Previously:
"Hello?? Other people here? Can we go before I barf?" Jasper pleaded and Alice punched him.
"Going." Emmett pulled me into the car and on his lap. "Edward, do you mind driving?" He asked.
"Sure, since I'm a chauffer." Rosalie patted his arm lovingly.
"A hot chauffer." She kissed him.
"Are you ready to dance?" Emmett's cinnamon coated breath tickled my ear. I giggled.
"Sure?"
"You better be." He growled playfully he enveloped me in one of his huge bear hugs and leaned I to kiss him.
"Hem Hem. We're here." I looked past Emmett to see Jasper grinning at us from the seat in front of us. I suddenly noticed my surroundings. Music was blaring and there was a long line leading into the club. The bodyguard looked like he could beat up Emmett. (Not a pretty sight)
"Oh," I gasped. "That was fast. I hadn't noticed."
"Obviously." Edward scoffed. "You guys have been staring deeply into each others eyes for the past," he looked down at his Rolex watch "14minutes and 47seconds. It's like you haven't seen each other in years.
"Shut up! You're ruining the moment!" Alice squeaked excitedly, punching her brother in the shoulder. She paused, and looked passed all of us. The noise and people didn't seem to matter anymore. All of us were staring at her intently. A vision, a vision that had her glaring at me. "Bella."
"Yes?" I asked, as Alice drew out of the trance.
"Are you planning on meeting any mutts any time soon?"
"I…no." Mutts? I hadn't talked to any of the pack since Jacob had gone missing. He had been my tie to them and without him I probably wasn't accepted anymore. "They hate me."
"When Alice?" Edward demanded and I shot him a glance. He looked back at me momentarily realizing that it wasn't his job anymore to protect me.
"Tomorrow or something. I'm not sure." She whispered quietly looking at her hands. I stayed calm. There was no need to panic. Just stay calm. I told myself mentally.
"Well, in that case we can enjoy ourselves tonight right?" Rose flipped her hair, breaking the silence.
"Yeah I guess." Emmett said looking down at my expression. "Unless Bella's not up for it."
"No, I'm perfectly all right." I said quickly. I wanted to have fun. I wanted to dance with Emmett and NOTHING was going to get in the way of that. Not even Jacob, my ex-best friend. "Let's go." I pulled his hand and we stepped out of the car.
"Valet?" Rosalie clapped her hands together and two boys about my age appeared. Just like in the movies.
"Can we help you Beautiful?" The black haired one said sexily. Or in a voice that he thought was sexy. I snickered and Emmett dragged me towards the front.
Edward growled fiercely at him and I couldn't help giggling. "She's taken." He said coldly, wrapping his arm around her waist. Where had that come from? Since when did Edward act so overprotective of Rosalie? As if reading my thoughts my love shrugged and we reached the entrance, past all the kids and adults waiting in line.
"Son, there's a line." The security motioned us towards the back of the mile long line.
"Oh I know." Emmett said smoothly. Alice, Rosalie, Jasper and Edward came up behind us. "Here's our passes." VIP passes appeared in his hand, for the six of us.
"Oh right. You must be personal friends of the owner."
"Yes, that's right." Rosalie beamed at him and fluttered her eyes lashes.
"Can you please tone it done a bit Rose?" Edward hissed, "You're MY girlfriend. You don't have to flirt with every guy here."
Emmett let out a booming laugh. "That's how I used to feel. But Bella came along and made it better." He kissed me lightly on the nose.
Rosalie frowned, "Whatever, can we go in now?" I held Emmett's hand as we stepped into the loud and crowded club. Colored lights were flashing in every direction and the dance floor was crowded with couples. The bar was full of lonely and not to mention geeky teens. People that didn't really seem to fit in here. Not that I really did either but I at least looked the part.
"Hey, B. How about we get you a drink?" Emmett asked me as I watched the others step onto the dance floor.
"I'm fi-"
"A Shirley temple for my girlfriend please." Emmett pulled a crisp bill out of his back pocket.
"Emmett!" I complained, He put his finger to my lips. I didn't even like alcoholic drinks. Let alone a Shirley something or other.
"Just this once?" He pleaded and I gave in. I was such a push over. He grinned and held the drink for me as we went to a small table in the back of the club. "Drink" He ordered as we sat down.
"Do you want me drunk?" I questioned. He gave me an evil grin. "I DON'T even want to know."
"Okay then." I took a sip of the icy drink. Not bad. Could use a little sugar though. "See?" Emmett asked in utter contempt. "You DO like it,"
"Fine, It's okay." I gave in. He held my hand under the table and used his other hand to absentmindedly play with my hair. I waited for him to talk.
"Bella can I give you something?" I groaned and prepared myself for what was yet to come. Out of the pocket of his snoop dog jacket came a box. A little blue box. A GIFT. I realized.
