A/N: I was about to post this yesterday but failed for some reason (eating ice cream I guess ;) I believed that it was for the better, though, because at least 300 words were added in the chapter today.

Well, revising over and over, what can I say? (shrugs)

I heard people calling me for snacks. It's snack time! I guess I'll eat again haha ;) Want some? ;) It's my third treat for this week, Wednesday to Friday. Now that I think about it, "hey guys, were you taking advantage of me?!"

I am happy ;)

Anyway, better post this chapter before break time is over and nothing is left for me (they wouldn't dare!). This is my treat to you people ;)

Chapter 27. Confusions

"That felt nice…"

It was a breathless moan that brought shivers in her spine and fueled her to teased some more.

"How about this love, do you like this?" She whispered as she moved her lips on her neck. She was rewarded by another throaty moan. It was music to her ears.

"Yes…"

"Shall I move lower?" She teased breathlessly, moving her lips lower again.

"Yes!"

Yumi woke up with a start. And when she met Sachiko's blue eyes gazing at her worriedly, she blushed furiously and avoided her gaze.

Why did she dream like that? Maybe she had been thinking about Sachiko so much that her dream was, her dream was…she didn't want to think about it! She was embarrassed to even think about it. What would Sachiko say if she found out?

She wasn't dreaming about Sachiko crying anymore. She was dreaming of her k…

Yumi shook her head.

"G-good morning, Sachiko. Please excuse me, I'm going to the bathroom," Yumi said uneasily and as if the bed was on fire, she immediately stood and went straight to the bathroom without waiting for Sachiko's reply. Once safely locked inside, she leaned at the door and released a breath of relief.

Why on earth did she dream about Sachiko, about Sachiko…of her and Sachiko…

Yumi closed her eyes tightly and covered her ears. But even with closed eyes, she could still see Sachiko's image. And even with covered ears, she could hear Sachiko's soft voice calling her name huskily.

She shivered as she felt again what she felt in her dream, of Sachiko touching her, kissing her. She could feel Sachiko's soft skin against hers, making her feel hot with desire.

Without thinking coherently, she went straight to the shower and let the cold water ran through her, only to berate herself later for having her night dress wet.

And worse, she hadn't brought anything to wear.

With a towel around her, Yumi went out of the bathroom, only to falter in her steps at seeing that Sachiko was waiting for her at the latter's room.

"I-I'll just get dress," she stammered, feeling warm again at seeing Sachiko's intent gaze on her.

Sachiko watched Yumi from the corner of her eyes as the latter started to get some clothes with unsteady fingers while at the same time trying to keep the towel around her in place. She felt an urge to pull the towel and throw it away so that her view wouldn't be obstructed.

'Yumi, you need not to hide anything from me. I've seen it all, touched them, loved them,' Sachiko thought. And just a few minutes ago, wasn't Yumi dreaming about her in an erotic way? She had been awoken by Yumi moaning her name seductively that it had taken everything within her to not respond and make Yumi's dream a reality. It had made her whole being burn with desire.

"Yumi."

"Y-yes?" Yumi said nervously, stopping from her disorganized rummaging through her traveling bag.

Sachiko didn't speak for quite some time. She remained staring at Yumi intently, pondering on how to put words to the things that she wanted to say, trying her best not to think about Yumi looking so beautiful and desirable with her damp hair and skin.

"Would you take a walk with me later? If you like, that is," she said, though it wasn't really what she wanted to say.

"Of course," Yumi said quickly, then flushed at her eagerness. However, looking at Sachiko, she didn't regret it but rather felt an excitement bubble within her.

Sachiko smiled, before she too, went to the bathroom and took a shower.

Yumi immediately put her clothes on while she was alone at the room.

It was so quiet. The others at Sachiko's house were probably still asleep. She was eager to see the view outside the house.

With Sachiko.

She was so worried and nervous yesterday that she hadn't paid any attention to the scenery as they traveled here. All she knew was that Sachiko's house was in a high place.

Minutes ticked by.

