I rubbed my stomach irritably, I knew I was hungry but I was going to hunt when the Cullen's were going to.

And that was another fucking three days.

I was so grumpy, nobody wanted to be around me. Even Emmett was rarely around to keep me company. But it wasn't my fault! I'm just not used to holding back my hunger for so long. Sadly they didn't understand or couldn't relate and just said I was being a grumpy ass so I gave up.

Now I'm at the stable, lonely, grumpy and hungry. Anne was here with me, god bless her soul, because she knew how I could get. And she even got mad at the Cullen's for avoiding me. But whatever, we'll see who gets the upper hand in this. It's their faults any who.

But never mind the Cullen's, I didn't even want to think about them. I was here to ride and that is exactly what I'm going to do.

Finding my horse, Ares, I looked him over; to check if he had any injuries from the trip. Then I brushed him down, saddled him up and let him to the riding pasture. The pasture was huge so we could gallop, lop (trot) or walk.

Bringing myself in the saddle I softly kicked Ares sides and he stared off on a nice lope. Digging my heels into his side a bit more he went into a gallop. If you've never been on a galloping horse its hard to explain the feelings, the freedom it gives.

I was at the stables with Anne for a good five hours, it gave me a lot of time to release stress and calm down. I was smiling and joking when we got back to the Cullen's. As soon as we entered the house I ran up the stairs and into my room, closing my door and locking it. Just because I was in a better mood doesn't mean I wanted to talk to them.

Opening my closet door I stripped down and started to dress, pulling on Spongebob PJ bottoms and a blue spaghetti strap shirt. Leaving my closet I glared at the thing on my bed.

"I hate how you think that its okay to break into my room." I snapped at him, not pleased.

"Well you weren't going to open the door either way"
"Of course not, I don't want to talk to you"
"Lately you haven't wanted to talk to me"
"Hypocrite much? You haven't wanted to talk to me either"
"Come on Katie, your still mad about that"
"Of course I am! If you guys want to be family with me you have to love me when I'm grumpy too!"

I was about to leave the room before I felt his large arm wrap around my body, his nose behind my ear.

"I'm sorry Katie, please forgive me?" Emmett's voice sounded sincere so I just sighed and pushed him away.

"Fine.. fine, your forgiven." I closed my bedroom door and walked over to your bed, laying on it. He came over and laid next to me, already in his PJS.

I've been here for a good month, ever since the whole Bella fight Emmett and I have gotten closer, and he's "slept" in my room every night. Alice and Edward like to make wild guesses on what we do but I just ignore them, if Emmett and I had sex they would be the first to know.

But its not like we are! We're are just friends, he is my best guy friend, AKA my crush. Behind him is Edward then Alice.

I'm quite shocked how Edward and I are so close. Me not liking Bella, that usually causes major tension. He can also make time to hang out with me and not make her mad. See, he likes that I agree with him. She shouldn't be turned into a vampire but when Emmett walks by and hears our discussions he gets mad and always ends up saying to me. "It's not your vote."

And that always just stabs me in the fucking back.

See, it was easy to get along with Alice because she is... well, Alice. We go shopping together, go hunt, and just be... girls. It's great actually.

Carlisle is like a dad to me. Esme an aunt, and Anne is my mom, aunt, sister, friend and grandma like person and Jasper is an amazing brother. He is pretty cool once you get to meet and know him.

Feeling a nudge I looked into the golden eyes of Emmett, "Sorry... got lost in my thoughts." He chuckled softly and shook his head,

"It's fine." He laid on his back and looked at the ceiling, his eyes emotionless.

Hearing the front door open, Bella's sweet scent hit my nose. Growling, I pushed myself against Emmett's body. Burying my face into his shoulder his amazing scent blocked out Bella's.

"Why is she here?" I snarled, my hands curling into fists as they held his shirt.
"So she can hang out?" He answered confused.

I just groaned and pulled away, getting off the bed and sitting in a chair, opening the window closest to me and just kept my nose by the window. I felt his eyes on me, and I didn't look at him, afraid of his expression.

