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AN: Alright! I've gotten farther in this chapter then I thought. I tried to fit in some of the actual storyline from the books but it's in no way meant to be exactly the same, so there are lots of differences. Enjoy and Review!

A couple more days passed by, and I struggled to keep track of time. Without sleeping it was hard it distinguish days, especially if you were staying inside. I've been doing lots of that lately. I haven't trained anymore, as Atticus decided I should go back to studying in the library.

Blaise and Deidre left to go to the city. They didn't take me as they said human blood would drive me crazy the moment I smelled it. They weren't planning on eating until they were done their shopping, and having me there craving blood would slow down the process. Deidre promised she'd buy me lots of clothing so I could finally stop borrowing from her but I made her promise not to spend too much. Even though I knew their money was probably endless and that most of it was technically mine, it still didn't feel right.

After they left I thought for a while about killing humans. Would I want to do that? Would I be able to hold myself back? In the comfort of my room I decided that I would be able to control myself, but in reality, I wasn't so sure.

My opinion on it was a bit different as well. It felt like I was one up in the food chain. Drinking human blood would be like eating meat if I was human. Humans killed thousands, millions of animals to feed themselves. Not many felt remorse.

But would I take a human life? A life that had a family? Someone they loved?

I didn't know.

I left my chambers towards the evening. Dee and Blaise weren't back yet. I asked Atticus if they were fine, but he just shrugged it off.

"They're probably having too much fun eating."

I left the library and decided to explore the castle. Even though I've lived here for almost three weeks now, I've only seen a fraction of the place.

I pretty much knew what was behind every door down my hallway. My room was on the far right and to the left of me was Atticus, then Blaise and then Dee. I decided to go downstairs to the living room.

There were two doors in the living room that I've never opened. I decided to start my exploration there.

I walked through the first one and entered a sun room. It was bigger then the living room but much smaller then the ballroom. It looked like it was made entirely out of glass. At 12 o'clock any vampire who walked in here would be glowing, besides me of course. A curved staircase led up to a balcony. I went up to look around.

I never even knew we had such a beautiful garden. Little paths ran through it and I was tempted to go outside but decided to put it of till the morning. No doubt everything would look much better in the sunlight.

I descended back to the sunroom and noticed a door on the right. Without a second thought I opened it and discovered a hallway much like the one upstairs but smaller. It only had two doors, one on each side, but I could bet they were just bedrooms. I didn't smell Tyr so I concluded they were for guests.

As I walked back to the living room I thought about Tyr. Where did he spend all of his time? I haven't seen him since our first training session but I knew he hadn't left. His subtle smell still lingered around the castle. Suddenly I was determined to find his room.

I went through the second door and almost fell. It was a staircase leading into the basement which looked more like a dungeon. Soon I was in small square lobby. As I looked around I noticed carvings on the stone walls. They depicted battles and vampires fighting each other. The detail was astounding even in the dim light emitted from the torches.

I heard a door open and a whipped around. I recognized his smell before I even saw his face.

He was standing in the doorway of what I suspected was his room.

He looked unsure as he softly said, "Come in."

Tyr's chambers had a very medieval feel to them. It was probably the stone walls. The floor was mostly covered with a soft red carpet and his room did not have a bed. Instead, against the wall stood a big, elegant, burgundy couch. A small wooden desk was in the corner with parchment and quills on it. A lit fireplace and a couple of lamps illuminated the room.

A low glass table was in front of the couch, and I noticed a closed laptop resting on it. I briefly wondered if Dee would buy me my own today.

He walked gracefully towards the fireplace and moved some logs around with a poker. I fidgeted for something to say.

"You have a nice room."

His voice sounded tense, "What brought you here?"

I sounded apologetic, "I was just looking around. I went up to the sun room, and then came down here. I didn't know this was where you lived."

He straightened up and looked at me. Slowly he nodded and I could feel him relax.

"The dungeons are quite small. It's just this room and the laboratory."

This interested me, "A laboratory?"

Tyr sounded nonchalant, "Yeah, no one uses it anymore except for Atticus, sometimes, when he's doing research. Many of the lords who lived here liked to conduct experiments."

I probably looked confused so he continued, "Experimenting with their blood mostly. The impatient ones tried to figure out how to bring out the main power quickly. None of them had much success."

"The ability to destroy…I still haven't experienced it," I muttered stupidly.

He tilted his head a bit to the side, studying me, "That's quite fortunate for us. It's better if it happens while you're fighting an enemy, not training with a friend."

I could see he was right.

"Speaking of training, I apologize for what happened last time," suddenly he sounded uncomfortable. I blushed and looked away.

He continued, "I was way out of line for letting it happen. I guess the training tired me out."

