Hey guys its bee I am back with chapter five this is the longest one I have wrote so far I hope you like it. Thank everyone for all the replies I really appreciate your support. I am a huge GG supporter and I love Chuck and Blair this is my first story for GG so I know I need a little work but I'm trying so give me feedback and I will work on what I need to so let me know

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I Wanna Be Ch 5

I stepped out of the car and breathed in the New York air. I smiled as I looked up at my old building. I grabbed Sophia's hand and started walking towards the door. I knew I shouldn't have stayed outside to long I didn't want to be spotted on gossip girl's radar. I stepped into the elevator and smiled at my over excited daughter. She couldn't retain the smile spread across her lips. She kept going on about seeing grandma and her Auntie S. As soon as the doors open I took a deep breath as Sophia took off running into her grandmas arms. I felt Serena wrap her arms around me and say something about how glad she was I was here. I walked over to my mom and let her embrace me. I had grown remotely close to my mother since I had left the UES. We talked everyday and she came to see me and Sophia as much as possible. I wouldn't have made it without her she supports me and Sophia while I'm in school. She understands its hard being a single mother and she knows I need to get an education but still spend time with my daughter. So we both agreed to me not working until I graduated school.

"B, I'm so glad you are here for me. You look so great!" Serena squealed.

"So do you S. I'm happy I could be here for you."

"Okay well lets all head into the living room and catch up." My mother chipped in. "Come with Grandma Sophia."

I looked at Serena as she checked her phone and saw the look on her face. I was pretty sure I knew what It was.

"Gossip Girl?"

"Yeah, look B don't worry about it okay Chuck was going to find out sooner or later."

"I know I guess its better for him to find out now that to see me at the wedding. Did she mention anything about Sophia?"

"Do you want me to read it to you?"

I just nodded my head

"Looks like Queen B was spotted back in the UES, I guess S wedding brought her back into town. Oh but wait what do we have here a little Queen B by her side I see. I don't remember B leaving with a daughter…"

I cringed I knew Chuck was going to wonder who in the hell I had a kid with an I knew I was going to have to answer him when I saw him. I knew this was a bad idea. I was not going to tell Chuck Bass he had a daughter I just wasn't going to do it.

"Okay well since my wedding is in the morning we need to do your fitting for your dress and then I say we get some rest. We are staying here, your mom is going to help us get ready in the morning."

"I'm so happy for you S. Dan is a great guy." I said a little jealous.

"I know you will find someone like him one day B don't worry."

"Okay so the fitting yes lets go…"

I slipped into the beautiful long strapless red dress. I had a crystal in between my chest at the center and it flowed out after my hips, not a lot though. It was very flattering. I smiled at her and complimented her taste.

"I love it S…"

"Great you look amazing now lets get this off I need to get some beauty sleep before my big day."

I slipped out of the dress and went to get Sophia ready for bed…

Chuck picked up his phone and read the text from Gossip Girl. He almost choked as he read the text. She was back after three years she had returned. She had came back but not alone. She has a daughter? What who in the hell did she have a kid with. He felt the lump in his throat, that was there dream. He hadn't felt like this since the day she had left him. She left without a word, not even a text just left him. He had never loved any girl besides Blair. She was his sweet innocent Blair and now she had a kid. He picked up his drink and downed it. He walked out of the bar without saying a word to the girl he had planned on sleeping with for the night…

"Blair!" Serena yelled as she threw a pillow at the fragile brunette.

"What? I'm up I promise…" I groaned as I got out of bed to look at my best friend who already had her hair done. I smiled at her she looked beautiful.

"Okay finally! Go get you hair done."

I jumped off the bed and walked into one of the many rooms in my house and smiled at the hair dresser. I set down and let him do his work. I knew what he was doing though Serena had warned me. It was going to be down in lose curls and with the top pinned up to make some volume. I set there patiently as he took forever. I knew Sophia would be getting up soon and I needed to make her break feast.

"Mom, how much longer do you think this is going to take, Sophia needs her break feast"

"Oh honey she got up about an hour ago, she already ate. I made her some waffles."

