I sighed closing my eyes tight. I quickly opened them. There in front of my was my greek god. I closed my eyes again shaking my head. "The ring" I said between clenched teeth. Edward eyes were pleading I could feel him starring. I opened my eyes, he just nodded. "Who?" I choked out. "Tanya" He said in a whisper that I could hardly even hear. All I could imagine was a strawberry blonde clinging to him. But he didn't love me. He didn't care for me. I gulped, un needed but still. "Edward." I said slowly trying to calm my self. I could feel emotions just throwing in the air. Jealousy, anger,depression,lust. LUST?!?!?1 How could I love a..a…..man who left me..alone in the woods..and now came back… planning to be wed. But why should I care. "Why are you here?" I said closing my eyes. I could sense that Ryan and Dexter were behind me. And Nick and Brendon were starring at Edward. I could sense there anger. I sighed and looked at Edward. His eyes topez now. "Alice…she she heard you were playing here…she-everyone need to be sure it was you…….we miss you….I miss you" He said reaching for my hand. I stepped away before he could touch me. I couldn't handle that. And, he was going to be married…….at any touch I might just slip up, grab him in my arms cry and sob and beg him to take me back. But why? I did nothing. I was now angry, more angry then I was before. "Well here I am" I said looking at him, pulling down my hood and running my fingers through my hair. He was about to say something but Alice ran up to me and caught me in a hug. She released me and looked between Edward and me. Edward looked like he was going to collapse any minute now. Alice sighed and looked at me beaming "Ooh bella! Please please will you visit us?!" She was nearly screeching with excitement "Sure…but can I bring my band?" I asked, Nick putting his arm around my waist, Breandon putting his elbow on his shoulder, Ryan putting his arm around my Neck and Dexter kneeling on the floor doing spirit fingers. If I could blush I would. We all started cracking up Alice was jumping up and down "OF COURSE YOU CAN!" She screeched I laughed, Dexter stood up and put a goofy grin on his face. I forgot Edward was even there for a moment. "When?" I asked Alice "Well maybe tonight? You can follow us home?" She offered. I smiled and turned to my band. Ryan and Dexter were already running to the door. Ryan started running around me with his arms out like super man. He quickly lifted me up and slung me over his shoulder. I scowled at him as he ran out the door. I waved to the Cullens and yelled "Well follow you!"

Before I even knew it we were at the Cullens. The house was…well giant. It was like the one in forks. Giant windows. Open, simple modern. Ryan and Dexter were walking with me, Brendon and Nick were shortly behind us. Ryan had his arm around me, same with dexter. They bother whispered in my ear. "Hey, we could still kill him ya know?" Dexter was beaming, I growled "All I'm saying is that if you feel the need, to have us…..maybe…..eat him….burn him, then heck" He said throwing up his arms "We may accidentally do that just for you" Ryan said finished for me. They were being sarcastic, but I could tell there really ment it. I slapped there arms and skipped up the door steps. "Ha you two wouldn't stand a chance!" I said ringing the door bell and sticking my tongue out at them. Before I knew it I was in a bear hug my Emmett. I smiled up at him and said "Hello" then I noticed all of the Cullen's were lined up In front of me. Esme and Carisle, Emmett and Rosalie, Alice and Jasper, and finally, my eyes search eagerly, there a greek god and a strawberry blonde. She was beautiful. She had her arm on Edward chest and Edward had his arm wrapped around her waste. I visibly cringed and step back. Oh god why would I come here? I thought. Before I knew it Nick was holding me up from dropping to my knees and sobbing. He put his arm around my waist and I kissed his cheek and mumbled "thank you" to him "Anytime" He whispered. This only happened in a matter of seconds. I sighed and then waved at everyone. "Um hi… this is Nick," I said pointing to the boy who had his arm around my waist, keeping me up, but Im sure they couldn't tell that "That's Ryan, brendon, and Dexter" I said pointing to each one of them. They all smiled and Dexter then said "Weve heard so much about all of you" And everyone began walking up and shaking there hands. My eyes gazed back over to Edward and Tanya. She was all over him. My hands were in fist and a muffled a growl by fake coughing. Jasper was sending me calm waves and a sent him a smile and a nod. I frowned then sighed "So um…." I choked out. Esme smiled "Well lets all go into that living room, and you can tell us what you have been doing over these years." She said with a smile. I ran up to her and hugged her "God I missed you Esme" I said smiling and