Authors Note

So I have myself a new Beta, so a big thanks to them! They made my day when they agreed to be my beta. Anyways, here it is. I tried to make it nice and long. Anyways, this is written from Jared's P.O.V. I thought you might enjoy hearing his thoughts on the pregnancy and everything that is going on around him and his plans for Kim. He hasn't had much say in a while and with everything changing around him his developed a bit as a character and I wanted to show that.

PS I don't own Twilight at any point in this story and never ever will

Chapter 22

Month 3, 4, 5

Month 3, 5 Months to go and I'll be a Dad. A Father. The name rolls off the tongue easily, easier then I originally thought it would. When I first found out I was shocked, you know, but then I realized I wanted to be there for Kim in every way I could these days, though I want to be there for both of them. I'm looking forward to be a Dad. Which I know is weird for a 17 year old guy to say, but, what can I say, I'm honest.

"Jared you missed a spot," Lily points out.

I don't know why I agreed to paint this house. No, I do know why; this chick pays good money. Lily is about 16 and I think she likes to bother me as well as stare at me a lot. I mean, it's hard not to notice how blatantly she checks me out. Sometimes a couple of her friends come over and join her. It's kind of weird and awkward because I'm not remotely interested in any of them. They all sit there and smile sometimes they try to flirt and I grunt back. I wish I could just explain I'm taken and nothing can change my mind.

I've mentioned I had a girlfriend before but none of them seem bothered by it, like somehow this is no worry to them. Truth is, I don't want to waste my breath explaining to them what Kim is to me because they just want to get it.

I am, however, interested in saving money for a house: a nice one, you know, something normal sized. I just want a good down payment. I want to give Kim stability, something she can rely on besides me.

I mean I can't live with my mum with Kim or Kim's Mum.

Once she has the baby (and there is no way I am not going to live with her once the baby is born) I want to be there for everything. In fact my next step is getting married. I'm just not sure how to ask Kim. Does she even want to marry me? I mean I'm not sure. She loves me, but does she want to always be mine in such an official way. Maybe she'll think it's silly I want to marry her, I mean where already having a kid together, but I want to be linked to her in every way possible.

"Oh right. Thanks," I mumble back, finally giving Lily the answer to her question. Oddly she just stood there waiting. I mean, I took forever, you'd think she'd just give up.

Lily smiles and one friend of hers smiles at me as, well, I try and smile back without looking disgusted. I mean, the girl pays me good money and I need it. Can't she see she's not Kim, looks nothing like her in fact. No one can compare to her beauty.

I turn around and concentrate on what I'm meant to be doing. Finally they get bored at starring and start doing something else. About time. I thought they never would.

"Jared," Paul calls.

I turn around and, sure enough, there he stands. He has a confused look on his face. Must have been spending time with Sam; he always leaves her more confused than before. He says she messes him up, but oddly, it's worth it. With Paul, he may as well have said he loves her even though we all know he already does; I mean he imprinted, but you know, for Paul that's big.

"What's up?" I ask and notice the girls are back to starring, but now at both of us. Wonderful: Paul has brought their attention. I half want to punch him for it.

"Nothing, really. Just wondered if you wanted help," Paul says.

"Oh, yeah, that'd be great man."

"Anytime," Paul says lazily.

He's been doing this a lot lately: turning up and helping out and refusing to take any money. It's his way of being there for me, and it's good to have because that's the thing about Paul: his as loyal as a dog. That's funny considering he sort of is one. I mean, I thrust the money at him and he says 'Fuck off! I don't want it.' He is an idiot that way, but a good one.

"So, you have a fan club?" Paul says, nodding in the direction of the two girls.

"Yeah, suppose. Don't worry; I think you just got one too."

"Wonderful," Paul mumbles darkly and goes back to painting.

"So what house are you looking to buy?"

"Hell knows. Something Kim will like, but she won't tell me. I don't think she wants me trying to get her dream house."

The truth is, I've asked her and I don't think she wants to say. I guess she doesn't want me stressing myself out trying to get it for her.

"I could ask Sam."

"Yeah that'd be good I guess. You seen Sam lately?"

"Second ago or so. She's pretty frustrating"

"All girls are."

Paul nods in agreement and we go back to painting in silence, trying to ignore Lily and her friends blatant starring. Another one has joined them and is trying to catch Paul's eye; I feel like telling her good luck with that.

Half an hour later, and with both of us beyond tired, I start to pack up.

"So what are you going to do now?" Paul asks as we finish up the painting.

"Go see Kim. She wants to see some new movie so I thought we'd go to the movies."

"So you can make out."

"Nope. She likes watching the movie, so I let her watch and then later, hopefully, we make out."

"Sounds good."

"It will be. You?"

"Nothing. Dad and I are going to watch the football. I think we're bonding."