"May I?"I nodded, not wanting to hurt his feelings. I'd done that enough these days. The box opened and I stared at the most breathtaking necklace and ring. I let out a short gasp,
"It's beautiful Em but I don't deserve it." I smiled down at the diamonds, touching them with the utmost care.
He guffawed, "You deserve better Bella." I wondered if this statement had an alternate meaning.
"I can't accept it though." I said sadly.
"Why not?" his eyes darkened, "Please wear them." He said softly, pleading with me.
"Well…" I knew I'd be giving in soon. "They are wonderful." He smiled widely and slipped the ring onto my finger. "This isn't an engagement ring is it?" I questioned him warily. I didn't want to push it away but if it had another meaning I couldn't wear it.
"No," he shook his head. "I wish. No, it's just a ring." His voice lowered and he dropped his head in embarrasement. "I wanted you to wear it because…" His eyes shone in the light. "To show you that I'll be here forever. I won't leave you Bella. And even if it's not an engagement ring it has a similar meaning but you don't have to wear it. It's okay. Nevermind. I should have listened to Edward." His voice shook. Emmett spoke this way when he was agitated. He needed to get everything out and the best way was fast.
"Oh Emmett." I hugged him tightly, "Of course I'll wear it!" I smiled happily. He let out a happy sigh. "You silly boy." I laughed light heartedly, "I didn't need a ring to tell me that. I knew that already."
He kissed my hand, "But still…"It was like watching a little boy on Christmas. I loved it when Emmett was this way. He radiated happiness. I too was happy with this, it was nice for it to feel official. "Read the inside." He said handing it to me. I turned it around to read the script hand writing written across the inner part.
You and I collide forever. Emmett.
I was close to tears, tears of happiness. I didn't want to ruin my look with them though.
"I love it. Will you help me with the necklace too?" I lifted up my sea of hair as he closed the clasp around my neck.
"Perfect." He sighed.
"Let's go dance." I smiled. Time to have fun! We waited for the next song and Emmett pushed us to the middle of the dance floor. Right under the disco ball. We became one dancing together, I felt like I was in a movie.
"You said you didn't know how to dance." Emmett said loudly over the blasting music.
"I just learned today." I shouted back.
He stared at me incredously, "No joke?" I shook my head. I threw my arms back around his neck and his arms snaked around my waist. Lower than I thought possible. It felt good though, to be loved, to be wanted to so much that he'd do that. I blushed and the red light streamed across my face.
"I love you." He whispered and kissed me deeply. I kissed him back passionately. It had been a long day.
"I love you too," I leaned my head against his chest, though it had nothing to do with the music. He hugged me closer.
"Thanks for coming Bella." Emmett said sincerely, my face was inches from his.
"I wanted to." He suddenly tensed and his arms tightened around me. Edward and Jasper were by his side in an instant.
"He's here." Edward growled. I realized who "he" was.
"Just act normal." Jasper said rapidly, "Act like we don't know he's here."
Emmett growled furiously "I can't believe he has the guts to show his face."
"Just calm down Em. Take deep breaths." I ran my hand along his arm and his expression softened.
"Calm. Calm." He repeated.
"Calm." I said with him.
"No." he roared.
"Calm." I insisted. I felt a tap on my shoulder. I tried to break away from Emmett's steel grasp. "Let go." I hissed. He automatically followed my command.
"Bella?" I turned around.
"Jacob?" I stared back at my best friend. Or more like ex-best friend. I hugged him and he pushed me away.
"We need to talk." He snarled. I looked back at Emmett. He was glowering at Jacob along with the rest of the Cullens.
"Outside." Jasper said calmly. We all headed out the back way, there was no one outside. Nothing other than a couple of trash cans. Emmett's hand crushed mine and I tried to keep from wincing. It looked like a scene right out of the Covenant. I gulped. Hopefully it wouldn't end like that scene too. Five vampires to one werewolf…you could guess who would win.
"What do you want Mutt?" Emmett asked, keeping his voice monotone. I looked at his expression. Every inch of his marble like body was stiff.
"I needed to talk to Bella." He watched me.
"Talk." Edward growled.
"I was sent by Charlie." He began.
"I don't want to hear about it." I cut in through gritted teeth. I didn't want to hear anything about Charlie. It only made the pain and guilt worse.
"You're hurting him Bella."
Anger rushed through me and I lost my temper, "I'M HURTING HIM?" I screeched. No one had anticipated my outburst. "It's not my fault you ran away and he blamed me! It's NOT my fault he cares more about YOU than he does me. It's his fault. He hurt me. AND NOW YOU'RE BLAMING ME?"
Jacob responded calmly but anger flashed in his eyes. He ignored my outburst. "It's always about you Bella." I blinked.
