Authors Note

So I wasn't sure weather to do what I am about to write but in the end I decided that it was best for the story so you may hate me you may love me I'm not sure just tell me what you think.

Chapter 16

"Fuck," I say.

"That sums it up," Sam says. For once her voice is sarcastic and bitter, rather than happy or bright.

"What am I going to do?"

"Kim, I don't know, how could you let this happen?" Sam says. She sounds disappointed in me, and I hate that.

I can't answer her. I find myself thinking about that night.

FLASHBACK

Jared was looking around nervously. He'd taken me to the cliffs to see the sunset. It was the night after we'd had that huge fight over Nathan. He was holding my hand and staring at my face as I watched the beautiful colours in the sky, and the breath taking blue that the wild sea was that night.

"It's beautiful," I breathed.

"Not as beautiful as you," Jared said. His voice was rough and husky; it made him sound sexy.

"Sure."

"Kim I'm not lying."

"I know, I just don't agree."

"I really wish you would."

I looked around at the picnic he had set up. He felt bad at me running away, though I explained it wasn't his fault and I was only running. Still, Jared was stubborn about these things. I had to admit the chocolate cake he had made himself wasn't burnt and I was still overjoyed he'd learnt how to make a cake. He was so perfect sometimes.

"I have something for you," Jared said, breaking the comfortable silence that had formed.

"Jared, you didn't have to get me something," I mumbled.

"I know, I wanted to," Jared said, shoving a hand in his pocket and handing me a necklace. It was a pearl - a real one, that was obvious - on a single silver chain, but it was beautiful: so simple and elegant. Something that would make anyone feel pretty wearing it.

"Oh my God Jared, it's gorgeous."

"It was my Grandmother's, my great Grandma gave it to her on her wedding day, so that no matter what happened, or wherever her new husband took her, she'd always remember her mother," Jared explained. He spoke so softly I could hardly hear him.

"Jared, does your Mum know that you gave this to me? I mean I don't think she would be pleased."

"Kim, My Grandma gave it to my mother, who gave it to me to give to my wife, but I didn't want to wait till then."

"You really shouldn't have."

"No it's selfish really, it's just I want you to look down and always remember me. I have to patrol a lot, and I want something to be on you that reminds you of me. I'm being selfish," Jared explained, looking a little ashamed.

"I don't need this to remind me of you, you know, but thank you."

"Any time."

It was right then that we started kissing. I just couldn't believe how much I loved him, how much he loved me, how he gave me something that had been passed around his family, and how beautiful the night was, full of stars. It wasn't even that cold, a first for La Push, and that night it all just felt so right, like everything had made this night perfect. We started kissing and we never stopped, and then we fell asleep under the stars with Jared murmuring how beautiful I was.

END OF FLASHBACK

"I don't know how it happened. We both just got caught up in the moment I guess," I finally admit.

"You didn't even use anything," Sam says, sounding annoyed.

"How stupid could have I been?" I say to Sam, and then I begin to sob. What would Jared think? I mean, he loves me now, but I'm only 17 and I'm pregnant! What if he can't take it? I mean, after all, he's only 17 too. What about school? I'm not ready for this.

"Oh Kim, it's going to be okay. I was being hard on you, I'm sorry. It's just you're normally so careful," Sam explains quickly.

"I'm only 17, I haven't even finished school! What will Mum say? What will Jared say? What am I going to do?" I cry.

"Kim, everything is going to be okay, I promise. No matter what happens, no matter what Jared does, I will make sure you're okay, and I will be here for you. I swear," Sam says, her voice serious.

"Thank you," I manage to whisper as I stare at the small pink stick that has just decided my future.

"Are you going to keep it?" Sam whispers.

"Yes." I couldn't ever kill my baby, it was Jared's to. Jared and mine. I couldn't kill something that was a part of me and Jared, no matter what he said. Even if he left me, I just couldn't do that.

"Okay good, are you going to raise it? Because you could put it up for adoption..." Sam voice trails off.

"No, this is mine. I can't give my own child up. I understand why some people do, I just, I can't."

"Well that's okay too. So are you going to tell Jared or your Mum first?" Sam asks.

"How about no one ever?" I say.

"We could just say you put on some weight," Sam suggests smiling.

"Sounds good to me."

"Seriously though," Sam says.

"I'll tell Jared first. He deserves to know first," I say.

"You don't have to rush telling him."

"No, but I'd rather just do it you know, like ripping a bandaid off."

"I get you."

"In fact, can you drive me to Sam and Emily's? He'll be there."

"Sure," Sam says, throwing the pregnancy test in the bin and covering it up with newspaper.

"My Dad would have an heart attack if he thought I was pregnant", Sam explains.

"No, Jake would."

"Yeah you're probably right," Sam says laughing.

Sam drives ridiculously slow to Sam and Emily's "because you're pregnant, Kim". This is going to be a long 9 months if she drives me around. Once we pull up I feel like I want to throw up because I'm so nervous.

"Do you want me to come in?" Sam asks.

"Yes," I say instantly.

Sam almost laughs at my eagerness, but she tries to cover it up. Once we're at the door I get the feeling this is a bad idea. I mean after all, what am I thinking? Just telling him now. I'm not ready.

"You know what, lets just go," I say quickly.

"Okay," Sam says, nodding understandingly.

"Kim, is that you?" Jared's voice booms.

"Do you think he'd believe me if I lied?" I ask Sam.

She shakes her head, and I take a deep breath.

"Yeah it's me," I call as I walk into the house with Sam trailing behind me. Once we enter the dining room I notice Jared has been waiting for me. He smiles at me, gets up, and moves in for a kiss. Ever since that night he can't seem to keep his hands off me. I let myself enjoy it for a moment, I even ignore the wolf whistles - no pun intended. Finally I break apart from him, and try my best to smile. I fiddle with the necklace he gave me, and Jared senses something's wrong straight away.

"What's wrong Kim?" Jared asks. Worry laces his voice.

"We need to talk," I say quietly.

"Okay" Jared replies slowly.

"Where no one can hear us," I finally say.

"Okay."

"It sounds like Jared is about to get dumped," Embry jokes. Emily whacks him on the back of the head.

"Do you want me to come?" Sam asks.

Jared shoots me a confused look.

"No, I can handle this, I hope," I say.

"Okay well, um, good luck," Sam says.

"Yeah thanks," I mutter. Jared looks even more worried now, but he tries to smile at me as we walk outside of the house.

"So what's wrong?"

"When I meant I didn't want anyone else to hear, I meant werewolves as well."

"Oh right," Jared says, and guides me until we're standing in the forest. "Though it's a little pointless, I mean they will know."

"I know but it's easier if it's private for now."

"Okay Kim, I'm starting to freak out. You need to tell me what's up."

"Well you remember, uhm, that night?"

"Kim, I didn't mean to pressure you. We don't have to again, for as long as you want," Jared says.

"No that's not it. It's just that, well..."

"Well what?"

"I'm pregnant."

I look over at Jared and he looks shocked, and then he faints. Well, that could have gone better.

I begin to cry, in typical pregnant-woman fashion, and so there I sit in the middle of the forest, pregnant, with a fainting werewolf boyfriend. Great.

Authors Note

So there you have it. what did you think were you expecting it before this chapter tell me your thoughts