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Chapter 5 - If I Ask You Not To
The atmosphere in the room can only be described as rather heavy, maybe with a dash of uncertainty. Edward walks towards the door and gently closes it as I wait on the edge of my bed with Izzy's massive black and brown head in my lap. Unconsciously I stroke her soft head as she falls asleep, her small doggy snores are the only sound before Edward sighs and turns back to face me.
"About my being human..." he doesn't seem to know what to say and I nod my head encouraging him to continue.
For a slight second his eyes close before he continues, I guess to gather his thoughts.
"As you already know, in order for a vampire to become completely human one has to drain a shape shifter of all their blood--" my eyes drop to Izzy's face in my lap as my jaw clenches.
"--as you also know there is the possibility that I will die. Or that I will live and become human once again." my thoughts once again begin to filter through all that has been said here and everything they told me back at the police station, he seems to be waiting for an answer or some sort of reaction but I refuse to react until I've heard everything.
"There's more to it though. I mean more to me just dying." I glance up, once again confused. He's done this to me way to many times to count already.
"I don't understand..." I tilt my head and gaze into his green eyes in the hopes that something will click.
IT seems like a silent battle is being fought in his mind, eventually he merely nods his head and searches my face before he chooses to continue.
"Theres the chance that the blood cells could attack my body and kill me, it wouldn't be instant it would be more like a cancer and we wouldn't know until a few weeks of my being human" the blood rushes from my face as it all sinks in. Edward can't die. Besides he wouldn't do this if I refused. If I said no he would obey my wishes. Wouldn't he? I begin to doubt this and my face scrunches up giving away that I'm having an internal battle with my own thoughts.
"What are you thinking?" any trace of his stoic demeanor is gone and curiosity softens his features which makes him look so very young. His eyes still never miss a thing.
"If I-" I take a deep breath not sure of what his reaction will be to my question "-asked you not to do this, what would you say?" he's thoughtful for a moment as his eyes are drawn up towards the ceiling, I watch him but his face never portrays any other emotion than thoughtfulness.
"I suppose I would ask why" he concludes and his face now holds something new, a mix of love and confusion, as his face drops down to meet my stare. I swear for someone whose been around for so long he truly is clueless sometimes.
I sigh and slide out from under Izzy's head to stand so I can place my arms around his waist once more. His hands gently stroke my shoulders, one arm comes to rest there while the other strokes my cheek then places a lock of my hair behind my ear.
"Well. I just got you back and I don't want to take the risk of losing you forever. Also, those shape shifters you so lovingly think of as a source to become human are my friends whom I love very much" my eyes wander up his chest towards his face, where I expect to see some sort of grimace. Instead my favorite crooked smile greets my eyes and I can't help but smile back at his amazing face.
"You really are something else, love" his lips come to rest on my forehead and he breathes deeply before pulling away to look me in the eyes.
"I would definitely consider that. Weigh my options. Though, would you not rather grow old together instead of become damned to an eternity?" all traces of humour are gone as his thoughts begin to grab hold. "Not that I'm saying you have a choice in becoming one of the eternally damned"
"Not at the expense of my friends. They helped me Edward, when you left, they were there to help pick up the pieces." I ignore the last part, knowing now is not the time for that argument. His hands have come to rest at his sides where I grab them in my own hands, his eyes never leave mine as we bring our arms up to rest half way at our shoulders.
His fingers interlace with mine and his expression is once again thoughtful as he, hopefully, considers what I have just said. I duck my head towards my shoulder as a yawn breaks through and he merely chuckles.
"Seems you need sleep." with a few sleepy blinks a surprised smile plays across his mouth though it never reaches his eyes.
"I haven't felt tired in years. Its... amazing" he drops his head to rest on my shoulders and his arms envelope me in a hug. I close my eyes and reiterate by placing my arms around his waist. A few minutes pass and he silently raises his head to back away, but never once lets go of my hand.
"Lets just enjoy whatever time I have left to be human, okay?" he seems so hopeful, like a small child who's just asked for five more minutes before bed. I sigh and smile - "Okay. I can deal with that. I just..." my thoughts grow towards a darker point and his brow furrows slightly at my sudden change of mood.
"What?" his hand reaches up to stroke my cheek
"I just hope that Victoria doesn't show up." we both shudder at her name a low growl emanates from Edward before his eyes flit to my closed window.
"Alice has her eyes on your future, also the entire family is just outside of the city limits so if anything happens we'll make it to you in only minutes." my eyes brighten as do his at my sudden change in mood.
"Yes their here." he chuckles and a small buzzing can be heard from somewhere on him.
"That's probably her right now" he flips the small black phone open and before he has a chance to open his mouth someone speaks.
"Yes.... okay...... of course we wouldn't want that.... I'll tell her... love you to. Bye" his eyes roll and I give him a questioning look.
"That was Alice. She wants me to tell you that she misses you, she loves you and you'll be safe." I smile broadly as I nod my head
"Tell her, that I miss her and love her to. Also tell her thank you" he ducks his head down and pulls me into a quick kiss. His forehead comes to rest on mine and he stares me in the eyes
"Will do." he straightens up and walks towards the door. "She also said that Charlie and Carlisle are on their way up so we best not keep the door closed" he gently pulls the door open and throws me a wink over his shoulder just as Carlisle comes into view.
"Edward, we should be on our way, Charlie has to work early and I'm sure Bella is tired." his soft melodic voice fills the air, as if on cue a yawn escapes which makes all three men laugh.
Edward merely nods and turns to give me a hug "I'll be back with Alice tomorrow if the weather permits her to come out" he whispers in my ear. Before he turns to leave his lips press gently to my forehead and my eyes close against his touch. His back is swiftly to my face the next moment as my eyes open and he makes his way towards the stairs but stops to wait as Carlisle steps forward to embrace me in a light hug
"It's so very good to see you again Bella, Esme will be ecstatic to hear that your okay." He whispers in my ear and gives me a light friendly kiss on my cheek. The shock only lasts a second before I hug back and smile against his shoulder.
"Please tell everyone hi for me" his smile is soft and warm as he nods his head before turning to follow Edward down the stairs and out to their car. I can hear Charlie say his good-byes and I gently close my door.
This entire day feels like a dream, the kind that you have after you've eaten something right before bed. It may be weird and completely out of a science fiction movie, but I will gladly accept it back as my life. What I should have been living with the past 2 years had Jasper not tried to kill me. I'll have to tell him he's forgiven for that the next time I see him. With a happy sigh I flick my light off and make my way into bed. I wonder what happens when he turns back into a vampire? Does he go through the same process as the first time? Will I not be able to see him again for another year as he re-finds his ability to control his thirst for humans? These thoughts do little to keep me awake but I resolve that I'll ask him tomorrow. With another yawn I lay back and I'm out as soon as my head hits the pillow.
A/N - Sorry for the wait guys! I hope you enjoy this one and I'm hoping I wont take so long to update next time. Enjoy and RnR!!!
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