"Well, do you want to go down and see everybody? Edward is back." My eyes flashed happily as I heard that Edward was back, but I couldn't go down there while Bella was there, not when I was this close to losing control.
"No." I stated simply, not looking at him. "I have no desire to see Bella"
"Why are you acting like this?" He asked, slightly frustrated. "Because I'm hungry..." I murmured back and I now felt a glare on my face.
"Then why in the hell don't you feed"
"Because I don't want to hunt by myself!" I exclaimed, looking at him as his expression softened. "Sorry I'm trying to act more family-like and feed with you guys!" Then I looked out the window, "And plus if I go downstairs... you guys would hate me if I lost control and bit Bella."

Tears started welling up in my eyes, and I heard him stand up, a slight sound came from his lips but my door opened before he could say anything. Edward's scent wavered into my nose, Emmett growled and glared at Edward.

"What Emmett?" Edward asked, like he didn't know what was going on. "I just came to see Katie, is there anything wrong with that"
Emmett didn't answer but I knew he was mad.
"No, of course not Edward but I'll go ahead and go downstairs and let you guys talk." Emmett strode to the door and closed it a bit loudly, he was mad at me... why did I even open my mouth?

"Sorry about"
"No-Edward, its my fault...." I trailed off, "I don't know when to just lie to him." Edward's gaze turned a little sad. "Is there anything I can do to help?" He asked softly, protectivly, like a real brother. "Yea, I'm going to go for a little walk, relieve stress, run around. Just tell them downstairs I went off to do something"
Edward nodded and walked towards me, wrapping me in his arms. "Return okay? Because then I'll have to kick your butt and teach you a lesson about not leaving your family"
I smiled and looked up at Edward, at my brother. "Of course I will return." He let me go and I opened my window, jumping down to the earth before running off and disappearing into the woods.

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I was sitting on a stump, just staring at the grass blade I named Theodore. I gave him a background and everything, and now since I was done telling his life to all the other little unamed grass blades I just stared at little Theodore, bored.

"You know, Theodore..." I started before sighing, "I wish I was you, you; just living a perfectly normal life while you envy the tree for living for hundreds of years while the tree envies you for living such a normal life expectancy and not have to live through the horrors and pains it has too." My golden eyes flickered to a huge oak that was not to fair away, "Theodore, you're the human and the tree is the vampire. Don't envy it, just because its more grand and beautiful than you. Just live normally, with all your other normal grass friends. Because there are more grass blades than trees."

After that little speech I heard a little soft crunch of feet stepping onto leaves and my eyes landed on Emmett. I made slight eye contact with him and his eyes were slightly happy to find me. I just looked forward, letting him speak first, if there was going to be any conversation.

A minute passed.....

Five minutes passed....

A sigh escaped my lips and I couldn't bear it any longer, "Emm-" and he interrupted me as his arms found their way around my body and he pulled me into his chest, trapping me there. I just stood there, feeling his chest rise and fall slowly as he took fake breaths. His apology silent.

I knew I should've forgiven him but I can't allow him coming up and hugging me and saying sorry fix everything. This should be talked about. Shaking my head slightly I let myself nuzzle into his chest, intoxicated by his scent. After a moment I pulled my head away and pushed his arms from off around me.

"Emmett, this is something we actually have to talk about. We can't just hug and make-up." I whispered, sitting back on the ground as I felt his gaze on my face. He then sat next to me, letting me talk when I was ready. But I couldn't go first, so he decided to go.

"Why are you so against Bella getting turned into a vampire?" He asked, not looking at me but watching the sun start to set. Didn't he ask me this before? But oh well, we were trying to understand each other.

"Because my mortality was taken forcefully and painfully, its like getting raped Emmett." I whispered, "Plus, she has such a good life. Why should she throw it away for one boy?" I paused for a second, knowing he was stiff. "I'm not saying Edward is a bad guy, or will ever be. But how do they know they will last forever? It's going to hurt them really bad when and if they break up."

"That is the sacrifice they are going to take Katie, why can't you see that?"

