Chapter six is now here. Dun dun dun. I had help writing this but the person chose to stay anonymous I told them to just say their name but no, so I respect their privacy and I know Casey is super ooc but she has to be its how it goes, six years can change a person. I know I know you guys didn't like the last chapter I rush the dasey yadda yadda yadda. Trust me there will be Dasey then poof NO DASEY so quick but since this is still a Dasey I go onward if that makes sense which it doesn't bwa. Kisses-- ema #

So as we drove home I tried to think of some way to show Derek he is missing something. I can't act like me. He cheated on me. Once we got home I still couldn't think of anything so while Derek was taking a walk and Crystal was sleeping I took a shower. I was getting out and drying myself when I heard the door shut downstairs, cool I can get dressed and go talk to Derek. I was taking off my towel when.

"Casey?!" I turned around in horror as I saw Derek standing in the bathroom doorway. Well I got my wish, I am showing Derek what he is missing just not in the way I assumed or wished. So what do I do now? I don't know, I could pull a Casey and kick him out or I could pull a Sally and pull him in. Hmm lets see he cheated on Casey and he totally loves Sally.

"DER-EK GET OUT!!" I screamed and reached for my towel he scurried out the door. I love myself more than I love him. I love myself more than I will ever love him. So I got dressed and I went back to my room and woke up Crystie. "Hey Crystie bear." I said when she opened her eyes.

"Hey Case." she sat up in bed. "Whats up? Is it morning?" she asked and I shook my head.

"Derek saw me naked when I was coming out of the shower and now I need moral support." I explained and she scooted over for me to climb into bed.

"Poor Casey." she kissed me on the head. "Is Ralph single and was his last girlfriend a real catch? No you think he is over her? Do you think he likes me?"

"Wow Crystie you got over Wally fast." I commented and she laughed.

"I was contemplating cheating on him with Ralph when he called. I even faked sleeping so Ralph would carry me to the car." she said and started to blush.

"Omg. You didn't." she nodded. "Well the answer is yes Ralph is so hot for you and you guys are the perfect match. He plays the drums. His last serious girlfriend was Amy they went out since high school and just broke up last year. She was stupid semi funny and not that pretty. Ask him out." I said and she picked up hr phone.

"What should I say?"

"Hey, Ralph can you come over Casey is a little busy and I would really love to talk." I said in a sweet innocent voice and Crystal dialed his number five minutes later the door bell rang and I told Ralph to go upstairs while I talk to Derek. At least Crystal will be happy I am going naked into battle, metaphorically of course. I walked upstairs and knocked on Derek's door. He gave a faint 'enter' and I walked in. He was on the floor laying on his back with his shirt off playing his guitar and he looked hot.

"Hey." I said in a small voice and he looked up and stopped playing, he moved his guitar and took off the head phones but stayed on the ground. So I went and straddled him. "Hey." I said again and he looked straight into my eyes I almost jumped back at the emotion in them.

"Hey Case whats up?" he asked.

"Nothing much just hooking up the young and the restless. Ya know the Crystal, Ralph edition." I said and he laughed.

"They would be good together ya know if she looses that big brain." I laughed I love being with him just like this.

"You know this is the guy I love. Your arrogance and need for multiple women just get in the way too often. I could even stand arrogance because its kinda cute but I can't date you if you want someone else constantly. I love just being me and you. It just us Derek." I said looking him straight in the eyes searching for something.

"I love you Case and I'm gonna do what it takes to be with you. I like being me and you too. I need us to be me and you." he said quietly and I saw understanding, love and... determination in his eyes this time.

"Can we make it work?" I asked.

"We can try." he said and I laid my head on his chest, he stroked my hair back. "I really love you Casey."

"I love you too." I said quietly and we just laid there content with being us.

Crystal P.O.V. AN did u think I would leave u hangin?

"Hello?" Ralph asked as he opened the door, I was laying on the bed reading a book, I was still in my pjs which consisted of really short shorts and a very tight spaghetti strapped top that showed skin.

"Hey Ralph." I put down my book and patted the bed next to me. He sat down. "I really want to talk, Casey says that talking is good, it stops the anorexic thoughts, but she is busy and you seemed like the perfect choice. Someone who will listen and wont judge me, someone protective I a good way so if I start thinking wrong you will make me go back to happy thoughts. Casey had this problem but mine is much worse." I explained and he nodded.

"I'm willing to listen to anything you have to say." he said and I smiled sweetly.

"Well then maybe you'd like to play a game?" I asked and he nodded. "Okay so I will tell you a story or something personal about me and you can tell me a story or something about you." I explained. "I'll start when I was young my dad used to beat me and my brother, I never told my mom but it really took a big part in my life, my mom found out eventually via my brother and they got divorced my dad died a month later and even when he beat me daily I still loved him and I always will. Him dieing, the divorce, and the beating it all led me to my first anorexia experience when I was fourteen." I said and he nodded.

