Title: WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS

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Serena stirred her milkshake slowly, starring at the table in front of her. She felt numb. She could feel Andrew looking at her, concern written all over his face, but he didn't say anything more. He had already asked her what was wrong.

What should she do? She didn't want to go back to work, but what if Seiya told Darien? Not only would she lose him, but she would probably also lose the girls. And she was absolutely sure that she didn't want to have sex with Seiya. Not now, not ever!

She sighed.

"Hey Serena!"

Serena turned around to see Lita coming into the arcade. She felt her spirits lift immediately, but then they fell again. She wanted to confide in the girls so much, but she didn't want to make them hate her again.

"What's with the long face?" She asked.

"Oh, you know, rough day."

"Did you go to work?"

"Yeah, but just to hand in my resignation letter."

Lita looked at her in surprise.

"I thought you were going to find another job first?"

"I talked to Darien about it and he convinced me that we can make it for a little while without me working. Apparently he makes a lot of money and I have savings."

"So then why didn't you ever quit before?"

Serena looked at her and Lita realized that she didn't remember why she had even started working there in the first place.

"There must have been something holding you to that job," Lita said.

Serena tried not to shudder.

"Well, let's talk about other things. Raye and I train together in about an hour. We thought you might want to join us if you're not busy. Well actually, we thought you would be at work, so I just thought of it now. But you're still invited!"

"I'd love to," Serena said.

All she wanted to do was stay with the girls forever, and not let anything else bother her. But she couldn't help her mind drifting back to her problem with Seiya. The only thing that let her carry on was that she had until Monday. Maybe she could find an answer before then.

She spent the rest of the morning with Lita and Raye. Raye barked orders at her whenever she did something wrong, and sometimes she got frustrated. But Lita would laugh when her face turned red and Serena couldn't help but smile at how ordinary and comfortable it felt to be between the two girls again.

"What's next on your list of things to change?" Raye asked. The girls had finished, and they were sitting on the porch of the temple eating lunch. Serena felt tired and sore, but also happy.

"Well, Darien wants to take me out on a date tonight."

The two girls look at her blankly, and then Raye smiled.

"You guys have been dating so long that I can't really wrap my head around the idea that you don't remember it." Her eyes suddenly lit up. "Does that mean you're a virgin again?"

Serena couldn't help but blush to the roots of her hair.

"Oh my god, that's so sweet!" Lita said. "It's like when you first started dating. Serena, you really get to start over again with him."

She just smiled shyly.

"Are you going to have sex with him?" Raye asked.

"Okay, stop. This is weird to talk about. In my mind, I'm still just a kid. The last thing I remember I was way to young to have sex. Now suddenly I've been living with a guy for five years, and a guy I hated no less."

"Oh right, you guys really were mean to each other weren't you," Lita said.

"That must be awkward," Raye said.

"Actually not as much as you might think. He's been really nice about the whole thing. He hasn't pushed me into anything and he's been really understanding. I just don't see why he didn't show me this side of him before."

"Maybe because he really liked you and you were to young for him, but then you grew up and suddenly you were fair game. That's just an option," Lita said.

"Or the explanation he gave you," Raye said rolling her eyes.

"What do you mean?" Serena asked.

"Well, when you guys first got together we were all still sort of friends. When I asked him why he seemed to suddenly like you, that was the explanation he gave me," Lita said. "I did actually tell you that, but I guess you don't remember."

Serena looked away.

"Why did I need to cheat so badly?" She asked.

"What do you mean?" Raye asked.

"Darien told me that our whole fight started because I got mad at Amy for not helping me cheat. Why did I need to cheat so badly?"

The girls went silent for a few minutes.

"You needed to get into collage," Lita said.

"But grades have never mattered to me," Serena said.

"No, but something happened to make you suddenly afraid of not going. I don't know what it was, but you just panicked I guess. You hadn't studied at all for a major exam that was really going to decide whether or not you were going to go, and you didn't know what to do," Raye explained.

Serena shook her head.

"But it still doesn't make sense why I didn't forgive Amy. I can't think of why I even would have expected her to help me cheat. I don't think she even has the cheating bone in her."

Lita smiled. "Well it's good to know that you realize that."

"So I guess I failed that exam then," Serena said.

"Yeah, and you had to pay your way through a lower collage, but you still went."

Lita nodded in agreement. "And yet you were still mad at Amy."

Serena sighed. "I'm really not the person I thought I'd be."

"And that's why we're changing it, right?" Raye said.

Serena nodded.

"Well, Amy's going to meet us here soon and you guys are going to apply for some jobs together. After that we could head to the park for a while. There's an outdoor concert going on today!"

Serena loved them more then she could describe.

Darien held her hand tightly as he brought her into the theatre. He had decided that he would take her on a really casual easy date so that she was comfortable. First a movie, then ice cream at the arcade. It was a perfect date to her.

Serena sat down and Darien put the tub of popcorn on her lap. She started eating it hungrily.

Darien laughed. "Save some for the movie meatball head," he said.

Serena looked at him angrily.

"Don't call me that."

He just laughed again.

"What's so funny?" She asked feeling her face get red.

"You haven't worn the meatballs in almost five years Serena."