Yumi remained inside the room even after she was all set for the day ahead. She was torn between wanting to wait for Sachiko there and wanting to be away from Sachiko to calm herself. However, despite being scared and confused with what she felt for Sachiko, the want to see Sachiko as soon as possible won and she anxiously waited for the latter to come out of the bathroom. She didn't want to be away from Sachiko even for just a moment.

"Why?" She asked in frustration.

Of course seeing as she was alone, only silence answered her question.

When Sachiko came out of the bathroom with her robe on and drying her hair with a towel, her skin moist from the bath, Yumi doubted her decision of staying inside Sachiko's room. She couldn't take her eyes off Sachiko. Even if she looked away, soon her eyes wandered back to the beautiful black-haired woman. And when Sachiko took off her robe, revealing her in lacy underthings, her face flamed really hot. She shot to her feet in a hurry.

"I-I'll wait for you outside," Yumi stammered, then headed to the door so fast as if the devil was after her. She didn't stop until she was downstairs, safely away from Sachiko's tempting flesh. She sat at the couch, breathing hard.

"Why? Why am I having feelings like this to her?" She asked again in frustration.

Minutes passed again full of confusions and unanswered questions. Yumi didn't know what to think nor do with her thoughts and feelings. She tried not to think too much and concentrated in keeping a calm façade.

When Sachiko came downstairs, Yumi was calmer outside while inside, she was still in turmoil.

Together with Sachiko, they went outside and took a walk at Sachiko's property. Sachiko's house was in a high place, as if standing alone at the top of the world. And the left side of the house was overlooking a lake. The place was breathtaking.

"This way, Yumi."

Sachiko led Yumi to a nice spot not too far away from her house, the spot where they could have a closer look to the beautiful scenery. They carefully walked in silence in the sloping area. After more than 5 minutes of walk, Yumi gasped with admiration at the sight that greeted her eyes.

"Sachiko, this is so beautiful," Yumi exclaimed as she took in the view.

They were at a lower part of Sachiko's property, which offered a closer look to the clear water of the lake. She could see different kinds of fish at the water, playing and swimming around. She closed her eyes for a moment and inhaled the fresh morning air.

"I'm glad you like it, Yumi," Sachiko said tenderly as she watched Yumi.

"It's paradise. And the plants and trees around, they are so green. This place is so peaceful. I wish I could live in a place like this," Yumi said in awe, only to blush at her last sentence.

"I-I mean," she stammered, not knowing what to say next.

"You can. Forever if you want," Sachiko said softly, holding Yumi's gaze.

Yumi's eyes widened as her heart started to beat fast again. Really. Ever since she came in Sachiko's place, her heart was doing overdrive that it left her worried at times.

The silence that followed Sachiko's words was deafening. Yumi didn't know what to say. She just stared at Sachiko with surprised eyes as she felt something warm inside her. Again, many questions and feelings so confusing fought within her.

She froze when Sachiko moved towards her and stopped right in front of her. She raised her head to met Sachiko's gaze.

"Sachiko," she whispered.

Sachiko responded by raising her hand and cupping her left cheek. She closed her eyes and leaned her cheek at the touch before she could even think about it.

They remained standing there for a full minute or more, with Yumi's eyes closed and Sachiko cupping her cheek.

Sachiko gazed at Yumi longingly. She wanted so much to feel Yumi close to her. She wanted more than holding her cheek. She wanted to feel more of Yumi. She wanted to…shaking all the thoughts away, Sachiko fought hard with her heart and body's desire. However, the more she stared at Yumi's endearing and beautiful face, the more she wanted to feel more of her.

Pretty soon though, Sachiko's body decided for her and she leaned closer to Yumi.

Yumi's eyes snapped open when she felt Sachiko's warm breath fanning her face, only to closed them again as she felt Sachiko's lips touched hers in a gentle caress. She gasped softly.

"Yumi," Sachiko murmured after the brief kiss. Her eyes were closed too, as she savored the feeling brought by the touching of her lips against the lips of the person she loved the most. It was just a brief touched, but the warmth and emotions it brought to her was overwhelming. It was pure bliss.

