~~Chapter IX: Gone~~

Edward's POV [1 hour earlier before the accident]

"Edward, we're going hunting there in Mt. Sinai. Want to come?" Esme asked, she was trying her best to not freak me out.

I just shook my head.

"Okay then," she said. Her lips formed a hard line.

What's happening to my son? She thought. Her voice in her mind sounded like

begging and crying. I was so sorry.

I don't care about my existence since I left Bella. It was a stupid thing to do, but it's the only thing to make her safe. To maintain her humanity.

I was a monster after all, I thought and Then sighed. My life will be miserable for eternity.

Stop it Edward! At least Bella's safe, my mind said.

I sat down in the couch and waited for the night to come. I sat here for almost 6

months, leaving only if I was thirsty. I never spend time with my family during outdoor and indoor activities. I sat here, acting like a freak and a moron.

I spend my time thinking, breathing and staring off into space. It serves as my entertainment.

Oh, let my life hath had faith in me, I thought.

I waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and–

I heard my family entering the room. Whoa, they're fast.

They surrounded me, blocking their minds and seeing or hearing nothing from

them.

Alice came forward to look at me with worry. Her face looked like a messed up pixie doll. I knew something was wrong. They will block up their minds if something terrible was happening and they weren't ready to tell me.

Then I thought about something–someone.

Bella. My Bella.

I stood up, my hands balled up in fists and I towered Alice, but I was still looking at her eyes.

Just then, she cried tearless sobs.

My face softened, then hardened. My jaw clenched as I saw her mind.

I was tense, frightened, angry and guilty.

I was tensed because I saw her falling.

I was frightened to see her dying.

I was angry that no one had to protect her.

I was guilty because it was my entire fault leaving her.

If I was human, I would've passed out.

"When will this happen?" I said in a manner of ventriloquism. I wasn't looking at her no more. Esme was crying tearless sobs and the others looked depressed, even Rosalie. All of them were thinking about Bella. My Bella.

"It's happening now, Edward. There are doctors, helpers, stretchers and––"

She couldn't continue, she was crying and sobbing too hard.

I fell and touched my forehead with my hand. I, too, was already crying.

Of all of the people, why should it be her? Should be Bella? My angel, my whole existence. My Bella is gone.

I saw the funeral, the years passing by without her. I saw Charlie, Renee and the others crying in her funeral.

I was off to Italy to face my death, to be with her.

"No Edward, don't do this!" Esme cried, grabbing my arm. I shook it away and turned to her.

"I can't live without her Esme, please understand that."

"I'll help you move on Edward! Don't go to Italy please! Think about us son, please!" she was sobbing too hard.

"No Esme!" I shouted and then she looked at me, her eyes pleading. "No Mom, it would be IMPOSSIBLE continuing my life without my existence. Impossible." I headed out to the door. I ran to get my Volvo to get the hell out of here and be with my Bella forever.