"Sure. Are you done now? Or do you have something else you'd like to say?" I knew he was lying. I never thought about myself. It was always others.
"Right." He nodded. "You think your such a martyr Bella. But do you know how many people you've hurt?" Every word cut into my heart. Because now he wasn't lying it was the truth. I kept a serene façade. I wasn't going to let him see me break apart.
"It's really a low blow to break up with Edward." He sneered his name. "And go for his brother."
I tried to interrupt but he continued. "You always get what you want. You always act innocent but I can see beyond it. You could have had me. But you broke my heart and chose Edward again. You got him back but then broke his heart and took Emmett. You probably hurt Rosalie too because she loved Emmett. And you hurt Emmett without even trying." He paused. "And next you'll go to Jasper."
"It's not true." I whispered quietly.
"What's not true? That you broke more hearts than possible. You don't even care about any of them. No one's showed how much it hurts because they don't want to hurt you." Emmett's hand was still in mine and I wanted to cry into his chest. But I couldn't. I didn't deserve him. "Have you ever wondered how either of them feel? You like play them on wire. Making them think that you might choose them one day."
"SHUT UP!" Emmett and Edward roared together.
"Let him talk." I whispered.
Jacob grinned an evil grin, "But I'm tired of waiting Bella. And that's what I came to tell you. I give up. Soon they will too. And you'll be all alone." He disappeared into the wind and we all stood there. I knew it was true. Every word he had uttered. I'd hurt them both more than I'd intended.
"Let's go home." Alice began walking towards the car and I followed her limply. I pried my hand out of Emmett's. I saw the hurt emotion flicker across his face. Here was another thing to add to the "What Bella Did Wrong" list. I climbed into the car after Alice. Emmett tried to put me in his lap, I shook my head and leaned farther away from him. He said nothing, expression blank. I let the silent tears fall willingly now. It didn't matter anymore. I didn't deserve anything. I leaned my head against the window and looked out at the people. Teens talking, couples hand in hand. Normal, something I wish I was now. He tried to wipe away the tears, to comfort me. To make it better. But all I wanted was for him to yell at me. Make me feel worse because even if I lived to be a century old I would never forgive myself for doing this. I couldn't face anyone. I jumped out of the car and ran into the house as the car pulled to a stop in the driveway. I raced up the steps into our room. I didn't acknowledge Carlisle and Esme who had been holding hands, sitting on the love seat.
I threw on my pajamas and curled into a tight ball at the foot of the bed.
My love, the love I didn't even deserve came into the room and sprinted to me and put his arms around me. I trembled and let more tears fall.
"Stop." I croaked.
"No." He retorted. "Not until you tell me what's wrong." He stroked my cheek.
"Are you crazy?" I practically screamed, "Weren't you there when I was listening to Jacob?"
"Bella. It's okay. I can't believe you even listened to him." He laughed darkly, the smile not reaching his eyes.
I turned towards him and broke away from his grasp. "Emmett" I looked straight into his eyes. "I listened to him because it's true." My tears stopped for the moment. I felt okay, I was so angry it overpowered any other emotion.
"It's not." He shook his head.
"Look at me." I held his face in my hands. "Look at me in the eyes and tell me that I haven't ripped your family apart. Look at me and tell me that I haven't broken your heart or Edwards. That I didn't break Jacob's and Charlie's."
"You-"
I interrupted him this time. "Don't even lie." I said bitterly. "I might not be as smart as you but I'm not stupid. So don't even try it. Just leave me alone."
"Okay." He whispered and pain filled his loving gaze. Emmett closed the door gently and I let out a sob. I threw my head against the pillow, and cried myself to sleep.
Emmett POV
I listened to my beloved, standing right outside the door. I could hear her sobs through out the silent house. I wanted to comfort her so badly, but all she did was push me away. I heard Edward's footsteps behind me.
"Let her calm down first." I nodded slowly, he did know her better than I did. He went back towards his room. I waited until she was sound asleep and I snuck into the room. She was curled up in a ball. Tears cascading down her face like a waterfall, black tears staining the white pillow case. For a moment I was sure she was awake. But her eyes were closed. I could hear her talking in her sleep and I crawled under the covers and held her. Bella wouldn't know if I was here. Not if I left before she woke up. I held her closely.
"I'm sorry…I'm sorry. I'm sorry." She repeated. "I don't deserve you." But it was all wrong. Sure Bella had hurt me. But it didn't matter. I was willing to get past it because it didn't matter. I loved her. She loved me. I didn't care if she would break my heart a million times. I would always love her.
Can anyone say LONG CHAPTER?? I hope I made up for last chapter… I really tried to make it good! Thanks for all the past reviews and advice! You guys are awesome!! And I expect at least 20reviews before my next update…because I've been skipping a lot of hw for this. So please review!