AN: Sorry it took me so long to update, i've been busy with the first weel of school. Well tell me what you all think, i'm going to try my best to work on my other stories. I'm sorry for the wait.
Reiview please!
When Lorelai gets home she sees that Rory fell asleep on the front porch, probably waiting for her to get back.
"Hey Rory, wake up." She gently shakes her awake.
Rory opens her eyes.
"Mom? Where am I?... Wait, are you ok?"
"Details in the morning Hun, let's just get to bed."
They go inside. Rory goes into her bedroom and goes to bed. Lorelai goes and changes then just lays her bed staring at the ceiling. Then she stares at the ring that Luke put back on her finger.
"Oh my god, what happened to Chris?" She says to herself.
Chris comes out from the hall. "Lor, is everything ok now?"
"How did you get in my house?" She is spooked by the fact he is here.
"I took the key out of the turtle." He goes over and sits next to her on the bed.
"Okay well thanks for being there for me before, but you should go now." She grabs her cell phone and speed dials Luke's number so that he hears this conversation and comes over quick.
"Why?...Who are you calling?"
"Uh...no one why?" Luke had picked up the phone and heard Chris's voice and then Lorelai's, he dropped everything and raced over to her house.
"Because you have your cell phone open and it says that it dialing Luke."
"Oh I uh...must have pressed it by mistake."
Yeah, ok...Lor, are you ok now? Did you dump that jerk yet?
"First off, he isn't a jerk and second I decided not to dump him. I'm sorry Christopher but I can't help it, I'm in love with him." She smiles at the thought. "No matter what he does, I just can't stop loving him. He could cheat lie and steal and I would still love him. I'm sorry." Luke is standing right outside the door hearing all of this.
Luke smiles hoping that what she says means that she forgave him.
"Lorelai, why would you stay with him though? I mean he did cheat on you and he'll just keep doing it again and again!"
"I know what he did Christopher! You don't have to keep reminding me! But I know how sorry he is and how bad he feels for hurting me and I know; well hopefully know that he won't do it again and again. That's just not the type of person Luke is and if you bothered to get to know him you would know that too!"
Well, I don't want to get to no him! I love you, Lor. I don't love him! He hurt you and I don't want you with him! I want you with me!
Luke comes in after hearing that. "Well, forget that idea because she wants to be with me not you!"
"How do you know?"
"Lorelai?"
Lorelai shoots Chris a nasty look and then looks at Luke. "I want to be with Luke. I'm sorry Chris but I can't control my feelings, I love Luke, no matter how much he may hurt me or how much I may hurt him. I love him." She smiles at Luke, and Chris does not like that fact at all, he starts getting very angry.
Chris pulls Lorelai up off of the bed. "What is your problem?"
"Chris..Ow, you're hurting me. What's wrong with you?" Chris gripped onto Lorelai's arm harder.
"Hey! Get your hands off of her!" Luke yells.
"Shut up!"
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Lorelai manages to get on of her hands free and slaps him across the face.
"Don't you dare hit me!" He yells at her and slaps her back. "I don't want you with him Lor, he cheated on you can't you understand that!" Chris yells louder.
Lorelai puts her hand over her face where Chris hit her. Luke goes over and gets Chris' hands off of Lorelai.
"You will not come near her again!"
"And what are you going to do about it Luke!"
Chris says and pushes him, Luke pushes back. "Don't you ever come near her or hurt her again!"
"Well at least I didn't sleep with another woman!" Chris yells back.
"Guys, stop it!"
"If you ever come near her again, I'll kill you!"
"Chris, please, just leave."
Chris just looks between them and shoves both of them out of the way before storming out of the house.
Lorelai slowly sits on the bed, looking at the floor and Luke sits down next to her.
"Are you okay Lorelai?"
"I'm fine Luke just leave me alone!" She yells at him and runs into the bathroom.
Luke goes over to the bathroom and waits for her to come out. "Lorelai, what's wrong? Come out and talk to me, please?"
"I..Am trying...really hard to believe that you won't cheat on me again, but how can I really know for sure. I feel so stupid because you told me it wouldn't happen again, but i..I don't know what I'm feeling anymore."
She says through her tears and from the other side of the door.