I knew he was lying. The training wasn't the least bit challenging for him. Nevertheless the rejection hurt. I felt stupid.

"Non sense, I was the one who shouldn't have gotten that close. I could see my actions were not welcome."

He signed, "Bella, it's not about what I want. It's about what is appropriate. I'm a servant and you're a Queen."

His words sparked a glimmer of hope. So he did want me. I looked up and walked towards him.

"Rules. Who cares about rules? If I was just a normal vampire, would you hesitate before kissing me back in the forest?"

He took a deep breath and seemed to think about it for a few seconds. Meeting my gaze he replied, "Not for a moment."

I felt my lips curl into a smile as I came even closer. He looked bewildered.

"Bella--,"

I put my finger on his lips to silence him, "Then kiss me right now. That's an order."

Suddenly his soft lips met mine. I closed my eyes in pleasure. He was so careful and gentle but I wanted more. My hands found the back of his head and I pulled him closer. His hair was so soft.

I felt his strong arms encircle me. My hands traveled to his back as I felt every muscle through his thin black shirt.

I moaned softly as we continued kissing. The gentle kisses were gone replaced by passionate and demanding ones. We stumbled onto his couch but before I could fall his hands caught me and gently lowered me.

I was underneath panting and so was he. My hands feverishly tried to undo his shirt but after a moment I gave up simply ripping the buttons off. I could hear him chuckle in my ear and the next moment his lips were on mine again. I let my hands wonder down his bare chest. His skin was unbelievably smooth and pale.

Tyr pulled away and I could see the passion in his eyes. I knew all of our reason was lost. All I cared about at the moment was the way his lips felt against mine and made me forget about…

Edward.

I froze. Suddenly I remembered his hands on me while I lay beside him. His lips pressed against my cheek. His beautiful eyes. His crooked smile.

Tyr's voice broke my through my painful memories, "Bella? What's wrong?"

I had to leave. I jumped of the couch and ran to the door.

"Bella!"

I looked at him. He was so beautiful and I felt horrible for doing this, but I knew I had to.

"I'm sorry, I can't do this."

I felt myself choke. His confusion and disappointment flooded me. His feelings were on display. I felt what he felt at the moment. This was not the time for a new power to appear, so before he noticed anything I fled.

I ran thought the castle and into the forest. I ran for what seemed like hours but I couldn't get far enough. I no longer felt Tyr's emotion but mine weren't much of an improvement.

Edwards face wouldn't leave me alone. Every time I closed my eyes I would see him. Finally I couldn't move anymore.

I didn't know where I was and I didn't care. I was too angry, too disappointed in myself. But it was all because of him.

"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE, EDWARD? YOU PROMISED, DON'T YOU REMEMBER?"

I sobbed but no tears came. This made me even madder.

"I HATE YOU!" I screamed at no one. I wished he was here so he could feel my wrath.

I collapsed on the grass and continued sobbing. Why did this have to be so hard?

I wasn't conscious of my environment for a while. When ever the sobs stopped I'd remember Tyr's face when I left and that got me going again. I hurt him because the asshole just wouldn't leave me alone. In my heart and in my mind he stayed and I didn't know how to make him leave.

But eventually I snapped out of my depressed state. I started feeling alien emotions once again. They were of worry, fright and confusion. The others were getting close.

I didn't want them to see me like this. I pushed myself of the ground and brushed the dirt of my clothes. I tried to pretend I was concentrating on something so when they got here I would lie and say I practicing my new ability.

Soon I could decipher their smells. All of them were coming. I felt bad for worrying them so much.

In less then a minute they arrived and Deidre was the first one I saw.

Her eyes were widened in panic and she looked completely distraught.

She ran towards me and shook me by the shoulders, "Bella, are you alright? Tyr told us you ran of on your own, we were so worried!"

I shrugged, pretending it wasn't a big deal, "I was just practicing my new ability. Seeing if it would work from a far."

Dee gasped in surprise, "That's great! But next time please tell us where you're going. Now, we have to hurry. Me and Blaise found out terrible news while we were in the city. Remember the Seattle killings Tyr told us about?"

I nodded, frowning.

"Well, we found out it's a group of new born vampires, from a source in the city, and they moved to some town called 'Forks'. It's all over the news. Two tourists died already and the police preparing a search. We have to destroy the newborns before the police gets there!"

My mind blanked after she said Forks. Suddenly I remembered Charlie clearly. He could not die. I wouldn't let that happen.

"Bella! Snap out of it! I know this will be your first fight but you're ready! I know it! We have to go right now! You can tell me about your new ability on the way."

I turned around and there was Tyr, Blaise and Atticus. They were looking at me with anticipation. I caught Tyr's eye and somehow I knew he didn't tell the others why I left and what happened between us. We would forget about this for now. There were more important things at hand.