I Wanna Be CH 3

One month later…

I freaked out as I paced back and fourth in the bathroom. Oh shit what the fuck was going on! What the fuck had I done! FUCK my life! I looked at the pink line on the test and groaned. There was no way in hell I could be pregnant by Chuck Bass. I bit the bottom of my lip and sighed. How in the hell as I going to tell him this. We both had such big lives ahead of us. I was going to go to Yale and maybe he was to, I don't really know but we was sure as hell not ready to take care of a kid. I knew this was bad, but I also new there was no way I could have an abortion. I picked up the phone as the tears overflowed. I knew Serena would understand.

"Hey B!"

"S…" I said as I cried into the phone.

"B, what's wrong are you okay?"

I just cried in the phone as she expressed her worries to me.

"I'm on my way…be there shortly B."

I then heard the dial tone. I knew she would always be there for me that was why I called her first. I didn't know how I was going to tell my mother her daughter, her beautiful daughter was pregnant. I had ruined my life, all because I loved a boy. A boy, how was I going to tell Chuck about this. I dreaded the conversation with him. Heard Serena yell my name and then she busted into the bathroom. She quickly enveloped me into her arms and I sobbed. I don't ever remember crying like this. I was shaking.

"Did he hurt you B."

"No…"

I felt Serena pull me away and look at me.

"B your scaring me please just tell me what's going on?"

I just handed her the little tube I had peed on. I looked away as she looked at me shocked. I felt ashamed, I felt like a whore.

"B, you…I…It's going to be okay."

"Okay…S I'm pregnant. How am I going to tell my mother this. How am I going to explain this to Chuck!"

"B you know Chuck will be there for you, he loves you."

"I know this S but I don't want to ruin his life. He has so much going for him. I don't want to ruin this S…"

"Look when your mother gets home I will talk to her with you okay. I wont leave you during this. I will be there for you B I promise."

I let her hug me and I cried again. I was terrified to tell my mother. I knew she was going to kill me. I knew how much she wanted better for me. I had ruined her dreams. I knew what I had to do. I knew I was going to tell her but I didn't plan on telling Chuck. I loved him more than anything but I was not going to ruin his life I wouldn't. I had to run, I had to go far away. No one else could know about this. I had to leave the UES…