Title: WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS

Disclaimer: I don't own anything about Sailor Moon

Authors Notes: I had a review after my last chapter saying that maybe I should have created a character instead of using Seiya. I just wanted to say that I totally agree with your reasoning. Maybe the next story I write I'll take that into consideration. Thanks for the awesome feedback your guys!

Serena watched the sun rise over the city from the balcony. Her red puffy eyes had to squint at the light. She shivered in the cold of the morning, but she still didn't move.

She had sat exactly in this position all night, not having enough will power to move. The events of last night played and re-played in her mind, plaguing her. She felt weak and small.

Before this whole thing had happened, she hadn't even thought of Darien as someone she could be with, but now she was devastated about losing him. She heart ached at the thought of how badly she had hurt him, and her mind had simply seemed to shut down everything else. She felt numb. How could she do this to him?

What was she going to do now?

There was a knock on the door, but Serena didn't get up. After a few moments she heard the door slowly open. She never turned around, not even when she someone walked out onto the patio.

Raye sat on the little chair a few feet away from her. She looked calm.

"How are you?" She asked after a few moments of silence.

Serena didn't move.

Raye looked away, her eyes somewhere between cold and hurt.

"Is it true?" She asked.

Serena didn't have the will to deny it anymore, she simply nodded.

"I thought you loved him."

"I do," Serena said.

"Then why?"

She could only shrug as she felt tears stinging her eyes again.

"What are you going to do now?" Raye asked, her voice choked.

Serena looked up at her friend, wishing with all her heart that none of this had ever happened. She wanted to be young and carefree again and back in her old life. What if this was really what her life was like? What if there was nothing she could do to change it?

"What should I do?" She whispered.

"Serena, you and I haven't been friends for a really long time," Raye started, her eyes sad. "I don't even really know who you are anymore. All I know is that you did probably the worst thing to him that I can imagine. I've known Darien a long time and I've never seen him as broken as he is now."

Serena looked away from her, tears falling like a flood down her face.

"If I were him, I wouldn't ever forgive you."

Raye took a couple deep breaths.

"The girls and I don't feel like we can trust you," she said and Serena nearly crumpled. "We said we'd help you unless you did something like this, and you did."

"I haven't since," Serena said suddenly afraid. "I don't remember doing it and I haven't done it since I can remember. I don't know why I even would have."

"Serena, stop, you're really not getting it. It's not that we don't all believe that you truly don't remember it, but that doesn't change the fact that you did it, you slept with someone else. And if you were that kind of person, what happens if you suddenly get all your memories back and you go back to that?"

"I just want this all to be a dream," Serena sobbed. "Just a really bad dream."

"It's not Serena, It's real and you're going to have to deal with it."

"How?"

"I don't know," Raye said. "You're going to have to figure out what's really important to you and try and achieve it without us, and without Darien."

"I don't know if I can do that," Serena said.

Raye sighed.

"The Serena I used to know could," she said.

"The Serena you used to know never would have gotten into this mess."

Serena wrapped her arms around her knees and looked away from Raye. She felt completely broken, like her insides had been ripped out. She had lost all her friends today, and Darien. What had he ever done to deserve this?

"Can you do me a favor?" Serena said quietly.

"I won't promise you anything Serena, but I'll try."

"Tell Darien that he can have the apartment, I'm going to live back home with my mom."

Raye nodded slowly and got up.

"I really do hope you find a way to be happy again Serena," she said before gently walking away, leaving Serena to fend for herself. She was completely alone now.

Serena spent that next few hours packing up some of her things and heading back to the house she had grown up. Her mother was there, and she wrapped her arms around her with all the love in the world.

"Did you hear?" Serena asked softly.

Her mom just nodded.

"We don't have to talk about it," her mom said.

Serena knew what that meant. It meant that her mom was completely disappointed in her, but she would love her no matter what.

It took three days for Serena to get out of bed. She hadn't showered or dressed at all, and she certainly hadn't gone to work or eaten anything. It was on the third day that her cell phone rang.

"Hello?"

"Good afternoon, is this Serena?"

"Yes it is."

"This is Michelle from Finesse magazine. You applied for out office assistant job and we wanted you to come in for an interview."

