Lulu woke up the next morning to Morgan in between Johnny and herself. Johnny slowly woke as he looked to his side to see Lulu asleep. He slowly got out of the bed trying not to make a scene, He crept downstairs and down to the kitchen. He walked down the dark hallway and passed his office. He turned in and walked around to face his desk. He glanced at a few pictures. He stopped completely mortified at the photo frame that delicately held a photo of a 4 month pregnant Lulu. He starred at it silently as a single tear fell down his face as he remembered one of the worst days in his entire life. Johnny? Yea? I think something is wrong. Johnny looked down at Lulu to see blood all over her white yoga pants. She slowly fell to the ground. He rushed her out f the elevator carrying her bridal style into the general hospital. He watched as a team of doctors wheeled Lulu away. He starred in silence and felt a rush of paleness flush his body. He sat in the ER frantic for 2 and a half hours until he saw OBGYN Dr. Kelly Lee. He stood up and rushed o her. "Is Lulu and the baby okay?" "She has suffered from a ruptured kidney. Its bleeding into the babies lungs. Mr. Zacharra, Lulu and your baby's life is on the line. We can try to save the baby, but so early in the pregnancy the chance of her or him surviving is very low. If we don't get the baby out, Lulu will die, but like I said, if we do, you're baby will. I will need your consent first Mr. Zacharra." "You're telling me that I have to either kill by child or my girlfriend dies?" "I'm so sorry." Johnny forcefully snatched the paper from Kelly's hands and wrote Jonathan Zacharra at the small line at the bottom of the paper. He sat back down not knowing what to do with himself. He knew that this would be something that he would never forget. He knew that Lulu would never forgive him for it. After sitting and waiting and crying for an hour, when he was okayed, he went into Lulu's room. He slowly bent down to the chair next to her bed and grasped her hand while he sobbed. She slowly opened her eyes. She turned to Johnny and smiled warmly at him. She became worried that after calling his name over and over he still didn't turn to face her. Her smile quickly faded as Johnny turned his head to face her. His eyes were glazed over and were blazing red in color. "Lulu, I'm so sorry, If I didn't let them do it, I would loose you, and I cant loose you." She didn't understand Johnny. "I don't want you to leave me and I know how much you wanted this. I'm so sorry" She slowly came to the realization of what was happening and loosened her grip on Johnny's hand, but he grabbed it tighter as she now began to cry uncontrollably while a broken Johnny tried to be strong. "She placed her hand over her now hollow stomach and sobbed even more. She knew what happened and was too upset to start screaming and yelling at Johnny. He slowly moved his face down to her trembling lips and kissed them softly. "My baby is gone isn't it?" "I'm so sorry baby." "No! No! No!" She started repeating no as Johnny forcefully tugged at her body signaling her that he was there. "Its okay, you'll be okay." "Johnny…why. You could have let me die." "Even if I didn't sign those papers, the baby would still have dies as well as you." They spent the night sobbing and crying and screaming and yelling. He would never be able to get that image of Lulu so broken and destroyed out of his head. He walked back to their bedroom and kneeled next to Lulu's bedside slowly stroking her hair. His eyes glanced down to her now very small baby bump and placed his hand on it. With that, Lulu opened her eyes and put her hand over his. She looked into Johnny's eyes and just knew. "Johnny…don't think about it." "I cant not Lulu. I feel as if this baby is like a replacement of our first. She would have been 3 you know." "I know." Lulu said now getting welled up with tears along with a wedge forming in her throat. "I can't get her out of my head." "I know." Lulu and Johnny had gotten a paper a few weeks after the accident revealing that the baby was a girl. "I feel like I knew her Johnny. You know?" "Yea." he said wiping his tears from his eyes. "I don't want you to feel like it was your fault." Lulu said caressing his hand. "I know that it isn't but when I sighed that paper, I feel like it is my fault because I gave them permission to…" "Don't do this Johnny. Its not your fault and I could never think that ever." "I just couldn't imagine loosing you." "I know Johnny. Its okay." "I love you so much." "I love you so much too." She scooted over on the bed making room for him. He climbed in beside her and held her in his arms. "I don't know what I would do without you Lulu." "Don't even think about that right now. We have a 4 year old boy boy to raise and a little baby on the way along with a wedding that needs last minute arrangements." "And a little girl up in heaven." "And a little girl up in heaven. Lulu said agreeing." They went to sleep and woke up 4 hours later to the TV sound of bugs bunny cartoons. "Morgan? Lulu questioned." "Yea mommy?" "Nothing baby…I was just making sure it was you." "Oh okay." She closed her eyes and turned back to Johnny as she felt a hand caress her leg. She smiled as she turned her face and opened her eyes. Johnny still had his eyes closed. He placed his hand on her hip bringing her closer. "Good morning Lulu." "Good Morning Johnny."
And A Little Girl Up In Heaven