"Lorelai, please believe me, I just needed to no if I still loved her. I'm so, so sorry for hurting you and it will never happen again and I understand if you want me to leave."
"Luke, this may sound really stupid but I think I just need a night to just cry. Please understand that I don't want you to leave for good, I just need tonight and tomorrow all for myself to just sit cry and think. Please say you understand Luke." They are still talking through the door.
Luke didn't answer he had already left before he heard what Lorelai said.
"Luke? Say something please." She steps out of the bathroom and finds that Luke isn't there anymore. She got into her pj's and cried herself to sleep; she dreamt that tomorrow would be a better day.
Luke woke up in the middle of the night and decided that he needed to talk to Lorelai so he went to her house and knocked until she answered.
Lorelai didn't care about the way she looked when she answered the door, so with tears running down her cheeks she opened the door and found Luke...
"Lorelai, I really need to talk to you."
"No matter what I say you aren't going to let me have my day are you Luke?" She laughs and smiles through her tears, secretly happy that he is here. "Come on in Luke."
Luke goes and sits on the couch. Lorelai sits next to him.
Luke takes Lorelai's hand and looks straight into her eyes. "Lorelai, I love you so, so much, you have to believe that. I'm sorry for what I did but if I didn't do it then I might have been in love with her forever. What I did made me realize how much I truly care about you."
"But Luke, I thought that you already knew that you truly cared about me, I didn't even know about Julia. You should have just told me, I would have tried to work something out to help you. I mean, how could you not tell me you were in love with someone else. I know you aren't anymore, but all this time we were together. You loved her, does that mean you loved me less, or was I just someone to have around until 15 years was up?"
"Lorelai, I know what I did was wrong and I know how much it hurt you, but I needed to no something. And I loved you since I met you; Julia was just a high school sweetheart kind of thing. I didn't have any feelings for her until we had dinner then I wasn't sure if I had feelings for her or not, so I did something that I shouldn't have done. I'm so, so sorry for hurting you, and I understand if you want to break up, but you have to know that I love you so much, and I don't think that I will ever stop."
"I...I don...I don't want to break up Luke, but didn't you hear what I said I needed while I was in the bathroom earlier? I said I needed a day and tonight all to myself just to cry and think but I could...I...I could really use my best friend right now." She starts crying softly into her hands.
Luke pulls her into a hug and strokes her hair. "It's ok. Everything is going to be ok, I promise."
She grips his flannel shirt and cries harder. "Thanks for being here for me." She says through her tears.
Luke pulls up her chin and looks into her eyes.
Luke looks like he might cry. "Lorelai, I'm so sorry, I love you so much. I...I'm...I'm so sorry for how I hurt you."
She calms down a little and wipes some of her tears. "I know your sorry Luke, and I do know how much you love me, I love you too and I know you know how much you hurt me. I think it's just going to take some time, you know, for me to trust you as much as I used to. You understand what I'm trying to say right?"
"Yeah, I get it. Does this mean you just want to go back to dating?"
"I..Think...maybe that wouldn't be such a bad idea, let's just date for a little bit before we head for marriage, is that okay?"
Luke looks a little sad. "Yeah...if that's what you want, then we can date, but I want to be the one to purpose this time, okay?"
"Sounds good to me." She hugs him.
Luke hugs her back wishing that they would get married like really soon, but he knows that his is better than nothing.
Luke lifts up her head. "So can I kiss you now?"
"Yes, but do me a favor, kiss me like you never have before, don't kiss me like you kissed Julia." She looks into his eyes.
"Why do you want me to kiss you like a kissed Julia? It meant nothing to me."
"I said I don't want you to kiss me like you did her tonight. I...I just want the picture of you two together to go away."
She doesn't wait anymore and kisses him with passion. "So, who were you thinking about just then?" She whispers and smiles.
"Who do you think?" Luke kisses her again for a long time with all the passion he has.
She breaks away and smiles again. "Hmm I was thinking you were thinking of the president?" She laughs.
"You're crazy." Luke kisses her again.
"Well I wouldn't be me if I wasn't." She kisses him again.
"Yeah, your right." Luke kisses her and pulls her closer.
She keeps kissing him as she pushes him flat on his back...you know what eventually happens.
