My office was dark, as it normally was these days. People would be arriving for work soon, and I would have to leave the dark confines of my security blanket that was my office and leave. People would expect me to take charge especially on this case, this was a hard one.

Memories of last night danced in my head, and I wished they would go away. Sara…my dear sweet Sara. Why had I done the things I did. I tried to remember why I started having sex with Catherine and couldn't remember…I couldn't come up with one good reason why. I felt so stupid. And now she was with a man her own age…he was good looking, smart, strong…everything I wanted to be and fifteen years younger.

I closed my eyes…

There was a knock at my door and I knew who it was, but the pain of the situation she presented hurt still.

"Come in." I called.

I heard the door open and I looked up to see the vision of beauty walk in.

"You wanted to see me Gil?"

My name rolling off her tongue still elated me, even though I was about to let all of that go.

"Yes, sit down Sara."

She did as I asked and looked at me with expectant eyes.

"I need to talk to you…about us."

I could see the fear come crashing into her eyes and my heart constricted.

"Wha…what about us?" She asked trying to hide her stutter.

"I'm ending us…" I began.

"Why!" She quickly protested.

"Sara…the age difference between us…"

"I've already told you I don't give a damn about that…I love you Gill…why can't you just take that for what it is?"

"Because one day you're going to look at me and wish you could be with someone younger…someone who can still satisfy your needs."



"Just being with you satisfies my needs." Sara said honestly, but I still looked at her unbelievingly.

She smiled softly, got up from her seat, and walked around my desk to come sit on my lap. I looked at her with surprise but the words she whispered in my ear made me feel eternally stupid. "I will never want to be with someone younger…I will never want to be with someone who's not you…I love you."

I shook my head at the memory. I was about to list off the reasons why I was so incredibly stupid to myself when there was a knock at my door.

"Come in." I called. I was expecting Greg or Archie to come to me with some annoying fact I didn't need to know.

What I didn't expect was for the vision of beauty to walk through my office door.

"Grissom?"

My head was suddenly spinning. "Sara what are you doing here so early?"

"Early?" She gave me a funny look. "Griss…" The nickname made something warm spread through me, though I don't think the use of the name had been intentional. "Shift starts in ten minutes…we just wanted to drop by and give you these."

'We'? Sara walked in further and I saw Mike follow in after her, holding a file in his hand.

"We just go these this morning…it's an overview of the case we were working back in New York." Mike stepped forward and handed me the file.

"Okay well, we'll be waiting in the break room." Sara said as she turned to leave.

She was just out the door when I called out "Sara…"

She turned to me with question in her eyes. "Yeah?"

I didn't know what I was doing, but I had to do something. "How are you?"

"I'm alright Grissom…thanks" She said before she turned and left.

I sighed and rubbed the bridge of my nose. Well that was a step up from yelling at me last night.

I sat at my desk, trying to prepare myself for the upcoming night when I sensed a presence at the door.

I looked up to see Catherine standing in my door way.



"We're waiting Grissom…just wanted to let you know."

I nodded and said "I'll be there in two minutes."

Catherine nodded and then left my doorway.

I opened the file Mike had handed me and read its contents. I felt a little bit of pride as I read the words 'Senior CSI Sidle heading investigation'. She truly had done well for herself in New York. I remember a few years after she had left, one of the few times I had heard of her, I had been at a conference.

I sat at the bar, sipping whiskey. She hadn't been here…I had hoped…but my hope wasn't worth much these days.

Two men sat next to me, ordered their drinks, and started to talk animatedly.

"Yeah Jack's got a girl in New York…real fine CSI." One man, an older man said to a young blonde man.

"Yeah, I heard about her when I was in California…solved a big serial I guess." The blonde said.

"Yeah, I remember that case…three Crime labs working on it…and she comes through with the bust single handedly." The older man said.

I was only mildly interested.

"I've met her once…she's very intelligent…and beautiful." The blonde took on a dreamy sort of tone.

"Yeah…I say Jack lucked out when he picked her up, moved to New York from Las Vegas…apparently she worked for Gil Grissom…what made her leave his lab, I don't know, but Jack got lucky…that's for sure."

My interest peaked…were they talking about Sara…no…yes, they had to be.

"Yeah…their solve rate went through the roof…top lab in the country now."

"Yeah…Sara Sidle is something."

I finished reading the report and closed the file, putting it on top of the other files I had to bring with me. I stood and picked up the stack of files and headed out of my office towards the break room.

"Yeah…New York is great…you should come visit me some time…" Sara voice echoed in the halls. "Yeah Mike and I are really happy…"



Sara lay nestled in my arms. "Are you happy Ms. Sidle?"

"Couldn't be happier Mr. Grissom."

A/N I guess i was inspired today and decied to update right away. And for you GSR shippers...dont be worried...i have plan that i think will make u and the people who dont want to see them back together happy...its just going to take a little while to get there. Thanks for the reviews!