releasing her. If Esme could cry she would. I followed her into the living room. Of course Dexter were having a fight in the door way talking about how Ryan should go first, "NO DUDE I SHOULD GO FIRST!" Cried dexter "IM SPECIALER THAN YOU THOUGH!!" Screamed Ryan stomping on Dexter's foot. I walked up to both of them and smacked them on the back of the heads "If you guys don't behave im going to make you guys wait in the car" I scowled at them. "Now Ryan walk in first, then dexter, then Nick, and finally Brendon" I said smiling sweetly. Ryan kissed my cheek and started jumping up and down and pointing when he enterd the room "Ha see, told you Im her favorite" Dexter growled but sighed "stupidfavoritepickingvampiresinger!" I laughed and put my arm around his shoulder "Its okay Dex" Me and my band sat on one couch. Esme and Carisle sat on there own couch, and Alice sat on Jaspers lap, same with Rosalie and Emmett. I looked over to Edward…..then on him, was Tanya. I could tell my eyes were going red. Brendon sat by me and wisperd "Calm down" I sighed and my eyes slowly faded back to gold. "Bella, Did your eyes just turn…red?" Carisle spoke. I nodded my head "Sometimes..if Im feeling a really strong emotion..my eyes turn that color" I said biting my lip. He just nodded then said "Well may you please tell us what happened?" I knew what he met. Brendon nugged me and smiled, Ryan messed up my hair encouragingly. Nick smiled at me. I sighed then said "Um well, after Edward" I bite down on my lip, it would have been bleeding by now if I were human "Left" I gulped "I kinda starting acting miserable. I mean there was no reason to go on" I threw my hands eyes turned blue. "I lost my love, my sister, I lost my family" My fist were clenched together, I wasn't going to hold back, I didn't care right now. Now my eyes were black. "I felt no reason to go on. Its just……….terribly horrid! How I thought I would even meet your standers, like I was even comparable." I said between clenched teeth "I was just a clumsy, crazy girl" I shrugged my eyes now were back to gold. "Charlie…..he didn't like the way I was behaving, I was doing stupid things" I bit on my lip "The more I did stupid things the more times I could hear Edward telling me to be safe, to stop it, and in some screwed up way, I felt like I needed to endanger myself" I scowled, my eyes turning blue again. A crystal blue. Now white. Perfectly white "So Charlie sent me to live with my mom, again, she was in Florida, really sunny" I gave a depressed laugh "I refused to go…..I snapped at Charlie, grabbed my things, and ran out of the house, I regret it too, how I could be so stupid I dontk now, it just gave me another reason why I wasn't good enough for you guys" The white turned to a purple "So I went to a club. By myself. Most kids didn't want to talk to me anymore. cause I was so….um depressed- I think that would be the word, heck even Mike stopped talking to me" I shrugged and attempted to smile "Um anyway, when I was at that club. I started to drink. A little more…..another one. Until I had like 6 shots. Now I had never been the girl to go off drinking, I wasn't the kind of girl to carry a fake ID either but I did. God I could have passed for 14 then…I don't know how they believed I was 21" I scowled eyes turning black now "Know those movies, where the persons drunk and walking out of a bar, and there tipping over stumbling" I beamed "Ya well that was me," I was stumbling a lot telling my story, stuttering at every word, I don't know why. I didn't know why my emotions were so strong. I don't know why I was being so sarcastic and angry. "The whole time, when I was walking down that street, all I heard was Edward saying how he dosnt want to pretend to be human anymore, ooh how much he doesn't want me" I sighed. I was now standing, doing hand motions walking around the room like a lecture to them all "Im not going to deny the fact that I was acting crazy, maybe it was cause I was drunk I don't know, all I know is what happened next, I was stumbling tripping over to myself," I cringed "I ended up waking up on the side of the rode." I gulped "I was evidently raped, and beaten, But I didn't know that at the time of course" I threw my hands up "Now where dose me becoming a vampire play into this" I said raising my eyebrow "well, I couldn't move, I attempted to, but I knew it, I was going to die" I sighed "And I was fine with it- to me there was no reason for me even to be alive" I shrugged "I was a waste of life, without you guys, what was the point ya know?" "Okay well Charlie, I love him, but he knew, he understood why I thought that. So now I was laying in the middle of the rode, god knows where" And a car came up and Nick, and Ryan jumped out. I was petrified, no really I was shaking begging pleading "Please no more!" I said screeching in barley a whisper, I recovered back to