Lorelai and Luke wake up the next morning with the blanket off the couch on them. Luke had his arm around Lorelai. "Lorelai, you awake?"
"Mmhhhmmm yeah now I am, gee thanks for waking me up." She says sarcastically.
"Good morning, Crazy Lady." Luke leans over and kisses her.
"Mmhhmm, good morning to you too." She kisses him back and then pulls away a little. "You know Luke, we still..Uh..You know, well, we still have a lot to talk about. You know that right?"
"I know...but I can still kiss you right?"
"Of course you can." She smiles at him.
"Good." He kisses her again. "So, what do you want to talk about?"
She sits up and gets off of him, he sits up as well and they both sit on the couch. "The real question is where do we start our talk?"
"I don't know where do you want to start talking?"
"I want to know...Did you go to the diner and call Anna and April or did you call Julia right away?"
"I called Julia first...Can I ask you a question now?"
"Of course, go ahead."
"Are you pregnant?"
She looks down. "No I'm not, I took the test last night when I was crying in the bathroom and it came out negative. I'm sorry." She says sadly to him.
Luke pulls her over and puts his arm around her. "No, don't be sorry, I was just asking because I just now remembered you saying something about you thinking that you were pregnant."
"I know, but I only said that in case you were going to leave me for good, it was a stupid thing to say. It's just after everything we talked about with trying; I realized how badly I want to have a baby. I feel guilty that the first time we try I couldn't give you a child, I know you really want."
"Lorelai, I would never leave you just because you didn't get pregnant. We only tried once; it doesn't mean that we aren't going to have a baby. I do want to have a child, but we aren't even married yet, so we have a long time to have a baby. I love you, and I'm not going to leave you for being pregnant."
"You know, after all this that has happened I think that is exactly what I needed to hear. You know though that I'm not getting any younger Luke, if we are serious about this we should start trying. But if you want to wait until we are married, I'll wait until you're ready."
"I'll try when ever you want to. I'm ready to have another child, but I would rather wait until we were married, but it doesn't mater, if you want to start trying more, then we can. Because like you said, I'M the one that's getting old." He says sarcastically.
"You're not old," She laughs. "Besides, you can have kids until you die, I however can't. What If something happens and I can never give you a child, that's horrible, oh no and what if-" She had started ranting but Luke cuts her off.
"Lorelai, calm down, I want a child, but if you can't have anymore children its ok. And besides your still young, I'm sure you can still have children. And if you can't I'll still love you."
She takes a deep breath. "I love you." She says simply hoping he understands the meaning behind it.
"I know you do...so you want to new subject or do you still want to talk about this?"
"Well, yeah, let's talk about April."
"Ok...what about her do you want to no?"
"Actually before we talk about that, I want to know a little more about Julia, is that okay?"
Yeah, if that's what you want.
"Okay, so...did you two grow up together?"
"Yes, we were best friends for a very long time and then in high school we dated until we graduated, then we made a deal to see each other in 15 years."
"How come you made that deal though, I mean why couldn't you two just stayed together?" She asked curiously.
"Because we wanted to see if we were really in love."
"Oh, so did...well did you..and her sleep together in high school?"
"No..."
"Oh okay. Well were you ever sorry that you didn't just stay with her instead of waiting for 15 years?"
"No, because if I had stayed with her I wouldn't have had found out how much I'm in love with you."
"Really, Promise?" She smiles and starts crying a little at what he said.
"Promise." He leans in to kiss her.
She kisses him back.
"I do know that you love me Luke and I know you wouldn't leave me. Well I did think that after I saw you in bed last night with her but now I think I understand why you did it."
"I'm not happy about what I did, but I just really needed to some things...I'm so sorry for hurting you... And I don't want you to understand why I did it, you should hate me for doing this, you shouldn't understand!"
"Luke listen, I'm only trying to understand why you did it because it might eventually help me get over it, and I'm trying Luke. I'm trying to forgive and forget all for you!"
"I know, I just don't feel that its right for you to forgive me, I hurt you, and I really want you to forgive me, but...but I guess I just haven't forgiven myself yet, for hurting you."
"Do you think...maybe we need some time apart?" She says slowly.