Authors Note
Back To Kim. please review it really gives me inspiration, so review and leave me your thoughts. So the beginning of this chapter is when Kim feels like Jared is avoiding her and what's going on in her life when you here from Jared.
So this chapter spelling properly sucks but my Beta has been having computer troubles I know it sucks so she told me to post without her I tried my best to get through it but I know there were mistakes and try not to focus on it or really mention it in your reviews it's pointless I know it sucks and I'm sorry and the grammar will be perfect soon once my Beta is able to Beta for me again so sorry again.
PS
So for a while now I have this Embry Spin off in my head I know me and my spin off.'s but lately it's been on my mind all the time, dying to be written I find myself thinking about it so I'm going to be writing it for sure. And I have completed the first chapter all I need is a beta for it since my other Beta's are really busy so please if you want to hear from Embry offer to be my beta. I know you think I'm taking a lot on but trust me, I write better when I have a couple of different things to focus on.
So Beta anyone
Chapter One
I stare at the mirror looking at my whole entire body and my face, have I changed besides the stomach part has something changed I know my personality hasn't that's for sure I'm still the same nice little Kim. But I must have for Jared to be avoiding I know he can't just be working I know that for a fact.
For a while he was just not around as much and I could deal with that sure I mean he was doing it for US. But now I don't see him all together and I'm not an idiot his avoiding me which has thrown me completely I won't lie I was finally secure in our relationship and now this happens. I mean I saw him yesterday for a minute it's like he sees me for as little as possible and that sucks. I wanna say some grown up mature word but it just sucks
Which means only one thing he is repelled by my personality he must have got to know me far to well and realised he hates me which is an odd feeling especially since I'm in love with him.
And I hate that feeling why must I be the one pinning why me, life sucks it really does life sucks. Which means one thing I refuse to mop I absolutely refuse to. But since Mum isn't home not that I'd mention Jared has dumped me she'd hit the roof and cause a scene. And Davie is never home he even stays over at Leah's house, sometimes when I get up she's in the kitchen early of course so Mum want spot her. But still if she's not here his not here. Of course I have to cover for him but he covers for me and Jared which is nice. I mean he use to cover me because to cover for me now would mean Jared and I spent anytime together, I'm counting my lucky stars he hasn't asked about Jared and our Lack of relationship at the moment. Oh and if for some reason his not with Leah his with his Best Mate Snake which is great and all but that makes me a complete loner.
Sam is out with Paul again so I am completely a lone in the world I mean there's Nathan but after that whole kissing thing, well it's just his not who I thought he was. So basically I have no one left, I've never been popular I've always had just Sam really and then everyone else I'm just Friends with you know. Nathan was a good friend for a while but look how that turned out.
Who else is there, I rack my brain for anyone that I use to spend time with before I met Jared, It's not that I dumped my friends since I was always just the quiet girl and they never bothered to be my best friend, so only seeing them in class and not at lunch was barely a sacrifice.
And that's when it hits me I mean a lot of my life has to do with Jared how pathic is that I hate myself for that, well I'll be fine though I don't need him. I'll move on I will I really will. I get dressed as fast as I can and walk outside realising there is nothing to do I head to the supermarket I mean that's not so bad right.
Once I have picked out a cake what is it with me and buying cakes I make my over to the cash register and buy it as quickly as I can. Three hours later and after renting a bunch of Chick Flicks I realise the world hates me I mean seriously this is my way of moving on I suck at this I really do I close my eyes and go to sleep what can I say.
I haven't seen Jared in ages. I mean for a while when I was doing that whole I don't need him thing it was fine cause I caught glimpses of him so maybe he still cared but it's been a week and that means his over me completely and is no longer bothering to say a pity hello, I think as I walk down the halls of school.
I'm used to being without him I mean it still hurts like hell but I'm use to it I honestly am I hang out with Sam most days I even went out with Davie and Leah one night. And I do my homework and deal with throwing up and getting bigger I've gotten use to it. Sure I still feel empty and I have become so close to calling him a hundred times, but what's there to say if I speak to him it makes it real. Too real, and it's not like his standing in my way of dating someone else.