"My latest girlfriend, Amy, and I went out from Junior year of high school to last year. We broke up because I caught her cheating on me with my dad. Ew. My parents got a divorce when I was thirteen that year I got seven new siblings when I was always an only child, there was one girl and the rest were all guys. I got along with most of them but the girl always struck a nerve in me. One day I found her making out with her brother in his art room and I thought gross incest, but later I found out that she used to be their stepsister but then they got divorced and her dad died so her ex-stepmother took her in its not legal adoption. But her grandmother aka legal gaurdian doesn't mind. So when Derek and Casey finally got together I wasn't freaked." he explained and I smiled. "I know your story was more drama filled, but I try." I laughed.

"Yea DRAMA is my middle name." I said and we both laughed. "Okay when I was sixteen I got my first modeling job and my mom almost killed me. She hates models, she says they are like the biggest freaks in the whole world and that her kids would be them over her cold dead body. So I said I wasn't going to drop the shoot and that if she wont let me go I will find a way or move out. So she kicked me out and I went to live in a model house its amazing, the people are great and I loved sharing a room with tons of people it made me feel loved and safe. Then I met Wally and not even Casey knows this so shh, but I met Wally when I was sixteen, he was seventeen and so hot. I flirted with him for a month and finally he asked me out, I was so thrilled but Denise, my agent and owner of the house, knew better she told me not to let beautiful boys get into my head because looks fade and they wont be there to see the girl behind the body. Ever. So being young and stupid I believed everything he ever told me and a month later when someone prettier came along he dumped me to the curb and Denise was the only one telling me I would get through it. I didn't believe her and I started to cut myself and I stopped eating too. The cutting took aways the pain and the anorexia made me feel beautiful until I looked in the mirror or fainted from lack of food. He got back with me the day I came home from the hospital and dumped me before my recovery was over. I let him go on with that pattern for a long time, dump me, pick me up, dump me, pick me up. I didn't think there was any other choice but now I do and now I know I will never pick him up again." I said and Ralph stared at me, mouth hanging open.

"You are so strong but so weak." he said slowly like he was telling himself more than me. I'm pretty sure he was evaluating how much work it would take to be with me but every time I look in his eyes I see that he really does like me, he looks at me with more passion than Wally ever did. So I leaned in and kissed him softly on the lips and he kissed back only a tiny bit harder but he's a guy, what should I expect? It to be soft like kissing Casey? Nope. When we pulled away I laughed. "What? I'm I that bad?" he asked and I laughed harder.

"Don't think I am a dork but you are the only person I have kissed since last year that wasn't Casey." I laughed more and he joined in.

"I don't think your weird." he said and I smiled.

"I really like you Ralph."

"I really really like you Crystal." I smiled he has that effect I guess.

"Then ask me out or ya know kiss me anything." he laughed.

"Okay Crystal will you come spy on Derek and Casey with me and then go out Friday night?" he asked and I laughed.

"I'd love too. I bet you the bill from the date that then are snuggled up together." I said and he agreed and we shook hands. We peeked in and my assumptions were almost correct they were fighting and then they kissed very unexpectedly and then they started making out against the wall sort of. We snook back to Casey's room. "Fine I'll pay we wont need reservations anyways."

"What do you mean are you taking me to a drive through because I could swing that way if ya want." I laughed.

"Model's don't need reservations anywhere. Were hot but sometimes you have to make out with your friend but thats only with clubs." I said easily and he laughed.

"Your so down to earth then you are so shallow in an instant." he laughed more.

"Well looks like someone needs to learn to keep up." I said and he put on an offended face.

"Your the only one who needs to keep up." he said then he tackled me onto the bed and started tickling me like crazy.

Casey P.O.V.

Things got a little crazy in Derek's room we got into a very stupid small fight over... well I don't remember but the next moment I was on the bed with my shirt off and Derek had his off too then before I knew it I was waking up in his bed the next morning. I don't even know what happened or where he is this morning. I got up and threw on an old shirt of his and my jeans and walked down stairs everyone was gone, even Crystal. Then I found the note one from my mom and one from Derek.

Casey honey,

We all went out for breakfast Lizzie and Edwin wont be home today they are going to a friends party and they need help setting up. George and I have work after breakfast and Marti has school. Crystal and Ralph are spending the day in Toronto so it will be you and Derek all day, don't kill each other and one of you need to pick up Marti at 4:00pm. I will bring home dinner and the roads are pretty bad, we are expecting a blizzard so try not to be out so much. We got a lot of snow last night, look outside you'll get my point. I love you baby stay safe. \

--mom.

