I changed it up a little, italics means that it is in the children's time or the present, and the normal writing is Inuyasha's journal/flashback. If you have any further questions about that let me know.
The children had wasted no time to flip to the next page in order to read the next entry from the distraught half demon.
"…I am back now, it has only been a day but it feels like an eternity without Kagome. Her family made me feel even worse yesterday when I went to bring her back….
"Why don't you bring her body back to her time in order for her family to be able to bury her?" Miroku said. "While I do want her to be buried so that all of us could see, I feel that the people that raised her would be better off burring her. Not only will that but burying her there would take out the chance of something that happened to Kikyo to happen again to Kagome." He reminded his friend.
"Yeah, I think I you are right." Inuyasha mumbled under his tears. He was so afraid of what her family would say. 'You killed her and why did you let this happen?' kept coming into his mind.
Shippo looked up at Miroku, "I want to burry her here so that we can wish her best."
Miroku answered the small child by saying "How bout after Inuyasha drops her off at her house than we will hold a small burial for her"
"Alright" Shippo sighed agreeing "I wish that I could go with Inuyasha."
"I will go now so that I can explain how she helped us. Sango, can I use Kilala?" Inuyasha asked the crying slayer.
"Why? Can't you just leap over there?" Sango snapped at him before crying back into Kilala's fur.
Noticing that Sango was in no mood to lose Kilala; Inuyasha walked off. He said that he would be back within the day and that he would meet them at Kaede's hut. They all watched as Inuyasha walked out of sight with the limp Kagome in hand.
"Kagome why can't you open your eyes and say you were joking? Why did you have to die in the fight?" Inuyasha kept saying to her limp body. He held her face close to his upper chest and kept nuzzling his nose into her hair. It didn't smell the same but for some reason it made him feel better.
As he walked along, he noticed a soul collector. Kikyo was the last person he wanted to see at a time like this. He kept walking trying to avoid her but it was hard to tell where she was after crying so much; his sense of smell wasn't anything like it usually was. As he went along, Kikyo came out in front of him looking him straight in the eye.
"What do you want Kikyo? Can't you tell I don't wanna talk?" Inuyasha said trying not to show that he was crying.
"Naraku did this huh? And you got the Jewel from him." Kikyo said looking down at the still being in Inuyasha's arms. "Why do you have the jewel?"
"I am going to bring it to Kagome's time and give it to her family. They have a shrine and should be able to keep it pure and away from anything tainted" He retorted.
"Why don't you just make a wish to become human like you told me you would?"
"Because I promised Kagome that I would go on living like I am."
"So she doesn't want you to follow her into death?"
"No she made me promise that I would live and be happy" Inuyasha looked down at Kagome's peaceful look on her face.
"You don't look happy right now." Kikyo was walking closer to Inuyasha trying to get close to Kagome to look at her.
Inuyasha then pushed away from her. "Stay away from me. I don't want to see you again."
Kikyo looked shock, "Why, why do you hate me?" she yelled.
"I don't hate you but so far every woman that I have ever loved dies right before I am able to be with them forever. And I don't want you to go through that again." Inuyasha yelled at Kikyo before leaping away. 'All I want right now is to get through this well and forget everything. Maybe I can just stay at Kagome's time.' He thought as he leaped through the woods.
"Finally Kagome, I am at the well. This is your last chance, please wake up." He whispered but before he jumped through the well; something or someone was rustling through the woods. Inuyasha gently laid Kagome down at his feet, "Who's there?" he yelled.
Sesshomaru walked out of the woods looking down at the girl at Inuyasha's feet. "So I was right you can't take care of anything or anyone."
Rin came bounding behind him noticing Kagome faster then she realized that Sesshomaru stopped making her run into his legs. As she got up she said "Is that girl really…?"
"Rin that's enough" Sesshomaru coldly said.
"Alright, but she looks so peaceful she doesn't really look…"
"Please stop now" Inuyasha said trying to hold back the tears. "Sesshomaru why did you come here? I don't want to fight anyone right now."
"Hmph, I smelt your tears and blood and then realized that Naraku's aura was gone" He looked right into Inuyasha's eyes "I came not to fight but to see what I assumed was true. You were able to kill Naraku and in doing so- your mate."
"She's not my mate. She…she was going to be my wife. I was never going to call her my mate. She is human so I would have treated her like such."
"That's so beautiful" Rin butted in; having that childish look of wanting of such passionate love for herself. "She was so lucky to have you"
"Rin" Sesshomaru snapped
"Sorry" then Rin whispered "but she was"
"So that's all you came out here to do huh? I should have known. Being compassionate has never been your thing." Inuyasha said almost in a disgusted voice.
"Let me guess you want to use tenseiga and bring your beloved women back. I can allow you to use it if you are able to." Sesshomaru drew his tensiega and threw it so that it landed next to Kagome. "Go ahead"
Inuyasha looked down at the tensiega, he couldn't believe that the chance to bring back his beloved Kagome was within reach. He pondered about it over and over. His heart said do it now but his mind said no, she left in peace leave her there. Finally he came to a conclusion, he picked up the tensiega and went to use it but before he could, he realized that he couldn't see the pall bearers of the afterlife on her at all. "I can't see them." Is all he could say as he dropped the sword.
"Stupid half breed, I should have known you couldn't use it" Sesshomaru said then came over to reclaim his sword and looked down at the girl. 'I can't either, why? Sesshomaru questioned to himself "I can't even use it on her." He whispered sheathing the tenseiga back to his belt
"She must have died peacefully." Rin blurted.