A I couldn't bear it I mean he I still love him there that's the truth
B No one wants to date someone with Child
So as you can see it's not like I want to date someone and as far as everyone else is concerned where still together a couple of people have asked. Where is Jared and I've mumbled a reply or Are You Too still together and I would just walk away. Which leaves them still wondering avoiding is the best thing ever. So as I walk down the hall I know I'm not over Jared but I'm not completely empty or broken not completely I'm hanging by a thread sort of thing. It helps that I never see him I couldn't take that no way in hell. And there's the fact that I'm carry his child that hurts the most it's not even like I can cut my loses either there always be a reminder and I'm not angry about that, but he'll always be around in some way who am I kidding no matter what I could never really let Jared go.
"Kim" Jared's voice yells I know its him straight away but I don't want to hear the words that follow it's over or something so I keep moving avoidance is key right. Of course Jared just pushes past everyone making everyone stare and all though my heart is breaking with how desperate he is too, just end it with me I keep walking straight ahead straight ahead I chant to myself.
"Kimberly" Jared says and I turn to see him right next to me and I full on stop, everyone is looking not that he has noticed but I can't move his so close and his about to break my heart. Did he even imprint on me was that just a lie. Everyone is still looking at me, still looking at me and him waiting for the answer to the burning question why are Jared and Kim barely ever together anymore.
"Jared," I manage to say keeping all emotion out of my voice it hurts saying his name with no feeling. I look at him and a look of confusion crosses his face like he doesn't know how can he not know.
"What's wrong? What did I do?" Jared asks
"Nothing." I reply I can't say anymore my voice will crack and everyone is still looking at us. I don't want to break down in front of him and everyone
"What?" Jared says sounding more confused
'You did nothing Jared. See, for you to do something wrong, I would have to see you." I finally saying pouring all my other emotions into anger it's better then crying and begging for him to love me again right.
"Oh." Jared says sounding dumbfounded does he think that I don't love him that when he said that stuff it wasn't true and I was meant to know that.
"Yeah." I manage to choke out
"Kim, I am sorry, but I've just been…" Jared begins is he going to apologise I can't handle that not even close, I don't want to hear why he stopped loving me even thinking that hurts avoidance all I wanted to do was avoid
"Look, Jared, its ok. Having a kid is a lot to take in. At first when you started avoiding me 2 months ago, I really thought you were busy, you know, but then it's latest too long Jared. You know something's up if your avoiding your imprint and then I realised what it is." I almost yell but I try and keep my voice level though I may as well tell him I'm angry at the end right, I feel everyone's eyes still on us he has yet to notice.
"Kim." Jared says he sounds hurt I want to fix that but I can't he hurt me why is he acting like this why.
"No. It's because you, darling Jared, freaked out and you don't want to be a dad." I say I don't add cause he doesn't love me because saying that allowed would make me break down in front of everyone I can't do that, and besides he properly doesn't I'm a lone with his child.
"Kim."
"And that's fine but I gave you a chance to walk, Jared and when you didn't, well, I believed you were going to be sticking around." I say I don't add I thought that you'd stick around for me too
"I am" He yelps loudly
"Jared, it's ok. Don't worry" I manage to say keeping the emotion out of my voice I do this by not looking at him just don't look and I'll be ok. I can't look at him cause all I see is beauty the guy I love and the beauty that broke me heart. The beauty that is in our unborn child
"Kim, I love you," Jared yells and then he looks around the halls, and then of course he realises people are starring I see it on his face. About time I mumble why did he have to say he loves me, why it makes everything I get he doesn't want me why would he is he.
"Jared, don't," I finally say and I stare at him and it breaks my heart tears fall down and I can't hold them back no matter how hard I try
"Kim, listen!" Jared says Listen to what to you saying you don't care I can't hear that doesn't he know that
"Jared, please, I can't, you don't have to…" I trail off
"Kim, I want to show you something," He whispers and wipes the tears away his hand feels so good on my skin and I can't get myself to pull away I'm really going to miss this I think.
"It's ok." I choke out
"No, I have a reason for why I've been away and I'll show you. I promise."
"Jared, it's ok." I say there's no reason it's ok you don't have to lie I think
"Please Kim. Promise me in one week you'll come with me."
"A week? What Jared?"
"I know, it's just, I have to finish it."
