Sorry for the delay folks but I'm on holiday!!! Yes, LoA is sunning herself by the sea. I'm still in Egypt but have sojourned to the Red Sea for a week to catch some rays (like I can't get those in Luxor!) and to chill out. So where am I writing from? I am sat in Hard Rock Café in Hurghada and right next to me is the school cap worn by Angus Young of ACDC! LOL Dean would be soooo proud. As ever I am solo on this trip and although I have friends here I have decided to chill on my own to bring you this. So, full of sunburn and white wine I am ever more the Master of Disaster as I fend off the Russian hookers and sit like a freak at my laptop with the Egyptians all wondering why I am such a loser. The weirdest thing is that I walked into a shop here and was buying something when a man called me by name cos he ad heard of me (I don't know who he is), I am famous in Egypt!!! Rock it!!!

The last chapter ended with a question…who's the new guy and how can he help bring Bonnie back? You're gonna find out soon so hold onto your pants as this rollercoaster twists yet again and I don't know if any of you will have seen it coming!!!! RAAAAAA this is the Final Countdown for the epic and it's gone MEGA!!!! I couldn't just bring Bonnie back and be boring…oh no…there is some major shit in store as we find out what life is really like without her in Dean's life!!! Enjoy xxx

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The huge man made Luc look tiny and he was no slouch in the height department. Hope's boyfriend looked up at him with a barely concealed scowl as the man smiled back benignly and without fear showing a row of gleaming white teeth set in his tanned face. Both men were in their late twenties and although in separate weight classes they were both evidently competent fighters.

Hope could almost smell the threat coming off Luc and laid a hand on his arm as the man looked back at her still smiling. "It's true what they say…you have a unique sense of style Hope."

Hope ignored the comment and set her shoulders confidently. "You have us at a disadvantage, who are you?"

"Can we go somewhere a little more private to talk?"

"Like hell." Luc said.

Hope grabbed his arm and pulled him away as he continued to glare at the stranger over his shoulder. "Gimme five minutes." She told her boyfriend.

"No way." He shook his head. "I'm not letting you go anywhere alone with that…Goliath."

"That was sexy, say that again." He gave her a look and she tried to hold onto her patience. "I can handle myself."

"Against him? That's like a mini taking on a tank."

Hope raised her eyebrows at him. "You looking for an ass kicking too? He says he has information about Mom, I have to talk to him but you can stand guard like a good little puppy ok?"

Luc looked back at the man and if he didn't love her so much he wouldn't have taken that last comment on the chin. "Ok, but you don't leave my sight."

"Whatever." Hope was used to being the subject of misguided displays of machismo and it did nothing for her libido. She turned to the man and woman. "Follow me."

Hope grabbed her jacket and headed for the exit. Cole spotted the quartet from the stage and frowned as he sang.

In the quiet hallway Luc remained by the door and kept a watchful eye on them as the man leaned against the wall so that he was almost at Hope's height as his female companion stood patiently beside them.

"Look, I know you have no reason to trust me but just hear me out." He started. "You turn eighteen next week right?" She nodded. "You're going to come into some awesome strength Hope and it'll take you a while to control but you don't have much time to bring your Mom back or she'll be gone for good."

"How do you know all this?"

"All in due time…your Mom's hanging in there, she's not conscious of where she is but she doesn't want to move on." He looked into her eyes. "You can still get to her."

"How?"

"How do people normally pass to the other side?"

Hope frowned then gulped. "You want me to die?!"

"I wish there were another way …really."

Hope glanced nervously over at Luc and laughed sarcastically. "Well this is a new ploy…you get so fed up of coming up with fresh ways to kill me you just want me to kill myself now?"

"I'm one of the good guys."

"Sounds like it." Hope was curious enough to play devil's advocate for a minute. "Who's to say I could even find her?"

"It's what you do." He smiled reassuringly. "You need a vessel to bring her soul back but I know where we can find one."

"A vessel? Sounds great, so what do I do, hand a supernatural cookie jar to my Dad and say 'there's your wife, have fun'? I don't think he quite had that in mind when he said 'in sickness and in health'."

