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Well I think I will be dissappointing some of you here in this chapter. But well see!!!!

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Chap. 5

His hands went cold in a second, she could see his brain trying to convert what she had just told him. His mouth kept opening and closing. She was trying to stay strong and not press him into saying or doing anything.

He leaned back in the chair looking at her. His brain couldn't handle that information. Jenny was pregnant, his Jenny was pregnant. Pregnant with his child, their child. This was a dream he had never dared to think would ever be possible, and now he was presented with this dream and he didn't know how to handle it.

"Jethro, please say something!" Jen pleaded

His eyes was showing confusion, his body language defeat, but she knew there was much more to this mans feelings than those two things. She was just waiting for the explosion.

"I needed to tell you now, in a little over a week I'm going for a new ultrasound and I wanted to give you the opportunity to go with me if you want to. And I need to know if I should start preparing for this baby's arrival alone or you will be in it for the rest of the ride with me?" she looked down fast, then right back into his eyes.

He kept his silence for a long time then suddenly he rose and stormed out, slamming her office door shut.

She sat in the chair she had taken place in when they first started their conversation, she felt the pressure of her job, her life and Jethro push her down further into the leather of the seat. She tried to rise but her body wouldn't or couldn't cooperate with her. She suddenly felt sick to her stomach, and the need for a visit to the place where she only could send herself, started filling her mind.

"Not now please, I'm just starting to get use to this!" she softly said and place her hand on her almost flat belly. And the feeling disappeared, a small smile spread over her lips as a thought about discipline and motherly advise popped up.

"Well I better get organized, as now I'm in this alone!" she whispered to herself and her unborn child.

A few days closer to her next ultrasound, she leaned over the railing on the catwalk looking down at the bullpen. She looked at all the agents walking between each others desks, writing on their computers, flipping through case files and calendars. Calendars, she thought.

"Oh no I still haven't told Jethro about the ultrasound!" she thought and frowned at herself. "Well he obviously doesn't want to know of this child, or me. So why would he even care!" her thoughts went on, and saddened her, then she felt eyes on her and she instantly knew it was Jethro.

"What's wrong Jen, what is it you want to tell me?" his eyes was asking, it felt like those ice blue eyes would speak right into her mind.

"My ultrasound Jethro, it's in 5 days and I wanted you with me, but I guess that's out of the question!"

"I'll go with you."

"Thank you. It means a lot to me."

"I know" then he looked away from her, she still felt sad and knew that this would be a tense moment and not much joy or fun would come from it, yes they would see their child but that was going to be all.

The days passed in a blur, and when the day came for the ultrasound. Jen walked down to his desk and starred at him. Not saying anything but just handed him a note with the place and time. He murmured his thanks as she hurriedly walked upstairs to MTAC, not noticing Ziva following her.

"Jenny, what is wrong?" Ziva asked quietly once in MTAC

"Nothing Ziva, I just need Jethro's assistance in a personal matter. Nothing to worry about, and please don't ask more questions I promise when the time is right I will tell you." Jen was pleading her friend, and Ziva could feel the frustration radiate from Jenny, so she simply nodded and left.

Jen slumped into a chair her head resting on one hand, the other hand had begun to on it's own when ever it wasn't busy to drift down and rest over her unborn child. It felt natural to her. She looked over to the technician and asked him to give her some privacy in MTAC and to set the scan to only give access if she allowed it, he nodded and did as he was told.

As soon as the door closed, her eyes started filling with tears. She didn't know if it was fear or excitement. Jethro had silently promised to go with her to the ultrasound, but she had prepared herself to the fact that she was going to be doing this all alone, which also meant she had decided that she wanted to know the sex of the baby. But what if she was expecting a girl, and Jethro would pull away even further, what if their little girl would remind him of Kelly every single day. Or what if she was expecting a little boy, a boy needed a father figure, and not just on an every other weekend basis. Her head felt like exploding, when suddenly the alarm went of, unwanted personnel trying to access MTAC, she looked at the name, Special Agent Leroy Jethro Gibbs. She pressed the access denied button and sat down again.

After half an hour a message appeared on the screen in front of her.

'Director, your appointment is in 20 minutes'

She quickly got up and pressed a few keys to unlock MTAC again and hurriedly exited, right outside was Jethro, he was holding her coat out for her to slip right into, and her purse was over his arm.

"Thank you, I lost track of time!" She said as they walked into the elevator, he kept his silence.

They arrived at the doctors office two minutes before her scheduled appointment, Jethro had called in a favor and they had police escort all the way to the hospital, it cleared the road much faster.

They hadn't shared a word all the way, not even a look. They just shared the car. And Jen was starting to feel even more frustrated than she already was. He didn't guide her through the doors like he used to, they just walked in side by side, and Jen walked over to the nurses station and informed of her arrival, then walked over nearby where Jethro had taken place. She sat down a few chairs from him, and opened her purse. Then her name was called, and they both rose.

"Hello again Director Shepard, I see you've brought some moral support!" the doctor smiled and greeted Jethro with a handshake.

"Nope I'm just here for the show!" Gibbs said coldly.

"The show?" Dr. Dubris was a little shocked to hear him say that, but from the look Jenny was sending he knew not to worry about it. "So how have you been feeling since the last time I saw you?"

"Fine, just fine. Listen doctor I don't want to be rude but I have a very important meeting in an hour so can we please do the ultrasound so I can get back to my job?" Jenny smiled.

"Of course, right this way my dear!" he led her over to the examine table, Jethro followed behind her and stood besides her as she climbed up. Dr. Dubris instructed her to lie down and lift up her shirt and open the button in her pants, then he spread the gel over her exposed belly "Now lets see!"

Jenny looked up in the ceiling, until Jethro caught her eye, she gave him a soft smile which he returned, and then the moment was interrupted by the doctor "Here it is, It's playing hide and seek here." Both Jen and Jethro looked at the screen, and their baby was looking strong and healthy, waving its small arms, opening and closing the little hand, then suddenly it flipped to the other side, and all three adults laughed.

"It's beautiful!" Jen whispered mostly to herself, but she heard a faint 'yes' leaving Jethro's lips.

"So the baby's sex. Do you want to know?" The doctor looked between them both.

"No, why would we?" Jethro questioned.

Jen looked at him, "I want to know thank you doctor!"

"Why do you want to know that Jen, they didn't have this opportunity 20 years ago, they waited and were surprised!" he looked almost disgusted at her.

"Because, you already made it clear that you weren't going to be here, I'm in this mostly alone, and I want to know what to prepare for, and well actually you don't have a say in this, you think that night this was created was a mistake. Otherwise you wouldn't just have stormed out on me when I told you and you would not be silent when you are around me. Doctor I want to know! Jethro if you don't want to know then leave!" tears was present in her eyes again, she could no longer control it.

The doctor looked at Jethro, and he motioned to the doctor to continue. Dr. Dubris moved the ultrasound around for a little while and then he looked Jen straight in the eye and smiled "It's a little boy!"

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