Chapter 10

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Authors note

So people reckon that I made Kim sound weak in the last chapter which is fair enough I suppose but I wanted to remind everyone that Kim is just a normal person and she has flaws and too show a vulnerable side. But trust me Kim is far from weak don't worry.

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Kim's POV

Have you ever walked into school and known instantly that you were the topic of discussion? Well I never have before and let me tell you, it's like being slapped in the face a thousand times. At least, when you've spent your whole life being the one hearing the gossip instead of well, being the gossip.

Do you know the worst part? I can't handle it. I feel weak and that feeling rips through me. I look around to find Jared, but of course he's nowhere in sight, and I feel like one of those dumb girls that get played by a guy. But Jared wouldn't play me, I tell myself as I walk down the hall, staring at my feet and blocking out the loud whispers. It's the walk of shame and I've done nothing wrong.



I open my locker and try and ignore the looks. Terri Kayne is glaring at me. It was only last month she was caught making out with her best friends boyfriend! She hasn't a right to glare at me.



"Hey slut," A bright voice says and I turn to see Sam grinning at me.



"Don't start," I warn.



"Whatever Hoe," She teases.



"Shut up, this is so awkward!" I complain.



"Maybe you'd feel better if you were in Jared's bed," Sam replies, and bursts out laughing. I can't help but join in, but it's not long before I'm upset again.



"Don't make me hurt you."



"As long as you keep your legs closed, I don't care what you do," Sam says with a laugh.



"I hate you.
"

"No, you hate the people that can't make you laugh about this whole thing.
"

"No I hate you as well," I say fake glaring Sam.



"Sure, but in all seriousness, you still could join a clean teen club right."

"My god Sam yes, I could be the president" I tell her quickly.



"That's my Kim" Sam says giving me a warm hug. The bell rings and I head off to class trying to prepare myself for whatever lies ahead.

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I am sitting in the bathroom with tears streaming down my cheeks. I feel stupid for crying and well, just plain stupid. How did I become this girl? I know gossip can be cruel but this feels so much worse. Everyone had something to say about what happened. And almost all of it was bad.

Who am I kidding? I now only have one real friend: Sam. That's why I know I have to walk into the lunch room despite my fears. I know I know that she wont sit with any of the people that were mean to me. I feel awful for taking her away from her other friends, but I go anyway.

I spot her straight away and make a bee line for the table. She waves at me and smiles, and I try to focus on her and not everyone's comments on me and my supposed 'sluttish' ways. I trip, of course, which makes things worse. I fall over a piece of rubbish and my legs spread a little – thank god I'm wearing pants!

"Just can't keep your legs closed, can you?" Jordan Smith says to me, and all his friends snigger. I can feel the tears begin to fall again but I try and hold them back.

Sam glares at them and tell them to F off. Well, at least someone sticks up for me, even if I can't do it myself sometimes. After that incident I feel depressed for the rest of the day. The crazy part is that I barely know Jordan, and he still thinks he has a right to treat me like that.

The rest of the day I try and block everyone out. It's a mesh of crude remarks and mockery, mixed with peoples whispers of disapproval and glares. Once the bell rings I go see Sam, who tells me not to listen. Easier said then done.

Sam has to stay late today to work on some Art project, so I have to leave by myself. I stupidly decided to walk to school today and I forgot my mobile, and I dread the thought of having to walk home.

The second I reach the door, I almost run out of school. Once I'm away from everyone I walk at a normal pace and let myself cry. The tears come down and it somehow makes me feel a little better.

"Kim" An overly concerned voice says, and I turn to see Jared, Embry, Jacob, Quil and Paul all stuffed in the same car. Looking at me, I feel stupid for not hearing them pull up, and more stupid when I realise they can all see the tears on my cheeks. I was hoping to not tell Jared this part, but now I know he wont let it go.



"That's me," I say wiping my tears quickly, and smiling my best fake smile.



"Are you okay?" Jared asks worriedly.



"Yeah, I'm fine" I say quickly, a little too quickly for Jared's liking. He frowns a little.