"Funny." He smiled again but she didn't find it annoying because it came across that he was just a naturally happy person. "No, you'll get her a new body, one that won't give up on her for a long time."

"Like a possession?!" She almost shouted then looked around her and nodded to Luc that she was ok. "Are you mad?!" She whispered frantically. "She dyed her hair once and Dad freaked."

"It's gotta be done, it's the only way. He'll get over it."

Hope was thinking hard and knew why he was talking to her in private because anyone else would have laid him out for even suggesting it. "What if you're wrong? What if I die too, what's Dad meant to do then?"

"It's not just about him, the whole family's going to shatter from the inside soon and I've tried every possible thing I can to fix it and this is the only way. Trust me if we don't mend Dean then everyone will fall apart and a lot of bad people are gonna be real happy about that."

Hope stared at him. "What possible reason do I have to trust you I mean what's in it for you?"

He looked at the woman next to them for the first time and she nodded. Standing up straight Hope watched as he unfastened the top three buttons of his black shirt and pulled it to one side revealing a familiar tattoo on his left pectoral. "You can trust me because she was my Mom too Hope." He said softly.

She took a full minute and tried to breathe but couldn't. "Logan?" She managed eventually.

"Hey sis."

"Holy shit!" She covered her mouth in shock.

"I've been called worse."

She reached out a hand to touch him and suddenly realized he had Dean's smile. "You're huge."

"I get that all the time." He smiled. "I know it's a lot to take in, but I want you to meet my wife." He gestured at the woman and Hope gulped. "This is Heather."

Heather finally relaxed a little and looked directly at her much younger sister in law. She was a beautiful yet understated woman with shoulder length strawberry blonde hair and lightly tanned skin. They obviously both liked the sun and she was almost as athletic as her husband with a tight and honed frame that came from swimming and running rather than fighting and lifting weights. "Hi." She smiled and her large amber eyes were really kind. "Nice to meet you."

"How…?" Hope stammered still in shock. "I mean…how?"

Logan turned to see if they were alone and pulled her gently to one side as he raised his right hand and the air suddenly moved. Hope jumped as a wormhole opened up in front of them and closed almost as quickly when he lowered his hand. "I can control it now but at the beginning I was always winding up in some freaky ass places." He laughed.

"My God, wait until Dad hears about this."

"No, Dean can't know about any of it."

"But…"

"It's better this way, he's gonna find out when Bonnie's back but until then and I'm safely away you'll have to keep this to yourself, Luc too of course."

"Of course…" She muttered. "This is crazy…even for us."

"I wouldn't even suggest it if I didn't know you could do this."

"You said you've tried everything else?"

He smirked and she suddenly saw her Dad there. "It's taken me years of travelling through time and space to figure out how I could make things right but…" He shrugged. "Everything I tried wound up with someone dying or even worse." He said sadly. "Eventually I had to come right back to the beginning but I didn't know what was possible until now."

"Why not change things so Mom never died in the first place?"

"I can move across time and through it but only in my own lifetime and even I'm not good enough to save her in seven minutes and forty two seconds." He glanced at his wife and coughed. "I counted...a few times."

Hope could see the pain in his eyes and knew instantly why he was doing all this; she'd spent her entire childhood with two parents who loved each other and them and he had missed it all. "Well couldn't you just go to a parallel universe and kidnap another Mom?"

He looked impressed. "You know your stuff, thing is each Bonnie has a Dean and he doesn't like losing her in any Universe, believe me. Plus they're all slightly different so they wouldn't have the same mojo."

"Wow, I remember Sam talking about seeing the other Brooke." She took a deep breath. "But this is the actual Universe right?"

"I could bore you with the science but the simple answer is yeah, this is the real deal."

"If we do this then how will you know if anything's changed in the future, for the better I mean?"

"You always said that in each generation there's the kick ass one and the psychic right?"

"Lily?"

He nodded. "It's not each generation though, each child just gets stronger...if they work at it."

