I Do Not Own CSI

"So, are you two going to be alright by yourselves tonight," Gil asked, bending over the back of the couch to give Sara a kiss goodbye.

"Don't worry, I'll take good care of your wife," Maddie said, watching the tender moment.

"Good, if you need me you know where to call me."

"Bye, babe," Sara said with a smile.

"See you in the morning."

"Bye Gil," Maddie called out as he went out the front door.

"Ok, so now that Gil has gone, it's time for girl talk. What have you been doing in the last few months? I feel bad because I haven't been able to call with the holidays and then the babie….."

"Sara, it's ok. I know you've been busy. Two new babies, house, marriage, I get it, it's ok. Plus, I've been pretty busy too."

"Oh yeah, who is he and when did you meet him?"

"His name is Jacob and I met him about six months ago."

"Six months ago!"

"Yeah, and it's going pretty well, too. We're moving in together when I get back; it's pretty serious."

"It sounds serious, what's he look like?"

"Dark hair and eyes, 6'3, strong."

"Sounds like your type of man."

"There's more, he's really sweet and caring, what I always wanted in a guy. He listens to me and asks my opinion."

"I'm happy for you, Maddie, I really am."

"Thanks Sara. So, what about you? Other than the babies, what's new?"

"Not much, Maddie. There's no time for other things at the moment. Our life right now revolves around two little people that demand our attention when they're not sleeping."

"I found that article about the first babies of New Year. I still can't believe you delivered them in a coat room."

"I can't either! That wasn't how we planned it, but we just rolled with the punches and went with it. Thank God Doc was there. If he wasn't, I don't know what we would have done."

"Well, let's not think about the alternative. The babies are healthy and beautiful and everything was fine," Maddie said, watching Sara cover her third yawn.

"Why don't you go to bed, Sara?"

"I'm fine, really."

"Well, I'm tired. I could hit the sack."

"Well, if you're going, there's no sense of me staying up," Sara said as they made their way upstairs.

"Goodnight, Sara."

"Night, Maddie."

"WAHHHHHHHH, WAHHHHHHH, WAHHHHHH"

"Huh, oh, I'm up I'm up, just calm down," Sara said tiredly, as she threw the blankets over and got out of bed to where the two bassinettes stood.

"Shhhh, Mommy's here, just relax," Sara said as she picked up Samuel who was screaming the loudest.

"Want some help, Sara," Maddie said, knocking on the door.

"Oh Maddie, I didn't mean for them to wake you. Go back to bed."

"It's ok. Do you want some help?"

"If you really want to."

"I really want to."

"Then as soon as Garrett wakes up can you rock him with his soother until I'm finished feeding Samuel."

"Sure," Maddie said as Sara sat down in the rocker to nurse Samuel.

"What was it like, Sara, being pregnant?"

"It was exciting, nerve wrecking, incredible, and terrifying all in one. I had never felt so many different emotions going through my body at once; add to the fact that I was nauseous for the first four months."

"What about Gil? What was he like when you were pregnant?"

"Why all the pregnancy questions, are you…?"

"No, no, God no, I'm just curious. I wasn't around for yours."

"Well then, Gil was great. Supportive through everything, asking truck loads of questions, and reading anything he could get his hands on."

"After the babies were born and we were at the hospital, I had never seen Gil so elated in my life. I have seen him happy, sad, angry, and everything in between but I had never seen the look of pure and utter happiness on his face."

"Not even on your wedding?"

"That was different. It was a different kind of joy. At one point while we were at the hospital, Samuel and Garrett were not even a few hours old, I was supposed to be sleeping, but I woke up to the most beautiful sight."

"What?"

"Gil was sitting in the chair with both babies on his chest whispering to them."

"Did you hear what he said?"

"'Before you were conceived, I wanted you.

Before you were born, I loved you.

Before you were here an hour, I would die for you.'

"I must have laid there for ten minutes watching him talk softly to our sons before he realized I was awake."

"I can see him doing that," Maddie said as Sara pulled Samuel away from her breast just as Garrett started to whimper, signalling his hunger.

"Want to trade? You burp while I feed."

