I did my best to work on my typing errors. But I'm not perfect so reveiws are welcomed and flaming too.

My Jacob

I kept my speed on the slow side driving down to La Push, which was agreeable with my ancient truck. Making excuses the whole way down to Jacob's house, trying to buy myself time to find out what I'm going to say. Suddenly I found my self out of time and if front of the little house, with the sound of the ocean in the background. I slowly got out of the truck and walked to the door.

"Bella?" Jacob's husky voice called me from behind me as I reached the door.

"Jacob" I turned to see him just outside of the woods, shirtless as always.

"What are you doing here?" His eyes looked almost pained as he seen me stand there on his doorstep.

"I…uh…" I could see behind him are shadows, and I hear all his brothers disapproving growls. "Can we talk?"

"Go ahead." Jacobs's hard eyes seemed colder then I remembered…

"Er…can we talk alone?" He could tell this wasn't something I wanted to discuss in front of his friends.

"Why? What is so important you can't say it here, out in the open?" He knew I knew what was in the shadows behind him.

"Please Jake. This is important." He's not being nice, and this is making me mad.

"Jake your gonna wanna hear this. And if you keep acting this way I WILL never be able to talk to you again." Pain slipped across his face. I knew I hit a weak spot, but I was too mad to feel guilty.

"What's that supposed to mean?" He composed his face quickly, but in his eyes he knew the answer to his question.

"You know what it means." I said looking him strait in the eye.

"Sam. Take everyone to Emily's. I have something to take care of." Jacob commanded, holding my gaze.

In reply there was a low growl from behind him.

"Everything is fine. I can handle it." Jake nodded his head.

I scowled slightly at the shadows behind him. There was the quiet sound of movement, and then it was gone. I let out a slow sigh of irritation. Werewolves can be very irritating…

"What is it you want to tell me? Or better what message did the blood-sucker want you, his faithful servant, to send?" Jacob rolled his eyes.

"What the hell is your problem? I came here to give you some news to keep you filled in but if your gonna keep acting this way I'm gonna leave with you in the dark!" I stomped to my truck still fuming inside.

"Wait." A gigantic hand reached over and grabbed my arm as I reached for the door handle.

"What Jake?" I turned around, a little annoyed. At both him and myself.

"I'm sorry. A lots been going on…and…just I'm sorry. You can tell me what ever you were gonna say." He smiled weakly. "I'm listening."

"Jake…"I looked up at my giant werewolf friend and could see all the pain in his eyes. "Jake," I started again. "Edward… is gonna take me away. He's gonna change me."

Fire sparked in his eyes. "Why? Why NOW?" Jake roared.

"The Volturi is coming. And soon. Edward thinks its time." I whispered. Tears welled up in my eyes cause I knew what I was doing, what I've just done.

"When are you leaving?" Jacob set his gaze on the ground.

"Tomorrow." I whispered softly.

"Why so soon?" His eyes were shaded in pain as I looked him in the eye again.

"He says the sooner the better…" I sighed.

"What does he know." He rolled his eyes looking away.

"A hell of a lot more then you! keep in mind he's been around a good hundred years!" The tears rolled down my cheek. They were a mixture of tears. Tears of anguish, tears of sorrow, tears of furry, but mostly tears of the suffering I know I've put Jake through. But at last I knew this terrible habit would end.

"Just cause he's been around longer means he knows more then I do on how to take care of you and love you?" Jakes hands quivered.

"No that's not what I meant." I shook my head in frustration. "He knows what I want. You know what I want. I want him I want to be like him. I learned I cant live with out him. You seen me."

"Ya. I did. I seen you curled up in a ball like something was eating away at you. And something was. The fact that he had left. I did see you. I was there. I was there helping. He left once. I know he wouldn't be so dumb as to do it again…but that doesn't mean that you have to throw away your humanity to bind your self to him. If you can stay human none of this has to change." His eyes looked at me longingly.

"This isn't about binding myself to him. To make my claim." I sniffled looking into his deep dark eyes. "This is about me taking a chance to make my life something. To become something worthy of Edward." Every word I said was like cutting a deep hole through his heart.

"Ok." He sighed.

"I will always love you Jacob. There will always be a spot in my heart for you." Tears ran down my face as he leaned down and hugged me, his heat comforting.

"I know. And my whole heart will be to you my Bella." He whispered in my ear.