Chapter 6
Brian P.O.V.
Right now I cannot even look at my family they just disgust me. The fucking thought that I would be out getting my dick at a time like this. Hell I haven't even been to Babylon in at least a week. I guess in their minds if Brian isn't around then he is getting sucked or fucked.
I wish they would not think of me so poorly but they figure they see what they want and not what is really going on. All the things I have done for this family and they still treat me like garbage just like my real family.
The only one out of all of them who even have a right to treat me like a piece of shit is Justin but he is a bigger person then all of them put together. Hell even if I was out getting sucked or fucked how I would know what happened to Justin its not like I would have the news on.
I grab the first suit I can find out of my closet not caring if I have worn it recently in the past week or not. Next is getting a tie and shirt once again my sense of style is thrown out the window I could care less about any of that I just want to get to Justin.
I rummage through my closet to see if Justin happen to leave anything what so ever at my loft but I can already say that he hasn't. I try to think of what I could do and there is only one likely solution left for me.
I know Jennifer would not be home yet so she is out of my options plan. Knowing Justin he more then likely left some clothing at Debbie's just in case we had a fight and well case he and the fiddler had a fight, unfortunately he never got a chance.
Seeing Debbie right now wouldn't be a good situation for the both of us. I feel such rage for her, she knows me better then anyone and yet she cannot even begin to understand anything. I wish she would take a chance and stop judging me for all the crazy sex I have had in my life and my asshole personality to realize all the things I have ever done for everyone not just money but my support. Maybe that is why they all expected me to be out tricking and not at home at the early morning hours.
I could go out and buy him something but the only stores that are open are the Big Q and the only sell cheap wranglers and flannel and that is not worthy of a court appearance. The stores that are worth anything open at 8am and I want to spend some time with Justin before he has to go before the judge.
That leaves me with only one option that I can think of and that is to go to the fiddler's apartment. I call Carl to let him know that I will be going to the scene to the scene of the crime. I don't know if it will still be taped off considering the crime happened 5 hours ago. I have to try to get something for Justin to where other then a jumpsuit and definitely not his bloody clothing he was wearing when I saw him last.
I see my cell sitting on the counter; I guess I must have left at home when I rushed out the door. My screen is showing that I have 39 missed calls, when I scroll through I see that Debbie called me 17 Mikey called me 16 and Jennifer called me 6. Well maybe that would explain why they thought I was out tricking but their attitude was unacceptable.
I quickly dial Carl's phone number and he answers on the second ring. "Brian how may I help you?" I am shocked that he knew my voice; I assume he heard my hesitation and seemed to answer my question right away. "Caller I.D. Brian you called my cell phone and I programmed your number, so what is going on?"
"Carl I need to get something for Justin to wear to the arraignment. Unfortunately I am having some issues with Debbie and I cannot get a hold of Jennifer, Justin's mom, she won't be in time for me to get anything from her.
"I need to go to Ethan's apartment to get his clothing. Justin needs something other then a jumpsuit and definitely something not covered in his own blood. Can you make it possible for me?"
"Yeah they are still working the scene but as long as they are allowed to search you and whatever you chose to bring for him I do not see where that would be a problem. Just make sure to bring your I.D. with you and I will let the officer's know you will be on your way." Carl's voice is warm and I am appreciative of everything he has done today for me and Justin.
"Thank you Carl, I once again am in your debt for all of this. If there is anything I can do ever just let me know I don't care what it is."
I am already out the door and I am running down my stairs taking them as quickly as I can. By the time I am out the door and headed to the jeep I can see Mikey standing by the driver's side door. My mind starts racing at what he could possibly want and how long has he been standing here waiting for me. I am only concerned about one thing, seeing Justin is my top priority and nothing else matters.
"Yes Mikey what can I do for you and it better be fucking important if it isn't I really have to go."
"I don't understand Brian why are you helping him? After everything he has done to you, how can you just jump to help him again. Christ Brian he is a fucking murder and he is just using you..."
"Michael so help me if you dare to say one more word against Justin I will hurt you so bad it will make what I did at Lindsey's and Melanie's anniversary seem like child's play. You don't know anything about him Michael and you definitely don't know anything about our relationship and you still don't, so don't overstep your bounds as my supposed best friend because you are out of place right now. I do not have time to play the poor Mikey show I have to go and see him so if you are finished..."
