Worthless Chapter 1, a misc. movies fanfic

He's just lying in bed, starring at the ceiling. Thinking of the incident. Why? Why did God have to punish him like that? He never did anything wrong…Did he?

He gets up to go to the bathroom but stops when he hears voices out in the hallway. He knows its wrong to eavesdrop, but decides to do it anyway. He puts his ear up to the door.

"I'm really scared for him. I mean, he's blocked us out and haven't you noticed that he barely ever eats anymore?!" The first one says.

"I know, I know," The other one says. "But the best we can do for him is comfort him when he needs it. Just give him some time."

"But it's been over a year!"

"Look, we don't know everything that happened. He's probably in a lot more pain than he let on. You know how he is."

The first one sighs. "Yeah…well…I guess you're right. I'm going to head off to bed now. I love you."

"I love you too bro. Sleep well."

He hears footsteps, so he's guessing everyone is heading back their rooms. He begins to feel guilty about not telling his brothers, but he's sure they'll hate him, and most likely disown him.

When he's sure, no one can hear his footsteps; he walks to the bathroom and closes the door as softly as he can.

He looks at the broken boy starring back at him as he stands in front the mirror. His normally young, glowing face is now pale white and full of pain. His ribs are clearly visible underneath all the blue, black and purple bruises layered across his chest. He slowly glances over at the long red scars on both his arms. He frowns and runs his hand up and down, the horrible memories.

His usually deep brown, chocolate eyes are now black and filled to the brim with tears, trying to stop them from falling. However, no luck is found as he sees large, salty tears making their way down both his cheeks.

He slowly raised his right hand to wipe away the tears, but is now frustrated as they just keep falling.

He sniffles slightly. "Pathetic." He says to himself. "I deserved it, he's right. I can't deny it."

He falls to the ground with a small "thud" and pulls his knees pulled tightly to his chest. He's quite surprised no one can hear is heart wrenching sobs. "Keep it together. Keep it together." He whispers to himself. He can't let them see him like this. He just knows he can't. His hands quickly shoot up to hold is head when he starts to feel dizzy. The whole world is spinning and he just can't seem to focus.

When he focuses, he finds himself gripping the sides of toilet bowl tightly, pouring his heart out. It takes minutes before he's able to stand up, using the vanity as a support.

He quietly tiptoes back into his room, leaning on the wall the entire time, and collapses onto his bed. He clutches the large teddy bear his brother had won for him when they were younger. For the first time in over a year, he smiles. Not a fake smile, but one that really reaches his eyes. But the smile is soon replaced with an even bigger frown as he begins shedding tears.

Tears for himself, tears for his parents, and most importantly, tears for his best friends; his brothers. He's sobbing now and closes his eyes, attempting to take deep breaths, but it doesn't work.

And for the 404th day in a row…

He cries himself to sleep.

I'm all alone tonight,
No stars are shining on me
I'm thinkin' I'd be alright
If somebody would just call me, yeah

I know that I'm not crazy,
Everybody must get this way, sometimes
So look around,
For the people in your life that say

Save Me
I need somebody's help here
Thought it would be alright but
I'm not pullin' through on my own
Is anyone around who can Save Me
I'm fallin' down it's crazy
If this is the pain God gave me,
I'm cool with that,
But wont somebody Save Me

I guess you missed the signs,
But honey I can never blame you
I don't want ya feelin' guilty,
that'd keep you in pain too (oooooh)

Now I can't hear you when I'm far away, away
So maybe you could learn from this,
And help somebody else someday

Cause I'm human after all
And I could not catch my fall
And nobody ever came around my way
to check up on me and see if I was doin' alright
Nobody came to Save Me

Save Me from my demons
Save Me from myself
Save Me, somebody Save Me
I need someones help

(ooooooooooooh)

(ooooooh)

A/N Sorry that was horrible. Please give me some constructive criticism, or compliments if you liked it. I'm still wondering if I should continue or not. And.....Should I make it present tense or past tense, and would you like to see more than just this persons POV? Please let me know. (The song is Save Me by Jordin Sparks , just so you all know)