"Okay then you behave," said Derek, Grace was going to New York to surprise Mark he was due to come back to Seattle in 5 days for a surgery anyway so Grace would just come back with him.
"I will," said Grace.
"I'm sorry I wish I could take you to the airport," said Derek guiltily, his shift started in 20 minutes but Grace didn't have to be at the airport for an hour.
"It's okay," said Grace.
"Are you sure? I could……"
"I'm sure, go to work and I'll see you in 5 days," said Grace hugging Derek.
"Okay, look after yourself and….."
"I know, anytime I want to come back get on the first flight. Don't forget my injections, watch my sugar levels, eat properly. Get plenty of sleep, don't overexert myself….."
"Okay I get it, I'm becoming repetitive," laughed Derek.
"You are, but at least it shows you care," laughed Grace, "Now get out of here"
"Okay, bye and I mean it be good," said Derek kissing the top of her head and leaving.
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"There how do I look, have I forgotten how to be a Manhattan Princess?" said Grace twirling in front of Jake. She was wearing a black and pink wrap dress that went out in a floaty skirt down to her knees. She was wearing high wedge shoes.
"You look…." Said Jake with his mouth hanging open, then he cleared his throat and looked back down at the newspaper he was reading. "Fine"
"Fine?" said Grace, "You were drooling on the newspaper I think that is a little more than 'fine'"
"What do you want me to say Grace?" snapped Jake getting up.
"Jake…I…"
"No tell me Grace, what the hell am I supposed to say. You look gorgeous happy now, you look fucking beautiful but I can't say that can I?" he shouted storming off to his room.
"Jake, can I come in?" asked Grace in a quiet voice, as she pushed his bedroom door open.
"Yeah," he said, he was sitting at the window looking out at the view.
"I'm sorry…."
"No I'm sorry I shouldn't have shouted at you," he said looking round, but not quite at her.
"I deserved it…I just…"
"I miss you Gracie, I miss you so much," said Jake finally telling her.
"I'm right here," she said placing her hand on his arm.
"Yeah you're here, but you're not. You're not the real Grace, not the one I know, the one I love. You're quiet, you won't even look at me….I'm so sorry about Mandy but nothing was going on I swear."
"I know that," she admitted.
"Then what? Why can't…."
"You deserve better…"
"Better? I want you…."
"I'm sick Jake, really sick. If dialysis doesn't kick start my kidney's and they can't find a donor, in a few years I'll be dead…"
"No, no you won't. We are not going to let that happen, your dad, Uncle Derek, Me. We are not going to…."
"There won't be anything you can do, my kidney won't last."
"Don't talk like that"
"Why not? It's the truth. You don't deserve to have a dying girlfriend, I am not going to let you watch me die"
"Gracie, look at me," demanded Jake, lifting her head so she had no choice but to look him in the eye. "I don't care. I love you, and if you only have a few years then I want to spend them with you. If you feel the same, I'll spend whatever time we have trying to make you even a tenth of how happy you make me. Please just tell me. If you say that you don't feel the same as me, then I'll accept it and I'll leave you alone. But just tell me."
"It's not as simple as that"
"Why not? It can be that simple"
"But it's not. We had reasons why nobody knew about us before back in New York."
"They don't matter not anymore. I've spent the last few weeks thinking I had lost you for good, I can take anything they throw at us."
"Jake…." Said Grace her eyes filling up.
"Don't cry, I'm not trying to make you cry," he said pulling his arms around her.
"Sorry," she sniffed.
"It's alright, just….I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you"
"You're not, you're saying all the right things but I….can't. I just….can't"
"Why not? Please…you have to tell me. I can't go on like this, being so close to you but not being able to…..love you properly"
"Jake…."
"No it's killing me. I have missed you so much. I miss the cute little text messages you would send me when you were bored, just to say that you loved me or you missed me. I miss opening up a book, my bag or looking into my pocket and not ever finding a little note from you. I miss stopping you from freaking out whenever the scary Ukrainian carpet cleaner would come to the Brownstone. But most of all I miss you, your smile, your laugh, the way you screw up your face when you smell bleach, the way you eat the crust of the pizza but not the rest….I miss you Gracie, can't you see that. I'm a mess without you, I need you, I want you and I love you"
"I love you too, that's why I'm doing this," said Grace the tears freely falling from her eyes as she jerked her arms out of Jake's grasp.
"You love me…"
"Yes and that is why I can't put you through this. You have your entire life in front of you, I am not going to hold you back because you are going to be an amazing doctor. You're going to be a surgeon, fall in love with your scrub nurse have 3 kids and a dog called Skip…You are not going to be the guy who's girlfriend dies"
"Shouldn't I decide that?"
"No. Because you are far too nice, you'll stay with me because you feel obligated to…."
"Grace, you are not going to die…."
"You don't know that"
"And you don't know that you will"
"But…."
"No, you are not going to die….I promise I'll do anything to stop that from happening"
"Jake, why do you have to be so…. You"
"I don't know how to be anyone else," he grinned.
Grace laughed and pulled his lips down to hers. Finally. Before Jake knew what was going on Grace was pulling him down onto the bed.
"Grace….."
"Yeah," she giggled.
"We don't have to….I don't want you to think that I…."
"Jake, do you want to?" she said bluntly.
"Well yeah of course but if you…."
"When are you going to learn, I never do anything I don't want to," she smirked her hands going straight to his zip.
"If you're sure…."
"What do you think?" she smirked pulling him into another heated kiss, running her hands up his shirt.
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"Hey, why don't you come back to bed," said Jake about half an hour later. Grace was in the kitchen with her back to him, he wrapped his arms round her waist.
"I need to call the airline and arrange another flight, I think there is one in 2 hours," said Grace.
"You're still going?"
"Yeah, I need to collect some stuff from the brownstone anyway," said Grace.
"But you don't regret…."
"If you are sure and I mean really sure…."
"I am, I'm positive," said Jake quickly.
"Then no regrets"
"Good," he said pulling her closer, "We can't keep lying about us"
"I know and when I get back with my dad, we'll tell them both at the same time."
"Okay"
"They are going to freak"
"I know but we can take it."
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Awww i know it was so fluffy, i think this is definitely one of my favourite chapters.
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