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Sorry for all the cliffies lol.
I'll try to end this chapter well because I live in Houston and we don't know how bad Hurricane Ike is going to be so I might not be able to update for awhile.
Chapter five.
Closet skeletons.
Alice opened her mouth to say something but I turned around and grabbed my tray and started walking away as fast as I could in front of humans. I felt my chest constricting and was grateful for once that I didn't have to breathe. I got into the trees as fast I could and took off in a run. I ran for hours, doing nothing but running.
When I finally did head home school was already out. I kept running through the house until I was safely in the privacy of my room. I threw myself on my bed and heard a knock on my door.
"Go away!" I yelled from underneath my pillow. I heard my door open anyways and I sat up, ready to kick somebody's butt.
"Bella." It was Alwin.
I threw myself into his open arms and sobbed tears that would never come. He picked me up and sat down on the bed with me. He rocked us slowly back and forth. When my breakdown was over he covered us with the blankets but didn't release his hold.
"Talk to me honey." He said. I looked up at him and his eyes held no judgement, only worry. I took a deep breath that I didn't need.
"I was in love once." I started. He looked a little surprised that I'd never mentioned this before but he didn't say anything.
Just talking about it brought back memories that I hadn't let myself have before.
I told him everything, letting it all spill out. How in love I'd thought we were with each other, how he was a vampire and I was still a human, James, and of course him leaving.
"He's an idiot." He told me. I gave him a half smile.
"How dare he turn you and then leave." He said. I gave him a shocked look.
"He didn't turn me." I told him.
"But then….. well you've never told us who did." He said, looking down.
"It's a long story." I muttered.
He looked around and held his hands up.
"I'd say we have a long time." He told me with a smile playing on his lips.
"Ok but it's a rough story. I still haven't recovered completely. It was Victoria, James' mate. She wanted revenge because my mate had killed hers but when she found me he was already gone. She was curious about what kind of vampire I would make since he could never read my mind. So she changed me. I was surprised whenever I woke up to find her there still, watching me. From there she trained me to be a killer. She was a little disappointed that my power was defensive instead of offensive. But she worked with me, teaching me to be a heartless killer. Teaching me to be her." I paused and looked up to see his reaction. He was sitting there quietly with his hands in his lap.
"She had me take down whole families at once. I was a monster." I whispered.
I shook my head.
"I don't want to talk about it anymore." I told him. He reached out to touch my arm. I jerked back and was hit with a sudden wave of anger.
"NO! Don't touch me! It's all their fault. I hate them, I would have never been a monster if they hadn't left me!" I started screaming. Alwin sat there calmly and I felt myself snapping. I heard a growl rip through my chest and I bolted from my room. I got into my car and started driving.