"Have fun with that!" I say, slapping him on the back and cleaning up.

Once where finished cleaning up, which involved trying to find all the brushes that are scattered around everywhere. I walk over to Lily to get my check, relieved that I won't be seeing her again, at least until she finds something else for me to fix.

"Jared you did such a great job!" Lily says, smiling and handing over the money

"Thanks," I grunt.

"You should come over again."

"What else do you need done?"

"Nothing, just as friends you know…"

"I'm good, I mean I'm busy."

"Are you sure?" Lily says pouting, "We could have some fun, kissing fun?"

I look at her thinking 'Who the hell says crap like that'.

"Positive. I have a girlfriend," I reply.

"So?" Lily says looking confused. I'm guessing she's popular in Forks.

"So, I plan to marry her," I say with a grin and then, just like that, turn around leaving her stunned.

The days pass easily working and see Kim when I can while saving every penny.

"Jared" Embry screams as I walk into Sam's house

"What's up?"

"I found out what kind of house Kim wants"

"What" I ask eagerly

"You know those wooden cabin things you see and there small like a cottage and they always have a fire and crap"

"Yeah"

"That's what she wants"

"How do you know?"

"Well, we were watching movies and that kind of house came on, and she said that's the house she's always wanted, and then she begged me not to mention it to you, but of course, I ignored that," Embry says with a lazy grin

"Wait, why were you watching movies with her?"

"You weren't there and she's lonely."

"Lonely," I mumble under my breath.

It sucks. We have to be apart but I refuse to not be with her after the baby is born. I want a nice place for us to live in. I work before school, after school, and on weekends. At least once a day I work at different people's houses. Sometimes I help this guy named Wayne, who's a carpenter. I do some of the smaller jobs for him. Anything that's available.

Sam only puts me on patrol once a week now so I can work and I see Kim when I'm not working. It majorly sucks but I have to do it. I won't let her down. She'll hate me if we end up living with our parents for the rest of our lives.

I have to give her everything I can offer her and I will. I swear.

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"This is it," Paul says.

Paul looks at the small block of land that's down the street from Sam's. I used to pass it all the time on my way to school. I never in thought it was for sale but it was. Well, Sam got the council to sell it, finally. It wasn't like anyone was playing in it anyways. So, they all agreed with Sam. Plus, he added, it was good to have the pack as close as possible.

"This is my future. This is where my children will grow up," I say, starring at it proudly.

"In a patch of grass," Paul says grinning.

"No, I'm going to build a house/"

"You're what?"

"Yeah. I'm going to build the house Kim wants. I've got all the stuff, all I have to do is build it now. It won't cost much, I mean Quil's Dad used to be a plumber, so he said he can do that, and he's pretty good at electricity as well since his uncle was an electrician, and I can build. I'm good with my hands. It's going to be perfect," I say with a huge smile filling my face.

"Wow, Jared. You really thought about this."

"Of course I did. So, what do you think?"

"I think I'm going to have to help you."

"You don't have to."

"Don't be a wanker. I will," Paul says with a grin.

"Ok, then. Let's start."

I smiled widely and lead him to the shed where I stored all of the stuff and we began. We started building my future and my life.

"Kim!" I yelp as I see her at school. I haven't seen her in a week. It's killing me; between working and building our house (and the fact I don't want to spill that I'm making her house) it has been torture. To be honest, I haven't spent any long amounts of time with Kim in two months. It's just so hard building; that house is taking over the little life I had left.

It's too hard to see her and I know I should be there, but at the same time I can't give everything away no way in the world she can't not what I'm doing she'll try and stop me saying she only wants me.

She doesn't stop but I'm sure she's heard me; she has good hearing. I've noticed a couple of people turn to look at us, but I push past them and almost have to run to keep up with Kim, who is starring straight a head.

"Kimberly" I pant, as soon as I see her.

"Jared," she says coldly.

"What's wrong? What did I do?"

"Nothing."

"What?"

'You did nothing Jared. See, for you to do something wrong, I would have to see you."

"Oh."

"Yeah."

"Kim, I am sorry, but I've just been…"

"Look, Jared, its ok. Having a kid is a lot to take in. At first when you started avoiding me 2 months ago, I really thought you were busy, you know, but then it's latest too long Jared. You know something's up if your avoiding your imprint and then I realized what it is."

"Kim."

"No. It's because you, darling Jared, freaked out and you don't want to be a dad."

"Kim."

"And that's fine but I gave you a chance to walk, Jared and when you didn't, well, I believed you were going to be sticking around."

"I am" I yelp

"Jared, it's ok. Don't worry"

She's still looking straight ahead like she can't even look at me. How did this happen? She thinks I don't want her anymore. She couldn't be more wrong. Why must she always doubt who she is when she's so perfect? How can she doubt that I love her? How can she believe I would ever leave her?

