Chapter Five (My Best Friend, Helping Me Through The Loss)

Hey Guys! This is chapter five!! I'm soo excited to post this one, because it's the turning point for Bella. Things are going to change from now one. But that's all I'm going to say. Any way… my museS for this chapter were;

We Are Broken by Paramore.

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Lying From You by Linkin Park

I really suggest listening to then, not just because they'll set the tone for this chapter, but also because they're REALLY good songs. Happy reading!

My parents looked at me for a long time. I sat there, looking at me hands. I had started to wear my engagement ring. It felt so right, there on my hand. It fit perfectly, like it was destined to be on my finger.

" I guess I told you guys more than you needed to know." I apologized. " I didn't mean to freak you guys all out, with my morbid talk." When had this gone south? I wanted this to crush my parents, I wanted them to leave me the hell alone, and now I was apologizing to them, for doing what I planned. Why couldn't I just make up my mind? I used to be able to. But ever since Edward died… I'd changed. It's common for people to change after the death of someone close to them, I had heard that from Carlisle, and I had changed. I'd changed in a major way.

I just hurt my parents on purpose. I'd hurt my family, the Cullens, for days at a time. I'd changed, and I'd do anything to change back. I don't want to be this morbid thinker, but that's all I can do, now that my Edward was gone.

" I- Bella-" Charlie was cut off by the phone ringing. All three of us froze for a second before Charlie got up and answered the phone.

" Hello?" Pause. " Oh, hey there honey." Pause. " Sure, she'll be over soon." Another pause. " Oh, that sounds better. See you soon. Bye." He hung the phone up.

" That was Alice." Charlie said, directing toward me. " She's coming over to get you, to have a slumber party with you." He smiled at me weakly.

" Ok." I whispered. I got up slowly and went up to my room to get ready.

Alice was there in fifteen minutes, roaring for me to go. It was obvious that she was in a better mood.

She greeted Charlie and Renee with a kiss on the cheek. She finished packing for me, and rushed me out of the door.

In the car we were both dead quiet.

" How have you been Bella?"

" Oh, just dandy." I said sarcastically.

" We're going to go shopping Bella." Alice whispered. I shook my head but didn't say anything. We went straight to Seattle, where Alice said would be best to get good shopping done. We went to the mall, where there were many teens hanging out. Alice said it was for normalcy.

Right. Shopping with a crazy vampire… normal.

I don't recall the store names, but they all seemed too… preppy for me. I didn't want to be having a good time without Edward, but Alice noticed my mood, and tried to cheer me up.

" Oooo! Look, Bella! This is such a nice shade of blue! How about you try it on?"

" Sure." I took the blue tee shirt, which surprised me because Alice never buys tee shirts for me, and went to the small changing room.

" How does it look?" She asked from behind the door.

" I haven't gotten it on yet, Alice." I laughed softly. Her eagerness rubbing off on me. I quickly changed shirts and stepped out of the changing room.

" Gorgeous." Alice breathed out. I blushed, the first time in a while, and smiled.

" Thanks."

I actually enjoyed shopping. Alice took me to a small place to eat, not some fancy restaurant. She'd really been considerate of my feelings. Not buying me too many things, and always putting something I didn't like back. She was a changed vamp.

" Thank you Alice. This has really… made me feel better. Thank you so much."

" Any time, Bella. I've missed you. You're my sister and I hate seeing you hurt. Please try and get better." She looked at me from where she was sitting.

" I think, Alice, that I am getting better. Slowly, but you're helping me."

This is a really short one, I'm not feeling up to writing anymore right now, so I hope you like all 3 pages of this chapter. I now how I'm going to finish this story, I'm just working up to it.

Not long now, I'm sure, till the end. When it does end I'll think about a sequel… though I highly DOUBT one being written. I've got other stories that people are actually BEGGING for me to update.

So anyone who's waiting for updates (you know who you are!) just wait a little longer and it'll work out. I promise.