I Wanna Be CH 4

3 Years Later

I sighed as I set down on the couch in my new Denver home. I had moved to Colorado about 3 years ago after I had found out I as pregnant. I had ended up talking to my mom and Serena that night and of course my mom freaked out. I told her my plan to move away and not ruin Chucks life and she bought me a plane ticket that night. I left the next day without a word good-bye to him. I thought about him everyday though. Especially when I looked into our daughters eyes. She was identical to him. She had every Bass feature you could imagine. I guess I got cursed for my doing. I loved my daughter with everything I had though. She was my world now, she was a little over two years old almost two and a half. I had named her in mind of Chuck though.

FLASHBACK

"So when you get older do you want to have kids Chuck Bass?"

"Yes I do Waldorf, what's it to you."

"Well my love I was thinking it will probably be with me." I said giggling.

"Well it probably will be considering you're the only woman I will ever love."

"What name do you want if it's a girl?"

"Sophia Marie Bass"

"Sophia I love it…"

"Sophia means Wisdom and I know that my daughter is going to be very bright."

"Okay so what about a boy…"

END FLASHBACK

I had named her Sophia Marie Waldorf. I wanted her last name to be Bass, but he wasn't there to sign off on it. This was because of me though. I had never told him I had a kid let alone his daughter. I had just ran and never spoke to him again. I still speak to my mother and Serena. These are the only two people who know what happened to me. Well Dan knows to but I don't blame Serena for that. Dan is her soon to be husband now after all. I don't know how I'm going to attend her wedding but I know I'm her maid of honor and she is making me go. I just know Chuck is going to be there though. I think about Chuck every day. I missed him more than he new. I asked Serena about him every time I talk to him. She knows this considering he is her brother now days. She tells me he is doing fine and is back to his normal self. This hurt me when I heard this though. At first he was depressed and begged Serena to tell him but she lied and told him she had no clue were I had went. After about 6 months she said he was still bitter but he started going out and sleeping around with girls like he had before we had fallen in love. I still don't have no one in my life. I am single and life with my daughter. I do love my life because of her though. I attend a small private college and I have a nanny for Sophia during the day while I'm at school. I jumped out of my thoughts as I heard my phone ring.

"Hey S…"

"Hey B, what are you up to?"

"Nothing just laid Sophia down for a nap."

"Okay great well I emailed you some pictures of my dress and I cant wait for you to see it! Me and your mom sent your plane ticket off for you and Sophia this morning."

"S!"

"B! This is my wedding okay, you are my maid of honor. I know this is going to be hard, because yes he is going to be there. Me and your mom talked about it and we think maybe it's time you told Chuck about Sophia."

"NO!"

"B…"

"Look okay I will be there but Sophia will not be attending your wedding S! Is that understood. I will attend your wedding and Dorota will watch her at you house while I'm there. I will go back after the wedding and pick her up and I will leave."

"Okay that's good enough for me but after my honey moon me and Dan are coming there to stay for a week."

"Okay I would love to have the both of you and I know Sophia misses her Auntie S!"

"Okay well B I got to go to this meeting I will see you in a few days love you!"

"Love you to…" I hung up the phone and sighed…TBC