"What?" I say could this be more confusing
"Please?" Jared says he sounds so desperate
"Fine. I promise," I say I can't help it I just his voice it sounded so I can't deal with this anymore I turn and walk away trying to avoid but what is there left to avoid.
I don't deal after what Jared says very well, even when Sam tries to talk to me about it's just too hard and that is why I am home once again. I hear a knock on the door right in the middle of Titanic with a sigh I walk to the door to see Jared standing there, what does he want it's been more then a week I assumed in the end it was just a lie what does he want. Before I can even speak he pulls me into a kiss and I want to pull away but I can't this could be our last kiss.
Jared," I say once it's over starring at him I can't help it I'm angry why is he here and kissing me too what's wrong with him
"It's been a week," He says flatly.
"I know. Jared, whatever you show me won't fix me and you." I manage to say though what he wants to show me is beyond me
"Kim, I love you. I would have been near you if I could have been, but, well, things happened. Now come see!" Jared says smiling and I find it hard not to believe him even though I know it can't be true. I let myself enjoy it for now. I follow him in silence not sure what to say afraid I'll lose it and trying to work out how to protect my heart but that's impossible
"We're here!" Jared says
"Where?" I ask looking around I see a house my dream house but what's his point this is what you can never have good bye
"Here."
"It's a beautiful house Jared. When I was little I wanted one of these. This was my dream house you know, but Jared, what's your point?" I say trying to prove how much this will hurt me
"I built it for you," Jared says slowly I stare at him in amazement is that why he was avoiding me it all makes sense but could it even be true
"Jared?"
"Cue forgiveness." Jared says with a s mile
"Jared, you did this all of this?" I question could it be he does love me
"Yeah."
"How? Why?" I ask in awe
"It wasn't hard. The pack helped, but I want to give you the world Kim," He says sincerely
"The world? You've already given me more then that, Jared. You've given me you!" I say he loves me he really does I know his telling the truth I can see it and I wonder how I could doubt that
"I'm not enough."
"You're more then enough!" I say
"No, Kim, I'm not."
"Yes, you are," I say and kiss him with everything I have
"So, do I get a tour?" I ask relaxing now, Jared loves me I chant in my head he really does love me
"Course. I want to show you the bedroom," Jared says with a wink
"You sound like Embry." I say with a roll of my eyes
"What, he hasn't said that to you, has he?"
"What? No, just a joke. Once. Jared, it was nothing."
"I'll kill him when I see him later, but now, like you said, let's have a tour!" Jared says with a sly smile
I roll my eyes but follow him anyway
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I own a house, I mean Jared, owns this house officially but I guess that means I own this house do I, I mean he built it for me. God this is so confusing.
"You ok" Jared asks his just finished giving me a real tour and it's so perfect. There isn't a lot of furniture but enough. He left the nursery for us to do together which is sweet, though I don't know how to decorate I mean really I have no idea if the baby is a boy or a girl so much pressure.
"Yeah just amazed" I whisper
"I'm amazed all the time"
"What why"
"When I look at you Kim"
I blush of course I can't help it I just turn red.
"Thanks" I mumble
"Anytime"
"Hey Jared"
"Yeah"
"You know building the house was very Notebook"
"Na, our love story is much more interesting"
"How"
"I have the whole werewolf thing going for me" Jared says and grins at me that stupid grin when his over the moon about something
"Yeah plus you have the witty best friend, who is entertainingly funny and steals the show" Embry calls
I jump a mile away from Jared is complete shock, once I see Embry standing right at the door, of the dinning room grinning obviously proud of his line,
"Embry" Jared groans in annoyance
"Jared, don't worry I'm not here to steal your girl, I've told Kim, time and time and time again that it would never work haven't I Kim I mean sure we slept together a couple of times but......"
Embry doesn't get time to even finish the sentence and I'm half glad he doesn't cause god knows what he would have said instead he stumbles back from Jared's punch which I heard the sound of the impact it made on his face. Jared's shaking of course his whole body and he has this angry look in his eye. He stands in front of me trying to shield me I think from Embry like his going to rape me or something which is just stupid. Because I mean Embry is one of his best friends he was making a joke, but at the same time I feel proud that he cares that much.
