Chapter 3
Chapter 3
Brian P.O.V.
"Yes Justin I am here and I will not be leaving your side ever again. I only have a few minutes with you so lets not waste a second..." I resist the urge to hug him or even touch him. I remember after Jack would enjoy beating the living shit out of me I wouldn't want anyone to come near me for a very long time.
"Sonny Boy can I hug or are you hurt too much?" Justin doesn't say a word; he just stands up, gingerly, and walks over to stand in front of me. He swiftly wraps his arms around my neck and squeezes my body closely against his own.
"Brian I never thought I was going to see you again. He was going to kill me if I didn't do something." His body started to shake in my arms I once again resisted hugging him tighter, I remember the words that Carl said to me about Justin's wounds.
"Justin just don't say anything about what happened. Just let me tell you that there is nothing that you did that requires my forgiveness. I will get you out of here as soon as possible."
He starts to cry and I can feel the tears on my neck, I suddenly feel the need to kill Ethan myself. "Brian I kept dreaming that one day you would hold me again. Tell me that this is real, my body is so numb, and I can't feel the pain anymore."
I feel horrible that he cannot tell the difference between reality and a dream. "Yes Justin this is real, how long have you been in pain? How long did he do this to you?"
In a small voice he answers my question. "Ever since the last time I saw you, after you punched Michael I knew I made a mistake being with Ethan. Brian I only want you, I have only wanted you ever since the first night.
"I tried to leave him but after I finished packing my stuff up and I was walking out the door he hit me over the head. He kept hitting me and knocking me out with something that was in a syringe, I don't know what it was. It has felt like forever but I do not know how long it has really been."
Justin has been suffering for 6 weeks, he went through all of that intense abuse and he thought of me. I am infuriated that none of us took the time to try to find him none of us tried to even see if he was okay. What kind of friends are we to never have looked for him once.
"Justin that was 6 weeks ago have you been trapped by him for this whole time?"
He just nods against my shoulder and I cannot stop myself as the realization strikes me. If I was only strong enough to have said the words of what I truly felt for Justin he would not have had to have suffered. If I was only man enough to have verbalized everything maybe we would not be here right now. I refuse to make that mistake ever again.
"Justin I am so sorry it is you who should forgive me. If only I was strong enough to have said what I really feel maybe you would never have left. I will not make that mistake again. I love you Justin, I have always loved you and it scared me to me to death.
"I fell for you the first night I met you. Please forgive me for not saying it until now. I will make everything up to you even if it takes a lifetime."
"This has to be a dream...Every time his friends or Ethan would hurt me I dreamed of hearing those words come from your mouth. Brian I am so damaged now you couldn't possibly love me now. If only I saw how he was before maybe I would never of..."
I couldn't take him blaming himself anymore it was making me insane with rage for the fiddler. I grip his face into between my hands and stare him in the eyes. "That is enough of that Justin this is not your fault trust me anyone who is sick like that you can never blame yourself for it. I never did with Jack and I will not allow you to think that way Justin."
He just stares at me and I have no idea what is going on behind those blue eyes anymore, they are so different now. "I finally remembered it Brian. I finally remember our dance our kiss in front of everyone, thank you Brian for that memory. That is where my mind would...oh god Brian I killed him."
"Justin don't say another word about it. They want you to confess to me that is why they allowed me to talk to you."
The door bust open and two detective walk in. "Alright girls your time is up. Mr. Taylor your lawyer is here. You Mr. Kinney can go home now."
Justin clung to me even harder to my body refusing to let go. "I'll do anything you want please I need more time with Brian, I am begging you."
"Don't do anything stupid, Justin. Listen to Sally, she's your lawyer that I hired, if she tells you to do something then do it but not before. I have to leave but as I said before I will do everything in my power to get you out of here. I'll do anything to make sure you never suffer again no matter what it cost."
He unwrapped his arms and just looked at me like we would never see each other again. "Don't worry Sonny Boy we will get through this, together, I love you so much Justin."
His next words broke my heart. "Good bye Brian, I never stopped nor will I ever stop loving you."
I was lead out of the interview room without a chance to say anything back. What hurt me so much is we never have ever said good bye to each other not even when his confession on my doorstep with Mr. George good fuck was inside. Saying good bye was always so final and I never wanted anything to ever be final between us.
When I am finally out of the room I see Sally looking as if it isn't 6:23 in the morning. "Brian I got the hospital records more then likely he will be released in a couple hours. This is an open and shut case of self defense and with the piss poor way they handle Chris Hobbs case the judge will probably be lenient. Keep your phone close his arraignment is scheduled for 8:30. I am putting Justin as my first priority and nothing will stop me from making sure nothing more will ever happen to Mr. Taylor again."
I have no words, hell I can't even think. I simply nod my head and walk out the door. As if my body is not listening to my mind I walk out of the jail and to my car. I don't even remember driving home the only thing I can recall is opening the front door to my building.
As I walk up the steps I think about how I am no better then any of the gang. If only I called Justin those times I thought of him maybe the situation would have been different. Maybe Justin could have found away to answer the phone and get away or maybe by him not answering over and over again would have signaled me to something being wrong, probably not but I could have tried.
When I finally reached my door I have decided things are going to be different in my life. No more tricking, no more acting like I don't care when I really do. I have decided that it is okay in life to have regrets because I do and it is the biggest one of all. I regret not buying him those flowers; I regret all the times I made him cry just to make sure I didn't feel too much. I especially regret waiting to tell him all the things I have felt over and over again.
When I am at the top step I can see that my front door is wide open. I know I was in a rush to get to the jail but I remember I at least locked the door. I know right away this is not going to be good. When I enter my loft everyone is there waiting for me.
Debbie, Michael, Ben, Emmett, Ted, Lindsey, Melanie, Daphne, and Jennifer are all waiting for my arrival each with a different look upon there face. Debbie is the first one who tears into me. "You are out getting your cock sucked when Sunshine is arrested for murder; well what do you have to say for yourself?"