Oh great a day with Derek just what I need after last night. Not. Now to read his ewwwy letter.

Case,

Hey, about last night, I'm sorry and I would like to talk about it and sorry again but I told Crystal and she is making me write this. Hi Casey!! See as I said, but I really would like to talk if you ditch the feelings I will be home at like tenish. I have to do stuff but I will be home and try not to make this harder than it has to be. I do love you Case, if you would see that for five seconds. Anyways love you.

-- Derek

Great its 9:45 better jump in the shower and wash him off me. After I puke.

Ugh!! That was so disgusting, never drank, I haven't eaten anything this morning and I didn't see blood so why am I suddenly so nauseous? I'm just going to take a shower I will feel so much better. I took a long shower and I did feel a little better but not by much I still feel nauseous and a little hungry maybe I should see whats down there. I looked in the fridge. Nothing. Great.

"What up Spacey Casey?" Derek asked from somewhere behind me, I have no idea how long he has been home and I don't care either.

"I thought it was Space Case." I said in a scratchy voice from puking. It sounded horrible but I'm not in the mood to worry.

"Either one. Princess is also very fitting." he said smugly and gave me that smirk I used to hate so much.

"I thought we were past acting like we are still sixteen." I said darkly in that same voice.

"Yea well this house brings back memories." I he said and I glared.

"Yea I am remembering how you don't hit girls you just hit on them. So if I decide to hit you over the head with a pan right now I wont feel guilty or get hit back." I picked up the pot for soup. Top Raman I think is the name but I'm not sure they are just good.

"Good one." he said climbing behind the breakfast bar for coverage. "But you wouldn't hit me."

I picked up a frying pan. "And why wouldn't I do that?"

"You feel bad for my dad and Edwin since they might miss me." he said and I laughed.

"You whores would miss you too you don't see me stopping for them do you?"

"No, b-but d-don't you like me e-even a little b-bit?" he tripped over his words and I almost died laughing right there but that would ruin it.

"Well we do have background..." he shook his head in agreement like it would save him. "... All the more reason to kill you." I said and he ran into the living room and I fallowed. "Oh my god Derek your so pathetic. I wont hit you, but you,pretend last night didn't happen. I want to forget it." I said sourly and he climbed down from his spot on top of the china cabinet.

"Fine." I could tell he was hesitant I didn't want to forget and I never will I want him and only him but I need to forget we need to hate each other our parents should never have to deal with this thats why I am staying for the weekend but after that I need to go back to my house to my lifestyle to my L.A.

That night at dinner

"So Casey how long are you and Crystal staying?" my mom asked nicely.

"Well maybe through New Year's but we might have to make trips back to L.A. Fashion Week is coming up and there is a lot to do in order to be ready for it. Then we have to be back for Fashion Week because there will be tons and tons of clients pouring in and thats a lot of money. Also I have a case coming up that I am preparing for and even if we win it will still take me into late February when the trial is in early January." I said and Crystal nodded.

"Denise said if we miss even one day of preparations or god forbid an actual day of Fashion Week then we are going to be in very deep, like on the verge of firing us. Its horrible, last year my friend got pushed off the catwalk by another model, for another agency of course, pushed her so she would look clumsy to the clients and my friend isn't even a high fashion model and she is on the fat side. Anyways my friend spent two weeks in the hospitle and then she had a broken leg and had to have a cast on for six more weeks, she lost her job and since she wasn't paying rent she had to move in with her parents, but they kicked her out a week later and she lived with her 8th husband right before Johnny Cris, ya know the ugly one?" I nodded. "Yea now I think she is on her 10th or 11th husband so that was a while ago." Crystal concluded and the whole table looked confused and a little freaked except for me I looked so totally understanding.

"True story. I hope they don't think I am fat or uncoordinated. Crystie do you think I look fat?" I asked and I turned towards her a little.

"Shut up Case your so skinny." she said and I laughed.

"Thanks Crystie." I gave her a hug. "Did you hear from Jenny?"

"No,what happened?" she asked, it seems like me and Crystal are like the only people the whole table is just staring at us. And they are our family!!

"Jenny said that Mary and Amy had a threesome with one of the clients just to get the job and Amy ended up getting STD to the mouth. Disgusting."

"Ew. That is gross. I have never slept with a client." she said and I looked at her. "He doesn't count and I saw you with Jake. Don't even try to lie. What happened?" Crystie asked.

"He so does count and Jake and I are nothing, we just had a make out session and we only got to second base before his wife called and he had to go home." I said and the whole table gave me very shocked looks but Derek, Derek's look will stay with me for the rest of my life. It was, hatred, anger, confusion, sadness, lust, meaning and deep down under everything else I saw love in those chocolate eyes.

