iWon't Desert You

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A/N: Ok so this is the next chap of iWont Desert You. Freddie's POV. Enjoy.

Chapter 8 – Pain

I have never seen Sam cry that much. It is rare to even see Sam cry. I could only imagine the pain she must be feeling right now. I walked home after sending Sam home from the park. Throughout the whole journey, I was thinking how awful it must be to know you have AIDS. I then realised then that what Sam needs now more than ever is her friends.

I walked into Bushwell Plaza, triggering the loud wail of the always irate Lewbert. The scream made my head hurt. It was already throbbing from the headache I had and the screech was like adding salt to the wound.

"Hey! Can you just keep quiet for a few minutes?!" I shouted. He took a step back, apparently stunned by the unexpecting comment. I turned to walk up the stairs, leaving a shocked Lewbert in the lobby.

I soon reached the eighth floor and was just about to reach for my handle when I heard faint sobbing. I tried to search for the source of the sobbing until I realised it was coming from Carly's apartment. I approached Carly's door seeing a gleam of light shining through. The door was not fully shut and allowed some light to shine into the hallway.

I pushed the door open and say Carly sitting on the couch, sobbing. My eyes zoomed to the TV, hoping to see a sad show playing but it was off.

"Carly, are you okay?"

"Freddie, when did you come in?" She said wiping the tears away from her face.

"If this isn't a good time I can come back." I said as I turned to leave.

"No!" Carly shouted as she stood up. "I need to talk to someone."

She sat back down on the couch and I took a seat beside her. "So do you want to tell me why you were crying?" I asked.

"Freddie, can I ask you something." I nodded my head and she continued speaking. "If I did something horrible to a friend, do you think I can gain forgiveness?"

"If you're talking about the whole AIDS issue, then I already know about it."

"So she told you already. I guess you didn't abandon her like I did." She said and she looked down.

"No I didn't and I don't think you should have either." I said. I was still slightly angry with Carly for abandoning Sam in her time of need, but I controlled my anger.

"I know. I feel terrible now. I shouldn't have abandoned her. She confided in me and I pushed her to the side. I'm such a lousy friend." She started crying again.

"If I may ask, why did you end the friendship anyway?" I was still curious. Sam didn't tell me the reason and I wanted to know.

"Well my mum had AIDS after I was born. She passed way when I was very young. Since I can remember, my dad has always said how the AIDS virus is deadly and I grew up being scared of it. So when Sam told me she had AIDS, it was a huge blow to me. I wondered why all my loved ones must have the virus. I only thought about how I was hurt and not Sam."

"So you freaked out and ended the friendship." I said. I understood her actions now but still wanted then to be friends again.

"But now I want to make up for what I done but I don't think I can." She said.

"Why not, Sam actually said she didn't want to end the friendship either. I think if you two talked it out, you can make up." I thought I was making progress since both girls wanted their friendship back.

"I can't Freddie. I did something horrible to Sam and I don't think she will forgive me."

"Why not."

"I just can't." she said and ran up the stairs. "I'm sorry but I think you should go."

"But what about iCarly." I asked. I was desperate, I tried every excuse for them to make up. iCarly was the last I could think of.

"I guess the last webcast was the last one." She said and closed her eyes. She was on the verge of tears again and before I could approach her to comfort her she spoke. "I need to be alone now."

I nodded and walked out the door. "Just remember that you two are best friends and forgiving is what we do." I said before closing the door.

I walked into my own house and saw my mum sitting on the couch watching television. "Oh Freddie, your home so soon? I thought you had iCarly tonight." She said as she looked at me.

"It was cancelled. Sam and Carly won't talk to each other."

"Oh, what happened?" She asked and I simply shrugged. I felt defeated. I tried everything but nothing was working.

I went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. As I sipped the water my phone started to ring. I set the glass on the table and took out my phone. The caller id show the name Sam across the screen. I answered it not expecting to her her crying into the phone.

"Sam, are you okay?" the panic in my voice was apparent and my mum turned to look at me. "Sam?"

I listen then finally Sam spoke. "Freddie, my mum has been admitted to the hospital." She said in between sobs. I knew Mrs Puckett went to the hospital but figured that it was much more serious if Sam was crying.

"Okay, I coming over now." I said and hung up. "Mum, can you drive me to Sam's place? I'll explain on the way" She nodded and we were out of the door.

I was standing outside the ward. Sam was inside talking to her mother. She looked very weak and sick. Apparently the years of the virus has taken it's toll on her body. I looked over to my mum. She looked as worried as I was. I knew she was friends with Sam's mum and seeing her friend like that was heart breaking.

"You guys can come in." Sam said and signalled us to go in.

"Hey Sarah, how you doing." My mother asked.

"I've been better." She replied followed by a heavy dry cough. Her breathings was weak and restricted.

Sam walked to the other side of the bed and held her mother's hand in her's. "Sam, your still so young and I still worry for you. If I were to go right now…" she said.

"Don't say that. Your going to be fine." Sam said. Her eyes were red from all the crying

"Don't be silly, this is inevitable and I just worry about you. who will take care of you when I'm gone." She said as she gripped Sam's hand.

"Don't worry Mrs Puckett, you will be fine." I said.

She smiled at me. I've always remembered Sam's Mum to be a strong independent woman and seeing her this weak was painful. "Freddie, you have been taking care of my Sam and I want to thank you. You are a true friend and I have one request. Will you take care of Sam after I'm gone?"

I nodded my head and she smiled and turned to Sam. "Sam, Freddie is a good friend and do not let him go. Don't give the Bensons too much trouble."

"Mum, don't talk like that. You'll be okay." She was crying once again.

"You get that positive attitude from your father. At least now I can join him." She said as she looked to the ceiling. "Just remember Sam, I will always be in your heart. I'm also leaving you in good hands." She smiled at my mum and me.

"Marissa, I'm leaving my angel with you. Please take good care of her for me." She said through struggled breaths. My mum nodded and reassured her. "You've always been a good friend."

My mum was beside her and holding her hand.

"At least now I can leave in peace. Sam, I love you." she closed her eyes and a long beep was heard.

Her face was so peaceful and a smile etched on it. Time seemed to slow down. Doctors ran into the room surrounding the bed. Sam sat in the corner staring at her lap and tears falling onto her jeans.

I put my arms around her and hugged her tight.

A/N: Hope you guys liked that chapter. I little bit sad. My heart was aching as I wrote it.

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