It took Serena a whole couple of minutes to realize what the woman was talking about. But she remembered that Amy had helped her hand out a bunch of resumes.

"Of course," she said.

The woman gave her the time and address, and said goodbye.

Serena sat back looking at her writing. She had a glimmer of an option standing before her. Her life seemed to be at rock bottom, but there was a glimmer of hope. Did she want to simply give up and fade away, or did she want to fight?

She felt so tired of fighting. It seemed like it had been so long since she had had some time to simply live a happy life. She was alone, but that didn't mean she had to give up. She could keep trying to get her friends back, and she could try to apologize to Darien. He might not ever want to forgive her, but she could try to make him know that she hadn't meant to hurt him.

She quickly went downstairs.

"Serena, honey, you're up!" Her mom said smiling.

Serena sat down across from her on the couch.

"What's wrong dear?"

"I have a job interview for Tuesday," she said.

"That's wonderful, what is it for?"

"An office assistant at a magazine. It's a fashion magazine called Finesse."

"That sounds like fun," she said.

"Yeah," Serena said sadly. "Mom, do you think that even though I've done all these thing so completely wrong, I might be able to be happy some day again."

"Of course Serena," her mom said gently. "You did an awful thing and you know it. I can see in your eyes that you regret it every moment of every day. Suffering for it is simply your punishment, and you must pay for you actions. But it won't last forever. If you have a chance to re-build you life, then nothing should stop you."

Serena nodded.

"Do you think he'll ever forgive me?"

Her mother didn't answer for awhile and Serena knew the answer was no.

"I don't know if he can Serena, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't find a way to show him how sorry you are. No matter how uncomfortable you may feel doing it, he needs to hear you apologize or he'll resent you forever."

Serena realized then that she didn't want to give up. She still wanted everything to go back to the way it had been five years ago. No matter what, she could change this.

Serena didn't see Darien or the girls for weeks. She went to the job interview and was excited to get it. She started immediately.

Her job wasn't easy, but she worked hard. The people higher up in the magazine hardly paid her any attention, but they didn't treat her badly at all, and the people she actually worked with were extremely nice to her. After the first couple days, she decided that she loved her job. There were plenty of people to meet and plenty of things to do. And, she could already see a few ways of moving up in the ranks. Her boss kept telling her how well she was doing and giving her other things to do. It boosted her confidence a lot.

Serena took everything the girls had helped her with and continued with it. She had a new job, new clothes and a new routine. She also continued the exercises Lita and Raye had showed her.

But the nights were still hard. She could keep herself busy enough throughout the day that she didn't think about what she had done, but at night it still haunted her. To make matters worse, Seiya was calling her every day and leaving messages. She never answered of course, but it was making it harder to move on.

Finally she got sick of it and requested a day off work.

Serena walked quickly towards the old office building, not letting herself stop long enough to have second thoughts. She walked right in.

"Can I help you?"

Serena looked at the young woman who sat at her desk. She had long blonde hair and faded blue eyes. She was tall and relatively attractive. She walked by and into the office as the woman protested.

Seiya was standing by his desk talking to somebody sitting in the chair. She walked right up to him and slapped him.

Seiya was frozen for a moment. He just looked at her.

"What the hell was that for?" He demanded.

Serena made sure she stood a few steps away from him.

"If you ever call me or talk to me again, I promise I will let the people higher than you know what's going on here and I promise you'll regret every doing this to me."

She stormed out, making sure that she walked out before he got angry.

"Don't let him get to you, it's not worth it," Serena said to the girl sitting at her desk. The girls just watched her as she walked out.

Serena felt both foolish and empowered. Sure, she had got out her feelings, but she had also enraged a man who was dangerous. She was both proud and scared at her actions.

She started walking home, but she had only gone a block or so when she decided that maybe now was a good time to go to the arcade. Everyone would be there, so she could just say she was sorry and go.

Her heart started pounding in her chest again and she cursed her own weakness. But she made up her mind to do it, and pushed herself in the direction.

It seemed to take forever to get there, even though it was only fifteen minutes. The neon sign just glared at her as it mocking. She took a deep breath and stepped in.