Yumi was in shocked. She didn't know what to think. She slowly opened her eyes and gazed at Sachiko who hadn't pulled back. Their faces were still close to each other. Their lips were just a breath apart. That minute distance immediately disappeared when Sachiko moved a bit closer, their lips touching again for a gentle kiss. It was firmer this time.

Yumi responded by closing her eyes again and kissing Sachiko back. All coherent thoughts, all questions, had left her at the brushed of Sachiko's lips. She couldn't think anymore. She could only feel. It was like being at home. It made her want for more.

"Sachiko…"

They kissed for what seemed an eternity, breaking only to breathe some air. And as they kissed some more, the kisses became passionate, hungry, demanding. Their hands were on each other, hugging each other tightly. If someone would see them right now, they would probably think that there was only one person there.

They shared their breath, their warmth.

A sound of water splashing broke the two apart. Both were breathing hard, both were with dazed eyes. And when Sachiko dazedly reached Yumi to kiss her again, Yumi pushed her gently, utter confusion written all over her face. The spell put on Yumi by the kiss had been broken and was replaced by turmoil of emotions that made her head ached so hard.

"Please, Sachiko. I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know what is going on with me. I'm getting more confuse, Sachiko," she said worriedly. She was in pain. By what reason, she didn't know. Definitely not by the kiss.

Desire disappeared from Sachiko's eyes at Yumi's words. She berated herself for her lack of control thus scaring Yumi.

"Oh Yumi, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for making you feel like that," she said as she pulled Yumi in a tight hug.

Yumi burrowed her face in Sachiko's neck.

"How come it feels so right to be in your arms, Sachiko? Tell me please, what really did happen to me before? To us? I know there's more than you're telling me," Yumi pleaded with pain in her voice.

Sachiko was quiet for a quite some time, before in a gentle voice, she said, "It's better if you're the one who'll find out, Yumi."

But Yumi was only half-listening to Sachiko. Her eyes had a faraway look as something crossed her mind.

"Stay with me forever…" Sachiko said softly, her eyes tender.

…

"I love you so much, my love," Sachiko whispered.

"Yumi?"

Yumi blinked when she felt Sachiko gently shaking her.

"Are you alright, Yumi?" Sachiko asked worriedly. She felt Yumi tensed in her hug, which made her worry and at the same time berate herself again for the hardship she was causing Yumi.

"I'm fine, Sachiko, it's just that…" Yumi trailed off. She wanted to ask Sachiko who the person she had said that she loved so much, the one she called my love, but she feared the answer. If it was another person, she would be hurt. If it was her…

"I think you're hiding important things from me, Sachiko, something that I should know even with my amnesia."

Sachiko avoided looking at her and instead, let her go and moved away from her. Silence enveloped them as Sachiko stared at the lake while Yumi kept her eyes locked on her.

"I'm sorry if I'm making it hard for you, Yumi," Sachiko apologized without looking at Yumi. Was that really easy to just say that she and Yumi loved each other more than friends and sisters before? She could see that Yumi was confused about everything. Her current state, her present knowledge of herself, and the feelings her mind couldn't remember but her heart could feel were creating havoc within her. Was she gay or not, that was something that the current Yumi couldn't resolve yet. And she didn't want to say what relationship they really had before. If she would be with the current Yumi, she wanted it not influenced by what she said but of what Yumi really felt. Though it would be much better if Yumi remembered her and what she was in Yumi's life.

"Sachiko…" Yumi didn't know what to say. One thing was for sure though. She didn't like the pained look that had crossed Sachiko's eyes before she moved away from her. No. Make it she hated the pained look in Sachiko. She didn't want to see it again.

"Let's go back. The others are probably awake now," Yumi said as she turned towards where they came from. True, she wanted to pressed answers to the questions going on in her mind, but she refrained from saying more. This may not be the right time. But she would never leave Sachiko's house until she had the answers.

A/N: Next time, the extent of Sachiko and Yumi's previous relationship will be revealed.

---Arvendell---

5 December 2008

3:00 PM