"Sounds fair," Maddie said as they traded babies.

"How do you do this by yourself at night, Sara?"

"Patience, lots and lots of patience. I hate listening to them cry but I can't always feed them both at the same time. I usually go into the other room with one and come back. And Gil's home a couple nights of the week so that helps too," Sara said as she placed Garrett at her breast to nurse as Maddie burped Samuel.

"Holy cow," Maddie said as Samuel let out a loud belch.

"I know, they both do that," Sara said, laughing along with Maddie.

As Garrett finished nursing and Sara put him over her shoulder Sara said,

"Thanks Maddie, if Samuel is asleep you can go back to bed."

"You sure?"

"Positive."

"Ok then, I'll see you in a few hours," Maddie said, leaving the room as Sara rocked Garrett back to sleep.

"Ok little man, just you and me, time to go to sleep," Sara cooed to the infant who was curled into the crook of her arm, his tiny eyes drooping as Sara rocked.

"So tired," Sara yawned half asleep.

"WAHHHHHH, WAHHHH!" Blinking awake in the rocking chair, Sara tried to remember why she didn't get back into bed after she finished nursing Garrett.

"Garrett, I never put him back in his bassinette last night," Sara said, looking down to find her son at her feet.

"Oh god," Sara said, picking the infant up. He was still sleeping soundly for the moment, not realizing the tears coming to Sara's eyes.

"Sara, you ok," Maddie asked, coming in the room.

"Sara, why are you crying?"

"Can you get Samuel for me, please," Sara said through a hiccup as she sat by the headboard of the bed with a waking baby in her arms.

"Hey there, little man," Sara cooed as Maddie handed over Samuel.

"What's wrong Sara?"

"Nothing, I'm ok, just hormones" Sara lied, as she started to nurse both babies who hungrily suckled.

"Do you want a cup of tea?"

"Thanks," Sara said. As Maddie left, she picked up the phone.

"Grissom"

"Gil," Sara said through a sob.

"What's wrong, honey, the babies?"

"Can you come home, please?"

"I'm on my way. What's going on?"

"I just need you here."

"Give me twenty minutes and I'll be home," Gil said as he rushed out of the lab.

Twenty minutes later, on the dot, Gil entered the front door.

"Sara," Gil said as Bruno came up to him.

"She's upstairs, I don't know why she's upset. She was fine last night," Maddie explained as Gil made his way upstairs and into the room, Maddie on his trail.

"Sara?"

"I'm a horrible mom!" Was the first thing Sara said.

"What, honey? Why would you ever think that?"

"Because I am."

"No you're not, Sara, you're a natural," Maddie said from the side of the bed as Gil sat down beside his wife, brushing his sons' heads.

"Sara, what happened to make you think you're a bad mom?"

"I dropped Garrett last night."

"How," Gil asked softly, trying not to freak out and let Sara explain.

"After I finished nursing him, Maddie left the room and I was just rocking him to sleep. I must have fallen asleep myself because next thing I know, I'm waking up with Garrett at my feet."

"Oh honey, that doesn't mean you're a bad mom, it was an accident, and Garrett looks like he's fine. He's eating and awake."

"A good mother doesn't drop her son, Gil!"

"Sara, you're exhausted, you're taking care of two babies."

"That's no excuse, Gil!"

"Sara, you're not the first mother to drop her child. I know I was dropped."

"Yeah, right."

"I was, Mom told me. It was the same thing, she fell asleep on the couch after feeding me and when she woke up I was at her feet."

"Really?"

"Really, and I turned out ok."

"You turned out better than ok," Sara said as Gil wiped the tears that had fallen, taking Garrett in his arms as he finished nursing.

"See he's ok, Sara," Gil said as he patted the boy's back and he let out his own large belch, making Maddie laugh as she sat down beside Sara. She took Samuel, who did the same thing.

"Wait until they're older and have burping competitions," Maddie laughed out.

TBC

I know the last part seems a litte horrible, lol, but my mom dropped my oldest bro after falling asleep after nursing and my sister in law did the same thing to my nephew, lol.

Thank you for all the wonderful reviews

Katie