"Alice" I gulped and bit my lip, a human habit. "Yes Bells?!" She exclaimed as we went through racks of a expensive punky yet vintage store "Um….whats Tanya like..??" I asked looking down, I had lost all my confidence, I had broken down, I had somewhat admitted my curiosity, my jealousy, my pains. My love. "Well to be honest with you bells, she sorta… a bitch" Alice admitted. I look at her dumbfounded Ive never heard this little pixie swore before I realized. "I mean don't get me wrong, shes not all that bad but she just full of herself." Alice sighed and pulled out a cardigan "I think this would look cute on you" I smiled my eyes turned purple "Um…one more question" I said counting to look through the racks "What bella?" She chirped. "Um well do- has- did he um ever say anything about me, I mean was he even sad when he left?" I begged. "BELLA! EDWARD LOVES YOU CANT YOU SEE THAT!?!" She screamed everyone in the store turned and looked at us "I shouldn't have asked" I mumbled "No." I said stiffly. Alice was right in front of me now, eyes pleading "Bella, Edward only left the house to hunt for 8 months! Bella hes only marrying Tanya because he knew you would, again he thought you were dead, were never coming back, he couldn't stand being lonely." Alice said quickly. I looked at her and cringed back like she slapped me. "This has to be hell" I mumbled. Alice heard me "Bells you know you can tell me anything.." She said I nodded "Its just that, my was almost sister, you, now cant be, cause now a girl, Tanya, is all over my love, Edward, and now I don't get my sister or my love, and I can feel the jealousy, her and Edward you and Tanya bonding." I cringed "Im happy your getting another sister I just wish it was me. I sound selfish im sorry, I should stop talking" I sighed My confidence was foiling up into a little ball. "BELLA!!" she gasped and threw me into a hug "You know you are like a sister to me!" She said jumping up and down. I laughed and smiled "So you wouldn't be mad if I hated Tanya right? Duue to the cirrumstances" I asked Alice rolled her "Of course I wouldn't care, as long as no one gets hurts in the process of your hate." I laughed and nodded my head.

She threw a pile of clothes at me and told me to try them on but right before I left she whisperd in my ear "You know you sorta just confessed to me your still in love with Edward" I gasp and mumbled "stupidbestfriendvampirePIXIE!" I screeched.

*Back at Alice's house after shopping*

"What the" I mumbled seeing Ryan and Dexter hanging out with Jasper and Emmett, Brendon and Nick talking to Carlisle. I stood there in horror "Are you…..guys…..socializing…..??" I asked stuttering. "Close your mouth bella its rude to stare" Dexter laughed. I scowled at him, Nick then said "Well we thought you would be hanging around them a lot so we decided to-" Ryan cut in "BONDING TIME WITH YOUR SECOND FAMILY!!!" He screeched like a girl and started jumping up and down in his seat and fell off the couch. I had to hold my sides with laughter. Emmett laughed like thunder, it seemed to shake the whole house. I stopped and calm myself then said "So wheres um…everyone else?" They all knew who I was talking about and replied in a mumble "Upstairs" I just nodded, my eyes turning red with a mixture of blue. What was he doing up there with her!?!?!?!?!?! I know Alice keeps saying he loves me but but…what. The. Hell. I cringed with a mental imagine of Edward and Tanya. I mumbled something incoherent like "stupidabnoxiousvampirewhore….!" I screeched no one seemed to understand what I said so Emmett cut in with a shocked face "OOH NO I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT I MENT LIKE THERE JUST UP STAIRS TALKING!" Everyone was laughing ecept me. I really wanted to talk with Edward. But he getting engaged. Wait, hold up I thought "..married?" I asked between clenched teeth. "Um- bells before you overact-" Nick was by my side putting his arm around me and Ryan stood beside me petting my said saying "Bells calm down, I don't think your eyes can get any redder" Ryan chuckled and I slammed my foot onto his shoe. "OOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!" He screeched

"That's what you get Ry Ry" I looked down biting my lip trying to calm myself "When" I said taking a breath it was only a whisper but Jasper cut in and said "Next weekend." He said again a whisper. I gasped if I was human I would have fainted cried and ran. But no not anymore. I looked at jasper, my eyes were flaming with rage. No No no I don't love him! I sneered at myself thoughtfully. YES YOU DO CRAZY GIRL YOU KNOW YOU DO! I shook my head and sighed the rage would drain though. "Bella please calm down." Jasper Pleaded with me. "I think I should go" I said turning to Ryan, Dexter, Brendon and Nick who were all standing beside me. They all nodded but I shook my head "You guys can stay if you would like..I mean I sorta want to be alone" I attempted a smile then cleched my teeth, my eyes were flaming now. "Are you sure you don't want company?" Nicks asked rubbing my shoulders, Ryan still petting my hair. "Yeah ill be fine" I almost felt like my eyes would start bleeding out. "Alright" Nick said wit ha smile, I nodded and turned to the cullens "Ill come over tomorrow Alice" I smiled at her and she jumped up excited. "See you!" She yelled as I ran out of the house. I ran and ran until I was some clearing. I didn't care who heard me but I started to sing. I know how cliché right? But I cnat help it I has just started singing some song. Anything I just then made up with some lyrics, and walked around the clearing singing them

"I found the cure to growing older
And you're the only place that feels like home
Just so you know, you'll never know
And some secrets weren't meant to be told
But I found the cure to growing older

I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
And I am sorry my conscience called in sick again
And I've got arrogance down to a science
Oh, and I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Find a safe place, brace yourself, bite your lips
I'm sending your fingernails and empty bottles you've sipped
Back to your family cause I know you will be missed
So you can find a safe place, brace yourself