"Fuck, chill Jared, it was a joke" Embry says looking more annoyed then hurt
"Don't talk about that, don't talk about Kim like that ok" Jared says obviously having trouble using the right words.
"Yeah, Em your an idiot for mentioning that" Quil calls
"What were you thinking loser" Jake calls after a minute
"Embry keep your fucking fantasies to your self" Paul says obviously making it clear who's side his on.
"Yeah fuck dude, don't cause trouble" Max says in agreement
"His right" Seth calls
They all enter the room all the werewolf's in La Push properly the world and Emily, who smiles at me and is obviously admiring the kitchen.
"It really is something" Emily says glancing around
"Yeah, it is" I say starring at Jared who is looking proud of himself
"No PDA" Quil says shielding his face with his hands
"Your just jealous cause there's no risk of you giving any PDA in years" Jared says with a grin and plants a kiss on my head absentmindedly invaded
"Whatever" Quil mumbles with a roll of eyes
"Cut" Collin calls out
"I think we've been invaded by werewolf's" I whisper to Jared though it's obvious everyone will hear.
The werewolf's burst out laughing at my words I wasn't even trying to be funny.
"So, cool place Jared, some nice people must have helped you built it huh" Quil states
"Your so not subtle" Max says
"Hey Kim" Embry says
Jared turns and shoots him a death stare which of course Embry ignores
"Oh don't look so angry I have a question for Kim Mr Since I have imprint I can't take a joke, Kimberly I was wondering when the baby was due" Embry says flashing Jared a smile.
"4 months" I answer him
"Cool, see Jared it was just a question no need to shake the house down"
"Yeah Jared no need to shake the house down" Quil says grinning
"Jared sucks at comebacks there's no point insulting him" Max muses
"This house is getting really crowded" Jared grumbles
"I just came to give you these muffins but they all insisted on tagging a long" Emily explains in a motherly way
"Thanks" I say taking a look at the muffins on the kitchen counter that look to die for. I wonder why the boys aren't eating them, I can only imagin Emily made Sam make that an order. Sometimes I think Emily is in charge Sam just gives the orders.
"No problem, come on boys lets let them settle in" Emily says with a sweet smile
"Someone should patrol" Sam says his voice stern "Brady and Collin, aren't you meant to be"
Brady and Collin nod looking annoyed
"Well then boys" Sam says and both boys leave looking a little pissed off but not particularly so.
"Come on boys, lets leave them a lone" Emily agrees
"You heard the lady" Sam says in a more commanding tone but in more of a joking way.
Embry fake salutes him and all the boys file out making rude comments and see you later.
"You two coming for dinner" Emily asks
"I thought we might eat here tonight"
"He just wants to get lucky Emmy, don't take it personally" Embry says with a grin
"Shut up" Jared growls
"Having a meal in a house does make it a home" Emily muses ignoring Embry's comment and with a last smile she leaves.
"You did well Jared" Sam says giving him a slap on the back and wondering off.
"I'm heading over to Sam's I think" Paul says
"Thanks Paul you really helped me with everything" Jared says
"I got your back dude we were blood brothers way before we were Pack brothers" Paul says matter of a factly. Paul terns to leave and I wave a good bye and then suddnely he turns around.
"Hey Kim" Paul says hovering at the door
"Yeah"
"I'm not good at this shit, but if Jared had to imprint on anyone, well I'm glad it was you just so you know" Paul says shifting awkwardly "and I'm I shouldn't have knocked you out that wasn't cool"
"Paul, I consider you my friend now too, and that was forgiven long ago"
"Yeah friends" Paul says with a grin
I smile brightly and Jared squeezes me hand obviously happy, Paul gives us a nod and then just like the rest wonders off.
"Hey Jared"
"yeah"
"Are you going to live here together" I ask
I mean I know it sounds like a stupid question but maybe it's just for him so the baby has someone, to stay when he has him or her how am I meant to know, do you know what I mean, maybe he thinks moving in is a stupid thing and this is for the future.
"Kim, nothing would make me happier" Jared says his voice serious
"Really"
"Yeah, Kim really, I wanna be with you as much as you can"
And what can I say after that I couldn't help but start making out with him yes I know I am very in love.