Hope exhaled loudly. "What do I tell Cole?"

Logan shrugged. "That's up to you."

"You know I have to tell him the truth, especially if we have to go shopping for a new Mom." She blinked quickly. "That's possibly the weirdest thing I've ever said. I have so many questions, god what was it like for you growing up?"

"You don't want my sob story sis, I'm here to change my life not relive it." He smiled again with confidence. "We should get moving." He looked at Heather and reached into his breast pocket for a card. "We're staying at this hotel…if you need me call, otherwise I'll come to you when it's time."

Hope looked at the card in shock. "This hotel's in San Diego."

Logan bent down and kissed her on the cheek. "I never could stand the cold."

She turned and watched open-mouthed as he took his wife's hand and opened up another portal before disappearing into it.

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Dean was sat up next to Sam in his bed feeding Logan his bottle, the kid was on his second of that sitting and showed no signs of getting full any time soon.

Bobby looked over in amusement. "Looks like he inherited your appetite Dean."

Dean sighed. "I'll have to get him in the gym early or he'll be like Fat Albert by the time he's in his teens."

"I don't think there's any danger of that son, he's just a growin' boy."

Dean could whine all he wanted but every time he looked at Logan his chest filled with pride. He loved all his kids but this one was in a league of his own and it showed; like Dean's DNA had finally gone super powered and created the idealized version of him.

Everything was calm as they listened to music and Sam read. Dean wondered when he had finally transgressed into middle age and suddenly wanted to go out, get drunk and start a pointless fight. His thoughts were halted by the rapid beeping of his watch. Dean pressed the button on it and it stopped. "Bonnie's meds." He said without looking up.

Sam glanced at his wife and took a deep breath, Dean was nowhere near ready to let go and his mood was tangible. Even with Dean up and around the absence of laughter was hard to take and Sam would have given anything for Johnny to walk in at that moment to relieve the feeling of being in constant mourning.

Logan was finally finished with his bottle and shifted restlessly. "Forget it little dude, you're not gettin' any more." He squealed in angry protest as Dean raised his knees and sat the child on them bouncing him none too gently as the baby made whirring sounds like a crapped out engine.

"I can't believe he can hold himself up like that." Sam stared. "He's way more advanced than Lily, he'll be crawling soon."

"Crazy huh? Trust me to get the strongest kid when I'm hittin' middle age. When he's ten I'm gonna be like Bob Hope rough housin' with Godzilla."

Sam smiled at the idea knowing Dean was kidding himself if he thought he was getting old. He was still younger than John was when he died and even he didn't have half of Dean's skills.

"He looks happy enough." Bobby sighed.

It was true that Logan had a very easy smile and always seemed happiest when he was with his Dad and Uncle. "I wonder if he'll ever go through this." Dean thought aloud as he watched his son bounce, his eyes rolling around as he took in everything around him.

"What?" Sam asked him.

"The curse of the Winchester men."

"That's my cue to leave." Brooke stood up and left the room with Lily not wanting to talk about Dean's obsession that they had been targeted by some unknown force to lose the women they loved.

"It's bullcrap Dean." Bobby said rubbing at his tired face. "Ain't no curse, you do a dangerous job and stuff happens."

"Except Bonnie didn't get killed by a Demon like the others." He paused for a second. "Ya think it's just the women unlucky enough to fall for us or d'ya think it's our girls too? I mean are Hope and Lily destined to wind up the same way?"

"Dean!" Bobby warned as he saw the look on Sam's face. "Dylan's got enough goin' on in his head without you wonderin' around thinkin' up such morbid crap."

He sighed and rolled his eyes. "I know, I'm sorry…It's just I never thought it could be such a chore."

"What?" Sam got over his anger quickly as he saw the beat up look in his brothers' eyes.

"Getting up, washing, breathing. I should be havin' fun with my kid and I can't stop looking at him thinking he's gonna grow up like us."

"You're the master of your fate and his, no one else." His brother told him. "You're gonna be around for a long time and we'll all help you."

They were interrupted by the front door opening and a few seconds later Hope walked in taking off her coat making Bobby's eyes bulge out of his head.