Nobody was there.

Serena heaved a sigh.

Of course they weren't there; they all had jobs and lives to attend to. It's not like they stood around here waiting for her to show up. But still, she had really thought they would be here.

She sat down at the counter.

When Andrew came around the corner and saw her, Serena felt her heart sink. His smile faded and he looked uncomfortable. Of course he would know what happened; he was Darien's best friend.

"Hey Serena, what brings you here?" He asked slowly.

"I was sort of hoping everyone would be here," she said.

"Why?"

"Because I want to say I'm sorry," she said.

"Do you really think that's going to make a difference?"

"No, but I need to do it anyway."

Andrew just nodded.

"Well, I know they're all coming at some point today. You want me to get you anything while you wait?"

"No, thanks Andrew. I'm too nervous to eat."

Serena sat and waited, and waited, and waited. The day was dimming when they finally came. She cursed her luck that they all walked in together, but also thought that it might be for the best. The all came in and stopped, looking at her.

Serena stood up slowly, wondering if she should move any closer.

"I know you all hate me and I don't expect that to change, but I just wanted to say how sorry I am, about everything." She couldn't bring herself to look at them. "I really didn't mean to……"

"Get out of my way!"
Serena looked up at the voice and was horrified to see Seiya storming towards her after having pushed Amy forcefully out of the way. Everyone seemed shocked. He came right up to her.

"How dare you Serena!" He yelled. "You cost me a very important client today and you will pay me back, do you hear m!"

Serena stepped back in fear.

"You show up at my office weeks after simply not showing up for work and treat me like that! You're asking for a side of me you've never even dreamed of. Trust me, I will make sure you never….."

Serena couldn't help but yelp in fear when Darien hit him. It happened so fast. Darien walked up behind him, spun him slightly around and punched him square in the face. Seiya went down hard.

Darien stood there, breathing hard. His eyes were almost crazy.

Seiya, looking up at the angry man, started to move away.

"Here, let me help you," Lita said grabbing him roughly and pulling him up and towards the door. She pushed him hard out as the bell rang pleasantly over her head.

All Serena could do was look at Darien.

Everyone stayed silent, just watching. Even the few customers that were in the arcade watched in silence.

"Darien I….."

"I know, you're sorry," he cut her off. "I believe that you are, but I can't forgive you Serena."

"I know, and I don't expect you to but…."

"What do you want Serena?" He asked.

"I just want to make sure you know that I never meant to hurt you."

"Good, you've done that. To bad you did hurt me."

Serena stayed quiet.

"At first I actually thought I might be able to forget what happened, but I don't think I can. It would be different if you were the same girl I fell in love with five years ago, but you're not. Ever since your fight with the girls you've changed. Even though I loved you anyways, it never seemed to be enough for you."

"Darien, I don't know what kind of person I was and I really wish I could fix it, but…."

"But nothing Serena. I'm really tired of this. All those years I stuck up for you ever though I didn't believe what you were doing was right, and this is how you repay me."

He stopped talking suddenly, and looked away.

Serena tried not to cry.

"Serena, maybe you should go," Mina said after a moment.

Serena nodded and started to walk out, but Amy stopped her.

She just looked at the beautiful blue haired woman for a moment and saw the despair in her eyes.

"I'm sorry Amy," she said.

Amy just nodded.

"Serena?"

Serena looked back at Darien, hearing the longing in his voice.

"Five years ago you hated me more than anyone else in the world. Why did you agree to go out with me?"

Serena thought about it. She had hated him so much and she knew that, but why would she have changed her mind? Had he done something? Had she changed? He would have asked her out not long after she could remember.

"I don't know," she said.

She walked away from them then, out into the night. The lights of the city seemed to glare at her, and she forced herself to walk towards home. Her tears blinded her as she pushed through the crowds of people all around her. She felt suffocated.

Somebody pushed painfully against her, and she stepped away.

She tripped off the curb, and into traffic.

The force of the hit seemed to take the wind out of her.

Then everything was completely silent.

Serena didn't feel like she had been hit by anything. In fact, she didn't feel really hurt at all. Slowly she opened her eyes.

Everything was bright pink,

End of Chapter Six.

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