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"Mum, I'm moving out" Jared says his voice smooth
Where as I am standing next to him practically trembling about facing his mother who is standing across the room with us, she's just walked in from work and after a quick hello, Jared just launched into it ever heard of small talk apparently not. I mean nothing not even a how are you?
"What" Jared's Mum says looking slightly confused
"I have a place"
"What place" She questions she looks like she's ready to go into battle, she would be good in the army she should enlist.
"You know that block of land that recently got built on near Sam's house"
"Yes" She says slowly
"Well, I built it there"
"You built a house" She says in alarm
"Yeah how did you get the money, your not selling drugs are you"
"No, Mum, I recieved it, the old fashion way from all that working, you know people play for that now"
"But your so young"
"I'm 17 Mum, and I need your permission more of less to really move out I suppose, so that's why I'm asking I mean I think technically you might be able to stop me but I really hope you won't cause you want me to handle this like an adult and I am"
"I see that" She says slowly
"And I mean you'll have Max still it's not like your completely a lone, and I'm turning 18 in 2 months so, I mean I'll just have to delay it really if you want to make it hard"
"I'm not going to make it hard Jared, why do you always expect the worst out of me" She says with a sigh
"I don't Mum, I'm just covering my bases"
"You can move out Jared as long as you don't disappear I want to see you at least once a week ok, just to see your doing ok, I'll let you move out as long as I know your doing ok in the real world does that sound fair"
"Perfect" Jared says and hugs him mum lifting her off the ground and even though she demands for him to put her down,I see the smile on her face she's not so bad after all.
"That was easy" Jared says as we make our way to my house, I can see it up ahead I can even make out Leah and Davie mucking around washing the car.
"Yeah which means my mum is going to make this hard" I say with a sigh
"How do you figure"
"Your mum was easy which mine won't be it's obvious Jared have you not noticed there is a lot of drama in our relationship"
"You worry to much Kim" Jared says
"No, I don't worry to much I'm just being realistic"
"Cynic"
"Realist" I correct
Jared just laughs and starts waving at Davie.
"Hey" Jared calls
"What's up" Davie says smiling and I look at his completely soaked through shirt
"Nothing just telling the parents"
"Is it about the whole Kim being knocked up thing" Davie stage whispers
Leah hits him lightly
"You'll be fine, your mum's really nice" Leah offers with a smile
"To you, I swear she's planning our wedding" Davie says with a grin
"Don't be dramatic" Leah says and rolls her eyes
"Not it's true the other day I was watching Telly and she walks in and is like Natalie is a nice name for a girl, it'd go well with our last name don't you think and wonders off, I mean mum is not subtle I got the message"
"Maybe she just liked the name" Leah says
"Don't be a naive she wants you and me having kids and getting married"
"Where too young"
"I think she means more in the long run, I think she's planting the seed in my head or some crap"
"What are you watching Doctor Phil or something" Leah teases
"Yes I am"
Leah splashes him with water and we leave them too, there so cute together,
"Good Luck" Leah calls, of course when she lets her guard down Davie chucks a bucket of water on her
"It's a shame your not wearing white that would have soaked through" Davie says with a grin
"You jerk" Leah yells but i can hear her laughing. I already talked to Davie who of course was fine about the whole thing, he didn't mind at all as long as he got to come hang out. Davie has been really good about everything really, that's why I figured telling him first would be easy and good practice for telling Mum.
We walk into the house me trying to walk slower and Jared getting impatient and walking faster and faster. Sometimes his just too sure about everything I mean he really should start worrying more it would be good for him.
"Mum" I say pretty quietly
"Mum" Jared calls loudly
"Thanks" I grumble
"In here" Mum calls
"Anytime" Jared says with a wink
Mum is in the lounge room watching The View her eyes are focused on the television, she loves this show I swear.
"Mum" I say nervously
Mum of course barely looks at me before turning back to the tv she really does like this show.
"I' I you see I'm well Jared and I, the point is I'm moving out to live with Jared" I finally blurt out
"Your moving out" Mum repeats slowly her eyes on me and then on Jared accusingly
"At 17, with a 17 year old boy and no money"
"I built a house, you know that new house in Sams street I built that I own the land I get steady work and my mum and i have an agreement where she checks on me every week and as long as I'm doing ok she lets me live out of home Kim and you could do the same, and I promise I will take care of her I'd die for her you know, I will personally make her come home if she is lacking anything" Jared explains he takes a a breath after his speech which sounded very rehearsed his been preparing for this, cheater.
