just as sweet. Just because my name is Li Syaoran doesn't make me inferior to Eriol. Heck, she doesn't even know who Eriol is, at least not to my knowledge. I get it, if I was imposing Eriol, when she expected Eriol. But she didn't. So, what was her problem?

She broke her word. She said, she considered me as her friend. Oh, really? So, just because my name is Syaoran, changes everything? Because my name is Li Syaoran instead of Eriol, gives you permission to pour water over me? I don't think so.

Or maybe she's the kind to despise the rich. Well, she doesn't exactly come from a poor background but it is nowhere near rich. So maybe, she despises the rich, hence when she found out my name is Li Syaoran she behaved the way she did.

If that was case, screw her.

I had thought she was the kind to not judge a book by its cover. The kind who thought it was what's within that truly mattered. I guess not. I guess, I was wrong.

I hate it when I'm wrong with these things. It makes me wonder, how the human mind really works.

But, but…..why does it feel like I'm trying to convince myself, that she's that kind of person?

Well, I guess, I too was at wrong. I had cornered her at first.

I had been over confident. I believed she would respond in a positive way. Accepting, me for who I am, not for what I am.

I guess, it only makes it more unbelieving if one didn't expect it at all. I should have expected a yes or no, from her. Instead, I had only expected one reply. Acceptance.

I had wanted someone to accept me for who I was, not for what I am.

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Tomoyo's POV

I returned home at 8:30. It's not that late, even though I did leave early in the morning. But now that, that "thing" lives under the same roof as I, I want to stay out as long as I wanted. When I arrived home, I was informed, mother was still at work, and Sakura arrived just before I did.

I had my servants bring up my food, like I said, I didn't want to risk being in the same scene as "her". I'll probably lose my appetite.

As my food arrived, I turned on my television as I got ready to eat.

My phone then rang.

"What's up?" I said, as I realized it was Chiharu.

"Moyo, you're gonna be so pissed." Was my reply.

An hour and a half later.

That bitch. Chi was wrong. I wasn't pissed. Try timing that by 1000, then plus 7.

Sakura Kinomoto, how dare she? I warned her. She even has the guts to go back on her own words. In a matter of 3 weeks.

Let's rewind a bit, shall we? But you have probably figured it out, already.

After my phone call with Chiharu, I still ended up losing my appetite. Not because of the sight of Sakura, but it is still because of her.

Apparently, Chiharu had seen it with her own two eyes. On her way home, through the poor district. She had witnessed Syaoran and Sakura together. Sitting together at the same table. Chatting away.

Seeing this, Chiharu had gone in and tried to get the closest seat possible without them knowing. She didn't want to act too soon. Especially, by herself. Her seat, was close enough to witness the scene but wasn't close enough to listen in onto the conversation.

But she didn't have to, to see what was going on. It was obvious, they were close. Especially seeing that, Sakura was a new student and this was only her 3rd week at school.

That whore.

But the worst bit was, she threw her cup of water onto Syaoran, and embarrassed him in front of the public.

Yes, she is a sneaky one, more devious than me. How the hell did she even approach Syaoran, within only 3 weeks?

She had poured water over Syaoran.

Does that mean Syaoran had tried to ask her out but she said no, but he persisted. Hence, the result?

But why, the hell am I even wondering about what had happened, when the bitch herself was under the same roof as I?

Hell, is paying an early visit.

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Normal POV

As Tomoyo exited her room, she made sure her mind was clear. She knew her aim, and she was going to get it.

But halfway there, she stopped. Looking around she found a servant nearby.

She asked him, if her mother was at home. She wasn't. She was even told, her mother wouldn't be returning for tonight. At that Tomoyo smiled.

She knew that if her mother was at home, she couldn't act. Because by doing so, she would only make herself look bad. Even though, Sakura was at fault.

She thanked the servant, and told him, they could leave early. Seeing that they had worked so hard recently. She had needed at excuse.