a normal voice "There were saying how there weren't going to hurt me, but they looked…well how do I say it in pain, Ryan put me in the car, and I noticed his eyes!" I said pacing around the room "Now I know what your thinking, what a paranoid girl" I said stopping my pace and looking at there hurt expressions "But I wasn't, my observation was correct they were like you, part of me wanted to stand" I shook my head "How stupid, I noticed that…I was covered in blood, with just a coat on" I cringed "Nick asked me, once we were in the van if..I wanted to live…" I gulped "Of course he explained further more, but in a rush ya know, I mean I was going to die either or, I didn't really need many details- So I said yes…I mean….after thinking about it, yes my lifted suck and there really wasn't a need for me to even walk this earth another day. But I wasn't going to be the one to cast a death wish upon myself." I turned to stop pacing and asked them again "I mean would you want to die either?" The all shook there heads "I mean alright, stupid question, nobody would say yes. But anyways, he ended up well biting me….I know how cliché right? Gosh it such a a funny thing, in a twisted way. Asking me permission." I mumbled sighing and turning to Nick "But how else do you approach a situation as that, "Come with me if you want to live"??" I laughed and rolled my eyes "But he did, it was my own personal hell, to live forever..and not have you guys, I know I'm stupid" I stopped and stared at them "But how could I not? I wasn't in the right mind, like a obsession. But I did what I had to do and I got by" I smiled "With the help of them…… my family" I giggled and sighed and sat back down. I had a sarcastic smile on my face "Now, really, I'm not mad at any of you I never was, I was mad at myself for not being good enough, If you want me to go..thats fine, Ill understand" I said slowly my eyes turning green. "NO!" Edward yelled. I looked at him startled but he just frowned and turned to alice "Please bell, don't go its just…we feel guilty" I sighed at that "Why? You guys did nothing" "But we did" Alice said "If we only stayed. " I choked and stood up "What if you only stayed?! Edward didn't want me…you guys didn't say goodbye. I wasn't good enough for you guys, hell I'm still not! And I'm sorry, I tried, I tried to get you guys to like me! I really did" My eyes were now purple. Edward looked like he was about to say something but turned to Tanya and sighed. I cringed, another slap in the face. Alice stood up and said "BELLA! WE DIDN'T LEAVE CAUSE WE DIDN'T LOVE YOU! WE LEFT BECAUSE EDWARD THOUGHT IT WOULD MAKE YOU SAFER! HE LIED!" She yelled and I fell back, Nick caught me. I was mad "Why didn't you say goodbye" I said between clenched teeth trying not to clasped role up and a ball and sob. "Cause….we wanted you to forget. to have a clear break.." Edward said this that time. "Clear break my ass" Brendon mumbled, he hardly ever talked so I just store at him. He just shrugged. Carlisle cut in "Everyone just calm down……bella what happen to be your powers?" Ooh god this should cause lots of attention "Um well….ya know my eyes change color to my emotions. But not like happy or sad, they have to be strong and intense. Like purple, depressed, deprived, um white, blank almost emotionless, red, rage, um green, pleading begging jealousy sometimes, blue is when I look back on bad things sorta when I feel torn apart hurt. Usually when I'm happy or just fine my eyes are butterscotch. But I don't think this is really a power, um I can go invisible, I can make others to." I looked at the ground, they were all gawking at me "I can also block vampires powers or un block em, I have this weird force field thing where I can protect other people. Its not that great though.." I said. Carlisle looked at me amazed "Is that all?" I gulped "Well If this counts, when I was a new born and still through out this life, I never was effected by bloodlust, I also don't have to hunt so much, I don't need it as much as others, I think its cause I never really liked the smell, to me, blood smells like rust and salt" I cringed "BLECK!" Everyone laughed "That's all?" He asked again I nodded "Well that amazing bella, if its possible if we can talk more about this some time?" I nodded my head again "Anytime" "AHHH!!! BELLA GUESS WHAT WERE DOING TOMARRRO!" I looked at alice covering my ears, she was so small but yelled so LOUD. "WERE GOING SHOPPING!" She started to jump up and down and hugged me, Jasper was resisting the urge to jump up and down with her, "Please alice calm down" Alice giggled "Sorry Jazzy" She hugged me one more time a released me. "OOOH PAY IT UP RYAN!" I turned my head and looked at them confused "Ooh well bella, we had a bet, using what you have described to us about alice, I bet that you would have to go shopping. Dexter said that you would refuse to" I