Our meadow, the one that had been mine and Edward's. I wrapped the huge black down blanket around myself and sat down on the somewhat dry grass. I let out all the tears, every feeling I had, for everyone. It wasn't fair. Why was everything always happening to me? What had I done to deserve this? Was it because I had left Edward? Because I had been too stupid not to love him when he loved me with his heart and soul? So what, Emmett had showed me how to have fun, but how could I have agreed for that to be the exchange for everything Edward had done for me? It felt all clear now, why had I been so stupid? If I could turn back time, would I? Would I keep myself from falling in love with Emmett? Being able to forget every happy moment we had shared up until now? No, probably not. But I loved both of them. I would have to leave. I couldn't go back to Edward, it was too embarrassing, but facing Emmett and his little Rosalie would be even harder. I shivered, ducking my head in my knees. I counted the stars, and one shot by passing straight overhead. Make a wish. I thought sullenly. I wish…I wish.. I scrunched my eyes together. I wish that everyone that I have ever caused pain would be happy. That was a pretty good wish. Even if it did not affect me.
"Bella?" A surprised voice called from the far end of the field. I stood up shakily, just to fall back down.
I crashed to the ground, while two strong cold arms broke the fall. I could not even utter my thanks. I broke down again, my sobs rippling through the trees.
"Bella, Bella please. What's wrong? Is you wrist okay? Does it hurt?" I looked up at Edward and the tears stopped. His eyes were wide, full of care. I suddenly realize what he didn't know.
"No." I said, resting in his arms. "I'm not okay." He rested the blanket once again over the both of us while I sat in his lap.
"Does your wrist hurt?" Edward repeated again.
"This has nothing to do with my damn wrist. THAT'S the least of my problems right now." Flashes of Emmett and Rosalie flashed to my mind.
"What happened?" he asked, rubbing slow, caring circles on my back.
"He..." I said, my throat closing up. "He...Emmett..." I choked out, feeling the tears roll down my face.
Edward tensed. "What did Emmett do?"
"It doesn't matter." I said, letting out a long sigh. I hiccupped.
"Bella. What happened?"
"Nothing. It's my problem, not yours. Thanks for helping me, Edward. I've missed you." I said, after clearing my throat. I dried my tears on my sleeve, and tried to stand, only to have my legs give out beneath me, and come crashing down on top of Edward.
"Sorry." I murmured as Edward toppled over with me on top of him.
"No problem." He chuckled, his expression darkening. "But Bell, please tell me." I stared into his honey golden eyes as he turned on the dazzlement full blast.
"I don't know…" I looked down, avoiding his gaze.
"Bella, listen." Edward grasped me firmly. "I'll always be there for you. I promise. If you need a friend, if you need a protector, if you need a lover…okay?" I found myself nodding at his heartbroken expression.
"Just…" I took a deep breath. "Let's put it this way. After tonight..I'm going away, I'm not coming back…I'm sick of being on an emotional roller coaster, of hurting everyone I know." I finished lamely, hanging my head.
"Bella. You can't!" I stared blankly at him, my face emotionless. "We'll talk about it tomorrow morning okay sweetie?" I felt myself nodding, my eyes quivering closed.
"Don't let him take me. Don't let him touch me. Don't let me talk to him." I whispered into the night, my voice carrying away into the end.
EPOV
I tried to keep my anger under control as I held Bella while she slept. What could have happened that he hurt her so badly? Was it he wrist? Had he abused her? I cherished the moment of Bella laying in my arms, her body shivered from the cold. I stayed in the same position, for a few more moments. The stars were tinkling, the night endless. I lifted her gently into my arms and ran swiftly home. Emmett was going to pay. I finally decided. Enough was enough. I paused outside the door, I could hear yells coming from the inside.
"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HER EMMETT?" I could hear Esme's shrieks. I backed away from the door. I had never heard my mother be this mad. Not even when I'd lied to Bella.
"I DID MEAN TO!" Emmett roared back. I chimed into his thoughts to see what he was thinking. I didn't mean to kiss Rosalie. My shoulders tensed as I shook in anger, not being able to calm myself. I had known this would happen eventually. But not so soon. Not when I actually thought he loved her. "It was a mistake." He said simply.
"A COSTLY MISTAKE!" Esme's dry sobs echoed throughout the forest.
"She'll understand." Emmett muttered, but I could the words.
"NO SHE WON'T! SHE'S GOING TO LEAVE AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!" I heard Alice's voice for the first time, ringing in my ears. I shook my head sadly, Bella had been serious. I quietly stepped into the house, walking briskly past the living room where everyone was sitting. I would honor her wish, I was going to do my best not to let Emmett get Bella. Even if it killed me.
"Bella?" I heard the voices practically scream as I bound up the steps. Emmett blocked my way, glaring at me.
"WHAT WERE YOU DOING WITH HER?" Emmett shook with fury. I wanted to punch him in the face. The way he said the words, as if I had hurt her.
"Move Emmett." I growled ferociously, advancing farther up the steps.
"NO!" He retorted loudly. Bella shuddered in my arms, pulling me closer. Her voice erupted, her eyes still closed but tears running down her cheeks.
"NO. NO EDWARD DON'T LET HIM TAKE ME. IT HUUURTTSS." Emmett drew back, his eyes wide. I shrugged, not surprised at her words.
"Move." I ordered, crashing past him, down the corridor and into my room.
"But I love her…" Emmett whispered, his voice breaking.
"It's TOO LATE." I replied acidly, at least I hoped so. Maybe I could convince Bella to love me again…even if it took years, even if I had to change her…
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