.A/N: Hi guys, sorry it took me so long to update but I was really busy with my friend Dareen (Baby D on fanfiction. The one who this story is dedicated to). I hope you like this chapter. Enjoy!

Chapter 18: My family

They all fell silent when they heard her choice. She didn't understand from their faces whether or not they support this choice. Most of their faces were just blank, expressionless. Her head was spinning and the headache she head didn't make it any better. She had her eyes half closed, fighting to keep them open. She was exhausted and wanted to sleep so badly, but she couldn't sleep at a time like this. Carlisle was the first to break the silence.

"You need to know something" Carlisle said looking at her intently. Bella nodded, "Once James shape shifts into Edward, he has access to some of Edward's thoughts." He said still looking at Bella as the shock and fear started to appear on her face.

"So if I asked him a question he'll see the answer in Edward's head?" Bella said in an almost inaudible voice but he heard her.

"He might see the answer" Carlisle corrected her, "So I suggest that you ask questions that Edward doesn't have to think about. You know, the kind of questions that you answer immediately." Bella nodded as she took that in. But she had an idea, "But the real Edward will make me feel better if he touched me" she said slowly to herself more than anyone else. Carlisle shook his head.

"That won't work, as long as he is in Edward's figure he could make you feel better too" She gulped, "So after this, are you sure you made the right choice?" He asked warily. She thought about it again and took her time, but she found that this was the most reasnobale choice. She didn't have an alibi for Charlie or Renee and she couldn't just suddenly disappear, they'll think the Cullen's kidnapped her and they'll look for her everywhere. They didn't have time to prepare for a convincing alibi and they certainly didn't have time to argue with Charlie. So this was the only way.

"Yes, I'm sure" She whispered but there was no hint of confidence in her voice at all.

"Then we are all with you" Esme said sweetly in her ear. Bella looked at her hopeful, Esme nodded with a smile.

"Yeah, Bella. We're all in this together." Emmet said with wonderful brotherly smile. She smiled at him.

"We will be beside you when you choose, to support you" She turned to see for her shock, that these were the words of Rosalie.

"Thanks Rosalie" She said with a nervous smile. Rosalie smiled back.

"And if that vile James just thought of hurting you while I was there" Jasper said sharply, "Well let's say that he will beg you to forgive him" A wicked smile flashed on his face. Bella didn't believe her ears, she didn't know that Jasper cared about her that much. She knew he didn't hate her but she always doubted that he liked her. Bella's smile widened

"That's was nice of you to say" Esme told him. He shrugged.

"No one hurts my sister" He said simply.

"Aw" was all Bella could say as she felt fresh tears in her eyes. She never knew that he considered her his sister. She felt proud that one day Jasper might be her brother. She wanted to hug her brother but she knew that this would only turn things from good to bad, as he usually kept his distance to keep her alive. He smiled softly when he saw her expression. Alice stood up and carried Bella off of Esme. She hugged her tightly and whispered in her ear.

"Human or Vampire you are my sister" Alice said gently as she kissed Bella on the cheek. Bella smiled.

"Same here Alice, you know that" Bella said in a mere whisper.

"Bella" Carlisle called. Alice turned around with Bella in her arms so that Bella faced Carlisle, "No matter what happens tonight. I'm more than happy that Edward met you and introduced you to us. You are really a daughter I wish to have" He said with a fatherly smile. Bella's smile was still on her face and it widened, as the tears started falling on her face.

"I'm the one who is extremely happy with that. Edward walked into my life to give it to me. And you guys are my family. And.." She paused but decided to continue, "you will have me as a daughter. I will get him right" She said that hesitantly and she was more concerned about convincing herself more than Carlisle. He smiled and nodded. She felt a hand on her shoulder, she looked at the hand then found it was Emmet's. She looked at his smiling face.

"Are you ready?" He asked softly. She knew that this was suppose to be a comforting smile, and it worked. She smiled and nodded.

"Yes" She whispered.

"Wait, before you go" Carlisle said before rushing out of the room, and in seconds he was back again, "Take these" he gave her two pills, Bella looked at him confused, "they are some vitamins, you'll need some energy" he explained. She nodded and put them in her mouth, they were the kind that melt in your mouth not the ones you should swallow. They tasted fruity. She recognized one was with orange flavour but she didn't know the other, maybe it was a mix.

"Thanks" She told him.

"Ok, now we're ready to go" Alice said with a hint of fear in her voice that she tried to hide. Bella took a deep breath, and it seemed like everyone else did too. All that Bella could think about is the possibility of choosing him wrong, what will she do then?! She would go after him, she had no intention in living in this life without him in it, but what about the other Cullen's there heart will be broken because of her. She can't just do that to them then go commit suicide to protect herself from the pain, what about theirs? She thought about it for a while, then she decided. If she picked wrong, then she will move and live with the rest of the Cullen's, to be there for them. She knew that this would make him happy, and at least that way she could hold on to him. Tears started falling on her cheek as she thought about this. But how can she live with the knowledge that she ended Edward's life, that she killed her love, her life, her only reason to live. She would never see his crocked smile again. She would never feel his arms wrap around her as he held her in his warm embrace, she would never hear him say "I love you" again in his sweet velvet voice. How she'd miss his laugh, his eyes, everything. It pained her to think about it. So she shook her head and wiped her tears forcing her thoughts to focus on the questions she'll ask and hoping that James won't know the answer.