"Do you want a lift?"



"No, I'm fine, I like to walk," I tell him. Truth is, being stuck in a car with all his friends would be uncomfortable. They're already squashed and adding an extra person would be pushing it.



I'm not in the mood to talk about school today. For all I know Jared will bail ,I mean it's a lot of drama, especially for such a new relationship.



"Me too," Jared says and jumps out of the car.



"What are you doing?" I ask.



"Walking you home," Jared says innocently and waves off his friends.



We walk in silence for a while. I try and think of something to explain my tears, but I come up blank.



"So are you going to tell me what's wrong?" Jared says bluntly.

Sometimes I forget how honest he is about everything, even when it's awkward.

"I can't think of a believable lie, so yeah," I admit.



"What's going on Kim?" Jared asks softly.



"The gossip was pretty bad today. No, awful. Worse than that, maybe."



"How?"



I give Jared the gist of things but play it down as much as possible, though I'm pretty sure he knows it hurts more than I will ever admit to him.



"Where were you anyway?" I ask, masking the disappointment I felt when I didn't see him this morning.



"With Sam and my friends."



"Do you always skip?"



"I try not to, but..." Jared voice trails off.


"You shouldn't skip so much, I needed you today."



"I know, I didn't realise it was so bad. I'm so sorry, Kim." Jared replies. He looks so full of guilt that I forgive him straight away. Once he walks me home, he gives me a quick kiss and hurries off to see Sam. I spend the rest of the afternoon with Davie and Leah and then I call Sam. My BFF Sam...

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The next day of school is much like the first, and there is no sight of Jared. Wonderful. I haven't seen Nathan in a while either, word is he caught Sam's cold. I should probably make him some soup or something, after all he got me out of a jam with the wedding.

Jordan and his friends walk up as I open my locker. This can't be good.

"Hey Courtney," He says cheerfully and stops to talk.



"It's Kim," I tell him.



"You'll always be Courtney to me."



"And why is that?"



"Well you are the Courtney Love of this high school and well, guys such as myself appreciate someone so, uh, 'friendly'. If you ever want to get friendly with me Courtney, give me a call..."

I'm about to tell him to go kill himself or stick up my finger when I hear Jared's voice.



"What did you just say?" Jared voice booms and I turn to see him shaking a little and marching towards us. He looks deadly, and I notice Paul and Quil trailing behind him looking concerned. Everyone turns to us to see what's going to happen.



Once he's closer enough he repeats the question again.



"I was just being friendly, no need to worry, I don't mind sharing, what did you think?" Jordan asks and that's it for him.

Jared pins him up against the wall, shaking like mad. I begin to worry about Jared; is this normal for him? I notice Quil and Paul looking at each other wondering if they should step in.



"What did you say?!" Jared roars.



Jordan looks just as scared as Jared is mad, which is, well, a lot.

"Nothing," he stutters. And that's it. Jared punches him in the face and drops him.



"If that was nothing so was this," Jared says his voice fierce with emotion.



I can tell he wants to cause more damage and people are beginning to chant, 'fight, fight'. Paul grabs him and whispers something in his ear. Jared nods his head and then looks straight at me.

"I can't leave her, not today," Jared says sounding worried.



"Then she can come," Quil says brightly, and the next thing I know Quil is grabbing my hand and pulling me away from the crowd and out of school.

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Jared was still shaking lightly as we arrived at Emily's. The whole way I stayed silent; I was glad that Jared had stuck up for me but seriously he was out of control. It was scary and I almost feel afraid of him.



I was mad at my self and frustrated - why did Jared have to have such an effect on me? Why couldn't things just be normal? But everything with Jared was so off the charts in every area.



"I have to get back to school," I say loudly since Paul is muttering things to Jared, so quietly that I can't hear. Every now and then they look over at me. Jared looks at me in the way he always does, but Paul looks at me like I'm some kind of problem. I really hate Paul sometimes.



"What, why?" Jared asks his voice is filled with hurt and concern for me.



