Chapter Nine
"So." Danny said as he sat back down on the couch and Lindsay sat next to him, a little closer than before.
"So." Lindsay repeated looking at him curiously, she rested her head on the back of the couch and smiled at him.
"You know, you're handling this really well." Danny said as he hesitantly reached his hand up and stroked her hair.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"I mean, you lost your husband." Danny started. "Hm…I mean you're like living two lives. You're dating your husband, but still raising his kid."
"We never really dated to start with Dan." Lindsay laughed, and he narrowed his eyes at her confused.
"What do you mean?" he asked, licking his lips distracting her.
"I moved here, from Montana, and we just kinda flirted and danced around each other, then you asked me out, and I stood you up." Lindsay said and waited for him to respond.
"Why?" Danny asked as he continued to play with her hair.
"I had to go back home and testify in the trial of the guy that killed my friends a couple years back." Lindsay said softly.
"I'm sorry, Linds." Danny said as he picked up her hand and intertwined their fingers.
"You came out to Montana, you know." Lindsay laughed.
"No." Danny said, not believing her.
"Yeah, you came to the trial, gave me the strength to finish my story." Lindsay said with a smile and kissed his nose.
"I think you would've been fine, if I hadn't been there." Danny said with a smile.
"Maybe." Lindsay said and shrugged her shoulders. "But I was still so surprised, cause you were dead on your feet, you hadn't slept in at least 48 hours."
"Wow, smooth." Danny laughed, causing Lindsay to laugh.
"Maybe, I soon as you got in the truck you were gone, snoring and everything." Lindsay laughed.
"Not so smooth." Danny said, smirking at her. "So why didn't we date after that?"
"Well, we had a couple dates, like the one where we ended up spending the night on the pool table." Lindsay said and stopped.
"Then what?" Danny asked, moving closer to her. "You're not telling me something."
"Danny, I don't know, I mean." Lindsay stuttered. "I don't want to relive it, and I don't know how you'll react."
"Linds, you can't keep it bottled up, it can only come between us." Danny said softly, stroking her hair.
"Okay." Lindsay said, taking a deep breath, while she tried to find the words. "You know Ruben?"
"Yeah." Danny said, not understanding what he had to do with anything.
"Well, you took him to get his bike blessed, and on the way home, there was a robbery at a bodega, gun fire, and you told Ruben to go home, cause you weren't that far from your building." Lindsay stopped and looked up at Danny. She swallowed hard trying to keep her emotions under control. "And when you came into work, his body was in the morgue, he got hit by a stray."
"No." Danny said shaking his head. "No way."
"I'm sorry Danny." Lindsay said and squeezed his hand.
"What else? I don't understand what that has to do with us." Danny said, his voice soft and vulnerable.
"Well, you became ridden with guilt, and we just." Lindsay stammered, not wanting to put all the blame on him.
"I pushed you away." Danny said and Lindsay nodded slowly.
"And I don't really know a lot of what happened during that time, but you started spending a lot of time with Rikki, Ruben's mom." Lindsay said softly carefully watching how Danny's how body tensed.
"No." Danny said looking over at her, his blue eyes clouded with tears. "I wouldn't do that."
"All I know is it happened, I don't know how many times or how long." Lindsay said as she wiped her own tears away.
"God, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." Danny said turning his body towards Lindsay.
"I know, Danny, I know." She said and gently kissed his lips.
"How did we here? Married with a child." Danny asked and Lindsay smiled and wiped a stray tear from his cheek.
"I was taking a rain walk, and you called me. I came over to your place, and we spent the night together." Lindsay started with a smile.
"On the pool table?" Danny asked with a smirk.
"The first time, then we went to the bed, cause we remembered how bad the rug burn was." Lindsay laughed. "I'm not positive, but I'm pretty sure that was the night Avery was conceived."
"Yeah?" Danny said, with a small smile. "But that's not it."
"No." Lindsay said. "We were together, but things weren't the same, then I found out I was pregnant. I didn't tell you right away, we had a case, and it ended up taking you to the clinic where my doctor was, and you saw me, but I ran."
"Why?" Danny asked confused.
"Later you cornered me in the locker room, asked me what was wrong, after I threw up, I told you I was pregnant." Lindsay said, and waited for Danny to look at her, when he just shook his head she continued. "You asked me if I was sure, and I showed you the sonogram. Then after we solved the case we spent the night talking."
"Why didn't you tell me when you thought you were pregnant?" Danny asked confused and slightly angry as he turned to her.
"Because I didn't know what would happen, if you would leave, I didn't want us to end." Lindsay whispered, avoiding his eyes.
"I wouldn't do that." Danny said and put a finger under her chin, forcing her to look at him. "I'm not that type of guy, but then again I didn't think I was the type of guy to cheat."
"Danny." She said. "It doesn't matter anymore. So after a couple weeks, you asked me questions about my family's medical history, then slipped in a proposal."
"No." Danny said again, not believing that he would do that.
"You were so cute, so nervous." Lindsay laughed.
"You said yes though." Danny said.
"No, I said no." Lindsay laughed as she watched Danny's face twist in confusion.
"What, why?"
"Because it wasn't the right time, but we talked a little, then you told me you loved me, then we went in and told Mac we were expecting." Lindsay said with a smile. "He was very happy for us."
"So, how'd we end up hitched?" Danny asked, sitting back against the couch, moving Lindsay so she was resting against his shoulder and chest.
"City hall, Mac and Stella were our witnesses." Lindsay said with a yawn.
"Sounds like something we would do." Danny laughed.
"Yeah, everything has been pretty easy since then." Lindsay said as she played with Danny's ring.
"Yeah, until I forgot everything." Danny groaned and rested his head on top of hers.
"It's okay, we're getting there." Lindsay said.
"How do you deal with it? Having me but not having me like you used to." Danny asked softly.
"I don't know, I try to stay strong for Avery, but I usually cry in my room, when it gets too overwhelming." Lindsay said softly. "But you're still here, and I'm glad for that, that you woke up."
"Yeah, I hope it comes back." Danny said and kissed the top of her head. "I'm sorry I cheated. I'm-."
"Dan, it's okay, don't worry about it." Lindsay said and kissed the underside of his chin.
"Okay." Danny said. "It's late, you should get to sleep, you work early tomorrow."
"Stay the night?" Lindsay asked softly.
"What?" Danny gulped.
"Not sex, just sleep next me?" Lindsay asked as she stood and pulled him up with her.
"We can have sex if you want." Danny laughed. "I honestly won't mind."
"I know you won't, but not tonight cowboy." Lindsay laughed as she changed into her pajamas and Danny striped to his boxers.
"How come we only have Avery?" Danny asked pulling the covers down and laid in bed.
"Kids are a lot of work." Lindsay said and cuddled up to Danny.
"Yeah." Danny said and wrapped his arms around her.
"We were trying, you know, for another one, but then you had your accident." Lindsay yawned.
"We can still try you know." Danny said as he rubbed his hand up and down her back.
"Dan, I'm not having sex with you." Lindsay laughed.
"Ever?" Danny asked horrified.
"When it's the right time, trust me, you'll know." Lindsay said. "Go to sleep."
"Lindsay?" Danny asked, very nervous.
"Yes Daniel?" she laughed.
"I think I'm falling for you again." He mumbled.
"Good." Lindsay said and kissed his chest. "I love you Dan, now go to sleep."
"Okay." Danny said and kissed her forehead.