I know it has been a while but I just haven't felt like writing but while I'm still on holidays I will try to update as much as possible……Well here goes nothing oh and yes I changed my pen name.

For the next two days Dimitri and I spent every moment possible with each other and I have to say the first time we went out in public and he held my hand in front of anyone telling them I was his, it was the happiest I had been in a long time. Tonight was our last night together for two months and I wasn't gonna hide the fact that I was utterly depressed by the fact. But two months wasn't that long was it? It would fly by, right? Wrong it would be the longest two months known to mankind.

To make things even worse with Dimitri gone Guardian Lutz was gonna be my own personal trainer mornings and night, and from what I've heard he is a bit handsy. Joy.

From the moment I heard about what Allegra did I've been wondering why? Lissa thinks its cause she is jealous of how Mason feels about me and she wanted everyone including Mason to know I was already taken so he could focus on her and not you. Still no matter her reason what a bitch. Dimitri could have been fired, I may have never seen him again. It hurts to even think about it.

It was the morning of Dimitri's departure and I made sure I took my over sized sunglasses with me to say goodbye. I went down to his room, knowing he was there waiting for me. I was gonna walk him to the gate so we could say one last goodbye with no one around to stare.

I knocked on his door and it was opened by the godlike creature I call mine. "hey, so how long do we have?" I asked him trying to keep my voice in check so it would break, I'd just got here and already I was fighting back tears how pathetic was that. I'm gonna be a guardian someday soon and that means I have to be tough, in control, not crying every time my boyfriend, I liked calling him that, every time my boyfriend had to leave.

"An hour, you want to help me finish packing?" he asked using a cautious tone as he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his chest. I put me arms around him and he closed the door.

"Sure" was all I can answer still not trusting my voice which as this moment being muffled by Dimitri's chest. We made our way over to his bed were his bag was. That's right he fits everything into one bag, I would never be able to do that. It wasn't even a big bag it was just a medium sized duffle bag. "Um, Dimitri it looks like you've already finished"

"No, You're not in my bag yet!" as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"I hate to toy with your master plan no how much I wish it could actually happen, but I have already run away from here once and I don't think HEADMISTRESS Kirova would appreciate me doing it again"

"I know, I just…"

"don't worry I know, trust me I know"

The next hour was spent laying on Dimitri's bed facing each other memorizing each other's facial features and occasionally kissing each other when we felt the need. Our legs were tangled together in a mess and we were holding each other's hands so tight it would have hurt if it wasn't so comforting.

"I don't want to leave you but its better if I leave you know and come back then us never being able to see each other again, you know that right? That I don't want to leave you"

"I know its okay this is what you have to do for us to be together, I know and its okay I would prefer this to never seeing you again any day. It's time for you to go isn't it" it wasn't a question it was a fact and I was fighting back tears again.

He simply nodded his head and pulled me closer for one more kiss before we got up. He picked up his bag his hand still in mine and we walked out his door and down the hall to the students in the common room studying, they all turned and stared as we walked out the door towards the schools front gate.

As we walked past, groups of students turned and stared, teachers, guardians whether they were on duty or not turned to watch Dimitri and I. They stared as if we were taking our walk of shame, I literally felt like screaming at them and telling them we hadn't even done anything to deserve their stares. But we were just a story worthy of gossip to everyone guardians would tell their friends in other schools or homes and teachers would discuss it in the staff room. The students would just openly gossip, none of them would talk to me about it though, afraid I might kick their asses.

We reached the front gate and a car was waiting to take Dimitri away from me. "Well this is it!"

"Rose I will come back if you trust nothing else please always believe that!"

"I'm gonna miss you"

"I'll miss you too more than you could ever know"

He hugged me one last time. Kissed me on last time. Stared deep into my eyes one last time. Said goodbye one last time, and he turned around and left. I stood then long after the car was out of sight just hoping that by some miracle he found to put he didn't have to go. No such luck. Before I knew it the sun was starting to rise.

I made my way up to my room and curled up into a ball under my sheets. That was the first night I cried myself to sleep in a long time.

Two Months was a Long Time.

A/N I know it is really short and I'm sorry but I felt so bad about not updating in so long that I thought I should atleast post something.. hope you like it at least and I will try my hardest to update soon….. pinky promise