Chapter 4
Bella opened her eyes the next morning, on Edward's saddening position. He was sitting beside her bed on a chair with both his elbows on his knees and his hands buried his hair, looking at the floor. She felt extremely guilty for being the cause of this. Sometimes she felt that she should have just, shut all that nonsense out of her head, and got along with Edward like she's heard nothing.
"Edward" she mumbled with effort. She realized that she was very hungry, she hadn't had breakfast or lunch yesterday. He quickly lifted his head to her face once he heard her voice, his face had a mixture of pain and relief all over it.
"You woke up!" He cried half smiling, "you've been out so long, I was getting extremely worried." He told her as he stroked her warm red cheek. She smiled, and tried to sit up but she was too weak to do so. Edward realized her intention and helped her up with his strong cold grip.
"Thank you" She told him trying to stop her head from spinning.
"You must be hungry" He told her as he stood up and opened a cupboard that was hanging on the wall of the room. He got out a box from it and looked at it confused, then turned to her.
"Isn't that the thing you eat and put milk on? The one that I saw you eating before" He added so that she would realize he meant, cereal. She couldn't see well, she narrowed her eyes trying to clear her vision. He came closer and handed her the box. Once she took one glance at it, she started laughing, weakly but she did. He looked at her puzzled.
"What?" He asked smiling a bit that she finally laughed.
"That's not a cereal box" She said trying to stop laughing because it took a lot of her energy, "that's a soap box"
"How do you know? there is no label saying that it's soap" He said smiling, and Bella could have sworn that she saw his cheeks give a little color, "All that's written is…" He trailed off , hitting his forehead with his hand, as he remembered that it's the one he saw in the commercial ,"Detol" He added quietly.
"I could drink it if you want, at least I'll be germ free" She said still laughing. He chuckled. He stood up again taking the box from her hand. He put it back in it's place and got out another box, this time he read the label to make sure it was it. He opened the fridge and got out a carton of milk, got a bowl and poured some milk on the cereal that was in the bowl. He came back beside her handing her the bowl.
"Impressive" She told him raising one eyebrow.
"I saw you doing it once, it's easy" Edward told her with a little pride in his voice. Bella tried to get her hands out from under the cover but she couldn't, she felt them so numb. He looked at her anxious, still holding her bowl. She succeeded in the end but her hands were too weak.
"What's wrong with your hand?" He asked concerned.
"I dunno, they're so numb. I move them with a lot of effort." She said quietly looking at them.
"Don't worry, Carlisle will certainly fix that when he comes. And as for food, leave that to me." He told her. He got a bit closer as he put the bowl under her chin, and he put the spoon gently in her mouth. She swallowed and looked at him, she found that he wasn't just smiling, no. He looked very happy that he was feeding her. She smiled at him.
"This is the second time you make me feel like I'm five" She told him weakly, with a smile.
"And this is the second time to tell you, you don't look five" He smiled back. Bella from her inside was very happy, because the feeling of safety that she always felt with him was returning. She almost hit herself for being so stupid the other day. He kept feeding her gently, till they got to the last spoon. He took a tissue and wiped her mouth for her. Bella blushed.
"Thank you" She told him with a weak smile. He didn't answer, he just smiled. He looked struggling from something. He wanted to talk to her about yesterday but he wasn't sure if she could. She was very weak, he was afraid that if they started talking she would cry again and get weaker than she already is. He took her hand in both of his and looked it.
"I do trust you Edward" He heard her whisper in his ear. He looked at her, with hopeful but still sad eyes.
"I didn't do it Bella. I didn't" He told her quietly, and the pain in his voice was clear. Surprisingly, there wasn't even a small part in her that doubted Edward's answer like she thought would happen. She smiled and looked directly in his eyes.
"I believe you." She told him. She felt that he doubted this so she added, "I love you". He looked into her eyes, they were full of love and sincerity. He smiled and put on hand on her face.
"I love you, too" He told her, his eyes filled with emotion and relief.
"I know" She whispered as she laughed. He chuckled. They stared into each other's eyes for a while, then he said.
"Tell me, what are you thinking?" He told her quietly.
"Firstly, I was trying to remember how to breath." She told him laughing, raising an eyebrow. He laughed and said,
"Oh yes, I must be dazzling you" He teased. Bella rolled her eyes.
"And?" He asked.
"Well, I was trying to figure out. Since you didn't do it, then who did? And I was trying to figure out the picture." She said quietly.
"Yes, this is something we should think about" He said not looking at her.
They heard a knock on the door.
"Come in, Carlisle" Edward told him not lifting his eyes from his and Bella's hands. The doors opened and Carlisle was there"How are we today?" Carlisle asked with a smile.
"Better" Bella lied. Edward looked at her and shook her head.
"Of all the people you could lie to, you lie to a doctor." He turned to Carlisle, "She's getting worse" he told him worried. Carlisle looked at Bella.
"Excuse me, Edward" Carlisle told him as he came to stand beside Bella.
"What's new?" Carlisle asked.
"Well, I'm so weak. I feel so numb. I can't move my hands without exerting a lot of effort." She told him. Carlisle looked at her in thought.
"Well that's no fever symptom" He said quietly to himself more than to her, "Maybe your nerves are unstable. What happened before you came here"
Edward explained everything to Carlisle, because Bella was too weak to explain again. After they finished Carlisle thought for a while, but he was interrupted by Alice walking in.
"Hi Bella" Alice told her smiling.
"Hi, where were you?" Bella asked.
"Well, yesterday after you slept, Edward gave me food to put for Charlie in the kitchen…"
Bella looked at Edward, "you can cook?"
"I can't" He told her with a smile, "But Esme can".
"Well, I had to go again to leave some breakfast for him."
Bella was speechless. She looked at them both and mouthed 'thank you'.
"Carlisle, please thank Esme for me" Bella told him, but he didn't seem to have heard her. He looked at Edward seriously. Edward looked appalled and gasped, "What?" Bella knew Edward was reading Carlisle's mind. Carlisle nodded looking intently at Edward. Carlisle seemed to tell Edward something about Bella, because Edward turned to Bella with his sad eyes looking at her. He nodded with a painful expression on his face. He closed his eyes tightly.
"Carlisle" He said not opening his eyes, "Please, take Alice and go out of the room. I need to explain this to her alone. You could explain to Alice everything" He said as he buried his face in his hands. Carlisle took Alice and they went out of the room quietly without another word. Bella looked at Edward worried.
"What's wrong Edward?" Bella asked. Edward came and sat by here side. He took her face in his hands and gazed into her eyes for a long time. As if it was the last time he'll see her again. He released her face and then held her hands. He took a deep breath and started talking looking at the floor.
"Bella, I'll tell you this because I love you, and it's your right to know." Edward said his voice struggling. He lifted his head and looked at her face, with desperate eyes, that Bella thought she saw a tear in them, "There i…is a possibility that I r…really d…did attack"
A/N: Ok, now guys, in the next chapter I want to put a song, it's really important for the story. But I'm afraid to disappoint you if I did. Plz tell me your opinion on putting a song, it's really important to put it, but if most of u guys said it would be bad I'll think of something else. Plz R&R. thanx for al the people who reviewed.
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