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Chapter 17: Watch over you.
AN: The flashback at the bottom is before she knew her family was coming over for Christmas.
Epov
I lay on my bed, listening to the song on the radio. It was Alter Bridge's 'Watch Over You.' I closed my eyes and tried not to think about last night.
... I tried to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go ...
I had tried to care for Bella. I had carried her through the bad times these past few months, the times when she had missed her family too much. I was her shoulder to cry on. I had picked up the pieces for her during those bad times, made her whole again. Well, I had hoped so anyway.
Who is gonna save you
When I'm gone?
And who'll watch over you
When I'm gone? ...
Who is going to protect her from danger? Who'll watch over her and keep her save from harm now that she doesn't want me? Of course, I'll be there always, waiting for her, waiting for the day that she realizes she needs me as much as I need her. But until that time comes, who is going to care for her?
... I can't go on
And let you lose it all
It's more than I can take
Who'll ease your pain?
Ease your pain ....
I can't go on without her. I need her in my life even if we are – flinch – just friends. I can't let her throw away what we had unless it's what she really wants. Who'll ease her pain when she's sad? Who'll put their arm around her and comfort her? Who'll wipe away her tears?
... Who is gonna save you when I'm gone?
Who'll watch over you?
Who will give you strength when you're not strong.
Who'll watch over you when I've gone away? ...
Who will be her rock? Who'll be strong enough for her when I'm not there?
It pains me to say it, but I know the answer to those questions.
Jacob.
They say you never know what you had until you lose it. With Bella, I knew exactly what I had and hopefully still have. I had the most beautiful and amazing girl ever. She's smart, funny, and unbelievably selfless. She's sensitive to other people's emotions and always knows what to say to make a person feel better. Sometimes, it's not even what she says, but it's what she does. She might just be there to put an arm around you, or while you are sad, she'll help around the house. It's little things like that that make me love her so much.
I love Bella Swan.
Pity she doesn't love me.
I need to shower. I haven't changed since last night. If Bella comes, I want to look my best.
Bpov
I am the stupidest person alive! I am taking an oath to never drink again. How could I have said those things? Of course, I didn't mean any of them.
I love him for goodness sake.
He's my life.
I need to talk to him. Now.
I drive as fast as the speed limit will allow to the Cullens, and I'm greeted by Alice.
"Bella. Thank God you're here. What happened last night? Edward came home all depressed and has locked himself in his room since."
"Do you think we could go inside and talk?"
We went inside and up to her room. I explained to her what had happened last night.
"I'm so stupid, Alice. I love him so much, and he probably won't ever talk to me again. I've screwed everything up," I cried into her shoulder.
"Shhh, Bella. Everything will be okay. I know it will. All you have to do is talk to him," she soothed.
"Go. Now. Walk out that door, knock on his door, and just talk to him. Explain what happened. Tell him how you really feel." She pushed me out the door.
I walked over to the door and knocked on it. There's no answer.
"Edward," I say softly. "Can I talk to you?" There's still no answer. I guess he doesn't want to talk to me. I wouldn't blame him.
I walk back to Alice. "He doesn't want to talk to me," I sob and she wraps her arm around me.
Epov
I turn the shower off. I thought I heard someone at the door. What if it's Bella?
I wrap a towel around me and hurry out to answer it. When I get there nobody's there. It must have been my imagination. Only my own fools hope that she would actually want to talk to me.
I get dressed and lie on my bed. I think I'll mope some more.
We promised each other that we'd be together for Christmas. From the way things are going, that won't be happening. Christmas Eve is tomorrow.
FLASHBACK
"Hey, Bella, love. How are you?" I walk over to her and wrap my arms around her, kissing her head gently.
"I'm alright, I guess. Today, I was thinking about Christmas. It's only a month away and it'll be the first time I'll be without my mum. It's just going to be pretty hard without my family."
"Aw, shhh, Bella. You'll have us at Christmas. You'll have my family and Charlie and the Hales. We'll be together."
"Let's make that a promise then." She smiled at me.
"Pinky promise." We hook pinkie fingers and shake on it.
END FLASHBACK
This Christmas is going to suck.
A/N It's short I know but I have exams and I really want to get started on the next chapter which is going to be the best one ever to write. I'm listening to a lot of Christmas songs to get me into the Christmas mood. Only a week away. My all time favourite Christmas song is "Fairytale of Newyork" by The Pogues and Kirsty McColl. It's brilliant.
Please read too much in one go by twilight-luver950 and let her know what you think. Please be mindful of her spelling and grammar. No matter how many times I tell her to look over it she doesn't lol.
Helen =]