"Because I've never been in a relationship, so maybe its hard for me to take into consideration." I whispered truthfully, looking back at Theodore. He was quiet, and a uneasy silence hug over us. He just sighed softly, laying on the grass.

"That would make sense..." I looked at him as his gaze was on the darkening sky, "And I guess I can understand it, if you haven't experience being in a relationship with somebody it is kinda hard to understand their thoughts and reasoning." I was quiet after that and looked at my hands, looking at the pale skin that was once a darker tone. It was quiet for a moment before Emmett spoke up again, "But I am sorry for not taking your viewpoint into perspective, personally I like Bella, she's a pretty cool gal and I don't mind another Cullen." For some reason that ripped at my heart, I knew he didn't love Bella like that but I hated to hear how much he liked her. Maybe because I had a huge crush on him. I kinda felt my eyes sting, I was such a freaking baby.

Before I could say anything or do anything he put his hand under my chin and lifted my face up to look up at his face. "I'm sorry for being short with you about this subject, I'm not usually so... mean." He did that carefree grin he always did, his voice truly apologetic. "And, the Cullens are going 'camping' tomorrow."

My eyes went wide, they weren't supposed to be going for another three days! He saw the confusion in my eyes and smiled softly, "Jasper needed to feed as well, plus, I asked Carlisle and the family and they all agreed we needed to feed and you could stop being tormented. Bella seems to be around a lot more than she usually is and likes to carry her friend's scents as well so we need to do some more extra feeding. But mostly, for you."

I looked away from him and back at Theodore, before I did anything rash. I just wanted to kiss him at the moment, but that would probably make things awkward. He made me look at him again, and his face was a little closer, his eyes frustrated. "Stop looking away from me, I hate that." My golden eyes softened and I looked at his face.

We stared at each other for a couple of minutes.

He released my chin and his hand swerved its way around my head, pulling my face closer to his. My hands instinctively went to his hair and tangled themselves in his locks as our lips met. It was like we had done this to each other plenty of times, it came so natural.

He tasted and kissed amazingly. His lips were cool but tasted some-what minty, like he had just brushed his teeth. He brought me closer and deepened our kiss, it went like this for a couple of minutes before we released each other.

It was a little awkward.

I looked away, feeling my fingers tighten in a fist, his shirt in my hold. What the hell did I do? I mean, I was perfectly happy just being a friend right? And constantly fighting over the subject Bella so we didn't have to tell each other what was really going on.... right!? I was about to release him and push him away, not wanting to. He seemed to want the kiss too, it was him you did the 90% of the movement... or was it me!?

Oh my freaking god.

Seeing as I was going to push away he instantly wrapped his arm around my waist, and kept me there and he leaned his forehead against mine, trying to look at my face, my eyes.

"Please...." He started then stopped, not knowing what to do.

"Let me go Emmett, I won't run away, it's too late for that." He released me slowly, unsure and ready for my bolt but I didn't move, just situated myself so I was a couple of feet away from him. "What will your family think about it if we actually got together Emmett?"

"They would be happy about it." He answered back, his eyes still on my face.

"What about you?"

"That's a stupid question, I'm the one who kissed you."

"Don't be a smart-ass!"

"Well its a little hard not to be one when your making a fool of yourself."

"You know what? I don't even know why I talk to you."

"Because you love me."

"Don't jump to conclusions mister."

"You kissed me back, it either you love me or just like the way I taste." I knew I grin was plastered on his face, "Or was it both?"

"Guh! I hate you Emmett!" I exclaimed covering myself to cover the I-was-caught-red-handed look on my face and the embarrassment. He just burst out laughing, grabbing and pulling me back to his chest. Resting his face on my shoulder, his eyes most likely closed. "You know what I never got? How we can fight the next moment and love each the other."

"Is that how a regular "healthy" human relationship should be?"

"Your asking me?"

"Oh yea, I forgot. I'm your first."

"Shut-up lover boy."

He just growled lovingly and pulled me closer.

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This is probably one of my favorite chapters. w

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