"Oh my God my eyes!" He said looking away.

Dean stared at her. "You didn't keep the uniform?" He asked rhetorically.

She looked down almost like she forgot she was wearing it. "Yeah, sorry…I'll go change in a minute. Can I hold him?" She gestured at Logan almost in desperation.

Dean frowned up at her and glanced over at Sam who shrugged. Hope had never displayed any maternal instinct beyond the usual Winchester protective streak and if it weren't for tests they would barely know she had reproductive organs. "Why?" He asked like he was scared she was going to eat the baby rather than hold him.

Hope sat on the bed. "Do I need an excuse to hold my baby brother?" She stared back.

Dean sat up. "No, just askin'." He said passing him over. "He just ate though so he'll probably throw up on you."

Hope took the big baby in her arms and looked down at him. "That's ok." She stood up and paced quietly around the room holding him close as they watched. "He's going to be really big one day."

"Yeah, I kinda figured that." Dean answered.

"Gorgeous too."

"Goes without sayin'." Dean smirked.

Logan smiled and buried his blond head in her ample cleavage moving it from side to side happily.

"Ain't gonna get no milk outta them jugs." Bobby said.

Hope ignored him and cradled Logan kissing the top of his head gently. "I'm gonna make sure you get the life you deserve little bro." She said making Dean look at his brother again in question.

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Hope rose early the next morning after a sleepless night and set out of the house on foot leaving Luc snoring in the small bed. As soon as she hit the main road she stuck out her thumb and walked backwards betting that the next car with a male driver would pick her up. She could have gotten a cab or stolen the Impala but this was simpler and she was used to it.

Ignoring the avid interest of her chauffeur she managed to get taken straight to the door as she knew she would, she gave him a made up cell number and told him to call her.

Running up to the door of the small house she knocked and waited, it took Chris almost five minutes to come to the door and once she did she was flushed and still tying her robe. "Hope." She said in shock.

"I need to talk to my brother." She had managed to fend off all of Luc's questions and refused to tell him anything about the night before until she consulted Cole.

He wandered through from the back buttoning up his jeans as she walked into the hall.

"Good night?" She asked humourlessly.

"Yeah." He smiled with a frown. "What are you doing here?"

"I'm sorry to interrupt but we have to go somewhere and talk."

"Sure." He pulled on his shirt and boots giving Chris an apologetic look. "I'll call you."

She gave him a look that said she'd heard it all before and he took a second to wrap his arms around her waist kissing her hungrily.
"If I say I'll call, I'll call."

She sighed as she touched a finger to her lips and watched him follow his sister out of the door.

They went out to the truck in silence and he was driving before he finally spoke. "Where are we going?"

"Doesn't matter, anywhere quiet."

"Cryptic much?" He glanced at her.

"What I have to tell you needs to stay between us, and Luc and we have to avoid Dylan like the plague or he'll suss us straight away."

Cole frowned. "Sounds big."

"Cole, this is huge…you have no idea."

He took the main road out of the city and drove until they hit countryside which was amazingly green at this time of year. The road was deserted and he pulled over in front of the most amazing mountainscape you could imagine. "Start talking." He said shutting off the engine. "It's got something to do with that man mass I saw you with last night hasn't it?"

"You saw him?" She gulped and flushed slightly with excitement.

"Yeah, who is he?"

"It was Logan."

"Logan who?"

"How many do you know?"

Cole did a double take and looked at her like she was mad. "No way."

"Our baby brother's quantum leapin' all over the place."

"No." He shook his head. "Not possible."

"He can control portals to anywhere just by doing this." She raised a hand in demonstration. "He's awesome!"

Cole was struggling to take it in. "So he travelled through time?!"

"Yeah, the Logan you saw is Luc's age or something, he even brought his wife."

Cole blinked and stared at the snow capped mountains in front of him. "That's unbelievable…" It took a minute for his brain to kick into gear and she could almost hear the questions pop into his mind. "He just stopped by to say hi?"