"You really have thought about this haven't you" Mum says thoughtfully
"I have we have" Jared corrects
"You really truly love her don't you" Mum says looking at the both of us, and our hands that are intwined. I wonder if she has just figured this out or something.
"I do, I will I always will she's my everything"
I blush at his words cause they are honest he means every single word. I never new someone could love me like that
"I, don't know, but I can see your prepared and I don't want you too resent me for saying no but I'll agree on a trail bases and you'll be seeing me twice a week" Mum says
"Thanks, mum thank you" I say hugging her
"Your growing up so fast" Mum says and kisses me
"Yeah I know" I say more into hair then anywhere else.
and I smile because everything is about to change yet again and I couldn't be more happy and the best part is my mum is ok with it.
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"I have to go" Jared says dragging himself out of bed his voice sounding annoyed at even the thought of leaving. Which makes me smile slightly even if it is early
"Why" I say holding onto his arm not that could come close to stop him from moving
"I have to work Lily hired me again"
"Lily"
"Yeah"
"But it's the weekend"
"I know I won't be long I promise"
"Really"
"Yeah"
I smile at how torn he looks but finally he manages to get out of bed and pull on jeans over his boxers and starts looking for a shirt.
"Why are you looking for a shirt you never wear a shirt to work"
"Yeah, i just feel like it"
'You hate wearing shirts"
"I don't hate it, i just"
"You never wear shirts"
"I know, but I feel like it" Jared says and shuts me up with a kiss on the mouth and dashes out the door cheater.
Two hours later and after watching some love story that made me cry throwing up once.
I'm dressed and off to see Jared which I know sounds really clingy. But somethings up why in the world would he wear a shirt and after a short conversation with Sam about it. She being Sam encouraged me to find out. So here I am standing across, the road and I spot Jared i just parked the car his painting and then I see this girl coming out. She's blonde and even form a distance I know she looks pretty. She comes up to Jared and I almost run closer to see what she's going to say I can't help it girl instincts take over my whole body.
"Jared" She says smiling
"Lily" Jared grunts back barely looking up
"So still got that girlfriend" Lily asks
"Yeah I do" Jared says and i feel proud of him instantly
"Still love her" Lily says mockingly
"Yes" Jared says still not looking up
"You know, you can love someone and kiss someone else" Lily says seriously did she just say that I want to kill her if I was a werewolf I would burst I start walking towards Jared.
Jared doesn't answer her maybe his too disgusted too
"You could kiss me you know make sure you love her or something" Lily says
"Never going to happen I stay true to people I love" Jared says stiffly
"What's so great about her" She sniffs, she sounds like a spoilt five year old when she speaks like that.
Jared finally looks up
"She is everything I could ever want in the whole world she is she's amazing she leaves me breathless she smiles she's patient she's kind she's naive and she loves me even though I'm not perfect she's stunning when I look at her I loose my breath you know and every-time she says my name my heart skips a beat to answer your question I will never kiss you cause you do none of those things to me"
Lily looks speechless and then she stomps inside in defeat and I smile
"Jared" I say
"Kim" Jared says with a huge smile
"That's why you wore a shirt to work"
"Yeah" Jared blushes "How much did you hear"
"Enough"
"To what"
"To know, that your perfect"
"Kim, i COULD never look at anyone else you know that right"
"I find it hard to believe but I'm starting to get it"
'Good"
Jared says and he kisses me out of the corner of my eyes I see Lily watching the exchange in shock
"So you want some help" I ask
"Sounds good" Jared says grinning
Life is perfect is all I can think as i pick up a paint brush and watch lily walk away from the window looking annoyed.
Authors Note
Still not over it sounded like the ending though I admit
What did you think of the end, I wanted to leave it on a happy note next up has more to do with the baby which is always good. That's been taking a back sit for a while more drama and love to come lol thank you for all your reviews and thanks to my beta
By the way that was the 6th and 7th month just so you know since the chapter was so long I figured it was worth two chapters the beginning was just the last chapter in Kims P.O.V
Oh and one last thing LIKE I SAID BEFORE BETA PLEASE