I walked slowly through the door, not knowing what to find, and I nearly collapsed at the sight of my brother. He was pale and looked cold, several IVs taped together in his veins.
The nurse looked up after she made sure they were secure, glanced back at him, and left in a hurry. I grabbed her arm and spun her around...afraid to know what would happen next...but of course, I had to ask.
She was a step ahead of me, of course, making it worse.
"Hikaru...is doing worse than we thought and we're not sure-"
"How long.....?"
The blood drained from her face and my grip loosened on her arm, I almost wanted to shove her out the door. But I had to know about my love...
She hesitated. "He'll be lucky...to last another day...I'm sorry..."
She was clearly emotional as a tear rolled down her cheek from looking at my face, which was most likely a sickening sight.
Bags of liquids...and blood...were hanging around him, connected to his veins, and machines were placed around him in the sickingly white room. His face was literally white, and I collapsed to the floor by his side, I wanted to take his hand, but I didn't know what that might do...
I was at a complete loss for words. "Hi-Hikaru...? I...don't know if you can hear me...and even if you can't...I love you Hikaru...! I can't live without you, this is...I just...I love you..."
I stood and leaned over, placed my hand on the bed, and kissed him on the lips softly, fantasizing of his heart sputtering back to life, unlike it's slow putters I could hear from the moniter beside us.
He can't feel it...he can't feel it...Hikaru...I hope you can't hear me cry...
I collapsed, again, and out of the corner of my eye and through my tears I could see Haruhi's face peering in horror at us through the door window. Her hands covered her face and she ran off, obviously to tell the others.
They were so comforting...but I just wanted it to be me and my love...
"Don't leave me...not now..."