scowled at them "Hey don't blame me!" Dexter stared at me "If anyone should be blaming anyone, then bella SHAME! Now im out 100 bucks" I wasnow growling "What did I tell you about making bets about me!" They looked scared "But" they both said at the same time "NO BUTS! That's is march to the car right now!" They looked at me with pleading eyes "NOW!" I giggled. Ryan and Dexter pouted and walked out of the house. "Im sorry about that" I said beaming. The cullens were all looking at me "Whoa bella got back bone!" Emmett yelled out. Everyone was cracking up. "So when are we going tomorrow?" I asked looking at Alice "Um early! Lets say 8:30 ish?" She asked I laughed "Are places even open then?" She looked at me like I was crazy "Well make them open" I laughed and hug everyone, not Edward or Tanya, I just couldn't. I hope then wouldn't be mad about that. I waved them all goodbye and me Brendon and Nick walked out, I looked and Brendon "There like little four year olds." I looked at the car to see them rolling around in front of it "RYAN! DEXTER" I screamed. I grabbed both of them by the ears "OOOOW BELLLS! WE WERE JUST PLAYING!" "Ha! Just playing you two…know what?? "What?" Dexter whined out "No whatching T.V for a week" I smiled and let go of there ears "BUT!" "Bot nothing now in the car!" God you would think there 4 not 120. I heard clapping and saw the cullens standing on the front porch. I looked down, if I was human I would blush. I walked into the car and drove home.

NEXT MORNING ^^ I know I know that portion of this chapter sucked. Me with even righting confrontation it terrible. And It may be to much humor not enough sadness.

I was now walking up the cullens porch to see Alice. The door was wide open so I just walked in. I was wearing a Cardigan, black skirt, black tights, white vintage boots, and a vintage rolling stones t shirt. My hair was slightly curly today. I walked into the house, calling "Alice!" But she didn't come. So I made a executive decision that since I was there, I might as well…look around. I walked into a room and noticed Edwards Piano. If I was human, tears would be falling. I sat down on the piano bench. My hands traced the keys. I coughed a sob. I then sat in my playing position and as I played my song Threee cheers for five years I lightly sung the lyrics, in a bare whisper

"I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does she feel, how does she kiss
How does she taste while she's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want you"

Next thing I knew, a bronze haired god was sitting right next to me. "Did you write this.." He asked in a whisper hushed tone. I nodded my head "Just last night actually" I admitted "It was amazing..when did you, well, learn how to play?" He asked, I turned and looked to see him starring at me with intense golden eyes, I didn't respond right away, I was savoring the seconds "99 years ago" I mumbled. He looked at me now sorrow some "Bella Im so sorry, I lied that day, I loved you..I just wanted you to be safe, I st-" Alice skipped into the room "BELLA YOU CAME!" She screamed tackling me, flying me off the piano bench and onto the floor. I giggled "Of course I did, my lil pixie!" She scowled "Im not a pixie!" I laughed and stood up. I was looking at Edward pleading with my eyes, I didn't know why but I wanted him to hug me and tell Alice that I rather prefer not to have me go so he could spend more time with me. But again right when he opened his mouth Tanya walked in. "That was you playing Edward? I haven't heard you ever play." She said sitting down in the previous spot I was sitting in. My eyes were now red. Edward shook his head "No that was Bella" He said smiling over at me, my eyes turned butter scotch. Part of me was actually ecstatic Tanya never heard him play. I still wanted to know what Edward had been trying to say. "Ooh well it was nice" She mumbled this, now less enthusiastic. She then scowled at me and I growled but Alice pulled me away and mumbled "Bye Edward..tanya" But she said Tanya liked she didn't like her. I was beaming I turned to Alice as we walked out "I don't really like Tanya" I mumbled to her "Good cause I don't really like her either Bella. NOW LETS GO SHOPPING!" I laughed. I was happy. My best friend hated her soon to be sister in law, who was about to marry the man I loved. OOOh today has to be simply grand. I me being sarcastic of course.

Okay yeah I know I cant really write. But I got plans giggle. For this storyy. Yes it inv- nopers im not gonna spoil it! Ha I crack myself up.. not. Sorry for this chapter, Im sure it's a let down to a couple of people but I thought it finished strong. Ish lol. But really guys that was nice of you to review really. I would only hope you would contain to read it htouhg. It is my first fan fic. But I understand if you choose to ignore the rest of this story. =/ THANK YOU!