Last time on "My Happy Ending":

And as I lied there, I wondered as the sun rose and set how it could continue to do that. I wondered how the world could really continue to spin when I completed the worst crime known to man. I murdered children. I murdered family, and I ended love. I ended love, which seems to seem what monsters like me are experts at.

And monsters only should be allowed to stay in Hell… or on Earth Volturi. That is where I would go… I would go to Italy.

From Sea to Shining Sea

You know how your mother would lecture about the ability for you to achieve anything you want. You know the clichéd saying, "When there is a will, there is a way." Well…well, that may be true to a point. Yet, your mother was not a vampire. Just because, one wants to do something does not mean technically you can. Not everything is possible. Sorry, to disappoint you. Everything is not possible, just like I found out it is not just possible to apparate (like Harry Potter) into the Volturi Castle.

As I lay on the ground somewhere in the northern part of America or Canada, I knew that my options were limited. I wanted to die. It was the simple. I wanted to end my life. Monsters were not supposed to be on Earth. I would just continue to harm innocent people like I did. My demise was needed. However, how could I make it to Italy without harming countless people? How could I achieve my goal? The plane would be the only way of transportation, yet to do so, would put hundreds of people at risk. I would not want to harm another soul and the plane was the only option.

I needed time. I needed more time. I remember somewhere from the past that all problems could be solved with time. That terrible heartache that kills your entire body and soul only gets better with time. I remember Renee, even with her craziness and insanity, that occurrence that every problem will get better with every passing second. Time can heal all wounds, and I needed time to get over the blood lust, or perhaps I would need to find other vampires. Finding other vampires would allow me to gather help learning how to control it. No, better yet, if I found another vampire, I could ask…no question…no beg them to end my life him or herself. It would not be the hard. The "badder" the vampire, the easier it would be them to kill a vampire that was asking for it. It would be my final goal. Now, I only needed to find some vampires. How hard could it be to find another vampire? It could not be that hard, could it?

Edward's Point of View

*Picks up after Bella runs out of the house

"I am sorry…so sorry," Bella whispered to us, and then she ran. What did she have to be sorry about? What possibilly in the entire damned world did she have to be sorry about? She was the most innocent and beautiful creature in this entire world of darkness. She was the only source of light in the endless darkness. She was my sun, she was my world. And I had failed her. I caused her so much pain and heartache. If it was not for me, she would have remained pure and safe. She would have been safe, and we would have been married at this moment instead of being apart. It was my entire fault. I caused my Angel to see the Hell that she was being sentenced to. I caused this. What did she have to be sorry about? I was the one that was sorry, and I was planning to make it up to her for the rest of forever, until… until that moment when she started to run.

And I just remained a statue, not moving, not daring to move a single inch. Because if I did, I would simply crumble. I told Bella countless days before to remain safe, because I left my heart with her. She had my heart, and now it was gone. The central part of my being, the reason that I continued to live each moment, the reason that I was going to enjoy the rest of eternity left as suddenly as the wind blew through the room. She was gone. And I was alone.

What is wrong? She cannot be gone. We were happy. Esme wept mentally.

My baby sister is gone. What the Hell did Edward do to her? EDWARD! Emmett screamed in his mind. Emmett was right. It was all my fault. I knew that long ago. Everything was my fault.

She was showing so much pain, so much heartache, yet so much guilt. Edward, she left because she was guilty and out of love. Why did she do that? Jasper questioned making sense out of her scattered emotions.

Why did I not see this? Why, oh, why did I not see this? I should have stopped it. It is all my fault. Alice mourned.

"No Alice," I whispered, "it is mine. All mine. I have no idea why she was guilty. It is I that am guilty."

"She was guilty?" Rosalie speaking up for the first time, both physically and mentally.

"Yeah, she was, why?" I replied to her questions.

"Oh no, oh no," Rosalie muttered to herself.

"WHAT? What did you do to her, Rosalie? God help you, you tell me now." I threatened not caring about what I did to Rosalie.

"Edward…" both Emmett and Esme chastised.

"I felt the same, Edward. I felt the same after I was raped years ago." Rosalie muttered quietly as a look of grief and remembrance came over her face.

"Why?" I replied.

"She feels guilty for you. She feels as though she is dirty, used…spoiled. She feels that she does not deserve you. She thinks you deserve someone that is not spoiled… I felt the same." Rosalie explained.

"You felt the same?" Emmett questioned looking at Rosalie with a sense of love and pain.

"I felt I did not deserve you when I first met you," Rosalie muttered as Emmett swept her into a loving embrace.

"Why would she feel that? That is insane." A sense of rage filled me body. I needed an outlet. I flew over to the wall punching my fist clear through the drywall, which did not even respond in a remark for Esme. She felt my same sense of rage and confusion.

"Edward, I cannot see her." Alice stated.

"Not at all?" I replied.

"No… it seems as though she almost started blocking me on purpose. Perhaps, she does not want us to see her." Alice reported.

"Shit," I cursed.

"Edward."

"Who cares? She is gone, and we do not have any idea where she is. We have to go after her. Now."

"She must be so scared and alone. Poor girl." Esme muttered.

"Her blood lost must be insatiable." Carlise reported, "Perhaps, we could track her. She could not have gone that far, even with her new strength. We could have the Denali's help us find her. She probably would have run North. Maybe, we are able to block her off."

"Good idea. Let's go." I decided as we all left the room as a group. We needed Bella, we needed to rebuild our family.

Next Chapter: Bella finds some vampires. Will they be willing to help or not?

Update Status: I have a lot of days off from school. I know I have not been very up to date with updates, yet I want to finish this story and make it soar. I will update before Sunday again. See you all soon, and please review. They add tons of inspiration and really make me want to write. I would love to have 100 reviews. Thanks. Twirlon