The brothers just looked at her stunned, 'what did this child just say?' Inuyasha wondered.
"Yeah, think about it, that sword was meant to bring people back from the dead right? Well whenever it is used, it seems that the person died with regret or something. You can use me as an example!! I died because of wolves attacking me. I can tell you right now, that's not peaceful. Hehe" Rin kept giggling and acting like there wasn't a corpse right in front of her. "It must be so nice to die without regret and only peace. I mean why would you want to wake from that?" She stressed on want.
'For once this child made since.' Inuyasha couldn't believe it, he was about to do the most selfish thing and bring Kagome back for himself not thinking of what she would want.
"Makes sense" Sesshomaru said. "Inuyasha I will let you mourn her death for now but I will be back to reclaim the tesuiga from you." Then both Rin and Sesshomaru walked back into the woods.
"Where is master Jaken?" Rin questioned as she followed him giggling.
"You died peacefully then, huh? But I still miss you Kagome" Inuyasha whispered to her.
Now that the distraction was done, Inuyasha jumped into the well with Kagome, fearing what her family would say to him.
As he jumped out of the well in her time, he realized that the door to the well house was left parted for her return. When he gently opened it fully with his elbow he saw Sota playing with a soccer ball. Sota looked so happy, just smiling and laughing away. Sota almost reminded him of Kohaku. He looked up to his older sister for guidance and comfort through the rough times and the good times. He didn't want the first person to know about Kagome's death to be her younger brother and he was pretty sure Kagome wouldn't want that either. He tried to sneak past Sota as quietly as possible.
"Inuyasha!! What are you doing here where is Kago…" Sota's smile went straight to a frown. He didn't move, but just looked right at Inuyasha with Kagome lying limp in his arms. "Wha…wha…what happened?" Sota crept slowly forward never taking his eyes of his sister.
"Where is your mom?" Inuyasha asked. He knew that Sota knew but he didn't want to have to tell a child.
"I…inside" he whispered, "let me go get her for you." Sota ran off and opened the door and called his mom. His mom came smiling and then quickly frowned when Sota started whispering to her and pointed over to Inuyasha.
Mrs. Higurashi came running over, "What happened to my baby? How did this happen? Is she going to be alright? She looks so pale." Tears started welling as she asked more and more questions.
"She…she" Inuyasha looked away and flattened his ears down. How can you tell a mother that her daughter died because you weren't paying attention during a fight?
Mrs. Higurashi got the hint when Inuyasha looked away, "Oh my, she can't be?"
"I'm sorry, it's my fault." Inuyasha said
"What's going on? Will sis wake up?" Sota asked worriedly.
"Inuyasha you said you would protect her. This doesn't seem like you tried to hard now does it" Higurashi started to cry uncontrollably. She snatched her daughter out of his hands and held Kagome close to her feeling the coldness of her daughter's corpse. "Why did you let her die?"
"I…I didn't let her die, she wanted to." That came out completely wrong.
"Wanted to? Nobody wants to die you idiot." Inuyasha never saw this side of Kagome's mom and didn't know how to respond. Now he saw where Kagome got her attitude from.
Then her grandfather came out to see what the ruckus was about. When he saw Mrs. Higurashi crying and Inuyasha starting to tear up, he knew it wasn't going to be good news. "What happened to Kagome?"
"Inuyasha murdered her." Mrs. Higurashi yelled through her tears.
"Is this true did you kill my granddaughter?"
"No I didn't, I wanted her to live. Naraku killed her." Inuyasha never felt so bad in his life when he looked down and saw this family that he felt was his own crying for a girl that he loved for so long. "I will just go now." Inuyasha took the jewel out of his kimono and set it next to Mrs. Higurashi's feet. "She would have wanted you guys to hold onto it. Keep it safe."
As he turned around, Sota stopped him and asked, "Why did my sister have to die in order to get back such a small rock?"
Rock? This 'rock' was the Sacred Jewel, why should anyone have to die because of it? "I can't answer that one."
"Was she in pain?" Mrs. Higurashi whispered out of no were.
"Excuse me?"
"Just answer me. Was she in pain? Did she die peacefully?"
Not wanting to lie to her he told her the truth, "She was in pain, a tentacle went through her stomach, then into a tree and she was coughing up blood for a long time. But she did die peacefully."
"How do you know she died peacefully?" Sota questioned.
"Because I was going to bring her back to life after she died, but I couldn't…she…she wasn't able to be brought back. And I believe it is because she went peacefully."
"Alright you can go now and never bother my family again." Mrs. Higurashi said in a very low voice.
Inuyasha couldn't blame her. She lost her only daughter and that's always rough. "If it makes you feel any better. All of her friends on the other side of the well, including me, are crying for her too. We all didn't want this to come about her." He then ran into the well before they could say anything else. A certain part of that trip went through his mind over and over, 'Inuyasha killed her' 'I didn't, I tried to save her' He kept telling himself……
So this was my eventful first day. I still hate my life without Kagome around. I may visit her family one day so that I can go see her grave but not right now because they are very unhappy with me. Let me just clarify, I DID NOT KILL KAGOME, at least, I don't think I did. I only wish I made Kagome stay in her time, then she would have never died, and I would be with her right now……."
"Poor guy, he tells the family one thing and they switched it around." The girl cried.
"Yeah, he seems pretty depressed."
"I would too if the one I loved died." The girl spoke clearly. "I wonder how many entries there are." She said flipping through several pages ahead.
"I don't know it seems like a million." The boy overly exaggerated.
"Yeah, we should read the next one now."
"Go for it." The young boy said sitting down to read along with her.