Authors notation duh duh duh: okay so I was bored so here is the next chapter, and you guys are lucky I updated two chapters on one day. BAM I rock!!!!!!!!!!! (crowd: yes ema u rock. EmA EmA eMa eMa) thank you. I love you all. THIS STORY MAY SEEM RUSHED AND IT IS THATS THE POINT!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS DASEY NOT OMG I LOVE HIM BUT HE DOSENT LOVE ME............................ THATS TOO EMO!!! SO ENJOY IT I AM NOT AN ORDINARY WRITER!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KISSES---- EMA
CaSeY P.O.V.
"Case what does it say?" Crystal asked very concerned. No matter what it says I would still be crying either out of shock/joy for no pregnancy or crying in shock/fear/confusion for pregnancy. She picked it up. "Oh Casey." she hugged me. Now you may wonder what it said well......................................................................................................................................................................................................... yes, I am pregnant and I have no idea what to do, but I am not telling Derek I know that much.
"Crystie whatever happens we don't tell Derek a thing." I said and she nodded probably just to hold me together for now but I don't care as long as she agrees with me. "We need to leave Crystie, they can't see me pregnant it would hurt too much and Derek would find out and I can't do that right now, I know he would love her but he loves me and look how well thats going."
"Okay Case. I will pack your stuff right now." she said and thats how I found myself 3:00 in the morning on a plane to L.A. where I will have to tell my boss about my predicament and have her yell forever. Then fire me. Then next thing I knew I was in the hospital nine months later.
She warned you this is NINE YEARS LATER
"Mame we need to fill out her birth certificate. Whats her fathers name?" the nurse asked and I took my eyes off my beautiful baby for five seconds to look at the nurse. What am I going to say? Derek Venturi?
"Um Derek Venturi, but he doesn't know she exists so do doctors send this to him or can I keep it?" I asked and she smiled warmly.
"I was in your situation when I was only 22 and I asked the same question. You can keep both copies and don't be afraid to tell him he might love her or reject her but she will always have you to pick up the pieces." the nurse said then walked away. She left me to fill out the name. Ashley Kiwi Venturi. A very unique middle name for a very unique little girl. She had light brown hair, chocolate brown eyes, my nose, her father's annoying smirk, she is the cutest thing I have ever seen and I could never let her go.
"She really is beautiful Casey." Crystal gushed from next to me. She has been next to me the entire way, all through pregnancy and my job and just being here. I didn't get fired from modeling, I did but I didn't at the same time. Denise told me the second I get my body back I am in the agency, and she will have some clients waiting.
"I love you Crystal." I said.
"I love you too Casey your my best friend forever." she said and I smiled. We shared an apartment and she helped me with Ashley for the next few years, my parents were right time flies by with children its like yesterday she was only a baby and know she is going to her first day of school and I am 28 already. I have passed my prime. Just kidding. Ashley is asking more and more about her father and I have no answers for her. I have told her, he loves you, he loves hockey, his favorite color is blue. Guess what her new favorite sport is? Guess what her favorite color is? Give up? Hockey is her sport forever and Blue covers her room and wardrobe. She is on the Jr. Peewee Hockey team. I wonder how long she will be playing it. Derek didn't start till he was ten yrs old and she is starting at five? But Derek still loves it and it did get him into college with a scholarship. Crystal says I should tell my family and Derek about Ashley. Especially Derek. She thinks Ashley really needs a dad and seriously she does but I don't want her to be rejected even if she has me her father is something she will think about for the rest of her life and I can't exactly avoid my family that long.
"ASHLEY KIWI GET DOWN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!" I yelled and she appeared instantly
"Yea mom?" she asked innocently.
"Why are all my nylons tied together?" I asked sweetly. And she gave me the same sweet smile.
"Well mommy I saw them in the washer and I thought you wanted them hung dry." for a five year old she is very smart and mischievous like her f-father.
"Get ready for school." I said and she ran upstairs. I plopped onto the couch and Crystal walked in, stopping to look at my nylons in confusion but then just shook her head and plopped beside me. "What am I going to do Crystie?" I asked.
"I don't know. You should tell Derek about Ashley and the rest of the family while your at it." she said and I glared at her. "Fine. What are you stressing about? Bills are paid and the kid hasn't dropped out of school yet."
"I'm stressing over Derek." I said. "I don't know what to do. He called me yesterday, he asked what I was up to these days. Then I called back this morning and he wants to meet me today for lunch but I promised Ashley I would pick her up it was going to be special just me and her and no you can't do it she would be so mad. I can't cancel on Derek though because I may not get another chance to talk to him just us he is like a once in five years chance." I said and Crystal hit me on the back of the head.
"Bring her with you. You don't have to tell Derek right away and you can go to a park instead. She will play around while you and Derek sit and talk then eventually you can break it to him. Or not which ever that way you keep your promises and he knows you have a daughter even if he doesn't know its his." she said and I nodded. It was a good idea.