"He killed someone Brian, how can you admit that you love a murder. Why would you love him when you could love and have I?"
I am flabbergasted that he would even think those thoughts. It takes all my will power not to knock the shit out of him but I know I have more pressing things to do right now. I chose right now to end Mikey's little infatuation with me, end it now before it gets even worse. I hate to do it but he only responds to me pushing him harshly so now what I am going to do is going to make his 30th birthday party seem like nothing.
"Michael why the fuck would I want you? I mean just look at you. You are whiny, obsessive, obnoxious, hairy, and the ugliest person I have ever met. Not your looks make you ugly but your personality makes you the most horrible person I have ever met.
"Do you know why I have never gone for blondes until I met Justin, Michael? I have always dreamt of the man I would spend the rest of my life with as him, my dream man would be everything I am not. Blonde hair, blue eyes, small frame, and everything that Justin is, he is my dream man. I have never wanted anything more in my life then the person Justin is, do you know why Michael why I would love him and not you?
"Because he is everything you aren't. Justin does love me for the image I portray; he loves the man I really am. Fuck, Michael you have a partner who loves you I mean really loves you even with your little love crush you have on me. Ben would do anything for you and that is exactly what I am going to do for Justin.
"Justin and him cheating on me is my fault everything about was all me. I was the one who told him to trick, he didn't want to he said I would always be enough for him. I knew I couldn't so I pushed all of his limits to make him leave for I was afraid of where we were going. He didn't have a choice I was making his life a living hell and I forced him to leave me.
"I was the one who never gave him a chance, because I knew I fell for him the very first night I met him under that lamppost. I was afraid of everything he stands for; youth, beauty, innocence, creativity, energy, and an unadulterated love for me only.
"I even told him the first night I loved him. So yes I will jump through hoops for him because I finally realized what I truly feel. I mean Christ Michael he has almost died twice in only two years; I will do anything to make sure whatever amount of time we have it will be together.
"you didn't see what Ethan did to him, you didn't see the hand prints wrapped around his throat nor did you see the burns scarring his once flawless skin, don't speak about what you don't know and that is everything about Justin. You never once spent any time getting to know him you simply used Justin and what he had to suffer with rage just to make a quick buck; do you know how hard that was for him?
"I will not tell you who to love and you don't have a right to tell me.
"Now if you are done with your petty bullshit I am going to go see and you can go and do whatever the fuck you want to and when you finally chose to grow up and get over you 15 year whatever you feel for me, then I will speak with you but for now I am done. Done with all of it, I am not playing this game any more if you are still waiting for me to jerk you off it will never happen. We are through with this!"
When I am finally finished my rant Michael has tears running down his face and honestly I do not care at this point. I have had enough of the people telling me what to do and what I should not have done, ending this infatuation with Michael was long over due and I feel bad that I had to do such a thing but I only care about righting the wrongs I have done with Justin.
How can helping Justin be considered by anyone that is a bad thing. Other then him defending himself against a sadistic fuck what did he ever do to anybody. Now he does have an evil side to him but not in a bad way, when he wants to he can be a sexual deviant and I love it. That will probably be different but I do not care I just want my Sunshine in my life I do not care how vanilla our relationship become.
"How can you be so cold Brian, how could you have said those things to me? After everything we have been through together you would throw it all away for a blonde piece of ass? Don't I mean anything to you?"
I cannot believe I am actually wasting my time having this conversation right now but I will end it quickly. "Yes Michael we have gone through a lot together but you are living in our past. I need to move on and grow up, I am 31 and I need to be thinking about my future and right now that is with Justin. Right now I am wasting my time spending it with you when I need to be by his side.
"Also that blonde boy ass I would do anything for it because he my everything. He doesn't roll over for my bullshit where you always do. Look I am grateful for our friendship only, nothing more and it will never be anything more. As I said I need to go so get out of my way and when you think we can be adults about everything call me but until then, good bye Michael."