They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we've become, we just feel more alone
Always weigh what I've got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Always borrowed
Always you

I found a cure to growing older
I found a cure to growing older

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up"

I fell to the ground and sat criss cross, yes dare I say it applesauce. I started to rock myself back and fourth my hands clutching my head. I began to dry sob. Before I knew what was happening I felt to cold arms wrap around me pulling me against there chest. I just put my head to there shoulder and sobbed harder. I sniffed. OMG it was Edward. He scent was just delicious. It only made me cry harder. But not once did I pull away. If he was going to get married then I wanted to be in his arms one last time. "Im sorry bella, Im so sorry" He said kissing the top of my head rocking me. I sobbed even more, god "stupid engaged vampire!" I cried between sobs. I pushed away from him a stood up. I cant let him see me like this. To late, I spite out at myself in my head. My eyes went white. "Sorry um yeah bye" I choked out and ran

He wasn't faster then me. I mean he was fast but not faster then me. I ran and ran all the way back to my house. Where I pulled out a pen and paper and began to write

'I found the cure to growing older
And you're the only place that feels like home
Just so you know, you'll never know
And some secrets weren't meant to be told
But I found the cure to growing older

I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
And I am sorry my conscience called in sick again
And I've got arrogance down to a science
Oh, and I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends……'

When I was done tweaking the song and what not it was 11 in the afternoon. Dexter Ryan Nick and Brendon came home a couple hurs ago, they all kissed me on the cheek and told me to feel 'better'. They then left to hunt and now I was alone. I guess I could go see Alice I thought?

I ran to the cullens house and took a couple unneeded deep breaths, I knocked on the door but it was open, again. I rolled my eyes, what was I in for now.

I was wearing a black dress, and black tights, with a old fashioned back pack for a somewhat purse. I was wearing my black chucks.

(outfit and stuff in profile)

I walked in and lightly placed my bag on the floor. I walked into the kitched. I know what your thinking? Why the freak would I look in the kitchen. I honestly don't even know. When I walked I put my hair into two braids, yes using vampire speed and sighed and walked through the kitchen door way and shouted "ALICE!" I sighed, no one came, so I took a seat on the kitchen table. "She not here" Said a velvety voice from the corner of the room. I almost fell out of my seat but instead I tried to pull it off like I was turning to look at him. He chuckled low. I nodded at him then said "Where is everyone?"

"Hunting" He replied casually. "Oh" I said, disappointment evident in my voice. "They be back in a hour or so" He said with a crooked smile that almost made me melt. Supid melting UGH DAZZLER!. I looked down and rolled my eyes "Um sorry bout um yesterday…" I mumbled underneath my breath "Its fine" He said I turned to look over at him but found him to be standing right over me. I almost gasped "Ha ha....you know its not fine." I choked out looking in his eyes, my eyes turning purple. "Trust me" He nodded "Its fine" I think Edward was trying to purposely dazzle me. I just nodded and stood up, we were just inches apart, I could see all of his features, his eyes, he bronze hair slightly in his face, the other half sticking up messy, his deep golden eyes, he looked 17 years old. So young handsome, but at the same time not, cause he knew so much and acting so wise. I shook my head in daze, dam it, I thought "Um I should get going then" He just gave me a crooked grin and nodded. But my legs wouldn't move. I cursed them, COME ON BELLA MOVE IT OVER LOOSE IT! I screamed to myself in my thoughts. My eyes turned white to purple to black to blue to gold. Edward still had the crooked smile on his face. But it looked mischievous. I raised a eye brow at him, before I knew this lips were crashed on to mine. My eyes went wide, he didn't even have his opened, He pushed me into one of the cabinets, HES GETTING MARRIED! I shouted in my head. WHO CARES! The other part of me said as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled onto his hair. I didn't have to breath but I had to collect myself, somehow I pulled my face away, but of course all he did was start to kiss up and down my neck, my collar bone and back up to my jaw. His hands gripped my waist and pulled me close to him. He grabbed my calve and lifted up to his waist. I wrapped my legs around his waist, went to his ear and chuckled "To bad your getting married huh?" I said. (eww im sorry I feel dirty just writing that but I had to in order for you to get that OOOMEC! Feeling if you catch my drift, trust me it very award being the one writing it then the one reading it if you catch my drift, cringes) He tensed up and I kissed his neck before dropping onto my feet and looked up at him. He had a frown on his face. "Aww don't be so sad Eddie" I said poking his nose. "You're the one who left me remember?" I asked. I knew I was being rude but he deserved this. Trying to dazzle me like that. PUSHH YEAH RIGHT EDWARD! And after hes already engaged. Sure I wasn't happy about it but how rude! Im not just some some I don't know girl that he can simply string along! He left me. He made my life hell. He did this to me. Hes the one who got engaged. He the one who lied. He the one who left me in that forest! I shouted in my head. My eyes turning red I walk out of the kitchen and picked up my back pack out of the hall. I turned around to see Edward standing there with a pathetic look on his face. I frowned. "Tell Alice to call me when she gets back" I said tossing the bag over my shoulder. "Bye Edward" I said turning to walk out. "Bye bella" He said slowly sighing at my name. I just nodded and ran out to my house.

Hope you guys liked that chapter. Took me awhile ma bad. Two days Yes I count that as awhile. Again thank you all for reading it it means a lot. If this chapter sucks then Im sorry. If it seems unorganized and stuff, then im sorry. I had lots of ides but I still wanted to show you that bella, still like Edward, Edward likes bella still, but theres still Tanya ya know? I don't see bella as the girl who, even, if she hates the person, to want to be the one to come between them. I hope you liked it. Again THANK YOU!