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Broken Hearted
New Home
Days had gone by and nothing else had happened like it did on Christmas. But he still walked around as if he did one thing wrong they would snap, he didn't want that. He remembered
when he first entered this relationship everything seemed almost perfect. Not but six months later everything had changed. First, holidays/birthdays plain sucked. Second, he was moved into
his own room instead with the others. It was like they wanted him around but didn't want him around them. It hurt, a lot, but he didn't say anything. He figured they had their reasons, and
he wasn't going to push them for answers no matter how much he wanted to know. He felt as if things had gone down the drain from there. They hardly ever said a word to him, and when
they did the words they spoke were hurtful. He felt no amount of love from them, none at all.
With every hurtful word, wither it be emotionally or mentally, he felt as if he was breaking slowly. As much as he wanted to know why they treated him such, he was afraid that he would be
hit again. Because of this fear he never said a word; he just took everything that they threw at him, no matter how much it hurt. He was really starting to believe every word they spoke,
about him being a plaything, a toy. How as toys become more damaged with the abuse given to it they will eventually break, as every day passed he felt as if he were one of those toys. He
was dealing with so much abuse that his heart and soul were being torn apart; he was breaking, breaking painfully. Couldn't they see how much they were hurting him? Of course they
couldn't, he hid it from them. Besides, why would they care? He remembered that one month ago was really the breaking point for him. 'Fuji had been in an argument with Tezuka. Tezuka said
hurtful words that upset Fuji, so he tried to make him feel better, saying that Tezuka didn't mean those words he said. Fuji had just looked at him and sneered. Saying that toys were nothing but
toys, and should act like a toy. That toys don't talk, which meant that he shouldn't talk.' After being told that Ryoma did just as Fuji said. Because he was 'toy', and was starting to believe it, he
decided to act as such. He stopped talking, even towards Karupin and those who worked there. When friends called and were told it was for him, Ryoma only shook his head. He was a 'toy',
and 'toys' don't talk, so how could he talk on the phone?
Ryoma had accidently stepped on Karupin's tail so he opened his mouth to apologize, but all that came out was a soft gasp. Ryoma's eyes widened and he placed a hand to his throat. From
not talking for so long, it seems that he forgot how to talk. Tears filled his eyes and slowly fell down his cheeks. Karupin jumped on the bed and rubbed his head against Ryoma's arm, purring
softly. Ryoma looked down at Karupin, and petted him gently. Karupin meowed at Ryoma; his lips lifted slightly but didn't even come close to a smile. Ryoma shook his head at Karupin and
touched his throat again. Karupin meowed sadly, Karupin loved hearing Ryoma talk, but now he couldn't. Ryoma never showed any emotion towards anybody, not even to Karupin. Thinking
back on it, Atobe was the one who stopped him from showing any emotion. Atobe had come into Ryoma's room while he was playing and laughing with Karupin, a smile was on Ryoma's face.
Atobe cleared his throat causing Ryoma and Karupin to look up at the intruder. Atobe glared with a slight sneer and told him that toys had no emotions and that as a toy he shouldn't show
emotion. The smile slipped from Ryoma's face and any sign of happiness left his eyes. Atobe nodded in approval before he left. Ryoma wondered if he could ever live happily, but he doubted
it.
Ryoma glanced down at Karupin and gave a soft sigh, then went back to packing. He couldn't take it anymore; he was going to take Karupin and leave. The good thing was that his so called
'lovers' were all out at work or something of that nature. Hearing a sound behind him, Ryoma quickly turned around to face the door, relaxing when he saw who it was. The butler stood
there a moment, glancing around, before giving a small smile to Ryoma. "Ah. So you're leaving Master Ryoma?" Ryoma just nodded. The butler still smiling stepped into the room. "Do you
need any help packing Master Ryoma? I'll do what I can. Oh…do have some place to go?" Ryoma, at first, just stared at him, feeling a bit surprised. Ryoma looked towards the stuff on his
dresser then back to the butler. The butler nodded his head in understanding, then asked again, "And a place to stay?" Ryoma shook his head. The butler stood thinking then gave a soft
smile, "Ah. I can help you there as well." Ryoma nodded his thanks. The butler nodded, then walked into the room, and helped with the packing. "I'll be right back Master Ryoma." Ryoma just
nodded and sat down on the bed with Karupin waiting for him to come back.
