A/N Sorry for the delay on this chapter guys, I've been concentrating on my other story Law and Order: Cullen Style mainly so this one sort of got pushed aside. I hope you enjoy the chapter!

I could see all the pain and confliction in his eyes. I didn't need to be a mind reader to know he wasn't sure if he should be talking to me. I'm not sure if I should talk to him either. Oh, well I might as well. I've already lost my heart. What else is there?

So, I nodded and walked over to the car; I opened the passenger door and then walked over to the other side.

"Get in."

I had to concentrate on continuing to breath, if I didn't I was sure I was going to pass out from lack of oxygen. Sitting next to me was the love of my life, the man I had once wanted to be the love of my existence.

I knew Edward could hear my heart pounding in my chest, somewhat erratically, but I didn't really care anymore. I was done obsessing over exactly what Edward knew or thought he knew about me. Plus there wasn't much I could do to calm my heart down, I was only human after all.

"Well? You wanted to talk, talk." I tried to make my voice sound indifferent even though every part of me was waiting to hang on to every word he said. I took another deep breath, my knuckles turning white against the steering wheel.

"Bella… I guess I just wanted…" Edward sighed, even when he was having trouble getting words out he sounded beautiful. "What I mean is… well I wanted to know if you're okay?" It came out as a question as if he weren't quite sure why he was here himself. Well that's just fine then, I didn't ask him to talk to me, he could have just gone back to his family once I was gone. No reason for him to waste his time talking to a measly human like me.

"I'm fine." I snapped, sounding anything but fine. I took another deep breath, "Really I'm fine. I couldn't be happier really. I'm here for college with my girlfriends who I'm sure you saw at the karaoke bar and Charlie is doing great down in Forks. He's thinking about retiring from police chief and just spending the rest of his days fishing. Jacob just imprinted on a small girl from Seattle so—" Before I could finish Edward cut in, making me realize my mistake.

"Imprinted? Imprinted as in a werewolf imprinting?" He sounded more shocked than angry so I continued.

"Yes, as in a werewolf imprinting. Jake belongs to the pack down at La Push, he 'turned' soon after you and your family left. So anyway, like I was saying before you interrupted me," I turned to glare at him in what I hoped was a fearful way – who am I kidding? This is a vampire we're talking about here not much scares him. "Jake finally imprinted so he was finally able to get over the fact that I never loved him the way he loved me. He says that he still loves me, it's just overshadowed by the new love. I think he is just saying that though because he is worried that him falling out of love with me will bring up old memories of when… well…you know."

I sighed and looked down, I had tried to remain indifferent as if none of this still bothered me, but I don't think it's humanly possible to do that. Thanks a lot Edward; you were right being human just rocks my socks off.

Silence filled the car and I wondered for a second if I had offended Edward with basically telling him I was still madly in love with him – stupid, stupid, stupid Bella! – but when I looked over at him he was slouched forward pinching the bridge of his nose, like I had seen him do so many times before. "Edward, are you okay?" I could still remember the first time I saw him do this. We had been in a car and he had just saved me from the four men who were planning to rape me. He did it then because he was trying to control himself from going on a killing spree. I shrank back into my seat hoping that he wasn't planning on going on a killing spree again and knowing that if he was all of that anger would be directed at me.

"You… were… hanging out with werewolves?" He asked, anger laced into every word. "And not just any werewolves but young werewolves?"

"Yes," I squeaked, checking to see if the doors were unlocked so I could bolt at any time.

"Bella! Do you know how dangerous that is? You could've been killed! Did I not ask you to not doing anything stupid or reckless while I was gone? I'm pretty sure hanging out with werewolves falls under both categories."

"Well!" I huffed, this had not been what I had been expecting to come out of his mouth and the fact that he thought he could sit here and lecture me like I was five majorly ticked me off. "You would be wrong then! As you can see I am perfectly fine and what exactly would you have had me do? Turn my back on Jacob when he was the one thing keeping me sane after you left just because he got a little problem. If I must remind you, it's pretty dangerous to hang out with vampires too! You didn't seem to have too much of a problem with me hanging out with you while you were still in Forks."

"Exactly! That is why I left Bella because you were always in so much danger with me, but then you go and start kumbaya-ing with werewolves the second I left. Do you just crave danger or something? Do you have some sort of a death wish?" I gulped, I must have heard him wrong, he had not just said he left to keep me safe…

"What?" I managed to get out in a small voice, tears threatening to dance across my face.

"Werewolves are dangerous Bella," he repeated looking as if he were questioning my sanity.

"Not that, did…did you say you left to… to keep me safe." My eyebrows constricted, the concept was so foreign how could Edward love me? Just another plain, ordinary human. The same human he left all those years ago.

"Yes, Bella, I left to keep you safe. After the…incident with Jasper I didn't want anything to happen to you so I… I walked away." His eyes showed years of pain, but I still didn't believe him. It couldn't be true he had said he didn't love me anymore, that I wasn't good for him.

"No, no, no, no, no! You said you didn't love me, you said you didn't want me. You said it, you can't just take it back." Edward reached forward to wipe away the tears that had finally fallen down my face, but I cringed away from his touch. I wouldn't be able to recover again when he left if I let myself believe what he was saying.

"It was all lies, Bella. I never stopped loving you, I never stopped wanting you. I just started putting your needs over my own selfish ones."

"And you did this, without even discussing it with me? You decided the life that I would have on your own. Instead of telling me all of this, you lied to what, Edward, what? Make me heal faster? Do you realize what you did to me? I'm still not over you. Every night I have the same dream, I'm running through the forest looking for something, but finding nothing and then I realize I no longer remember what I was looking for and I wake up screaming. You want me to forget you, but how could I when you are the one man I have ever loved completely? I offered you my heart and soul and you just left. And now what? You can't just come back and tell me you love me and expect everything to be okay." I wanted to continue my rant, but at this point I was sobbing into my steering wheel.

"Bella…"

"No, don't! Just go! Please, just go. That's what you're so good at you know, running so just run away again Edward."

"Bella, I… I'm sorry." Yeah well sorry isn't always good enough Edward.

"Just go, please I need time to think. Please Edward?" I whispered, my voice already hoarse from my crying.

"I'll be back, Bella, I promise," won't be the first promise you broke, I thought sadly. He opened the door and disappeared into the shadows.

Goodbye Edward.

A/N please review if you have the time! -Abi