"Not exactly." She took a deep breath. "He came to help me."

"Do what?"

"Bring Mom back."

Cole felt like he'd been winded. "What?!" He stared at her. "Hope, c'mon...it's a pipe dream at best." He added more kindly.

"It's possible and he knows how to do it."

Cole looked at her and reached out to take her hand. "Mom's been buried for months Hope, even if we ignore the laws of nature the woman we know is long gone."

She shook her head. "I've been planning on telling you but I've been working on this since the day she died and I knew there was a way but he's just confirmed it."

"You've been trying to resurrect her without telling me? Are you goddamn crazy?!" He shouted in the small cab. "Dad may not be coping well but he's getting there and we have to deal with this loss, the dead should stay buried, you know that." He tried to control his temper. "Of all the things we've learned...you don't mess with this shit sis!"

"I'm not raising her from the grave; I'm just bringing her soul back, that's all."

He rubbed his eyes and blinked. "Oh is that all?! Ya see, I thought it was gonna be something complicated but no...that's ok then." He said sarcastically.

"We have to do it or this family will not survive."

"Is that what he told you?"

"Yeah, he said he's been trying to change the course of destiny for years and this is the only way."

"You're just taking his word for it? It could be anyone yankin' your chain!" He shouted.

"Just talk to him, that's all I ask."

"Is he still here?" Cole asked angrily.

"No, San Diego."

Cole checked the dash. "I got a full tank but that's a hell of a drive."

"Are you always this sarcastic post-coital?" Hope sighed grabbing her cell phone and the hotel card. "He can come to us."

Cole rolled his eyes but remained quiet as she placed a call to the hotel and waited as it was put through to the room. "Logan it's me, we need to talk." She hung up and placed the phone back in her pocket.

"That's it?"

"Give him time to get his pants on." She muttered getting out of the truck.

Cole followed a second later and by the time he had walked to the hood a portal was opening up in front of them and the large man he had seen the night before emerged with a smile. "Holy shit!" Cole exhaled almost falling flat on his ass.

"Works every time." Logan grinned and Hope found it infectious as he bent down to hug her. "Lemme guess, he needs some convincing?"

He was dressed impeccably again in a suit and expensive loafers, he smelled of cologne and looked amazing. "He's got some questions…me too."

Logan stood up in front of the brother that in reality was eighteen years older than him but now ten years younger.

"Dude, how tall are you?" Cole was almost Sam's height but even he had to look up.

"Last time I checked six seven but that was a while ago." He shrugged.

Cole was overwhelmed by the sheer size of him and stared at the muscles bulging beneath the obviously tailor made suit. He couldn't help but ask, "What do you bench press?"

"Six hundred, but who knows? I've got the same adrenaline as the pair of you." He said simply. They couldn't place his accent but he had definaltely had more education than either of them and it showed.

Cole huffed and continued to stare at the smile that had been so familiar in his Dad until his mother had left them taking it with her. "I don't believe it. You don't dress like us either."

"I know it doesn't mean much but here." Logan handed Cole his birth certificate and drivers licence. "As for the clothes, times change bro."

"He's even got the tattoo." Hope said quickly.

"That was more for tradition than practicality." He said sadly. "You didn't tell anyone else did you?"

"No."

"Dean doesn't suspect anything?"

She frowned suddenly noticing something. "Wait. Why do you call him Dean?"

Cole looked up at him finding it odd too. "Yeah, Dad would pitch a fit if we tried that."

He looked at them both and there was true sadness in his eyes for the first time. "The reason I call him Dean is the real reason I came here."

"Not making any sense." Hope said with a shrug.

"This is gonna be tough for you guys to hear but the reason I don't call him Dad is because he died before I could say my first word. Sam's been my Dad for as long as I can remember."

Hope stared at Cole whose face drained of blood. "What?" He said.

"Dean died before my first birthday." He replied sadly. "Seven months from now."

"No way." Hope shook her head. "Dad can't die, nothing can kill him."

"That's what everyone thought."

