Lulu woke up the next morning to not feeling so great. She had a headache and she felt nauseous. She threw up numerous times but didn't think anything of it. Johnny didn't even know how Lulu was feeling until she started getting ideas in her head and became nervous and went and told him. "Have you eaten anything that could have made you sick?" "Johnny…we both know its not something that I ate because everything I eat, you and Morgan eat." "Lulu…don't stress yourself out over this..Im sure its just stress." "Maybe your right but I need to go out to the store for a few things okay?" "Anything." "Okay…bye baby. Lulu said as she kissed Johnny goodbye before planting a kiss on Morgan's cheek." When she got to the drug store, she spotter EPT tests and picked one up. She didn't want Johnny to see it when she walked in so she took it in the bathroom at the store. She sat there frantic…not knowing what to do. And then…5 minutes later, there they were, two light, but vivid pink bars. "SHIT. She thought" As she turned her key into the hole in her door, she saw Morgan and Johnny watching TV together on the couch. "Hey guys. Lulu said as she walked into the kitchen. Johnny got up and went to Lulu "You okay? He asked" "No Johnny…I'm not" "Come on, lets talk upstairs." Lulu thought about how she was going to tell him. "Lulu…are you okay?" "Johnny…we're having a baby. I'm pregnant." "Oh my god" "I cant believe this! I'm taking care of Carly's son and this is the payback I get? Getting pregnant at the worst possible time in the world.?" "Lulu…its okay. Johnny reassured her. Everything is going to be fine." "I don't know how to be a mom." "Well it's a good thing you have Morgan to train you!" "Yea…I guess. I'm scared Johnny." "I know. He said as he pulled her so close to him there was no spaces between their bodies." "Lay in bed and get some rest okay Lulu?" "Okay" As she got into bed, Johnny raced back downstairs to Morgan in the same position he had left him. Morgan turned to Johnny. "Morgan…we need to talk." Morgan turned to face Johnny. "Mommy is going to have a baby Morgan." "Really? Morgan squealed" "Really!" "You wanna know something else Morgan? Johnny said." "What?" "Me and mommy are going to adopt you and make you officially our son and us officially your mommy and daddy forever." "So Aunt Lulu and you are really going to be my mommy and daddy?" "Yea we are champ" "Good!" Morgan hugged Johnny and whispered to him. "You promise to never leave me like my mommy and daddy did?" "I swear Johnny said" Back upstairs, Lulu couldn't sleep because her mind was caught up in thinking about the baby. She had no idea how to do this. She had only been pregnant once but terminated it before she could even experience being pregnant. She was afraid of birth and if she was going to be a good mother or if the baby would be okay. It took her time to process it through her brain that this was actually happening. She was actually pregnant. Actually having Johnny's baby. Actually adopting Morgan. Actually getting married. There was so many things in her life at the moment, she felt smothered like she couldn't even breath. She always wanted kids. And Johnny was her one true love and soul mate and she couldn't help but wonder why she was dreading and fearing it so much. She always knew she would one day get pregnant and it didn't seem to scare her. But now, it was actually happening and she wasn't getting an abortion. She was having it and keeping it and it scared her half to death. Johnny walked in a few minutes later with a bowl of soup and a glass of water. She wasn't having those moments where she looked at food and wanted to puke. She just got past that and she was hungry and the soup did actually look somewhat appealing. Johnny smiled at her when he handed her the tray and sat down next to her stroking her blond locks. Morgan walked in seconds later and jumped into Johnny's lap. "Are you feeling better mommy?" "Yea baby…I am thanks." "Your welcome." As he struggled to get down from Johnny's legs, the ground looked so far up from the bed and looked back at Johnny as if it was a cry for help. Johnny set Morgan down to the ground and watched him run out the door. "He's a trooper" Lulu said looking in Johnny's direction. "he sure is" And this baby is going to be too he said placing a hand on her flat stomach. "I want to get married before the baby comes and definitely before I start showing." Lulu said to Johnny. "Well then we'll have to start making the real arrangements." "I don't know how to do this without Carly and Elizabeth" Lulu said sobbing into Johnny's shoulders. "It'll be okay Lulu." "I know it will. Its just hard right now you know?" "Yea…of all people…I know." Johnny said straightly. "Do you feel like you know this baby yet…like a mother does?" "Johnny…its only been a day… but kind of sort of." "Its definitely a boy. Johnny said very sure of himself." "Its is not! it's a girl! Lulu said grinning and shaking her head from side to side." If I give birth to a boy…I'm never speaking to you again Zacharra!" "I wouldn't count on that Spencer." Laughing, Lulu dropped back down into her pillow. "Its all going to be okay." She said
reassuring herself. "Yea Lulu..Its all going to be fine" Johnny said combing his fingers through her hair.
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