She just looked at him.

He leaned down and kissed her lightly just as the lights went down to signal the start of the movie. The screen lit up, but Serena could only look at Darien. He watched the previews with a smile on his face. A dark shadow fell across his strong jaw and moved when he ate the popcorn.

Serena looked away. How on earth could she justify cheating on him? She had only been with him for a week, sort of, and yet she already thought he was amazing. He treated her so well, and he was always mindful of her feelings. What girl could ask for a better guy? To make it worse, he supported her when she was going through the hardest change of her life. It was obvious that he loved her.

Then maybe she should tell him. Maybe, just maybe, he would forgive her. Maybe he would realize that she was different now.

Serena tried to imagine what it would be like if he told her he had cheated on her, and even though it was just a thought, she felt her heart break. Would she be able to forgive him? The thought of him with someone else made her feel sick.

She put the popcorn down in the empty chair beside them.

Darien put his arm around her and held her close.

She inhaled his sent, and it sent warmth through her. She could feel the heat of his skin through his thin shirt, and she felt her body responding to him. She was sure she could love him. In fact, she was pretty sure that she liked him a lot.

The next few days for Serena were the happiest she could remember. She and the girls spent most of their days together, unless someone was working, and they found themselves having as much fun as they used to.

By the weekend, it really had started to feel like old times.

Mina cried out in defeat at the game she was playing, and the others all looked at her with fond smiles. She pushed another quarter into the machine and started again. Lita was playing a fighting game standing up just across from her.

Amy and Serena sat at the counter, talking to Andrew. Raye and Darien were talking just a little ways away from them.

Serena felt herself relax. This was what life was supposed to be like. This was how everything was supposed to feel. She had loving friends and a wonderful boyfriend. She felt safe and happy again.

"What are we going to do tomorrow?" Raye asked. "I know that Amy has to work and Lita will be at her restaurant until late. But we could find time to get together," Raye said after a moment.

"Well, I work Mondays," Darien said. "So you're going to have to find a way to have fun without me."

The reminder that tomorrow was Monday sent Serena's spirits plummeting.

"Are you busy Serena?" Mina asked coming over with Lita.

"Just in the morning," she said. I have a few errands to run.

"We could get together for lunch," Amy said. "I get my break at one."

"Yeah, that sounds like fun."

Serena just nodded.

She looked over to see Darien's eyes fixed on her with a curious expression, but he didn't say anything. She wondered what he was thinking. Surely he didn't expect what she was hiding. No, that wasn't possible. He would have asked her if he knew anything,

They all split up for the day, and Serena went to the apartment she shared with Darien. He was having dinner with a couple friends and she wasn't up to going.

The apartment was empty and cold. She didn't bother turning the lights on, she just walked in trying to calm herself. Maybe this wasn't the best time to be alone.

What was she going to do?

Serena felt defeated. She had worked so hard to get her life back in order.

Maybe she should just come clean with Darien. Wouldn't that be the best thing? She couldn't deny what had happened, even if she didn't remember it. It would be better coming from her. At least then she could explain herself. She was pretty sure he would break up with her, but maybe he would want to work things out. Was it better to hurt him and give him the choice, or lie to him forever? Neither option seemed fair.

The hours ticked by and Serena wondered when Darien would get home. She would tell him. It was the only way to get past this and see the other side. She would try to find a way not to lose the girls as well, but it would be hard. She would have to fight for it.

'I will fight for them all' she said to herself.

She heard his keys in the door finally, after hours of waiting. It was late, and her heart thundered in her chest.

But everything changed when he walked in.

Serena had never seen a look like that before. He just stood there, keys in hand, staring at her with the deepest hatred one person could have for another.

"Tell me it isn't true," he said in a low voice.

Serena wasn't sure what to say. She just looked up him, fear written all over her face.

"I had an interesting night," he said throwing his keys down on the table. Serena stepped back from him. He looked ready to kill. "We thought it would be fun to get some drinks after dinner, so we went downtown. At the bar, we bumped into a friend of yours."

Serena felt dread wash over her.

Darien looked like he was somewhere between crying and screaming. But his voice stayed calm.

"All this time I've listened to you tell me how much you hate Seiya. He said that he was looking forward to seeing you at work tomorrow. When I told him you weren't going, he decided to give me a little piece of information.

At first of course I thought he was just being an ass, but then he started to describe things about you. Like the little birth mark you have."

Serena couldn't help but picture the little mark. It was very high up on her thigh. To high up to see even is she wore the smallest skirt.

"Darien, I…."

"Tell me it's not true."

Serena felt like the world was spinning around her and she was trapped by his gaze.

"I don't remember if…."

"Don't pull that shit Serena, tell me if it's true."

She looked down.

"You're not going to admit it to me, are you," he said.

She stayed silent.

Serena wished with all her heart that she could make this whole situation go away. She wanted to tell him how much she cared about him, but she couldn't bring herself to say it. She couldn't even move.

The hatred in his eyes was unlike anything she had ever seen. It broke right through her and she knew that he would never forgive her.

He picked his keys back up and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.

At the harsh sound, Serena collapsed onto the floor and cried.

End of chapter Five

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