The butler went to the kitchen and then to the phone. Quickly dialing a phone number and patiently waiting for it to be answered. It was picked up and he and the person on the other end
were conversing. "…" "Ah. Hello Master Lei. I was wondering if you could put in a favor." "…" "Arigato." "…" "Master Ryoma is leaving the Atobe estate. I was wondering if would allow him to
stay there." "…" "He isn't quite happy here. Oh. He also has a cat." "…" "So it's fine? And he can bring the cat?" "…" "Arigato. Master Ryoma will be delighted." "…" "Oh. And one other thing.
Master Ryoma does not speak nor does he show emotion. So don't take it personally if doesn't speak to you." "…" "Thank you again." "…" "He will be leaving today. I'll have him on the plane
soon." "…" "Alright. Good bye Master Lei." "…" He hung up the phone and went back to Ryoma's room. "Master Ryoma, everything is all set. You'll be staying with an old friend of mine. He
knows about the cat and about not speaking. So there shouldn't be any problems. Dei will drive you to the airport. And don't worry; Dei will not say anything to the others." Ryoma nodded
his thanks, then looked a bit thoughtful before he hugged him. The butler hugged right back, "You're welcome, Master Ryoma." He whispered gently. The butler walked Ryoma outside and to
the limo that was waiting. "Master Ryoma, I'll check on you whenever I can. Master Lei will take care of you. So no worries." "Ryoma nodded, with a bit of tilt of the lips. Opening the door for
Ryoma, he bid him goodbye, and he was gone. The butler sighed in relief, 'You're safe in Master Lei's hands. This I promise.' Then he went back inside.
Dei drove Ryoma to the airport in silence, every now and again he would glance back to see Ryoma either looking at his hands in his lap, or out the window, not really seeing anything. Dei
pulled to a stop in front of the plane, and stepped out to open the door for Ryoma. Ryoma stepped out, carrying his bags and Karupin, who was in his cat carrier. Dei looked at Ryoma and
smiled slightly. "It was nice having you around Master Ryoma. I'm sure everyone will miss you. Would you like for me to give them your regards?" Ryoma looked over at Dei and gave a small
nod; he would miss them as well. Dei nodded and led Ryoma to the plane, "Have a nice trip Master Ryoma. And be careful." Ryoma nodded slightly and waved back to him as he stepped into
the plane. Dei waved back and left with the hope and knowledge that Ryoma would be safe now that he was leaving. Won't the others be in a nice surprise when they get back?
After a couple of hours a limo pulled up in front of the estate, and all of Ryoma's "ex-lovers" stepped out. They headed inside, a sense of foreboding had them all walking in with a small
frown. They looked around and didn't notice anything out of place, but didn't stop looking, that feeling still there. Fuji down the hall Ryoma's room was at. He looked into all the rooms, just as
he was getting ready to leave the hallway, he stopped. He slowly turned around and walked back to Ryoma's room and looked in. His eyes widened, everything of Ryoma's was gone, even
Karupin. The bed was made and everything. It looked like no one had ever been staying there, except for the fact it was completely clean. He slowly walked back to the den, wondering what
made Ryoma suddenly up and leave, but nothing came to mind. The others were already there, "I couldn't fine anything wrong, and every thing is in place." Atobe grumbled, the other two
nodding. They looked up to see Fuji enter the den, a troubled look on his face. Tezuka walked over to him, a bit concerned. "What's wrong Fuji?" Fuji looked up with a confused look on his
face, "Ryoma's gone…Why would Ryoma just up and leave?" Everyone's eyes widened, Ryoma was…was gone? Atobe called for the butler. The butler entered the den, "Yes Master Atobe?"
"Did Ryoma leave?" The butler nodded. "For how long?" "Indefinitely." The other's eyes widened, "Indefinitely?" The butler only nodded. "Why would he just leave, like that?" The butler
looked at them in surprise, then frowned at them. "I will not give you an answer. Though I know why, you should know as well, Master Atobe. Master Ryoma should have long ago. But
Master Ryoma held hope. He finally decided that enough was enough and left. You need to think really hard about this." They all scowled at him, "You will tell us now." Atobe demanded. The
butler only shook his head, "I will not. He had good reason to leave. You were too blind to see what you had; now you've lost him. Think about it Master Atobe." And with that the butler left
them in shock.
The plane finally landed after thirty-six hours. Ryoma yawned, then stood and left the plane. Finding his things and Karupin, he looked around to find his ride. A man walked up to him, "Do
you happen to be Master Ryoma?" Ryoma only nodded. "Alright then. Follow me and I'll take you to Master Lei's estate." Ryoma nodded and followed him to the limo waiting right outside the
airport. The man opened the door and allowed Ryoma to slide in. Getting into the front seat, he drove to the estate, and like Dei had done, he glanced back at Ryoma. Ryoma was doing the
same as what he did in the limo that Dei drove, but most of the time he would be glancing out the window, slightly curious. The limo pulled up in front of a huge gate, getting out he walked
up to a speaker. "This is Wippler, bringing Master Ryoma." At that the gates opened and the man called Wippler drove through. "Master Ryoma, we will be at the estate in twenty minutes.