Of course the servant was more than eager to leave. The pay may have been good, but the hours weren't.

After that, Tomoyo had made sure the servants were gone.

She then continued on, her way.

While in the room of our protagonist. Sakura was practicing on what to say, and how to say it. She needed to prepare.

But as she prepared and practiced, it only revealed to her the way things would turn out, and somehow it didn't turn out so well. Majorit of her ideas had ended up with Tomoyo crying.

That Sakura, didn't want. She'd rather Tomoyo take it out on her. Slap her, if she had wanted, but that would only stain her hand.

As this continued, Sakura also realized her determination to tell Tomoyo was decreasing.

At that point she faced the door and walked towards it.

What will be, will be. Was her thought, as she opened the door.

The particular door, at that particular time moment had movement on both sides. The door knob was being turned, on both sides.

"Dadouji-san." A whisper had came from Sakura, as she realized Tomoyo on the other side of the door.

It was too soon.

"Kinomoto, we need to talk."

Only a nod was given. As Sakura opened her door wide for Tomoyo to enter.

"Would you like a seat?" Sakura said, as she closed the door.

Tomoyo hadn't replied and had taken a seat at the end of Sakura's bed.

At this point Sakura, knew she had to speak first. In order to lessen the misunderstanding. But then, she also knew it would have been rude. What to do?

"Urm…Dadouji-san. Do you mind if I speak first?"

At this Tomoyo, knew Sakura was going to confess. How Sakura was going to say how it wasn't her fault. Using an excuse, like she hadn't known or something. Some excuse. But either way, Tomoyo wanted to see what Sakura had to say. She wasn't going to fall for it.

"Go ahead."

Sakura was relieved, seeing that she got permission to speak first. She appreciated the generosity given by Tomoyo.

"Gomen. Gomene. Gomenasai." (Sorry)

"Why, what for?" came the "supposed" confused reply.

Sakura, felt her insides clenched. Tomoyo hadn't found out. She had came into her room probably for another objective. And here, she was imposing her objective. Maybe, she had came in for a friendly chat. Nevertheless, she knew she had to do it. From watching movies, she knew if she were to leave it for later, it'll only get worst.

"Li-san. I've made contact with him."

It was simple.

With her clear head, and upper hand. Tomoyo, decided to twist the games. She was going to play along. Let's see who'll be the last one standing.

"How could you?" was her reply, as she force tears to slowly come out.

"Tomo…Dadouji…I…I'm sorry. I swear, I didn't mean to go back on my words."

Sakura was determined, into not bringing Syaoran into the argument. If she was, it was to a minimum. Not wanting to upset Tomoyo any further.

"I can't believe you, how could you do this to me?" Tomoyo's act, continued.

"Dadouji-san, I swear. I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you! Anything. Please, forgive me" Sakura said, with her head down and her hands clenched.

"Please, forgive me." She repeated.

Finally, Tomoyo started to cease her amount of sobs and tears. She was going to make Sakura eat her words. She was going to make things go her way, if it was the last thing she did.

"Anything? Do you really mean what you say?" Tomoyo had sobbed out.

"Yes, anything. I really am sorry."

"I don't know. How do I know, you're not going to go back on your words. Just like this time?"

Sakura realized Tomoyo's word had a point. She couldn't promise anything. So far the only promise she kept decently well, was the promise to her mother. And that promise falters from time to time. She was a failure.

"You're right. I don't have any rights, to make any promises."

Shit. Was Tomoyo's thought. She can't lose her now. She wanted Sakura to eat her own words. She wanted Sakura, to owe her a favor. She had a feeling, it'll do her good in the future.

"I still trust you."

Tomoyo had then decided, she was going to be her "friend" at home. Home only. Well, more like when she believed it was necessary. Like, now.

"Really, thank you. Then, I swear. I'll owe you one. And I'll try my best, to keep my word. I swear." Sakura said, with much appreciation.

She raised her pinky finger towards, Tomoyo, the to seal the deal.