"Oh my God." Hope leaned on the truck and started to struggle. She was feeling grief for her mother and now her father too. She had tears in her eyes but Cole was still in shock. "What killed him?"

"Doesn't matter."

"It does to me!" She replied angrily

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you."

Cole looked up. "Tell us."

Logan looked slightly sick as he remembered. "Car wreck." He looked at them both knowing how they felt. "He died in the Impala."

"That's bullshit." Hope said clutching her stomach like she was in pain. "Dad couldn't get killed in a car accident."

"This is why we have to change things now, you're right he couldn't just die, not unless he really wanted to."

"He didn't kill himself did he?" Cole couldn't believe they were talking about something that hadn't happened yet.

"You don't need the details."

"I think we do." Hope swallowed the bile in her throat.

Logan sighed. "I didn't find out for years myself because no one ever talked about it, but I found the coroner's report a while ago. It was an accident but it happened in a remote area here in Alaska and he was trapped in the car, alone."

Cole was also welling up now and pressed a fist to his mouth. "For how long?"

"A week." Logan nodded at their shocked faces. "Every hunter in the States was looking for him, search and rescue too but the snow was heavy and…" He looked at them sympathetically. "It's why I still can't stand the cold…it took a long time but that was what finally killed him."

"Oh God." Hope bent almost double as the pain in her gut intensified at the thought of her father being alone and hurt for that long as they all looked for him. She wiped at her eyes trying to will the image away.

"I saw the reports and I still think to this day that he could have gotten out of that damn car if he had wanted to. I think he wanted to go."

"He wouldn't have left you." Cole said.

Logan shrugged. "You seem so sure of that and I wish I felt the same but I never got to know him like you did."

Cole couldn't imagine his life without Dean in it and wondered how Logan was so together. "Sam raised you?"

"Yeah, it's what Dean wanted."

"I can't imagine Sam dealing with that."

"My Dad's an amazing person but you're right he never got over it."

"What about us? Why didn't we take you in?"

"You had your own lives, I didn't resent it."

"We just left you?" Cole couldn't believe it.

"You were around but my place was with Sam, Brooke and Lily."

"Dylan?" Hope almost daren't ask.

"He went to live with Han and Mae when I was a kid, he had…issues."

Hope stared at Cole in shock. "Grandpa?"

"Bobby died three months after Dean."

"All this started 'cos Mom died, that's what you're saying?" Cole managed.

Logan nodded. "When I first stopped Dad dying in the crash it set off another chain of events and it was a mess, all of it is…this is the only way out."

"Bringing Mom back from the dead? Dad won't accept that." Cole said.

"He would do anything to bring Bonnie back, trust me." Logan said assuredly.

"We have to do this, I'm gonna do this." Hope suddenly found her resolve.

"How?" Cole asked her.

"Details aren't important, we have five days 'til I turn eighteen so we need to get ready."

"Ok." Cole said not realizing he was agreeing to help his own sister die. "Let's do it."

Logan grinned and it was like the sun coming out and they could both bask in his glory. "I always heard stories about what the Winchesters used to be like, and I've seen different incarnations but seeing the real deal in action is pretty cool for me."

"You don't hunt?" Hope asked in shock.

"No one does any more…we have our skills but changing all of this has been my life for a long time."

"What about Sam?" Cole asked.

"He lives with me and Heather…" He caught the confusion. "After Dean died he never walked again, we look after him now."

Hope raised a hand not even wanting to ask about Brooke. "I don't wanna hear any more."

Cole thought of something. "You mentioned Lily…"

The smile really went stellar then. "Lily's amazing; if it weren't for her I don't know where I would be and even now I'm married she's still my everything."

"But she doesn't travel with you?" Hope asked.

"No, she can't; it's something to do with her deafness…her inner ear's all screwed up and she barely travels by car without puking let alone wormhole."

Hope looked at Cole. "You convinced now bro?"

"Let's bring Mom back." He answered as his jaw turned to marble.

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Who would have thought that Bonnie's death would have such a knock on effect? I love this so much but am going back to Hard Rock for Ladies Night! Free drinkies!!!