Master Lei will be at the door to welcome you." Ryoma looked up at Wippler and nodded. Wippler nodded back, and as promised, they were at the estate in exactly twenty minutes. Wippler
got out and opened the door for Ryoma. "Welcome to your new home Master Ryoma. I hope you find in satisfactory." Ryoma stepped out and nodded slightly in thanks. Getting his bags and
Karupin, and followed Wippler to the door. Master Lei stepped forward, "Now, now Wippler. What did I say about letting others carry their own things?" Wippler looked sheepish and turned
to Ryoma, giving a slight bow, "Gomen Master Ryoma. It won't happen again." Ryoma just shook his head, his lips twitched only slightly, but they did twitch. Wippler was told about the kid
not speaking and having no emotions, he smiled when he noticed his lips twitch, perhaps with time the kid would smile again. Master Lei smiled gently at Ryoma and gave a small bow.
"Welcome to my humble home. Please, make yourself comfortable, this is now your home, and hope you will treat it as such. What ever you need, just let my maids and others know. They
will gladly offer their services to you." Ryoma nodded slightly, understanding, he just hoped they would be able to understand him as those back at Atobe's did. Master Lei smiled again
before leading Ryoma inside and to a room. "Ryoma-san, this will be your room. I hope it is enough." Ryoma looked into the room, a bit surprised, it was four times bigger than the room he
had at Atobe's. He looked up at Master Lei in confusion then back to the room. Master Lei understood instantly. "Yes Ryoma-san, this is your room. Your last room must have pretty small.
How small?" Ryoma turned to Master Lei and held up four fingers. Master Lei's eyes widened, "This room is four times larger than your back at your old home?" Ryoma nodded looking back
into the room. Master Lei was surprised, this boy lived at the Atobe estate and his room was four times smaller than this one. "Well all my rooms are the same size. So I'm afraid there is
nothing smaller. Is it too much?" Ryoma shook his head glancing back at Master Lei. Master Lei gave off a small smile, "Alright then, make your self at home." Ryoma nodded stepping into the
room slowly as if afraid something bad would happen. Master Lei watched Ryoma for a moment before walking to the kitchen to talk to the cooks. "I need you to make a good, healthy supper
for Ryoma-san. It looks as if he hasn't eaten in ages." Master Lei thought back on how Ryoma looked so frail. The cooks nodded in understanding, before getting to work.
Ryoma looked around the room before sitting his bags and the carrier on the bed. He opened the carrier and let Karupin out. Karupin purred before curling up on the bed and falling asleep.
Ryoma looked down at Karupin with a look of content. Then turned to his bags and unpacked them. Putting his clothes in the dresser behind him. His other bag contained all his Christmas
gifts and other such things. Setting them in their appropriate places, he set the bags and the carrier into the closet to the right of him. A maid knocked on the door and Ryoma turned around.
"Ano…Master Ryoma. Supper is being served now. Master Lei would love it if you joined him." Ryoma nodded, and then looked around the room for a bathroom to wash up. The maid cleared
her throat, "If you wish to wash up, the bathroom is to the left of the dresser." Ryoma looked over towards it, then back to the maid with a nod of thanks. After he finished washing up, the
maid led him into the dining room. "Enjoy your meal Master Ryoma." Ryoma looked at her and nodded slightly and walked to the seat that Master Lei pointed to with a small smile. "Sit, sit. I
sure hope you enjoy your meal. The cooks have cooked a welcome meal for you." Ryoma nodded, and then turned towards the maid bringing out the food. Ryoma blinked slightly, and held
his breath, the smell of the food was making him sick, he had a feeling his face looked a bit green. Master Lei looked at Ryoma in concern. "Ryoma-san? Is everything all right?" Ryoma looked
up at Master Lei and gave a short nod, trying his best to not get sick. Master Lei didn't look convinced. "If you suddenly feel sick, then the bathroom is to the right of you." Ryoma nodded and
sighed inwardly, this meal was prepared for him, and he should at least try to eat some of it. He didn't care if he had to force it down his throat; he was going to eat as much as he could, if
he could eat any at all. A plate was set in front of him and forced him self not to inhale the smell of the food. He had to eat some at least, but 'toys' didn't eat, right? It was going to be hard,
but he'll try, he's starting anew and this will be the first step. After Master Lei said thanks for the food, he began to eat. Ryoma looked down at the food, then glanced towards the utensils
set before him. Hand shaking slightly he lifted the fork, then stared back at the food, unsure what to do. Master Lei watched him from the corner of his eye, and frowned when he saw
Ryoma's hand shaking. "Just eat what you can Ryoma-san." Master Lei said softly. Ryoma looked up at Master Lei to see a soft smile playing across his face. Ryoma nodded, 'Just eat what I
can…' So Ryoma slowly began to eat, even though he felt sick at the first bite, he continued to eat. Master Lei frowned noticing that just eating one bite made the boy turn a little green. He
frowned even further when he saw him continue eating, when he was obviously feeling sick. He sighed inwardly, 'I did say that it was made for him. Maybe he thinks that it's necessary for
him to eat at least the food on his plate. He really shouldn't force himself.' Even though Master Lei thought this he also held a high amount of respect for the kid. Not even he would force him
self to eat what his stomach wouldn't allow. The meal continued and Ryoma even forced him self to eat dessert. Master Lei hoped the kid wouldn't get too sick after eating all this. After
supper, Master Lei suggested that Ryoma should go ahead and try to sleep. After all, it wasn't too long since he got off the plane. Ryoma happily took up his offer. After a sleepy good night,
Ryoma and Master Lei went their separate ways.