"I can't just skip school, it's not who I am," I almost yell mainly because Paul is giving me that look again. That 'I knew she'd be a problem' glare I get oh-so-often.



"Calm down Kim, it's no big deal. But seriously, do you really want to hang out with everyone today?" Jared asks looking concerned.



"No, but I have to face them."



"I get that, but I can't. I'll lose control," Jared says sounding pained.

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Jared's POV



"Lose control of what?" Kim demands.

I can tell that all the emotions of today have really gotten her down, and she's in no mood for me to shrug her off. But I can't tell her, it'll ruin everything. Right now things are simple - we only have to worry about our parents and school.

Once I throw in the werewolf thing everything will change. Besides the imprinting thing might scare her off. I can't tell her, at least not yet. 'Not yet' I repeat to myself.



"My anger" I say trying to sound honest. Paul glares at me.



"Look Paul you don't have to come back, but I'm not going to hide," Kim finally says. She sounds sad and disappointed.



"You can't go back, you won't be able to handle it," Paul whispers to me.

I know he's right, but I can't leave Kim to fend for herself. I have to protect her.



"Kim, please stay just for today" I ask even though I know I won't be able to go back until they leave Kim alone.



"Jared, I can't, I won't seem weak" Kim says - she has this look on her face which is incredibly beautiful but determined.



"Kim, please," I beg.



"No Jared, I can't be that girl," Kim says sounding tired.



"You're not. It's just I can't let you go without me."



"Then come with me."



"I can't."



"Why not?"



"Because I just can't!" I scream at her. I'm shocked that I yelled at her, and she seems just as shocked. I feel sick in the stomach and am about to apologise when she yells back.



"God, Jared just tell me!"



"I can't!" I say still yelling.



"Can't or won't" Kim asks.



"Both" I reply. Our voices are getting quieter but I know what we're doing: fighting. I didn't know you could be mad at your imprint. It doesn't make me love her less, maybe even more, but I'm mad. Why can't she just drop it?



"You know what, I'm leaving. Let me go Quil," Kim demands and I can tell she's mad. Is she crying? I think Kim's crying, and because of me. I shouldn't have yelled at her - I'm so stupid. I notice Quil let her go, and I suppose it's because she yelled. It was pretty scary.



"Kim, please!" I yell as she walks towards the car. I suppose she's borrowing it.



"Jared, I'm going," Kim says stubbornly.


"Please" I scream. Why won't she just listen? I can't stand not being able to protect her, but telling her the truth seems worse. Either one is going to suck. I want to break something and I realise I'm shaking again.



"No" Kim yells and goes to open the car door. Well, she would have if Paul didn't thump her on the head causing her to black out.



"Problem solved" Paul says proudly as he picks her up to carry her inside.



"Paul you just knocked out my imprint!" I scream full on shaking now.



"Someone had to. I mean it was obvious it would have killed you if she went to school. I was helping you out, no need to thank me," Paul grumbles.



"I'm going to kill you" I say fiercely. Who does he think he, is hurting Kim like that? Though I know she'll be fine, but seriously how dare he? I've never felt more angry, because someone physically hurt my Kim.



"Not while she's in my arms," Paul says smiling and I groan in defeat. I can't risk her getting hurt, so I follow him into the house. How am I going to explain this to Kim?

Authors Note

So here's the next chapter um hope you like it. See I told you Kim wasn't weak she can stand her ground. No way was I going to let Jared boss her around in a million years. Kim has her own mind and like I said I want my Kim to have many layers and so here's another layer.

Well give me your thoughts ideas on what you thought of this chapter and thanks Beta for helping me with this story. So please review

One more thing before you guys begin to read. I was wondering if I should do a spin off of Paul imprinting on Kim's BFF Sam, give me your thoughts I need your help. It's just an idea that has been running around in my head. It would be a story in it's own. Or another spin off idea I like is if Jared's younger brother joins the pack and imprints basically what I do is put in the parts when he joined the pack in here and start the spin off when he imprints give me your thoughts.

B.C