To seal the deal. Tomoyo hated it. It brought back unwanted memories, but it had to be done. It was childish. But once again, it had to be done. With that thought in mind, she herself forcefully raised her own pinky finger.

And they hoop it around each other's finger.

Both smiled. One with hope. And the other with ambiguous sweetness.

Sakura couldn't believe Tomoyo's generosity. She hadn't imagined this. Tomoyo really was too nice.

Or as she thought.

As Tomoyo, grinned. Sakura had fallen for the act.

"So, you're forgiven. What are you going to do about Syaoran?"

Tomoyo had purposely said Syaoran instead of Li-san like Sakura. Secretly, hinting to her that Syaoran and her had a close relationship.

Sakura hadn't been expecting that question. So, like always, she answered it with honesty.

"I really don't know. What do you think, I should do?"

At this point Tomoyo realized it was too late to tell Sakura to stay away from what was hers. Well, what was going to be hers. And if she was to tell her to keep away, the possibility of Syaoran knowing was pretty high. Hence, she'll at a disadvantaged point.

"I'll tell you what. You can still associate with him. But don't say, I didn't warn you. Syaoran is known to be quite the playboy. He may be settling now, but it's because we're in our final year, so he has no time to play around."

Tomoyo grinned at her reply; it was true, to a point of course.

"Oh, I see."

Sakura didn't know what to say. She believed otherwise, but she also believed Tomoyo.

"How about, you update me on your relationship with him. That way, it'll be better."

Tomoyo knew it was weak, she was running out of ideas. She hadn't planned it to be this way. Quite the opposite. She was thinking somewhere on the lines of "catfight".

"Okay. Sounds good to me."

Sakura had eagerly agreed, seeing that Tomoyo was opening up to her and that there was still a chance, for her and Li-san to continue being friends.

The two girls then smiled. One, as a sign of gratitude, the other as to reassure the other she was genuine.

"I'm kind of tired." Tomoyo said, as she yawned. Signaling the end of a conversation.

Sakura took the hint.

"I'll walk you out." Sakura had offered.

With that, Sakura walked Tomoyo to her door.

But as they got close to the door, Tomoyo had made a halt.

Tomoyo being the person she was, needed to raise things up a notch. Just in case.

"Oh, I almost forgot."

At this, Sakura remembered. It was Tomoyo who had came to her room. And not the other way around. Like it should have been.

"Oh, you wanted to see me for a reason. But I rudely steered the conversation to my way. I'm so sorry. What was it you wanted to talk to me, about?"

"You can call me Tomoyo. But I'm guessing that you only want to call me that, only when we're alone or at home. You don't want the other students knowing about…. your "secret". Do you?"

Done, conniving. Tomoyo smirked, secretly. It was obviously hinting something, but it could also be taken as concern.

And knowing Sakura, she only saw it one way. Concern.

True enough, Sakura took it as concern and understanding.

Sakura didn't want to drag Tomoyo down. She didn't want to wish ill on others, especially in this case Tomoyo. She was thankful for Tomoyo's way of thinking. She didn't want to bring it up. Telling her, she wasn't really comfortable with calling her without any formalities in public display.

"Thank-you. And you many call me, Sakura; anytime you want. I won't mind."

And on cue, well for one particular person; they smiled.

"I better get to bed. See you."

"You're right. It is getting late."

At this, Tomoyo had exited Sakura's door. Sakura stayed at the door, watching Tomoyo leave.

"Night, Tomoyo." Sakura had cried, on instinct.

Sakura smiled, she had missed calling Tomoyo, Tomoyo. Especially aloud.

"Night." Tomoyo replied, not turning back.

She needed time to getting use to calling Sakura, Sakura. As she continued towards her room, Tomoyo mentally patted herself on her shoulder. She deserved it.

Hell wasn't going to pay an early visit. But, it'll come.

Her plan was simple, she was going to get Syaoran through Sakura.

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