Ryoma's 'ex-lovers' were stuck. Why would Ryoma just up and leave them? Wasn't he happy? It was so complicated, they couldn't understand his reasoning. And the butler said that Ryoma
should have left long ago. But, why? With a sigh from each of them, they headed towards their room. Atobe stopped in his tracks, causing Tezuka to bump into him. "What's the problem
Atobe?" Atobe stepped into the room, and everyone's eyes widened. There were piles and piles of presents in their room, some looking pretty bad. The butler and maids and such, had kept
every single present that Ryoma had given to the four. They decided that once Ryoma left, that they would hand over each present. "What's all this?" Sanada asked looking confused. The
butler stood in the door way. "That is every one of the presents that Master Ryoma gave to you, which you just tossed aside." Atobe turned to the butler confused, "But there are so many."
The butler nodded, "It's your birthday and Christmas presents. From months and months ago, until the last holiday/birthday, that there was before he left." With that the butler left, and the
four turned to the gifts. "Guess we should open them." Fuji said softly. They all nodded and opened the gifts one by one. "Why are some of these dented or broken?" Sanada asked. Fuji
looked at the broken trinket in his hand. "It's like someone threw them or something." Tezuka nodded in agreement with Fuji. "But who would…" Atobe trailed off and stared at the others in
shock. The others glanced at him in wonder, "What is it Atobe?" Fuji asked. Atobe glanced at the broken gift in his hand, which looked like it cost a pretty penny. "Could it be…that we were
the ones who destroyed these gifts?" The others looked up at him like he was crazy, "Now why would we…" Tezuka trailed off as a sudden memory flashed through his eyes. 'Tezuka glanced
at the tag, as did the others, and threw it to the side. Breaking glass heard throughout the room, but ignored.' Tezuka looked up at them, "It was us…we destroyed these gifts…" They all paled,
'was this why Ryoma left?' they all thought. But Fuji doubted this was all, there had to be something else, but what? Then a memory flashed in front of him, '"You are only a toy, toys do not
speak." Fuji said with a sneer.' Tears filled Fuji's eyes; they looked at Fuji in concern. "Fuji?" Fuji looked at them, "Did any of you call Ryoma a toy?" They looked confused, and then shocked,
they all had called Ryoma a toy at least once. "That may be why he left…" Fuji whispered. 'Oh Ryoma…I'm so sorry.' Tears fell down everyone's cheeks as they thought of every time they said
such a thing to him. Atobe looked up at them, wiping at his cheeks, "We have to find him. We need to apologize." The others nodded. Once again Atobe called for the butler. "You called
Master Atobe?" Atobe nodded, "Do you know where Ryoma went?" The butler looked at the, anger flashing before disappearing. "I do." They looked happy and were about to ask where he
was, but the butler spoke up first. "But I will not tell you." They looked shocked. "Why?" they all asked. The butler just stared at them in contempt, "You've hurt Master Ryoma enough. I will
not allow that any longer. You are going to learn to live without him as you have been. Good day." Then the butler left them, once again, in shock. "We lived…." "Without him?" They all asked,
looking at each other.
Ryoma stared up at the ceiling, 'I've left them…now, can I be happy?" Was the last thought that ran through Ryoma's head as he fell asleep, almost peacefully.
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