Thank you guys SO much for baring with me. There was a recent tragedy in my family and it tooka while to get back in the game.

Ok so this chap is mostly a filler chapter but it's all I've got so far. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE Review!!

When they finally let me go home I found I was victim to what my mom called 'home suicide watch'. It was basically the same as suicide watch minus the padded walls and straight jacket. I walked through my bedroom door only to find I no longer had a bedroom door. My parents had removed anything that I could possibly harm myself with from my room. It was so frustrating. My bathroom door was gone too and a curtain now hung over the entrance. I flopped down on my bed and stared at the ceiling like it would magically fix everything if I looked hard enough. I knew that it wouldn't.

"Lily, are you ready to go?" I grimaced and moaned to myself. Therapy, today was the day I started. Every week my mom was to drive me across town so I could talk about my life and everything shitty in it to a complete stranger. Yippee.

"Lily!"

"I'm coming!" I rose reluctantly and made my way downstairs and out to the car. When we got to the office that smelled a lot like a dentists office, my mom said she had errands to run and left me alone waiting for the shrink to invite me in. A man walked out of a door to my right followed by a short, ragged looking woman who looked solemn.

"Great session today Mrs. Heirtz!" He said in a false happy voice. He was not what I expected, he was tall, with dark hair and bright green eyes. His smile was warm and friendly, altogether, he was a very attractive man. He turned after the woman left the office and exchanged a quick look with the receptionist before turning to me.

"You must be Lillian." He said and flashed me the dazzling smile. "I'm Dr. Andrews. Why don't you come in and we'll bet to know each other better." He stepped back into his office and I followed nervously. I still wasn't sure if I liked him or not.

"Have a seat" and he gestured toward a cushy armchair across from one almost identical to it. I sat, so did he.

"So Lillian, tell me why you're here."

"It's Lily" I said plainly. "Don't you already know why I'm here?" he smiled again.

"Yes it's all here in your file but I like to think that my patients trust me more if I let them tell me on their own terms." I nodded sarcastically but didn't say anything. I did not want to be here. I was not going to pretend that I did either.

"So how does this work exactly?" I said just to break the silence. "Do I just sit here and bitch about my problems to you while you pretend to care and take notes, or do you have a different strategy?" He laughed a little bit at my hostility

"It's pretty much up to you how it will work, there may be days that I want you to do something my way, but otherwise it's just you bitching about your problems while I do care and I do take notes and try to help you." I tried not to smile at this but I felt the edges of my mouth twitch.

"So when is this over" I asked

"In one hour unless you want it to be before that."

"Ok then, I think I'm done here." I stood as he smiled again and followed me out of his office.

"I'll be seeing you next week then." he said as I walked out of the door. I heard him turn to the receptionist and say "Pleasant child" when he thought I was out of earshot. I smiled to myself and chuckled and waited for my mom at a coffee shop across the street.

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Laying on my bed back at home I was thinking about how pissed I was at my self, my mom, and all the other people in my life that made it a living hell. The phone rang and my heart leapt, I looked at the caller ID and was ashamed to feel disappointed that it was Miley. Oliver, I hadn't seen, or heard from Oliver since that day at the hospital.

"Hello?"

"Lily, hey, how did therapy go?"

"Lamely, what did you expect?"

"Umm, I dunno, helpful would have been a wonderful adjective to use." I smiled when she said this."

"Well, it wasn't. Did you need something or did you just want to talk?"

"Oh, that's right. I called to tell you that Kate dumped Oliver." I sat up so fast that it hurt my head.

"What? Why?!"

"She said that he just felt disconnected from her and that she needed someone who was going to be there." I didn't know if I felt more ashamed for the possibility of ruining Oliver's relationship or more jubilant that it was over.

"How is he taking it?"

"I dunno, I haven't been able to talk to him since it happened to I'm guessing not that great." I heard someone talk in the background. "I have to go Lily, take care of yourself, ok?"

"Yes mom" I said sarcastically and hung up the phone. I tapped the front of my pjone as I laid back on the bed and thought about what I had just heard. Smiling to myself, I fell asleep to the sound of rain pattering on the window.

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