I smiled to myself. My mother was cooking now, well making waffles. She had been quite the grandma, she loved her grand daughter more than anything and spoiled her rotten.

"Thank you mother."

"All done Miss Waldorf!" HE chimed in.

I looked in the mirror and saw perfect hair. It was all in place and looked amazing. I smiled and got out of the chair to head in and do my make-up. I had to admit I was nervous. I barely slept last night I was to worried about seeing Chuck. I knew I had to act normal around him and not like a love struck seventeen year old. I still loved him though, and I always would…

Dan took a few deep breaths as he fixed is tie. He was hoping Serena had mentioned to Blair that she was paired with Chuck for their wedding. Chuck was his best man. Him and Chuck had become good friends over the past three years and he agreed to be his best man. Nathaniel was one of his groomsmen.

"Okay well I'm going to head into the church the girls are on there way in. Oh and Chuck please be nice for me?"

"Yeah, I will for now." Chuck said smirking.

He watched as he saw Serena enter the building just as Dan exited. He smiled at his sister. She looked beautiful, then his smiled faded as he saw her. He felt his heart race up and his palms got sweaty. She still had that effect on him even after what she did. He hugged Serena and looked over at Blair…

I walked in behind Serena and spotted him first. I wanted to throw up, he still made my heart race a hundred miles and hour and my knees felt weak. I seen his eyes on me and I suddenly felt very self conscious. I couldn't even bear to look at him.

"Well well look who made her return? So were did you go the past three years? To the peace core? Dads? Oh wait I know you left to get knocked up by another man! It's good to see you Waldorf. So what's her name?" Chuck said sarcastically.

"Chuck!" Serena spat out.

"No it's okay S let him be rude."

"Me be rude…never…you a whore…always"

I cringed at his words. I knew he was going to be mean but this I never expected from Chuck.

"Well Sister did you even bother to tell Waldorf we had to walk down the aisle together?"

I glared at Serena…

"Um…Did I forget to mention that part?"

"Yes you did! But this is your day so I'm happy for you, I love you."

"Thanks B now lets get moving… Everyone line up its time!" Serena yelled.

I stood by Chuck and didn't even bother to look at him. I felt him pull me closer and lock my arm into his. I glared at him and quickly looked away. I was worried about Sophia. I knew she was okay with Dorota but I still worried sometimes. I knew I just had to go to the reception at S house and then I would go pick Sophia up and that was it. We was back to Colorado. I took a few breaths as the doors opened. I smiled as I walked down the aisle arm in arm with Chuck Bass. His touch made me tingle. I still loved this man like I had never left. I stood there and watched as S made her entrance. She looked elegant and more than anything she looked happy. I smiled at her as she walked up to face Dan. I listened to the preacher as he spoke the words of love and I felt sad. I felt the tears well up and I knew I was going to cry. I was happy for my best friend but I was also sad that it wasn't me getting married. I knew I should have been up there with Chuck. I felt a few tears fall out and I wiped them away. I looked over to see Chuck watching me intently. I id I didn't know any better I was pretty sure he was thinking about the same thing. I looked away and listened to the preacher pronounce them husband and wife. I smiled and watched as Serena and Dan exited. I waited till it was my turn to move and without looking at him I locked arms and started to walk. I felt him lean down and touch my ear with his soft lips.

"I cant wait to meet the lucky guy…"

I cringed and as soon as we got out of the church and the doors closed I jerked away from him.

"Get away from me Bass!"

"Oh please Waldorf don't flatter yourself. Belief me I'm long over you…" He said lying.

I looked away from him to hide the hurt and walked away. I knew I needed to get back and help Serena's mom finish getting everything ready before the reception…

"Blair, sweet heart its so good to see you."

"Oh you to Mrs. Bass." I hugged her lightly and then pulled away. "Okay were do you want me to start?"

"How about you…"

"Mommy!" Sophia squealed out.

I stood there shocked as I looked at my daughter. I raised my head to see my mother.

"Mother!"

"Blair look she missed you, and I think the time is right no one is here yet."

"Oh Blair…" Mrs. Bass stated knowing who's child it was.

"Look mother take her now he will be here anytime!" I said to her angrily.

"What's all the yelling about in here?" Chuck said entering the room.

