The beach wasnt as crowded as i expected.

Me and Jacob started walking along the shorline hand-in-hand, like we've always done. This time it felt different. I wasn't holding his hand to make him happy, i was doing it to make him happy and he was doing the same for me. Jacob was the first to break the silence.

"Um, Bella. Can I ask you something?"

"Anything. Whats wrong?"

"Um nothings wrong its just that i wanted to know how you felt...you know...about us. You know how i feel about you but i just want to see if you haden't changed your mind."

Normally i would've felt akward in these conversations, but i didnt. Talking to Jacob was easy breathing. I could tell him anything and it won't feel strange."Well, um i don't know. I love you Jacob i do, and you've brought life back into me but i dont know if im completely in love with you yet."

Jacob smiled."Completely? Yet? Thats implying you do like me but its not love. And the yet...your saying you will eventually right?"

"Jacob i've always loved you as a brother."

"Yeah but im not talking about brother and sister love..."

"oh." that was the only way i could respond. i wanted to tell him how i felt and i realized if i didnt do it now i would never had the chance.

"Really bella. I won't be hurt if you dont like me in that way. Just be honest with me. Please?" he smiled. I couldnt deny his smile.

"I do like you jacob. Really i do. I've given...you know.... us a thought and i liked the thought of it." i blushed.

"I like the thought too..."His voice trailed off and he looked away. Out of no where he jumped in front of me and faced me. Our bodies were so close not a magazine would fall through if there was one there. He intwined our fingers together, but they were still relaxing at my side. I started to take a half-step back but he stepped with me. Our fingers disconnected and his warm hands wrapped around my waist. My hands ran up his bare stomach untill i was at his neck. I put my arms around his neck, not wanting to let go.

This felt so wrong yet so right. It's never been this hard before wanting to kiss Jacob. As much as i wanted him, i couldnt grasp the fact that we would be together.

He continued to stare down at me. The heat was starting to burn but i wouldn't ruin the moment. His right hand came up to my cheek and he stroked it gently. I started to rise on my toes and he bent down. His lips met mine. He kissed me tenderly, and he took my face in between his big hands.

and then i heard the smooth, velvet voice of edward in my . "I love you and i always will love you. Be happy. But i will never be without you. Be happy. I'll see you again one day, i know it."

Why? Why did i have to hear his voice now? I felt bad about the kiss after that. A part of me would always love edward but i knew i would have to move on. One line repeated in my head. I will see you again one day, i know it.

My mind came back into reality and i realized jacob was still kissing me. He started to give more force into the kiss before our lips parted. I didn't want him to stop. I kept my eyes closed and waited for him to kiss me again. He did, but eventually, his lips parted again. I took 5 quick breaths before he pecked me. twice, a third time, and then i opened my was smiling.

"Not bad for a first kiss ehh?" he said.

I chuckled. "Not bad, not bad at all."

His hands were still around my waist and mine were on his neck. I suddenly had a flashback of..edward. Our first kiss. In the medow. His cold lips brushed against my lips. It was harder for him because i knew he thirsted for my blood. He did it though, for me, because he loved me. I couldn't think like this. It's been too long since edward and he was just a beautiful memory and jacob is realtiy.

He backed away and took my hand. "Let's go. Everyone will be here soon. I hope you're hungry." he grinned.

I just nodded. He turned us around and stated walking.

The truth was I wasn't hungry. Not after that. i had too much going through my head. Maybe eating and being with everyone would take my mind off him...

I really hope you like it so far! this is my first fanfiction story so please be nice! There is alot more to come and i should have another chapter added every few days. thanks for reading and continue to read or wait for my updates!