Well thanks to the reviewers. Glad ya like it so far. Hopefully I'll be able to keep it interesting enough for ya.

APOV.

That was an unexpected statement. I understand her feeling bad for everything that happened. I even understand what it feels like to have them hate you. But despite what they think of themselves they aren't worth wanting to die over. So I have a deep feeling all of this is running deeper then we could even imagine. Something is hurting her beyond her own words.

"Faith?" I call trying to get her attention. When she looks at me the look in her eyes breaks my heart. I continue on. "You do have something to live for. You're a slayer." I say. Even if she doesn't have all the things Buffy has being a slayer makes her so important to the world. She lets out a laugh that has no humor.

"You all just don't fucking get it do you. I don't care about being a slayer!" she yells as she starts to pace.

"Right you care to much about taking over my life and trying to kill people." Buffy says coldly. She trying to make it seem like she hates Faith but I know she doesn't.

"Buffy, Buffy, Buffy! When are you going to realize what's in front of you! I don't give a damn about you, slaying, or anything that could be associated with you! Fuck!" Faith says. "Look about what went down back there I'm-" she starts but Buffy cuts her off.

"Don't apologize to me." Buffy says. Faith looks a little shocked.

"I wasn't going to. If you'd shut the fuck up and let me say what I need to say you'd know that." Faith snaps at her. "Like I was sayin for alla that shit that went down I'm far from sorry. I did what I had to do. But I am sorry for one thing and that's you stabbin with my knife in order to get my blood for Fang but then usin your own. Wait no not exactly sorry bout that just sorry you are so fuckin stupid to do somethin like that." she says. The girl really knows how to push buttons.

"What do you mean you're sorry I'm stupid enough to do something like that?" Buffy asks back angrily. Faith sighs.

"You come and stab me for blood then use your own. Now you live with the fact you stabbed me for no reason." Faith says like she's explaining it to a small child.

"I stabbed you because you gave me no other choice. You had to be stopped!" Buffy replies. I know I should interrupt but it interesting. What? I need something to talk to Cordelia about.

"You sure about that?" Faith asks back in low voice. Buffy looks at her confused. "Are you sure I had to be stopped or the image you had of me had to be stopped?" Faith asks. Ok she should just come out and say what she needs to say. I'm not getting any younger.

"Faith you were dangerous. You were murdering and working for evil. Of course you had to be stopped." Buffy says back easily.

"Everything I do I do for a reason." Faith says with a shrug.

"Because you are psychotic?" Buffy asks. Faith stares at her for a long minute before answering.

"You can answer that question yourself. You're lookin in the right places for the answer to why I do things but your lookin in the wrong time." she says. Cryptic much.

"Cut the bullshit and answer me." Buffy says sounding annoyed. Faith smiles.

"The only way to answer why I did what I did in the past is to look back further than you allow yourself to." well that's so much more clear.

"Look I don't have time to play your games so I'm going to go with my first answer. You are psychotic." Buffy says.

"But you'll never know if that's true now, will you?" Faith says in return. I thought I knew mysterious but this girl can give me a run for my money.

"Oh I know. The evidence is right in front of me." Buffy says waving her hands around. Faith looks out the window then back to Buffy.

"Evidence isn't always the route to finding your answer." she says. Which now that I think about it is true. Evidence means nothing unless its solid.

"Why don't you tell us then?" I ask. She looks at me with a sad smile.

"I shouldn't have to tell you. You should already know." she says.

"What do you mean?" I ask her. You know this is probably the most intriguing conversations I've had in a long time.

"I mean that if things had happened differently you'd know already. But they didn't so you don't." she says with a shrug.

"Again what do you mean?" Buffy asks sounding more interested than annoyed.

"What's my last name?" Faith asks us out of the blue. We give her blank expressions. "When's my birthday?" she's met by more blank looks. "Why don't you know the answers?" she asks.

"You never told us." I reply. What is she getting at.

"Did you ever ask?" she asks. I shake my head and so does Buffy. "If you'd have asked you'd know why I teamed up with Richard." she says to us. She looks so sad.

"What does your last name and birthday have to do with you betraying us? We were your friends?" Buffy asks. I think I'm starting to understand.

"She didn't betray us because there was nothing to betray." I say. Buffy scoffs.

"Our trust and friendship." Faith just sighs.

"There was no friendship B. there was no trust either. If there were I woulda been at a whole lot more meetings than I actually attended and I wouldn't have reacted the way I did to Finch." Faith says getting angry.

"Yes there was. I trusted you Faith, its you who didn't trust. You who betrayed and ruined our friendship." Buffy says getting just as mad.

"Angel." Faith say and I automatically know what she wants.

"Buffy. Faith why don't you tell us what you mean exactly." I tell her. She closes her eyes.

"I mean that none of us were friends. If we were we'd know more about each other. And as far as trust goes you didn't trust me and I didn't trust you. If I did I woulda let you in when the whole Finch thing went down but I didn't and it fucked me up in the long run." she says. I notice how she's taking equal blame in this. Saying she didn't let them in and they didn't let her in.

"So you're blaming us?" Buffy asks.

"Fuck! Why are you so argh?! Listen to the words I'm saying. WE were not friends. WE didn't trust each other. WE meaning I'm as much to blame as you are." she says.

"So why didn't you trust us?" I asked.

"Same reason you didn't trust me probably. Scared to let somebody new in." she say like its no big deal.

"Whatever. Its to late now." Buffy says.

"Buffy its never too late." I tell her.

"Hey that's the name of a song I wrote." Faith says.

"Buffy its never too late?" I ask.

"No never too late." she says.

"You wrote a song?" Buffy asks with a raised eyebrow. Faith nods an reaches into her pocket and pulls out an I pod. She goes over to my computer and connects it and the music filters the room:

'This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late'

she has an amazing voice. I didn't know she could sing and now I realize how much I actually know about her. Nothing.

"What made you right that song?" Buffy asks.

"It was my way of tellin myself not to give up on what I was doin." she answers back.
"What were you doing?" I ask her.

"Searchin for Megan. It seemed like no matter how close I got I always missed her. After a while I started to give up and I wanted to die. Eventually that was all I wanted to do and when the feel became too much I wrote this and listened to it. Doesn't really do me any good no more though." She answers.

"Who is Megan?" Buffy asks.

"My daughter."

ok so as most of you know that song is not mine and faith didn't really like it. Its Never Too Late by three days grace. I'm not to sure but I think it fits her mood at the moment. What do you think? Please review.