"Casey can I borrow you for just a sec?" Derek asked and I nodded we got up and I fallowed him out front. Once out we started walking in silence, I don't know where we are headed.

"Are you going to say anything?" I asked. He is pissed.

"I don't know where to start." he said quietly. Sometimes the quiet battles hurt more than the loud ones, there is more meaning in these words.

"Well I am a hypocrite I think we established that." I said softly, I wasn't even sure he could hear me.

"Yea a big hypocrite I didn't even want to be with Sally but you, you enjoyed it. You wanted t and finally when you get a boy thats willing to do everything for you and you want to forget but the guy who cares nothing for you and wont even look at you or remember your name the next day and your okay." he said in a disbelieving voice.

"With you its more meaningful being with you is going to mean something and if I don't forget I will get hurt. We will both get hurt." I said as we approached an abandoned park. There was a little pond, by the swings so when you swung on it you would be right over the water so I sat on one swing and Derek sat next to me. I started to sway.

"Do you want to be together?" he asked.

"I love you, but I'm not ready for you. I don't know when I will be." I said honestly he looked so hurt and I was so ready to just pull him into me and kiss him till I couldn't breath any longer, but I knew that wouldn't -couldn't- happen.

"I love you Casey." he said perfectly as if his world revolved around me. "I don't think I ever knew how much love hurts till I met you."

"Love didn't exist before I met you." I said and we looked into each others eyes it felt like I was in a serious spell that I couldn't break from and I didn't want to, but my new found nausea got the better of me and I ran to the bathroom and emptied my already empty stomach. Derek was right behind me holding my hair back.

"Whats wrong Casey? Do you need some medicine? Or a toothbrush?" he asked concern evident in his voice. Now only if he was always like this.

"I'm fine I am just feeling really nauseous today thats all maybe I should lay down for a bit." I said and I got up and started swaying I really don't feel well. Derek caught me before I hit the ground and carried me to my room once I was tucked into bed he kissed my head.

"Okay Case I'm gonna make you some soup and I want you to stay in bed and eat these mints while the food is cooking I will come and help you to brush your teeth." he said and kissed my head again before walking away. I just laid my head down and waited for him but finally I got so bored and my mouth tasted so bad that I walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth when I realized I was super hungry.

"DEREK IM HUNGRY!!" I yelled and I heard a faint 'I'm coming' before I laid back down in bed. The next month went the same way. I stayed in bed while everyone else did fun stuff Christmas is in two days and I have not gotten better. In the bathroom this morning after my puking ritual I noticed it, my period was very late like two weeks late and it has been a month since that night with Derek... I need to get to the store. Now. So I did what anyone would do.

"Crystal," I whispered and shook her, she was sleeping on the couch since she didn't want to get sick I really hope I am just sick. Its still 6:10am so she might be pissed but once she sees the tears she might understand. "Crystal," I whispered a little louder and shook a little harder, her eyes fluttered open.

"Casey?" she asked and I nodded then she looked at the clock over the T.V. "Why are you waking me up so early bitch?"

"I think I might be pregnant, but I'm not sure and I need a test but I don't want to go alone." I started crying and she sat up and slipped on her shoes and coat then hugged me.

"Shh its okay come on Casey." she said and she drove me to the store, we went in and searched the isles looking for it then finally we found it and bought like seven. Just to be sure. The check-out clerk guy was about 19 so about five years younger than us, since I am 24 and Crystie is 23. he was totally flirting till he noticed what we were buying and shut his mouth.

"Crystal were models this doesn't happen to models, what am I going to do? I can't tell Derek that would totally suck." I said and the guy looked at me oddly than started hitting on Crystal.

"I'm sorry but I am taken." she said nicely and I hit her.

"Ralph? Why didn't you tell me you cow." I said and she laughed we walked out and when we got home Derek, Edwin and Lizzie were the only ones there. Dammit I was hoping that Derek would be gone.

"Have you been crying Casey?" was the first thing I heard when I walked in the door. Asked by Derek.

"Yes I watched that animal cruelty show this morning. Why did Jack have to die?" I started crying again and Crystal held me.

"Way to go Derek. You know how fragile she is." Crystal said as we walked up the stairs she took me straight to the bathroom and we shut the door and started laughing. "Nice one Case." she said and we started laughing again but once it stopped we knew what had to be done so I did it and then we had to wait five minutes to see if I was pregnant or not.

"I'm so scared Crystal." I said and she nodded.

"You have one minute to go." she said and I started to shake. "You don't even know if it is positive just wait. You have thirty seconds." we were timing with her phone. I waited another thirty seconds then she gave me a nod and I closed my eyes and when I opened them...

"Crystie..."