"Kim, I love you," I finally yell, desperate for her to look at me.

People turn and look at us curiously

"Jared, don't," she says, finally facing me and I see the tears falling down her face and the pain in her eyes. Its heart wrenching. My whole heart aches just starring at her and the worst part is I caused the pain.

"Kim, listen!"

"Jared, please, I can't, you don't have to…"

"Kim, I want to show you something," I whisper as I wipe away the tears that are on her cheeks.

"It's ok."

"No, I have a reason for why I've been away and I'll show you. I promise."

"Jared, it's ok."

"Please Kim. Promise me in one week you'll come with me."

"A week? What Jared?"

"I know, it's just, I have to finish it."

"What?" Kim says, clearly confused.

"Please?"

"Fine. I promise," Kim mumbles and then walks away, taking my heart with her.

For the next week I don't sleep a wink. I just work. Sometimes the whole pack joins me helping, sometimes just Paul. The days are long and I can barely function knowing Kim is angry. But someone is normally there to help and if I'm not doing that, I'm working harder then I have ever had to before. I don't see Kim; I avoid her. I don't want her to ask questions about my lack of sleep, or anything else for that matter. I manage to have a nap around now, and then tomorrow I'll work all day and finish it off. I close my eyes and fall asleep on Sam's couch. I sleep there now so I'm closer to my house. My house, our house.

"Jared!" Paul yells in my ear.

"What?"

"I have something to show you."

"What?"

"Come on!"

I follow him blindly, too tired to bother arguing.

"Where are we going?"

"Your future," Paul mocks.

"Shut up," I grumble.

Though I am surprised to see the house, what is more surprising is that it's light out and the house is almost completed besides the one piece of wood I stare at in astonishment. The whole pack is standing outside it smiling proudly

"How long have I been a sleep for?"

"A while," Quil says.

"A day," Embry explains and I smile at the whole pack.

"You did this?"

"Yeah, well, it wasn't that hard."

"Thank you," I say.

"You just have to finish it," I nod thanks to Quil and grab the wood and hammer it into place and smile.

"It's finished."

"And it only took you two months!"

"I know, now what," I muse, starring at it, stunned.

'You go get the girl," Max yells.

"Of course," I say with a grin.

And then I'm off with a new surge of energy, running through me, running to Kim's. I knock on the door loudly, my heart jumping out of my chest. A second later, Kim appears looking bigger and more beautiful then ever. I can't help it. I kiss her, dying to feel her near me.

"Jared," Kim says after the kiss is over. She looks angry at me and I know it's because I've hurt her.

"It's been a week," I say flatly.

"I know. Jared, whatever you show me won't fix me and you."

"Kim, I love you. I would have been near you if I could have been, but, well, things happened. Now come see!" I said with a huge smile.

Kim softens a little but still looks angry. She follows me, questioning me the whole way there, question after question that I refuse to answer.

"We're here!" I finally say, noticing the whole pack has disappeared.

"Where?"

"Here."

"It's a beautiful house Jared. When I was little I wanted one of these. This was my dream house you know, but Jared, what's your point?"

"I built it for you,"

"Jared?"

"Cue forgiveness."

"Jared, you did this all of this?"

"Yeah."

"How? Why?"

"It wasn't hard. The pack helped, but I want to give you the world Kim," I say.

"The world? You've already given me more then that, Jared. You've given me you!"

"I'm not enough."

"You're more then enough!" Kim says with a sweet smile.

"No, Kim, I'm not."

"Yes, you are," and with that Kim kisses me It's magical and beautiful and everything she is.

"So, do I get a tour?" Kim asks with a grin.

"Course. I want to show you the bedroom," I say with a wink.

"You sound like Embry."

"What, he hasn't said that to you, has he?"

"What? No, just a joke. Once. Jared, it was nothing."

"I'll kill him when I see him later, but now, like you said, let's have a tour!" I say with a sly smile.

I can't help loving Kim, just like I can't help wanting to please her or stop the world from causing her harm, but I guess the best things in life are out of your control. I took my time loving her, in a way, but I thank every day I discovered what she was to me.

Authors Note

So it sort of sounded like the end. Far from it, but it's most likely the end of ever hearing from Jared. I tried to let you inside his head as much as possible. It's nice every now and then from having a break from Kim and I was having writers block with this chapter. I tried hard to make this long but I don't know how it will turn out. You may have noticed we covered three months in this chapter which I sped through. The next months will be more interesting. I have picked my name for the baby and the gender. Any guesses? The name is pretty unique, I have to admit, and some of you may hate it, but, well, I don't know, I kind of like it. It just sort of clicked I head this name and I was tossing it around in my head and then I was like people won't like it. But every other name just didn't feel right. Anyway ,there you go. That's all I have to say. Review please! It keeps me motivated. I felt this sounded rushed; what do you think?