"Okay." I picked up the phone and dialed his number.
"Hello?" said a perfect voice of a guy I just can't get over.
"Hey Derek its Casey, I am so sorry but due to prior commitments can we change our meeting spot to the park?" I asked.
"Sure Casey I'm just assuming but you want the upper class neighborhood and park right?" he asked and I nodded then realized I was on a phone.
"I'm such an idiot. Yea that park is fine." I said.
"Why are you an idiot?" he asked and I laughed.
"I was nodding into a phone see you later." I said and he said the same before we hung up.
"Mom I am ready." Ashley said and I looked at her, she was wearing neon blue skinny jeans and a zebra print blue shirt that said DUH!! on it.
"Okay honey and today we are going to go to the park mommy needs to meet up with an old friend for a bit while you play around on the park." I said and she nodded and gave me a short 'cool' before we left. And a few hours later I was back in the car driving Ashley and I to the park to see him. "Okay honey we are here." I said and she jumped out of the car I fallowed and we walked over through the trees to the park. I spotted Derek and I told Ashley to fallow me. She grabbed my hand and I walked over to where he was sitting on a bench, eyes closed with i pod head phones in his ears.
"Is he alive?" Ashley asked and I started laughing Derek opened his eyes. He looked just like he did in high school. Still a boy not knowing what to do next but having fun figuring it out.
"So is that how you get your laughs now Spacey? Making fun of innocent bystanders? I am shocked really." Derek said standing up. His voice is like my morphine I strive for it. Ashley laughed.
"He's funny mommy. Now can I go play? I see Jake from the hockey team." she said pulling on my arm.
"Okay Ash but stay insight, and if his mom is willing to take you to some reason beyond me then come check with me first." she nodded and ran and tackled her friend into the grass I laughed then turned my attention to Derek who was staring at Ashley.
"So Mommy. When did you become Mommy?" he asked looking at me. "Kid has got some serious strength."
"When did you become so interested? And she has to be strong she is on an all guys hockey team." I said sitting down he sat next to me.
"I have always found you interesting." he said and gave me a smirk. "So how have the last five years been?" he asked and I reached over and kissed him slow and sweetly he kissed back much harder and more urgent then he deepened it. I felt like we were still only nineteen sitting in his room at the hotel. Only if it could really be that simple. We kissed harder until I had to breathe or I was going to die and I know he felt the same way. So we broke it off, my lips were swollen and I really needed some air. Derek needed air too but from all his kissing experience he knew how to hide it. I didn't so I was left panting while he breathed evenly. Then Ashley came running up.
"Mommy is it okay if I go with Jake to watch ninja turtles at his house? Its a sleepover and his mom said yes. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeease????" I looked over to his mom and she walked over to me and I met her half way.
"Are you sure you can deal with her a whole night? Even after five years I still need my team just to get through an hour." I said and Ashley glared at me.
"You haven't met Jake he is like ten of her and together they seem to get better so I am willing to take both." she said and I nodded.
"I will have Crystal drop off her stuff later on." I said and she nodded hr head and took Ashley and Jake to her car. They were still fighting with each other but when an older boy tried hurting her Jake made sure nothing hurt happened to my baby. I went back and sat down next to Derek. "So I know this is a little last minute but are you single?" I asked and he nodded his head and looked at me. Passion and lust were swarming through his eyes.
"Are you single?" he asked.
"Yup." I said and next thing I knew we were making out in the grass by an old tree. All I was aware of was Derek's arms around me, his hard passionate kisses, and how he always knew how to make me feel safe. Eventually we had to break apart seeing as it was getting late. I texted Crystal a long time ago and she dropped off Ashley's stuff she also mentioned she would be spending the night at Ralph's, who was in town for a week. Just in case. Derek and I probably wont do anything but I do want to talk to him. "Hey Derek, I was wondering if maybe you might............................................................"
"Yes." he answered before I even finished my sentence and we piled in my car he said his car was at home but I didn't look too into it. Home means so many things now, I don't know if my home is in L.A. or Canada. Home could be at the model house or at my apartment with Crystal. Home could be in my college dorm or in my parents house in Canada, home could even be at Lizzie's dad's house in New York. Home could be anywhere but here. Home is where the heart is. Forever. Once we got home I unlocked the door and walked in and saw the house was a total mess with a stuffed animal trail from Ashley's room and her door was open revealing a very blue, very hockey, and very messy room.
"Its what comes with kids." I mumbled and Derek laughed.
"You want help Spacey?" he asked and walked over and picked up two toys.
"I thought we were past name calling and yes I would love some." I said and Derek picked up a handful and walked down the trail to Ashley's room at the end of the hall.
"Damn your kid must love blue." he said as he looked around her room. "And Hockey. SWEET!!! She has a Leafs jersey!!!" he must really love that team because he just stared at the wall where her Leafs poster hung.