I stood shocked as I looked at him. He saw the fear on my face and looked at the little girl next to me. I seen the look on his face. He glared at me and then looked back at her. I had never seen so many emotions come from him. I saw confusion, fear, anger, disgust, and then something I didn't expect joy. He smiled at the little girl and walked closer. He stopped in front of me and glared. He bent down in front of Sophia and smiled.

"Well hello there sweetheart."

I felt my heart drop this was not the way it was supposed to be. This was not how I wanted him to find out. I heard Serena and Dan laughing as they entered the building. I seen her face drop as she saw Chuck and Sophia. I felt the tears fall out of my eyes.

"Hi my name is Sophia Marie Waldorf, it's a pleasure to meet you. What's your name sir?"

I seen the look of sadness cross his face. I was pretty sure he was about to cry.

"My name is Chuck Bass, its also a pleasure to meet you." He choked out.

I watched him stand up and he looked me straight in the eyes.

"Sophia sweetie come with grandma."

I watched as my mother and Mrs. Bass exited the room. I gave Serena a pleading look and I knew she would stay.

I looked down to break his stare. I could feel the disgust coming off his glare. I looked back up to see a fuming mad Chuck Bass and at that moment I was scared.

"What the Fuck were you thinking! How could you do that to me!" He said as a few tears fell from his eyes.

I felt the lump in my throat I couldn't speak. I felt terrible, I hated to see him like this. Especially when I was the one who caused it.

"I cant believe you Blair. You kept me from my own daughter! Are you going to say anything!"

I felt the tears flow over…

"Oh fuck you Blair your tears are not going to cut it this time!" He said getting angrier by the minute.

"Chuck just calm down…" Serena said.

"Calm down how would you feel if you had a child you never knew about! Or did you know?!"

"Yes I knew… She was my best friend Chuck."

I watched as Chuck felt betrayed…

"Great so everyone knew but me!"

"I thought it was for the best…" I choked out.

"The best? Blair I'm her father for Christ sakes!"

"I was young okay! I was scared and I knew you had things going for you! I didn't want to ruin your life…"

"I would have stepped up and would have been a man! I loved you!"

"I loved you to…" I said taking a step forward only to have him step back.

"No Blair you obviously didn't love me or you wouldn't have left me. We would have worked this out together."

"I'm sorry Chuck…"

"It's a little late for that Blair…I wouldn't plan on leaving anytime soon Waldorf."

"Excuse me?"

"I'm calling my Lawyer today, she is my daughter to."

"Um…No she don't even know you!" I said getting angry.

"And who's fault is that? She is going to know me because I think you might be an unfit mother so I think she needs a better home!"

I felt my cheeks burning with anger. I smacked him across the face without second thought. I was a great mother and everyone knew that. I seen the look of anger on his face.

"Don't you Dare tell me I'm an unfit mother Chuck Bass! She is my Daughter and I raised her good. I gave her everything I had and she has a great life! I'm a great mother do you understand me!"

"Lets get one thing straight Waldorf she is out daughter. Lets look at the odds to I have more money than you! I can get her like that…and I intend to do so. I will see you in court Waldorf!" I watched as Chuck exited the room and entered the living room to cool off. I knew he was staying he had a best man speech to give. I knew no matter how mad he was he was going to be there for Dan.

I felt the tears overflow as Serena hugged me tightly. I knew he was right he had more money and I knew he could buy her custody.

"B he will calm down he is just upset."

"Yeah I know…"

I exited to the room were Chuck was to find him talking to Sophia. I looked at there resemblance and couldn't help but smile.

Chuck talked to the little girl and couldn't help but smile. He already loved her and would do anything for her. She looked just like him except she had Blair's dark hair. She was a identical to him though. Her eyes her nose her mouth everything was him.

"So Sophia tell me were do you live?"

"I live in Denver Colorado…I don't really like it there though."

"Why?"

"Well mommy don't like it there. She misses Auntie S and Mommy and wants to move back here. She also says she misses daddy a lot to."

Chuck felt anger in him but it soon subsided to a smile. He was happy Blair at least talked about him but it was no excuse for what she had done…TBC