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Ch3

BPOV

"Are you really going to do it?" Kelsey asked me.

"Yes, of course, I'm not going to kill any more innocent lives! Please, please don't make me do this alone!" I said.

"You have your precious Cullens," Kelsey jeered, and as much as it hurt, I knew that she didn't mean it.

"Please…" I spoke. I'm the leader of this coven; I am responsible for their actions. I don't want any more murders on my hands.

I changed my tone. I addressed the whole coven. "Drink only from animals, or leave this coven," I said in something very similar to an alpha-voice.

They all agreed. Two weeks passed. I still wasn't sure if I should get back together with Edward. My heart wanted to, so badly. He keeps stalking me (not that I mind, and not that it really counts as stalking) and trying to hug me, and every time, passion flares. I can't aboic it anymore.

Edward found out about my eyes. He was mad at first, but when I explained why, he just sank down to the ground and acted like it was his fault. That was when I realized that he truly did feel guilty about the pain he had put me through when he left me. That didn't mean that he still loved me, but would he even be giving me a chance, running after me desperately, if he didn't?

I thought not.

My coven was less wild now. Ileana was still a wild-one at heart, but she hasn't slipped up yet. She found that tackling Mountain Lions better fared her wild, dare-devil side than cowering over helpless humans did. Ileana was somewhat like the Jasper of our family, but not quite. She had wild impulses, but she also had Jedson. They were vampires, and they couldn't conceive, but they were still twins. Siblings. I didn't care. None of us cared; even the Cullens supported them. But it was still wild.

Our eyes aren't completely golden yet, but they are getting there. Each day we grew closer to our goal.

I was sitting in the living room with Ileana, staring at the ceiling. Everyone else in our newly-vegetarian coven were out tackling dear and grizzly bear.

It felt like I was finally home. I had never felt so…free…in my life as I did this very moment. I knew that I was deluding myself to think that this could last; that he wouldn't leave me again……but, so badly, I yearned to trust him. Edward had been the first and…no, not only…person I had opened up to.

I had never told my coven my secret. Was it fair to them, that I had deceived them so much, while Ileana exposed to me her darkest secrets, leaving her dead heart bare and fragile? Was it very fair of me, to keep secrets?

"Something's bothering you," Ileana stated.

Slowly, I nodded. I stared out the window and looked at the cloudy sky. Wondering what kinds of secrets the clouds kept hidden. Wondering why heaven would always be out of reach, always for me, always for Ileana and Jedson, always for the Cullens. "Have you ever…" my voice trailed off. Ileana waited. "Have you ever feared that Jedson would…leave you?"

Slowly, Ileana nodded. I could tell that it pained her to talk about it. "He did once," she whispered softly. Her eyes wandered somewhere in the distant horizon, and slowly, very slowly, I found her eyes traveling to my eyes. "But that's how it is…forbidden……it's not supposed to…work…" Not supposed to work, but it did. Ileana was lucky, I guess. No, not luck. Maybe something more like Destiny. I always had believed in God. Maybe I still did.

Her voice trailed off.

I nodded. "When I was human……I was……in love with a vampire," I whispered. Forbidden. The words echoed off the walls. "He loved me, but, after a year, he left me. For my protection, but he lied and told me that he didn't want me anymore. That he didn't love me anymore," I said, my voice fragile. I felt like any moment, I would break. I felt my body crashing to the ground. I leaned against the wall and buried my head in my lap. Out of the corner of my left eye, I stared at the huge dent I made in the wooden floor. I tried to laugh, but no sound would come out of my voice. I was paralyzed.

"He's here," I whispered. "Edward Cullen. He's here."

"Oh, Bella, I'm so sorry!" Ileana said. She walked over to me and put her arm around me.

"I…I told him I forgive him. He said he still loves me. Was I lying? Did I act too quickly? Should I have stopped him from kissing me? Is he going to leave me again?" I asked. Everything shattered. This was me; this was the fray. This was the result of giving into my senses…listening to my heart, instead of my brain. But Edward hadn't left, not yet. And I wanted to believe, so badly, that he wouldn't. That Edward was to me as Jedson was to Ileana. That even time couldn't keep us apart. That even society couldn't keep us apart.

"Listen to your heart, Bella," Ileana whispered, placing her hand under my chin, forcing me to look at her. "Do you trust him?"

"I don't know, should I?" Bella asked.

"I cannot tell you that, Bella. Only you can decide that. More importantly, though. Can you live without him?" Ileana asked. She was an expert when it came to things like this – complicated relationships. Ileana's relationship was the queen of complicated relationships, and hers' had survived.

I shook my head. "No," she whispered. I had to try. I knew that I could not live without Edward Cullen. I was permanently dazzled.

So I stood up. Feeling strong and confident, I walked towards the phone. I dialed his number. It was definitely a number I knew all too well.

"Bella?" I heard him say on the other line.

"Edward," I said, savoring the flavor of his name on my tongue.

"Alice told me you were going to call," Edward said. I giggled.

"Well," I said half-seductively. "Did she tell you that you were taking me out to dinner?"

"But we can't eat!" Edward said.

"But we can pretend, silly Edward!" I said.

"That's silly," Edward said.

"Do you want me back or not?" I teased.

"I need you back," Edward whispered.

"Me too," I whispered.

"Meet me at the woods. Midnight," Edward whispered.

"It's a date," I said.

To Be Continued…

A/N: so what did you think? OMC, I was actually able to write this. I'm sorry its shorter than the other three chapters! I finally finished the horrid 15 page paper I had to write for my philosophy course. I'm going to update my other Twilight stories, too, I think…….

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