I walk past him and get into the jeep ignoring his protest. I peel out and head towards the fiddler's apartment. I found it odd that Carl did not ask me if I knew where Ethan lived, of course I would never tell anyone that I did an extensive background check on him and unfortunately did not see anything the would lead me to believe that he was capable of something like this.
I pull up to his ratty building and I try my best to prepare me for what I am going to see. I walk up the 7 flights of stairs, considering the lame building doesn't even have an elevator. When I turn the corner I see 4 cops blocking the door to Ethan's apartment.
Before I have a chance to get to close the cops stop me. "Can I help you sir, you are about to walk in our crime scene. If you have no business here I recommend you turn around."
I pull out my I.D. before I answer that way it is already. "Yes detective Horvath has given me permission to get something Mr. Justin Taylor to wear to his arraignment. My name is Brian Kinney." I hand over my I.D. and they simply look over it before handing it back.
"Mr. Kinney I am sure that Detective Horvath told you we will have to search you before and after going in the apartment."
"That is fine I just want to get him a nice shirt and nice pair of pants for him. Do whatever you need to put could we move everything along." One of the cops come over and gives me a quick pat down before I am allowed into Justin's hell.
When the door opens I am witness to a horrific sight. Not only is Ethan's apartment a dive but I can see all the things Justin had to suffer through the past 6 weeks. The bed has thick chains on each corner, there are ball gags and wipes and crops scattered everywhere.
What disturbs me the me the most is I can smell the distinct smell of vomit and I assume it is Justin's. On the bed I can make out a blank spot on the bed where I once again assume that is where Justin must have laid.
Some of the crime scene guys give a look and I try to answer there question. "If you have Okayed the closet I am here to pick something for Mr. Taylor to wear."
They just shrug towards the closet and continue what they are doing. I grab a simple white under shirt and a black v-neck sweater I bought him before we broke up, I find the first pair of pants that are not khakis and I feel that we are set. Hopefully that will do because Justin really doesn't have anything other then that. The rest of the things in the closet are grimy and I know Justin would never wear anything like that.
"Hey guys is this okay I mean have you checked all of this for clues or whatever?"
These guys are definitely not what you see on TV. As they just nod their heads and I make my way back to the front door. As I am about to exit I notice on the counter top a handful of vials and even more syringes. Did Ethan put drug in my Justin's body knowing he is allergic to everything including Tylenol?
As I open the door the cops just give me a look and I already know what I have to do. I hand the clothes to one cop as another pat me down. A minute later I am out the door making my way to the jeep.
Once I am buckled up and 5 minutes out of the court house I call Sally. "Well what do you think is going to happen Mrs. Frick and please let it be good news?"
"It looks really good Mr. Kinney I can almost guarantee that Justin will get bail and with his injuries may even release him on his own with out bail. How much longer until you get here? I will be going in to see him in about 10 minutes and it will be good if you are with me because then you will be able to go in and see him."
"I will be pulling in about 2 minutes, if that. I know you can't get into details but did Justin suffer badly these past 6 weeks?"
"As you know Mr. Kinney even though you are paying my fees client attorney privilege goes to him and not you, but I will say he is doing better now. He is coherent of his surroundings unlike before. Like I said Justin has a very good case and it will be easy enough to make it a winning case for us. I will meet you out in front; you should be pulling in if I am correct on my timing."
"I am pulling in right now. I'll se you in a few seconds." I get out of the jeep, clothes draped over my arm and I hustle my way up to the front door.
"Oh good you were able to get something else for Justin to wear. Let's head in and waste no more time. Just to let you I will speak with Justin first and then you will be allowed in the room, alright Brian?"
I just nod my head and we proceed through security and make our way through the maze of halls. After a couple minutes we stop in front of a door way and Sally points to a seat.
I sit in my designated spot and I wait as she enters the room. As I am waiting I am thinking everything that has happen in the past 12 hours.
I went from missing Justin desperately. Then finding out that he has been held prisoner and then murder by Ethan gold. Top it all off with my proclamation of love to our family and to Justin. Now I wait to find out whether or not he will get bail or will be remanded.
Why is it once again I am sitting in the most uncomfortable chair waiting to see if Justin is okay, and it was only one year ago to the date.