"Yea she loves hockey, blue and the Leafs. Crystal dated one of the players and he hooked Ash up with all the memorabilia." I said and he turned to me with an offended face.
"And you forgot about me?" he asked and I laughed.
"Sorry but the kid comes first." I said and he was about to respond when the door bell rang and I walked over to answer it, Derek fallowing. I answered the door and there stood Zach, Crystal's ex-boyfriend, really pissed.
"Where is she?" he demanded loudly and looked around behind me.
"Zach calm down. She isn't here and she doesn't want to see you anyways." I said and he punched the wall next to me.
"WHERE IS SHE?????" he yelled and Derek stood up to help me but I made him back up.
"Listen Zach, she isn't here and she doesn't want to see you. I am sorry things had to end this way but you need to go. Right now." I said sternly and he left punching and kicking things down the apartment hallway. I shut the door and locked it before turning to Derek who sat on the couch.
"Was that Ashley's dad?" he asked when I sat next to him.
"No, Ashley's dad is long gone." I said.
"He's dead?" he asked surprised and I laughed at his face.
"No. I never told him she was even born. I know he would have been a great dad, but I guess I was scared he might not love her or he would feel obligated to marry me when he doesn't really love me or her. Just because it is morally right doesn't mean you should do it." I said and he gave me a really meaningful look.
"What if he did love you and he loved her too and thats the reason he wanted to marry you?" he asked and I was puzzled.
"I guess I'll never know, he didn't seem ready. Then again I didn't seem ready, but I had to be. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me and she would have that effect on him I know it. So why am I so afraid? She is just like him, I said his favorite color was blue and now she loves it. I said he loved hockey now its all she can think about. He did reject me though, more than once and he cheated on me, but he always loved me and he can't really cheat on a kid unless he had two.........................................thats a different story. Well maybe not though I mean cheating on anyone sucks, but cheating on a kid is cruel and I don't think he would do that, but if he cheated on me then he could cheat on her." I said and at this point I was thinking out loud more than having a conversation with Derek.
"So you don't think he would cheat on Ashley because its disgusting and cruel, but you can't be sure because he cheated on you once? And you think he deserves to see Ashley because she is the best thing that has ever happened to you, but your too afraid even though you know he would love her." Derek summarized and for some reason all my fears sounded more ridiculous through his mouth.
"Why do you make every word I said sound ridiculous?" I asked and he gave me a smirk.
"Have you ever thought that maybe they are ridiculous?" he asked and I groaned then laid my head on his shoulder.
"He wont like her." I said I knew it was pathetic but sometimes its all you have.
"Yes he will and if not she always has you." he reasoned. Crystal and Derek have quite a few things in common when it comes to me and telling Derek about Ashley.
"Did Crystal tell you who the dad was?" I said and I lifted my head off his shoulder to look at him clearly.
"No, but she did tell me I needed to call you very soon. Thats how I called you on the phone and we set this up. I didn't really have the courage because I knew I wasn't your favorite person." he said and I smiled. "Why?" he asked and I frowned.
"Because you keep on saying the exact same things that Crystal said when persuading me to tell baby's daddy about baby." I said.
"Then maybe its true Casey." he said and I looked him in the eyes. I saw it, the truth and understanding nature that he developed since his teen years causing me to believe him, but I was still so scared.
"What if he is mad?" I asked.
"He might be, but it needs to be done and I highly doubt he will be disappointed with a daughter like that." he answered and I looked at him again. He is kind of stupid for not recognizing Ashley as his yet I mean come on look at her room, her personality, her looks.
"What if he has already seen her but he was too stupid to see how much they look alike?" I asked and Derek smirked.
"Then he is a guy." he said and I laughed.
"Do you want to know her middle name?" I asked and he looked at me and smiled.
"Sure."
"Its Ashley Kiwi." I said and Derek laughed.
"Is that really what it says on her birth certificate?" he asked I nodded and grabbed the certificate off the counter in the kitchen since I was using it for enrollment a few weeks ago and was too lazy to put it away. I sat back down a gave it to Derek.
"Ashley Kiwi............................................................................................Venturi?" he questioned. Shit. I forgot about that.
"I can't forget thats for sure." I said and he looked at me and saw the fear in my eyes. Then he kissed me sweetly on the lips. It was slow and sweet I knew he loved me. The way he looked at me said it all.
"I never want to forget. Case I love you. I don't know what it will take for you to see that but I will keep trying." he said and I smiled.
"I love you too Derek." I said and kissed him. He set down the birth certificate and then pulled me on top of him I giggled into the kiss and he smiled but kissed me again.
Okay I know its a little lame and I know that seems like the last chapter but its not. This will go to about ten chapters and we still have Ashley's reaction and the whole family scene ya kno George/Nora issue and stuff so yea homiez. Plus I am going Jack London with this shit he rushed everything in his stories so BAM!!! I am too. Kisses----- ema
P.S. This was co-written I asked if I could mention their name but they want to stay anonymous so yea props 2 her.